How did the world look to you as a child? Were you optimistic and on the road to becoming a normie, or were you always a robot?
>>26466033
I played video games all my childhood so I didn't have to face how much of a loser I was in realife.
I thought I would explore the space.
>>26466403
>I thought I would explore the space.
yep
thought earth wasn't worth it, but there were other options
there aren't other options
I was pretty god damn outgoing as a kid. Played in lots of nearby green fields with my friends. Really good memories. Can't pinpoint when it all went wrong
>>26466033
on a social level it was a blur because everyone said youth was the time of your life, yet I wasn't having any fun, and when they realized this they said it would be better as an adult. society should just make it curriculum to suggest suicide to socially inhibited children just to get it out of the way faster
For me it was more like the most autistic, depressed, lonely robot all through childhood, to cyborg/ superhuman.
>>26466033
Childhood was shit. Life has been shit since I was about 4 or 5, so I guess I was always doomed to be here.
>be 11
>new next door neighbours move in
>the couple have a cute girl
>she's 13, but we look about the same age because I was nearly 6 foot at 11
>we become friends
>summer holidays hit
>no school
>play lots of video games together (played shit like Time Crisis. Good fun)
>ride our bikes around town together
>go on hikes together
>wasn't interested in her just because she was a girl; she was just good company. Pretty funny. Made me laugh a lot. I liked her more than all of my friends at the time. Didn't even talk to any of my other friends, now that I had her
>go on a shitty rollercoaster. She pukes up on me. I forgive her for it
>would watch movies late into the night
>one time we were foolin' around, wrestling or whatever, and she kept on grabbing my dick. I swear I've never gotten that hard since. Tried to hide it, but she could tell. Can't really remember, but I played it off okay.
>just before summer holidays end, her parents divorce and she moves away
>never see her again
And that was the furthest I have ever been with a girl. I would facebook stalk her, but I can't remember her surname. Still have a pencilcase she gave me that she wrote her name all over (only forename, though. Fuck!). Got one picture of her and me, and she is well pretty. Looks like pic related, only with blonde hair. Think that was the last time I genuinely smiled for a picture.
So, to answer your question OP, I thought I would be with a girl like her (if not her) right now. But noooo, here I am, on r9gay.
>>26466828
>6 foot at 11
>>26466878
>not towering over the other kids at school
I was nearly 12, and NEARLY 6'.
I stopped growing at 13. I'm 6'2 now.
For some reason my brother is 13, and he's not even 5' yet.
>>26466828
Do you honestly think she would still be available for your beta ass? Move on you fucking faggot. She probably barely even remembers you and if she does, she remembers you as that guy she had to hang out with cause there was nobody else. If she wanted to see you, she knows where you live. I guarantee she is fucking and sucking tons of guys or has a very serious boyfriend your beta ass could never replace. Move on.
>>26466033
I tried to be a normie for most of my childhood. Tried to make friends, joined sports teams, joined clubs, things like that. But I just didn't fit in with anyone and was always the 'school friend,' but never anything more than that to anyone. At like 16 I stopped trying and then I became an adult. The end.
>>26466945
>tfw 30 and 5'4".
Kill me.
>>26466033
Up until I was 19 or maybe 20 the world seemed like a shifty place that I didn't belong in. From then up until 22 it was kind of just limbo, I didn't hate it or love it I just existed. But now at 23 turning 24 I have realized that life is what you make it and I've been making it a good one so far
>>26466828
It's probably for the best. She's likely dating or married to Chad now, and seeing that would only make you feel worse. At least you still can keep the fantasy alive this way.
>>26466828
Fuck you. That is way too sad and could give a nice book aswell.
Despite all this events, have you moved on already?
>>26466972
>Do you honestly think she would still be available for your beta ass?
No. But I do want to Facebook stalk her and see what she's up to.
>Move on you fucking faggot
No. The only girls interested in me now are fat single-moms who need a source of beta-boy money. I went on a date with one hoping to get my dick wet, but she was so fat, stupid, and boring, that I just bailed out on her and blocked her number. For all I know she got raped on the walk home. I'm still trying to find my q t pi waifu so I can stalk her and remember the happy times.
>she remembers you as that guy she had to hang out with cause there was nobody else
Naaaa, no way. She had an elder brother who had lots of friends. If she wanted a guy friend to fool about with, she could have gotten someone else.
>If she wanted to see you, she knows where you live
I moved about 2 months after she left, so, no, she doesn't know where I live.
>I guarantee she is fucking and sucking tons of guys or has a very serious boyfriend your beta ass could never replace
I don't doubt it. If she's as great as I remember, then she's probably getting fucked by a Hollywood movie star right now.
>>26466992
This. I was a pretty easing going guy and got on alright wth most peeps in skul but no one was close to me and wanted to do stuff outside school
>>26466033
>at 5 kissed a girl
>playing with her all the weedkends and such often going to gropes
>that thing passed out and i really don't understand what happened
>she was one year older than me
>i think that i was cucked when i was a kid
>now she fucks a friend of mine that bullied me through all the school
>really don't liked her that much but the fucker take everything from me.
well i has a friend of them since right now and still i am i am 18 btw and i think that has the last time i has a little happy.
i also hugged my crush in the last year and fucked her relationship with a guy sshe liked soo i can have her but i really don't get it but at least i fucked the guy hard and give the guy a girl ugly and bitchy as fuck.
i can be a robot but i at least try to fuck the normies at every oppurtunity like the vietnemies did with murica back in the day
>>26466828
I call bullshit on your story. If she really was such a good friend I'm sure you would have her name somewhere. I'm sure this is just like every other fake story on here where it's just some beta fantasizing.
>late bloomer
>bullied
>socially awkward
>spent most of my teens fapping, playing games, or browsing internet forums
>picked up every game after my friends had stopped playing it
>never had any confidence in said games anyway
>poor hygiene
>had a dream but immediately lost hope in it
>>26467096
You are pathetic.
Original comment.
>>26467011
Jesus that's dwarf status
>>26467051
>It's probably for the best. She's likely dating or married to Chad now, and seeing that would only make you feel worse. At least you still can keep the fantasy alive this way.
I suppose so. Part of me wants to never find her so my last memories of her will be of her liking me.
>>26467065
>Fuck you. That is way too sad and could give a nice book aswell.
Yeah, man. I went on Google Streetview to see my old house, and damn it brought back some memories. Only took one look, then I felt too sad and had to close my browser. Had a massive park right next to us where we used to chill out, drinking fanta and eating shitty junk food. Would stay up until it got dark, which was around 11pm, then we would go home, then get up early in the morning and go out again.
My mom said to me once, "is she your girlfriend, now?" and I was like "mommm ffs she is not my girlfriend! she's just a friend!".
>Good upbringing
>Stable, loving house
>Dad had a great job so money was never an issue
>Had multiple opportunities to succeed
>Somewhat charismatic in a cute way
>Took everything for granted
>now am NEET while i suffer by watching all my former high school classmates succeed in college/military and their careers
>>26466033
>elementary school
>was the fucking leader
>master in all school matters
>prefect
>friend with every boy and girl in the class, respected and envied
>good looking
>literally betas tried to beat the shit out of me while crying because I became prefect for the third time
>and the best part is that I studied less than anybody in the class and still destroyed them
>fast forward 9th grade, another school
>didn't know anybody
>without a specific reason I became the loser of the class
>didn't have enough balls to react
>started travelling in the highway to hell
>now i'm a kv and the only time when i don't feel headache and urge to kill myself is while i'm high on drugs or jerking off to hardcore pornography
>>26466033
my parents were very overbearing and protective of me, in contrast of how free my older sisters were treated
in the end this is what fucked me up
>>26467144
>I call bullshit on your story.
On my life, man, that is how I remember it.
>If she really was such a good friend I'm sure you would have her name somewhere
I do. Only her forename. Doesn't help that she used to prefer going by a different name, so I'm not sure if the name she wrote on my pencil case is her legitimate name, or her nickname. So I have to search for both when I'm trying to find her.
>I'm sure this is just like every other fake story on here where it's just some beta fantasizing.
People on here have had sex, but one guy tells you a story about someone who sort of had a girlfriend, and you call BS on that? Fuck off mate.
>>26466377
also me
blox
>>26467171
Naaa man, I just long for those good times. I'll never get a girl like that again, and I would rather hang onto that than date some vapid fat bitch who wants a meal ticket.
>>26467154
>poor hygiene
This really pisses me off when people complain about this as if they have no control of it. Your life might've been so much better if you hadn't been an unwashed nigger
>>26466033
Life was good. I was introverted but had friends. Played a lot of video games but had an active imagination, lived in my own world, had no worries. Then when I was 11 or 12 the future chads in my class started getting girls.
Very quickly I realised no girl liked me. That started a downward spiral of depression. By my mid teens it only got worse when it dawned on me that my normie classmates were out drinking and having sex while I was sat in playing aoeII at the weekends. For the last two years off school I had intense self loathing and depression.
Now I just numb myself with alcohol to get through the days. I think back to my childhood and it feels like summer compared to my current life which is winter.
>>26467214
>>now i'm a kv and the only time when i don't feel headache and urge to kill myself is while i'm high on drugs or jerking off to hardcore pornography
described me perfectly
I was bullied from the start because my mother only bought tube socks that I would pull up past my knees because they were way too big for me.
It even got me a nickname since my last name starts with L.
They told me I could be anything I wanted
They fucking lied
>>26467294
It would have been, but I either didn't care, or didn't have the motivation for it.
Either way, it's not like I can go back in time and fix it.
>>26467427
What did you become?
Stop shooting up schools you fat green fuck
My entire elementary school thought I was gay. It was because I tackled a friend during some 1v1 football. It became genuine bullying against my friend and I. It did not stop until a couple of kids woke up to their inner SJW and getting into heated arguments with our bullies about how there's nothing wrong with the two of us being gay. Turns out the gay rumors spread to other schools in the district, so even people who never met me before knew to avoid me once middle school started. I was fucked from the very beginning of my public life. The twist is that several of my bullies turned out gay (one became full SJW), while my old friend and I were never gay in the first place.
Always a bot even as a kid no one played with me in the playground and when I tried to play with them they ignored me and act like I wasn't a part of the game until I would leave
>>26467244
ask your parents about it.
>>26466033
I would have almost certainly been a normalfag were it not for my misfortune. But perhaps this misfortune rendered me with a valuable insight.
They say ignorance is bliss. Would I undo what has been done to hold that again? Absolutely not.
I believe realism has bestowed upon us greater potential than any normalfag is capable of, and so I value what I thought once had ruined my potential for a life for that.
i kinda felt i'd always be alone. is how i was then and i never had any qualms about it. but always assumed I'd be a hot shot professional whatever travelling and making important decisions
>>26467579
the irony
original REEEEEE
just as things worked with the age gap, i ended up near exclusively playing with kids about 4 years younger than me rather than my closer in age older sibling. i basically set me back that amount of time so my development , maturity and learning came later than everyone my own age. never realised until later that it was like i had been held back at school.
as a result, even though I was old enough, I was only interested in girls after everyone had gotten over it, I was too young for university and too young for graduation. became neet afterwards and only just got on my feet with a poorly paid non graduate job. wasted years
>>26466033
I was optimistic as a kid but didn't really know any better. I was kinda sheltered and was surrounded by a loving family.
I'm a manlet but at that young age no one really notices.
But I can still remember the day when I realized I was different.
All the way through elementary school, I get gf's...which doesnt mean anything. 7th grade I get one or 2.
8th grade seems like everyone hits growth spurt. i start getting made fun or bullied. i used to be class clown but no one laughs at jokes anymore. i go from being outspoken to reserved and shy.
i ask a girl "out" or to be my gf or her number or something and she says no.
then the damning one....started talking to this girl and we talk on the phone all the time.
i can tell she likes me and i like her. finally ask her to be my gf she says yes.
go back to school monday an she refuses to talk to me and avoids me. later on hear couple guys making fun of her for being my girlfriend.
doesnt talk to me like the rest of year. that was devastating on my ego.
never get another gf until my senior year who i eventually lose my virginity to. she end up cheating and leaving me.
spend next 5 years by myself.
my prime years wasted. looking back, things havent changed much.
awkward fat child, socially inept, could have easily had some girlfriends if i wasnt an orbiter/no confidence
Look foward to being a normie when I hit 13/14
Never happened
15 took conscientious decision to be better, did sports, grew, lost weight, became team play and natural leader
Am a chad now but i still come here to laugh at robots
>>26466033
>How did the world look to you as a child?
Far worse than I've ended up becoming. I was a truly disturbed child, had weekly meetings with a therapist and didn't have a friend until I was about 9 or 10.
>>26468551
Would you describe yourself as a supreme gentleman by any chance?
>>26468643
Somehow grew out of it. Honestly it feels like another life, I have no idea how I was so fucked up as a kid, doesn't even feel like me.
>>26468164
wasted life. get out of the job and be a neet again and waste the money of the ones who wasted your life. at least money can be earned your life it's a big no no.
Anyone here feel the time goes by quickly once you graduate from high school? A day felt like forever during childhood.
>>26466033
I have a stutter the fuck you think nigga also this >>26466377
Always hated everyone except the ones that were at least once nice to me
Ends up having a bunch of friends
Still hang around with them sometimes
>>26468551
Care to elaborate on some of your behaviors? Somewhat interested for some reason.
