The time for your weekly hikikomori counseling has arrived.
Post about your week, enjoy Misaki and get a (You)
>>26440331
I always feel healed when I look at her. She's not even my waifu.
My week has been terrible. First half of the college exams are over and my adrenaline levels are through the roof. Been getting stomach cramps and sleepless nights, a nostalgic feeling almost.
Very exhausted from everything. I just want to sleep and never wake up.
>>26440408
She's indeed good at soothing souls.
>still no stream
and I thought you were improving. I'm once again let down.
(although I was the dissapoint-er last week)
>>26440479
Nagisa-Anon might show up and stream. He talked about it last week. Or was that you?
>>26440331
Well nobody paid any attention to my thread so what the hell
>came out
>made my friend super uncomfortable
>talked to him for 6 hours straight
>treated my family like shit because I had a crush on him and he said no
>made a scene every night
>realized I need to change
Made tons of promises
>this is it, I'm finally going to change. I don't have to repress my true self anymore
>woke up today no longer gay
>no longer gay at all
>in fact I want a cute girlfriend
Is this it? Is this life? Am I supposed to continue to fuck up and every time a glimmer of hope shows up it ends up all being a cruel joke?
WAKE ME UP
>>26440594
I don't understand why people have to be straight 100% of the time. From time to time I want to fuck a cute boy, I'm not gay though.
That anime/manga always gets me down so much..
I much prefer Onanie Master. It's more lighthearted but you can relate. There's just so much real life pain in NHK.
>>26440549
oh no, I missed last weeks thread, that's all I was alluding to.
I hope he could set one up, mcf would obviously be preferred, but I'm not really all that picky.
>>26440594
Why did you treat your family like shit? They didn't have anything to do with your rejection.
I'm not judging but more genuinely interested. You're probably overthinking it.
Can you just un-gay yourself like that?
>>26440643
Onani Master was great. Very relatable scenes as well. I disliked how he got a gf in the end, though.
>>26440626
I don't know man
I was super into it for like a week
Today I woke up and had tfw no girlfriend again
It's just me in the end, its not my family, its not my sexuality, its not my loneliness or lack of money
It's mez its all my fault
>>26440675
>I disliked how he got a gf in the end, though.
Yeah. It's so incredibly weird. I was with him all the way and then he just slipped past me. It's like we were doing a bicycle marathon and he was always second then he went way faster the last 100 meters, put a stick in my wheel, stopped on the road and peed on me and walked over the finish line.
Humiliated and sad over where I'm at is what I felt by the end.
>>26440675
Well I just told my friend how I felt about him and he ignored me completely
And I felt like shit
And I wanted to feel like shit
Alone
But I couldn't be alone
Because mother and sister showed up uninvited because lol lets have lunch and watch your Netflix for free
And I hinted I wanted to be alone but they wouldn't go away
And then I told them I wanted to be alone but they still refused to go away
So I was very passive aggressive while they are pie and watched my computer while I wanted to die
And when they wanted to watch another episode I told them no, no way and I told them to leave right now
>>26440675
>can you just ungay yourself like that?
Apparently
If it only takes one day to drop out of highschool
And one day to quit your job
And one day to get kicked out from home
Then why the it wouldn't take one day to loose the last bit of hope I had of not ending up sad and alone
It makes sense right?
>>26440750
Very well put together. I felt the same.
>>26440766
Fuck them, then. If you outright told them you wanted to be alone and they still invaded your private space they can fuck off.
>>26440848
That is some brutal truth.
Everythings going to be daijoubu, r-right? ;_;
>>26440869
I guess I'm bi anon, I fucking hope I'm bi and the last couple of days weren't in vain or I will sudoku
Gay people are more likely to lay me attention tho and I like that, actually though hey I Amy get a boyfriend and cuddle while watching anime and be there for each other and help each other accomplish shit
I hope I'm not wrong
I really want someone in my life like that and needing that is.vagina repelant
>>26440643
I liked that at first when it was just Death Note with fapping but there was too much drama later on
>>26440970
Ah, I can't relate with that. I never had the need for 3D.
>>26441025
Well you are missing out man
For the couple hours I hoped my friend would wake up and tell me he felt the same I was the happiest I have been In years.
Then when I though I wasn't completely hopeless while chatting with dudes who told me stuff like I don't mind a little chub or hey I bet I would enjoy your company k felt like there may be a future for me
2d is great, I love 2d but it can't give you either
The game came in the mail and set up translation. Does anyone want me to stream it?
>>26440331
Why is time going so fast? I feel like last week misaki friday was yesterday and new year was last week. I feel legitimately afraid. Minutes are seconds, hours are minutes, days are hours, weeks are days, seconds become minutes again. I just want things to slow down so i can think, but i feel like before i notice the year is going to end and i won't do anything again.
>>26440331
nothing happened
that was the extent of my week and every week for the last year
>>26441103
And now you feel down because 3D once again has thrust a spear through your heart.
2D for me is more real than 3D.
>>26441112
Nice! That's the VN that came with the NHK novel, right? If a stream isn't a bother for you I would watch.
>>26441113
Are you a NEET? I noticed time passing faster when I was one.
>>26441123
I want to have peaceful days like that again.
>>26441113
>walking to my dad's place
>a block away from it
Wait how am I a block away from it? I do t remember passing the train
Or the supermarket
Or the butcher
Or the pizzeria
I only remember walking two block but now I'm ten from home
Do I have brain cancer guys?
>>26441164
Actually to be honest it's even worse
>have breakfast with dad
>oh I will just push lunch a little bit
>I will wait a little more
Now dinner time and all I had was coffee, a glass of oj and a toast in the entire day? How did this happen?
I had to tell dad I don't trust his good intentions concerning certain things anymore. It's not a nice thing to say to a dad but I believe he's harming the family with his behavior. I'm now very afraid I've harmed the situation more. He's looking to gain my approval so I have to smile around him and pay attention to what he could be thinking all the time. I don't have the energy for any of this.
Why can't he just accept his problems and deal with it like an adult should. I'm not the kind of person that should be complaining obviously but I'm excluding myself right now because I'm not in the state I should be in. If he has issues he should voice them.
Like, he had the nerve to complain about the cash flow in this household. He earns way less than my mom and insists on increasing his work hours DISPITE MY MOM BEING STRESSED OUT OVER HELPING HIM AT NIGHT. Where she should be sleeping so she can do her job well without being panicked so I have to go to her job on he weekends and help her be more effective in her job.. It's insanity. Why can't he be like other people in his profession. Stop caring about the shit. The system they've set up is simply bad, it should crash and burn. Being a patriot doesn't benefit any of us.
>>26441284
Well your post doesn't make sense at all ha-ha
I guess by the little bit I got it doesn't sound like your problem but rather your mom's its her life and you don't get to be offended I. Her behalf
>>26441284
Wait, why does your dad wanting to work more stress out your mom?
I'm too uninformed to make sense of most of your post.
>>26441141
>Are you a NEET?
I doubt you remember my post from last week, but i'm the hikki guy who didn't went outside for 2 months and counting. So yeah, i'm worse than a neet. Literally human trash.
>>26441202
Something like this except for me it would be
>wake up at 1pm.
>have lunch alone
>(something happens)
>wake up at 1pm.
>>26440331
Been a good week. Planning a vacation.
REALLY want a gf... or a bf.
Not lonely, just want to be intimate.
week summed up
>class all week
>playing wow again. undead rogue
>watching some new anime
>getting mycar fixed
>that'll be 1400 dollars
>JUST
and this weekend ill be doing a fuck ton of projects.
>>26441369
I honestly not fucking with you at all remember more from my dreams than my day. Like f I spend 20 hours sleeping and 4 awake but I only sleep 9 hours a day
>>26441369
I do actually remember. Fast passing time is just a side effect of being a hiki. One starts to live outside of it.
You don't age when you live out of time
A thousand years in the blink of an eye
>>26441375
Just buy an onahole and strap it to a dakimakura.
>>26441381
Sounds like an average week for a normie.
Dohohoho.
>>26441412
I wish I could dream without bathing in sweat. It's really odd.
>>26441412
I actually would like to finally sleep forever.I feel so happy when i dream about what could have been if i had done things correctly and then i wake up and remember that in reality i fucked everything up and my life is a mess. Makes me feel worse than before.
>had a wet dream for the first time in years
>couldn't even remember the dream, just woke up this morning feeling the horrible slimy texture
absolute worst way to start the day, was absolutely vile, ngl
>>26441350
>post doesn't make sense at all
Yeah it's a sensitive matter, can't really talk about it that much because there's sensitive stuff involved all around I simply don't wanna give details.
>doesn't sound like your problem but rather your mom's
I care about them though. If they have had this destructive behavior for this long is isn't it my duty as a good son to help them? Regardless I can't express well enough how much it hurts me that they feel bad.
>>26441368
Mom is helping dad already with his work because he doesn't have the time already or doesn't spend his time well. He has then proposed he works more. It's his choice obviously but as a family it'd hurt mom. Denying him help might hurt his job security and that's a very sensitive issue. So now I've told him I can see no logical sense in increasing his working hours when if he went down in time and let mom work better she could make more. That's my distrust towards him. He doesn't see to the greater good of the family, he doesn't care about mom enough (and unintentionally since I feel bad when they come home tired and complain I feel bad too).
I really don't know what to do now. My therapist says I should focus on myself. My parents problems are theirs and stuff like that. But now I've already committed myself towards preventing dad from destroying things, mom is terrible at standing up for herself and if I ditch her now I fear that dad might recoil, I've increased tensions. I was hoping what I said would increase his understanding for mom in this situation, she's very poor at standing up for her self as I mentioned so it's not out of the question that dad doesn't perceive her arguments as legitimate. You'd have to be very favorable to her to get what she's trying to say when she gets upset. As she understandably would be when faced with such a callous suggestion (basically not recognizing her time as valuable).
My meds aren't helping either. I feel weird.
>>26440331
She is a manipulative psycho though, the most fucked up character probably of them all because of her upbringing experiences. You cant even fix it like Satou. If your childhood is fucked you will have problems all your life.
>>26441495
>>26441551
I don't think it's a side effect of being a hikki. I heard a lot of people complain about this lately.
There is a good side to it tho since you experience time like a roller coaster then you can burn 4 hours on something like drawing without noticing
You won't get to experience getting bored or tireed of things anymore
3 meals a day means you feel like you are always eating
No more endless days waiting for nothing to happen
>bad side tho
You only have ten years of life left according to your new internal timer
>>26441141
Yeah, it's the NHK VN. https://vndb.org/v1240
I'll post a link when I get the stream working.
>>26441713
>manipulative psycho
She could be Mussolini reincarnate for all I care. She's kind to me. That's enough.
>>26441683
It does sound tricky. Have you tried sitting down with both of them and talking it out? Just running errands between the two only seems to bring more complications.
>>26441713
>tfw no Misaki to save
>>26441727
>3 meals a day
How do people do this. I eat a proper meal once a day and don't need more.
>>26441731
>no sexual content
I already like it.
>>26441683
>isn't it my duty to help them?
Noz its your duty to stay away and don't lick sides
Picking sides is unfair and it will hurt one of them a lot
And you are going to end up being used as a weapon
>>26441113
If you don't get new impressions the mind forgets. So the time doesn't go faster for you it's just that there's large gaps of times you don't perceive. If you want to remember that time then what you should do is have each day associated with a special action. And then you change those over time. i.e. Friday I do handstands against the wall.
So lonely I have no motivation to do anything.. I need love/affection. Want to die.
>>26441727
W-what?. Are you sure?
>>26441738
Her kindness is a manipulation of you so she wont feel misery and fill the void of loneliness and worthlessness. She wouldnt love you but would be obsessed with keeping you, she even view it as contract so she can feel in control. You are just a thing. The worst part is she doesnt know better, its natural to her, she wouldnt understand it if you would point it out, its a complex thing. Human psyche is interesting and complicated.
She is a poor thing that would require an exceptionally good therapist to work with her deep issues from childhood and probably some love but first you would need to open her soul and absolutely butcher her psyche so she can start to heal and really feel love, being loved and give love.
>kept telling myself to go to the gym
>didn't go a single time during the week
>shadowed at a job I had 0 experience in
>sounded really confident during the interview but flubbed the work
>managers said they'd call me back for another time but I know they don't want to hire me
I also had a dream about the person I used to have a huge crush on having to use a wheelchair it was pretty weird
>>26441758
How do people do this?
No idea, lately I feel like I'm always either eating or going someplace to eat
Today was surreal, dad showed up a little late for breakfast, the waiter took a little but too long and two hours after dad had to pay and leave because he had lunch arrangements
I mean going straight from breakfast to lunch is fucked up, not that we ate a lot either but still
>>26441806
Yeah I'm pretty sure
At least you know fun ten years, you will spend half of that time moping for some relatives death
>>26441495
I don't get a dakimakura because I want the intimacy. The warmth when you hold or get held by someone.
>tfw no qt will save me
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Ei2izPLpHc
>>26441764
This is a good point, I feel.
>>26441776
I want to be able to do handstands but I can't for the life of me practice them against walls. I fear crashing into the wall or rebounding off from it.
>>26441860
Very good analysis.
>>26441861
There's always the next job interview. Right?
>>26441871
>from breakfast to lunch
That does sound kind of baller.
>>26441917
Sometimes I imagine what it would be touching a real girl and the only thing I can imagine is her being disgusted / afraid of my cold hands.
First semester of college. Had 2 exams this week. First one went good, i thought. turns out I didn't do to well. And completely failed math today. It's hard trying to be normal, everybody always told me I am smart or intelligent or some shit. Now I doubt it. Fuckin liars
>>26441776
>what you should do is have each day associated with a special action
I wouldn't call it a special action, or an action at all, but the reason i like the misaki friday threads is because is that time of the week when i say "wait, it's friday already?". The rest of the week i'm like a zombie on a time machine that only goes forward but in fridays, because of this thread, my mind can truly acknowledge the fact that it's been another week already. Everything stops for a little while. Like right now, i know it sounds stupid but i assure you that in any other day i wouldn't be having this retrospective moment. So thank you blackout anon and the other people that make these threads.
>>26441951
It starts small
You one day realize that you wasted an entire afternoon and say wait what? How did this happen
Then someday you realize it's Friday again. Even tho it feels like only the weekend is gone
Then you the electricity bill comes one day and you could swear you paid for it last week
Soon its Christmas again and you can't believe a year has gone by
Then you notice your mother is old and you wonder what happened to your twenty's
After that we'll its free falling from them
Time has always been the greatest villain, we never needed a devil to believe in god
I suffered from PTSD, thought I was getting better while I finished school and have been NEET for almost a year and don't enjoy the company of friends anymore. I now dislike leaving the house, am anxious and have gained a lot of weight. I'm lost and am in a state where everything is pretty much the same, and every day is the same as the one before it.
>>26441758
>Have you tried sitting down with both of them and talking it out?
This was my attempt at sitting down with them both. They're very shrewd, especially dad. He doesn't much care for what people might perceive of him when he argues. It's all about the specific words he uses and how valid his point of view is. Realism doesn't particularly matter when it's "consistent". It's easy to point holes in from afar but without two of you arguing we're not good enough alone.
>>26441764
>don't pick sides
Too late to some extent. I don't know how to solve this now. I'd imagine what would hurt dad is if I despised him in some form. I can avoid that I imagine. I've told him what I think he needed to hear.
>And you are going to end up being used as a weapon
This may be true. There was a Inkling of mom acting "especially reasonable". That might just be her reacting to knowing I don't like them fighting. Since all this transpired just two days ago (I think, NEET TIME).
>>26441860
>her kindness
I've never even told you about how she's kind. I get thanks if I do something good. Their (see plural, dad and mom) kindness is letting me stay at home and them paying my rent for an apartment I don't live in because I like it. I'm not sure what your background is but if that post is your goto we're in very different situations.
I find your post to be very poorly described of what you mean. see:
>Her kindness is a manipulation of you so she wont feel [HER PROBLEMS].
Baseless
>She wouldnt love you (*Why? What situation does this even pertain to?*) but would be obsessed with keeping you, she even view it as contract so she can feel in control (*You mean the at work stuff? She asks every time she needs it. I have said no and there's not much more to that.*).
Again completely baseless. Seems based on your experience with your mother, not a general rule.
>first you would need to open her soul and absolutely butcher her psyche
This doesn't even have an attempted reasoning.
>>26441991
i know these feels
funny how more or less every exam i've done, i thought i knew what i was doing and thought that everything would be fine but i failed all of them ... end my life already
>>26442046
>I wouldn't call it a special action, or an action at all
Perhaps action is the wrong term. What i mean is event. You sitting at your computer isn't a special event. Handstands could be. This thread certainly is.
>>26442067
I think he was talking g about misaki anon
>>26442090
I have the opposite problem. I think I fail all my exams yet ace all of them when they come back to me.
>>26442047
i needed that thanks, feels great
>>26442110
Oh dear. Yes. Makes a lot more sense. I'l blame that on being tired.
>>26441991
I did horribly as well.
>tfw family keeps telling you how smart and good looking you are
I don't even register those sentences anymore. It's such a lame attempt at trying to cheer someone up.
>>26442046
>thank you blackout anon
;_; d-doumo
>>26442047
Time is truly mischievous. If someone asks me what I did after high school I honestly can't answer them.
>>26442117
must be nice, i envy you
original comment
>>26442134
I wouldn't actually mind having an baka ice fairy for a girlfriend.
>>26442091
But then you end up a collection of little things. Not that I can complain the only thing I remember from this week is starting every day with a different breakfas
There was the cheesecake
The chocolate snacks
The icecream cone
The leftover pizza
And now it was a toast with dad
>>26442153
are you me?
the things i'd do for an ice fairy
>>26442156
I view them as hooks. Points you can consider. If you have habits and you don't remember them but know you did them then that's not the problem I'm describing. The problem I'm describing is when you have habits and such and you don't remember any of it, you just know it was there. Then the special events can be a hook into that day and your habis can be a way to read into the day in more detail.
That said it's fairly hard still. We're meant to be social creatures. We can remember conversations well.
>>26442127
I can't even remember half of my classmates
This is a fun exercise sif down and remember the number of classmates you had and try to remember all their names
I did this with a friend, we reached half
>>26442203
Am I you?
I just want to feel like my existence matters to someone else but myself.
>>26442153
>>26442203
>tfw no poorfag shrine maiden to neet it up with
>>26442211
Like, full names?
2
I usually sit in front so I don't recognize people at all.
>teacher assings me to a partner and I have no clue who that is
Kill me.
>>26442090
exactly. Been thinking about how I can be struck by lighting without making it too obvious. I am talking about direct lethal hit.
>>26442127
I wish parents, family friends and whatever you may have would understand how damaging such sentences can be. It's awful realizing that you can't do anything that you were always told you were good at.
>>26442209
>we can remember conversation well
Speak for yourself ;_;
Here is what I believe I want now
I will loose weight and find someone, since I'm 70% sure I'm bi I don't care if its a man or a woman
And I don't care if they are ugly either
Honestly someone from this thread would be ideal
And I don't care if they care for me much either
Because I'm going to use them as a hook to the real world like yamazaki was to satou
And I'm going to suck all their youth just from keeping me from regretting being old and alone in another week
>>26442277
No full names, mode like remembering the person at all
I had help tho
Something like that one guy who showed up drunk once is enough
>>26442261
im having a conversation with someone
im not going to lie im exited
>>26442280
Well you know if the stared at you and said nothing it would hurt twice as hard
>>26442301
Oh, I'm decent at that, then! I usually make up nicknames for people in my head. Something like "that one guy that talks like a faggot" or "the dyke with rainbow hair" works wonders.
>>26442422
Maybe you just don't remember the number of classmates you had
I mean can you remember like 30 people?
>>26442309
Yeah, but I have to go to bed soon and I'm not good with conversations anyway.I only replied because I like Cirno
But it was nice talking to you.
OBS won't stream despite multiple attempts. Maybe I'm ip banned from streaming or something, but I probably can't do it. The game takes like 1-2 minutes in skip mode to do every route anyway.
>>26442467
> can you remember like 30 people?
No. If they're not very vocal in class I have nothing to file them in. I usually only remember the assholes and attention whores. Or if someone has something unique about them that catches my eye if I lift my head once in a while.
>>26442261
this pic is so heartbreaking desu
>>26442498
sleep tight anon, best wishes to you
>>26442552
We're you that girl that sat in the front of the class drawing anime all day not speaking with Anyone and for some reason smiled at me once?
Because of you are I miss you
>>26442556
It makes Cirno look like a normie slut, though.
>>26442611
No, I'm the guy that wears nothing but milsurp and looks like he would shoot up the school.
I have a girl like you described in my class. Total fujo-autist. I call her Fujo-tan in my head.
>>26442656
Oh, I was the walking trashbag, you can remember me like that.
I wish I had spoken with that girl and cut my hair, she was cute. Who knows what my life would be like now if I did.
You can practically write I wish I spoke to her in my graveyard it would fit my life perfectly
>>26442656
why would a normie want to become friends with me
>>26442562
Thank you and good night.I really hope to dream about ice fairies.
>>26442710
I'm wondering the same thing sometimes but I'm pretty sure she would have rejected me just like every other girl.
Still painful to have "what if doing X back then had made my life better" kind of thoughts.
who here wants to be my waifu???
I want mostly cuddles.
>>26442713
So she can make fun of you.
Maybe she hunts virgins to brag about to her slut friends.
>>26442710
>>26442766
>what if
What if I wasn't born. I think a bunch of people would have had an easier life.
So ... when does the stream start? .........
>>26442799
you should please refer to
>>26440479
>>26440479
>>26442874
well .. it's the 4th or 5th time in a row or so ... Misaki friday threads are dying and becoming more and more useless
Here take one before they are all gone.
>>26442798
>What if I wasn't born. I think a bunch of people would have had an easier life.
If I wasn't born, my parents would have no one to vent to, some other kid in school would have been bullied, the people in college probably wouldn't have had someone finishing their projects they didn't work on...
The only one who didn't take advantage of my life is me.
>>26442766
>painful
More like bittersweet. Can you imagine not having anything to look back to and wonder, like having being hopeless piece of shit all your life?
That would be painful
>>26442938
i dont want them anoni want you.
I had a good week today fellow Misaki bros. I passed all my first semester courses, my new classes look pretty interesting (although some of them look tough too), I joined a student club and I went to a bar with one of my bros.
>>26442914
mcf betrayed us and became a filthy wageslave, he's probably even laughing about us with his normie friends right now.
streams are a rare occurrence nowadays, I'm afraid.
>>26442956
That's funny, if I wasn't born mom and dad would still be together
Sure dad vented on me but I caused way more pain and frustration than relief
Not that I care at all lol
>>26443000
Nice. Way to go.
Don't start slacking off.
>>26443028
Well I thought he was forced to wageslaving? It's either that or going hobo.
>>26442956
>our purpose in life is to be a foot mattress, a meatshield, a scapegoat
Nice....
>>26443000
Good to hear you are holding up.
>>26443028
A hiki has to eat eventually.
>>26443000
The only good thing I can say about my week is that I didn't die. Even if I wanted to at some points
Oh also based on the small amount of garbage in the floor this week I have been eating less junkfood
>>26443075
>Don't start slacking off.
I hope not. I need this academic year to be a good one because otherwise I can't start the master program that I want yet and I need to waste another year.
>>26443028
>rare occurrence
how about not occuring at all .. lets also have a look at all the mcf posts in this thread ... oh yeah, there are none
guess the wagekek is out partying with his normie work friends ... good for him
>>26443075
>was forced to wageslaving
he could at least still show up in these threads ...
I have a fun idea, lets talk about the day you found out about nhk and see who needed more saving
And it's fun because I'm certain I'm going to win
>dad cheated on mom and threw her out
>mom tried to commit suicide
>forced to visit moms new place and stay with her for a couple days
>turns out mom is living in a garage
>spends all day sleeping drunk
>I have her laptop during the second day and I'm browsing here
>don't want to go to sleep because I'm feeling really sad
>can't leave either, I really want to leave
>spent all night marsghoning it in the shitty laptop that couldn't run the binding of isak
>took a bunch of sleeping pills and slept for a while
>then mom opened the door and I left
>>26443188
in the last threads he said he's too tired to post. if that's the case, though, we should move them to saturday. if he can't post on saturday then he turned into a normie (or does he work on saturdays?)
>>26443118
Good. Eating healthy is important. Or..at least..less harmful.
>>26443188
The way I see it he works a literal slave job that by the end of the day leaves him so tired he just drops dead into bed. He showed up briefly last week but had to depart soon. I'm sure if he could he would show up.
>>26443289
I sat in my hiki cave and decided to watch it since I had no aombitions left or anything better to do.
There's no way I could win.
>>26443289
mine's like >>26443380 except i had heard of it a couple of years ago but didn't watch it until last year. i didn't like it and don't think i missed much.
>>26443531
Oh, you did not enjoy it? How come?
There is a little homeless kid screaming and crying (iguess?) Under the cold rain outside
I wish he would die already so I can enjoy the rain in peace
Don't die on me misaki Friday
I didn't even give the Valentine to her. Grounded on a four day weekend on my last year of school. What the fuck am I gonna' go to college for. What's the point of any of this if I can't even find an actual relationship.
>>26443546
This
Is pretty comfy, especially the novel
>>26443580
You go there and you are happy you are only 18 because the real pain is gojng to start in a couple years and when it does and you come here because you have nowhere else to go you are greeted by 18 year olds who tell you their life is worst than yours haven't experienced half the pain you did
>>26440331
I stopped believing in Misaki.
>>26443569
I hate kids so much. Fuck those noise producers.
>>26443580
Isn't valentines on sunday? Why are you grounded?
>>26443703
And instead you started worshipping dicks?
>>26443720
Oh its OK, he is quiet now
Do you guys have a mantra? When I feel kind of bad I get under the blanket and I think about my waifu and I repeat again and again it's OK, we have each other
When I feel really bad I spam some thread with all sorth of crazy posts begging people not to go away
>>26443813
I feel always bad unless I occupy myself with videogames or anime.
I also have a tea ritual involving sweets, incense and moeshit. Does that count?
>>26443879
I guess, I hate incense tho, surprisingly I don't mind oils.
What kind of sweets?
Kind of surprised you have no waifu, you are lacking in that department moe friend
>>26443703
I have an idea for you
Why don't you stick a match in your pennis pee hole then turn it on and watch the fire go all the way down
>>26443879
Do you also get those bad highs where you feel absolutely desperate like if you were about to fall off a cliff and you were holding barely to something?
Or is it just plain sadness all the time?
>>26443960
Spritz cookies with chocolate covering and coconut rasps are my current favourite.
I've been looking for a waifu but I think it's just not for me. I'm so emotionally dead I can't even imagine myself getting along with a fictional character.
I do have figures and I'll be getting a daki cover, though.
>>26444070
It's just plain sadness. I wonder why I get up in the morning and do what I do. My thoughts wander to things I have fucked up in the past, of how I can't achieve anything even if I try and so on. Really does a number on my sleep.
>tfw I want to finally get around to reading the novel but it's only been two months since I rewatched the series
>>26444151
You know you remind me a lot about misaki, have you ever felt related to any other fictional character?
>>26444151
I did tons of mistakes myself but they do t matter to me at All, it seems to me like no matter what I did I would have ended up like this.
Still I could have sweetened the ride a little.bit
My apartment smells really wierd right now, a lot like gas. How can you tell if you are dying of it?
>>26444180
A chapter a day keeps the....feels away?
The novel isn't that long. You can finish it on a weekend.
>>26444231
Hmm, not as much as with the NHK as usually any character that starts out as a hiki loser ends up being a harem king or has godlike intelligence to his name. Probably the reason why NHK hit so hard and well. The characters are actual losers, loners and outcasts and there isn't some cheap plot that turns them into a hero.
The only character outside of NHK I can think of is Kurugaya Yuiko from the VN Little Busters! even though she is highly intelligent and athletic.
>>26444283
I try to tell myself that things don't matter but the past still haunts me and the future makes me anxious.
>gas leak
If you are getting sleepy I think that's a bad sign.
>>26444342
Maybe, ha-ha I'm really sleepy but then again I'm always sleepy. I got up to check the kitchen but grabbed a slice of pizza instead, its good pizza, the old school cheap kind with tons of oil and fat in the dough. I wouldn't mind having some for my last meal.
I have a tip for you, get yourself a really old therapysth and tell her you are out of sleeping pills each time you see her, she won't remember when she prescribed you some at all. You can keep taking them and increasing the dosis each time you said up for entire weekends of sleep. Sleeping pills are pretty harmless as long as you don't take 30 at once just remember to move a little bit every couple of days, maybe check on us every Friday or something
>>26444540
My family recommended I should get sleeping pills as well but I am strongly opposed to taking any kind of drug since I would sleep just fine and dandy if I didn't have anxiety every day.
I'd probably die of dehydration since I sweat like mad thanks to nightmares and I can't stop sweating unless I wake up.
Pizza is really good. I make homemmade pizza sometimes but it's a gamble whether it turns out good or bland each time. Nothing better than opening the fridge and seeing left over pizza.
I feel le bad, is this the thread that changes me as a person and shit
I just want to know what it feels like to hold another human being.
That's all I fucking want senpai.
>>26444711
>pizza
>fridge
Pizza doesn't belong on the fridge, it can stay good for a long time left alone and the fridge ruins the cheese
>no drugs
I used to feel like this now the only thing stoping me is the fear of a bad trip and the lack of connections. I stopped taking my abilify tho, it makes my eyes hurt
Dying of dehydration takes days tho. You could totally die of it if you had enough sleeping pills on you, otherwise very unlikely
>>26444811
Pretty good, it feels warm and cozy like having a big squishy meat pillow with natural heat that has arms and wraps them around you
>>26443546
Simply put, the anime tries too hard to appeal to normies. Sato is a parody of NEETs/otakus and does not actually show off any problems properly. Every NEET/otaku thing is there for the cheap laugh factor. When it actually comes to things a shut-in would have trouble with such as shopping, going to college, or talking to people he shows no problems whatsoever. His room in 90% of the episodes? Tidy. His mom's coming over? Suddenly there are trash bags everywhere. Sato is acting "weird" for the "funnies". Can't have him acting like a real NEET or else normies wouldn't be able to identify with him anymore!
Then the latter half of the anime is the japanese government shilling its population to become obedient wage slaves and not play MMOs/fall into pyramid schemes/stay unemployed. This wasn't even in the novel or manga from what I've heard. And in the end what does the anime tell you? To wait for a girl who has been stalking you for a prolonged period of time and apparently prefers losers over Chads (yes I know le epic "she's selfish for taking care of Sato to make herself feel better also" meme, still don't see how that makes Misaki an antagonist). Because that's literally never going to happen in 3D world. It doesn't properly show off the issues people like us face, it doesn't provide any advice or solution, it doesn't give us a character we can identify with (Sato ends up as a girlfriendhaver, and in the manga as a sexhaver). It only mocks us and tells us things will never get better and that our fate is to slave for people who have better lives than we do.
>>26444716
Only if you keep the memes to a minimum
>>26444811
Human contact puts me off.
>>26444827
I'll keep the pizza advice in mind. Thanks.
>>26444902
>keep the memes to a minimum
so I have pretty much nothing to say?
why do you avatarfag as an animu grill
they're not real
I wish I had a quick-fix to my problems senpai
>>26444897
Completely agree and I only read the first sentence the anime is not good, the only good part is the music please come. Ack to analyze it when you have read the novel tho otherwise I don't care
>>26444990
There is a quick fix to your problems but it only works for nlimited time, its the dick. Many girls take it constantly and none of them complains at all
>>26444897
While I do agree that the anime is a lot more centered around comedic value it doesn't invalidate of how Satou is a shutin. He went to college only after his first counseling with Misaki and is promptly reminded why he hates going outside. The anime doesn't tell you to wait for a girl at all. That is what makes it so great. In the end, you either get your shit together or you perish. Has nothing to do with gouvernment shilling anything. Satou had sex once, in all three iterations of the story but arguably only the manga with its shitty ending puts Misaki in more of a girlfriend role.
I recommend reading the novel, as it is a lot more sinister.
>>26444990
Your quick fix can be this weekly thread.
>>26445061
I don't have de bussy
>>26445068
I'm not feeling anything yet
no fix
Semester started again, but I ended up taking two online classes and already skipped a class.
My old methods of forcing myself to be normal are no longer working.
>>26445068
Heh this picture reminded me what a piece of shit satou was, its kind of easy to forget with how dumbed down the anime was.
K personally like nhk because its about 3 shitty people finding each other and just being shitty people to each other none the less.
It's not fantasy a broken person can't help another broken person, its kind of the anti anime in that way
>couple years ago I decided to start eating right and exercising
>after 2 years, I've finally reached my goals, both in lifting and general conditioning
>I can finally look in the mirror and not see a lazy pudgy fucker, but a healthy, fit guy
>still feel angry and depressed
>still lonely
>still no gf
No amount of physical fitness and health will fix social ineptness. I guess I look like a "chad" now, and I don't regret it, but damn was I wrong to think this would fix anything but my body.
>>26445244
Can I take a course on procrastination? I'd be good at that! Probably. ;_;
>>26445278
"We're all gonna make it brah" is a load of shit.
>>26445278
If you think not looking like Chad was your problem all along then you are simply too stupid to make it
how do I get rid of my internet addiction
I managed to go on a date with a girl and have my first kiss. Thing is, I'm 19 and she's 16. Just fucking kill me lads. Granted the age of sexual consent is 16 here.
>>26445351
>not looking like Chad was your problem all along
No, my problem was that I was feeling lazy every single day, and payed zero attention to what was going into my body. Once I started to look good though, I thought It might make me more confident. I was wrong.
>>26445351
>Can I take a course on procrastination?
I think they call that "Undetermined Major"
>My life when I got a crazy fb stalker instead of a perfect Misaki
>>26445433
Meant for
>>26445353
I can't even post right, end my fucking life lads.
>>26445425
Embrace it.
>>26445432
What's the problem then? Apart from you falling for a 3D whore, that is.
>>26445449
>having a facebook
>>26445462
You're probably just tired.
>>26445537
I don't use it to keep in touch with friends, there's a specific group that has pretty much become the only reason I live anymore.
It's my escape.
>>26445537
no that's unhealthy I want out of addiction pls
>>26445433
I won't argue with a red pilled faggot but there are plenty of fat people with friends and even girlfriends, maybe instead of laughing at them like a true meme master you should learn from them
>>26445590
>Red Pilled
You haven't seen Welcome to The NHK.
>>26445564
Oh, I see.
>>26445566
But why. Don't tell me you have something better to do.
>>26445590
>just b urself bro
>>26445068
Sato has been a shut in for a couple of years yet in episode 2 or 3 he's shown happily walking outside, in the middle of the day in a crowd. When I was at the peak of my social anxiety I didn't even dare opening the curtains of my window out of fear of being seen, let alone leave the house. And I certainly wouldn't be caught buying a perverted undressable doll. Sato is extremely confident for a person who's supposed to believe the world is out there to get him. His hikkikomori habits only pop up when it suits the scenario and are spontanously forgotten afterwards.
>>26445068
>In the end, you either get your shit together or you perish. Has nothing to do with government shilling anything.
Literally talking depressed NEETs out of suicide (rampant in Japan) so they can make bucks for the government in the false promise of things getting better (like it did for Sato). How is that not shilling?
>>26445068
>I recommend reading the novel, as it is a lot more sinister.
May do that sometime this year...
>>26445652
I need to study, sleep, try to make friends, exercise, remember to eat
all the things I don't do or do little of because of the internet
>tfw lurking all thread
>tfw too ashamed to post
>tfw people have expectations
i like most of the regular anons but this pressure is turning me into a coward fag ;_;
>>26443028
>mcf betrayed us and became a filthy wageslave, he's probably even laughing about us with his normie friends right now.
nice bait m8
Haven't got the chance to watch nhk yet, but eventually I guess. I still want to die, I'm making progress on my suicide note, and I got plans to go to Canada for some liquor. Everything's almost set, I feel...normal
>>26445652
>just be yourself bro
No just become more narcissistic and secluded instead, what happened you were being cool up to this point
Have you self diagnosed yet, anons?
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schizoid_personality_disorder
>>26445636
I have seen it, its wrong and faulty no matter where you look at it
>don't ask for help
>it's either making it or dying
Homeless people have a security network and they can live up to 50 years you retard
>>26445715
self diagnosis is autistic
what would I do with a diagnosis
are you getting help right now
>>26445682
Up to year 4 of my hikikomory seclusion I had no fear of going outside and when I started feeling it it manifested by anxiety when I was close to more than 4 people and being unable to speak lowd at all.
There is no reason why satou couldn't feel that way, he is shown to feel terrified of being outside when he is alone again and again in the show
>>26445741
...what?
Wasn't even the point I was making.
We aren't red pills here.
>>26445746
I avoid getting any help I can.
>Another symptom of being Schizoid.
It's like reading a book about me. I actually avoided thinking I was one forever because I didn't want to be, but it was the only thing that fit.
>>26445715
I believe this is something that can develop from a bad/lonely childhood. If you didn't grow up with proper social interaction you will be unable to form and maintain social relations later in life. That would definitely fit my bill. My parents never wanted me to bring kids over to my house and I was rarely invited to others'.
>>26445687
I never expected anything from anyone here, doing so is a mistake
Please feel more comfortable speaking
>>26445692
Remember to try some exotic dish and mention it in your suicide note so I can know it was you and cringe a little bit
>>26445846
>he is shown to feel terrified of being outside when he is alone again and again in the show
Only twice I believe and only very briefly. He has no issues with being close to many people either as the pyramid scheme episodes showed. He is how a normie interprets an abnormal. "Acts wacky and silly, but only when I'm around to watch him!".
>>26445868
I only ever had one friend at a time, and only one friend (from High School) ever came to visit my house, and he did it maybe three times ever.
I was separated from my parents at birth, then reunited, then separated again while I was an infant, then reunited... then grew up with an emotionally abusive mother.
And I'm fairly certain my father is one as well. I can barely think of him ever having any emotions, and he has very few friends. Could be wrong though, he has a lot of stories from his youth.
My stories were from when I was an alcoholic in the military.
>>26445959
When the anime reaches the point of the pirsmyd scheme satou as already cured enough not to be scared of going outside alone.
I don't like defending the anime at all but you are completely wrong about everything senpai
>>26445682
You either overcome parts of your anxiety and find a job or you die. Your basic survival instinct is a lot more powerful than you think. This is even shown in the anime where a side character is on the brink of starvation before he finally finds a job in some ramen shop. How is that making the gouvernment any meaningful money?
Satou is never happy when walking outside. He is on edge and mumbles to himself.
>And I certainly wouldn't be caught buying a perverted undressable doll
Dragged there by his only friend and again, after he had counseling by Misaki. Plus, Otakus probably do not judge someone.
>>26445686
Pff, what for?
>>26445687
You're always welcome.
>>26445692
>going to another country to get some booze
....?
>>26445704
Your sentence struck me as that dumb advice normies give. I mean, how is he supposed to learn from people who naturally got a gf?
>>26445959
Because he is mentally insane and has delusions left and right? He truly believed that the pyramid scheme would help him out of his situation. Satou is guillable and naive as fuck.
Not toward Misaki, though.
>>26445871
but there's always those anons that are expecting a stream and i actually feel bad for not streaming, somehow i become disappointed at myself
I ditched my last group of friends now I'm completely alone
Anyway to feel better?
>>26446021
Too young to get it here, gotta get it elsewhere
>>26446021
>you overcome your anxiety and find a job or you die
This is wrong, it has been wrong for I would say 200 years depending of your class and country
>>26446021
>dumb normie advice
Of course it did, the definition of normie is everything k don't like and makes me feel threatened and everyone who doesn't agree with me
>>26446048
You care too much, you shouldn't care about random anons they will break you and lush you to do very bad things
>>26446048
I think it's more of an inhouse joke by now. Our own little meme. Don't feel bad.
>>26446064
Anime.
>>26446067
Oh, right. You need to be 21 in america, right? Is it enforced that strictly? Can't you just go to some gas station and pick up a bottle of liqor?
>>26446084
Sure, but if you're loaded chances are you're most likely not a hikikomori.
>tfw no rich inheritance so I can finally stay inside all day
Why live.
>>26446120
You've lost me here. Sorry.
stream is on for an hour or something until i get sleepy ;_; let's just chat or something
>>26446064
Yes you should lift
But avoid anyone at the gym, only lift at midnight
Also avoid anyone who doesn't approach you first or doesn't confirm to some crazy arbitrary set of standards in your head
>>26446158
I have no idea on the alcohols, I'm a NEET social reject. I sorta want to go out of country anyways, just to explore, have my final moments outside of my house, see the sunset fall on the Canadian plains
>>26446158
You don't need to have tons of money to live as a hikikomory forever in the first world, especially if you are mentally ill
All I'm saying is that you are alone because you want to, I am alone because I want to be alone, I cut people from my life left and right and I know exactly how to get more, it feels good to admit it you should do it someday
>tfw computer too shit to stream at a passable quality
>>26446315
anon my computer barely runs miniclip games
>>26446286
Hang in there, everything is going to be dajoubu ;_;
>>26446288
Oh I have no trouble admitting that.
>>26446372
>I have no trouble admitting that
Great, that means you are self aware. You got me scared for a while there
>>26446372
I dont even know what Dajoubu means, rip me then. I'm honestly tired of hanging on, can't even communicate to my parents that I have a problem, so they can't help. The world is burning down anyways, so no real need for me to stick it out
>>26446441
It means everything is going to be fine. Just keep at it. Something good is bound to happen, isn't it?
>>26446441
Your parents can't help you anon, they are simple people, picture yourself telling them, what do you expect them to do? Do you want them to quit their jobs and spend all day watching over you to see if you are going to kill yourself? Do yuo expect them to take you to the park everyday on a stroller?
What you have to do is ask them for therapy and leave it at that, they worry about you enough already
>>26446497
There is very little misery in an average person life, you should know that it's taken directly from the anime
>>26440469
I'm afraid of going to college. At least you're there, right?
>>26440331
I watched NHK for the first time around 2007, just after it finished airing, I was in early High School.
Yes I already was an animefag back then, even though I was mostly watching casual shows, if I remember correctly Haruhi actually aired one season before this.
I was laughing all time "o boy I will never be like this HAHAHAHA"
I don't need to tell you the rest.
>>26446497
Oh how I long for deus ex machinas, the fleeting hope that with time comes happiness. But I have no effort, no will to change. It doesn't matter anyways, since I can't feel happiness. I've tried to look back on memories, and all they are to me are experiences, I derive no positive emotions from them. What's life without happiness? Without something to strive for? Something to Blossom into? A niche to call your own? I can't live like this anymore and I don't know what to do, I'll try seeing a psychiatrist soon, but after that I'm done
Fun fact, I can't voluntarily smile, pictures of me just have me frowning. How does one lose that ability to smile? I had it as a small child
>cant move out until mentally healthy
>cant get mentally healthy in a terrible living situation
hiki 4 life
>>26446517
I can't even muster up the communication skills to tell them anything, let alone this, maybe I'll try sometime, they're tired of me being NEET anyways, trying to make me go to uni next year
>>26446579
Like, in college? Yeah, I'm there.
>>26446592
;_;
>tfw being young and not having a worry in the world
>>26446607
I can relate. Nihilism is interesting, isn't it?
>>26446632
Living the dream.
>>26446592
I remember telling myself every night during my childhood that things wouldn't always be like this, that I would find people who cared about me and I would become a great person
Funny how much imagination kids have
>>26446648
Typical depressed fag replying to my post without even reading it, desperate for anyone to pay any attention to him and feel pity.
Next time read what you are replying to don't waste my tjme
>>26446649
Never really looked into nihilism, can you explain?
I never understood why people are so attached to life, guess I never found anything in this world to cling on to
>>26446711
Bruh, I did read it tho, I'm saying I can't muster up the ability to ask them to send me to a therapist of something. And I added at the end what they expect me to do with my life, even though I won't succeed in my current state
Saw the first episode. Is she a manic pixie dream girl through out the show? If she is I'm probably gonna drop it.
>>26446734
The realization that nothing truly matters since everything ends in nothingness anyways.
>>26446823
She isn't.
>>26446771
Meh half students at college are depressed, I had this classmate do the cringiest shit in the first class where she drew a bed to represent her depression then she didn't want to show it and spilled her spaghetti in front of everyone.
I say you will fit right in
>>26446823
Yes she is, is not worth your time move along
>>26446873
True say, part of me wants to take that and do something "exotic or taboo", but the most part of me just wants me to fade away and die
I like someone
They seem like a real person
In comparison I am a miserable pile of memes, ironic facade, and self loathing
He is probably NEET, considering he's always playing LoL or some steam game
Talking to him is hard, I think I told him I liked him and he was just too nice to call me a faggot
I wonder about his life, how does he have so much free time?
How does he even eat?
I'm incredibly paranoid he's just playing my emotions
And that he's reading me as I type, when I haven't even posted yet
I feel like a beta orbiter, except he's too good of a person to take advantage of me
Not that there is any advantage to interacting with me except a bit of spaghetti attention
This makes me feel even more for him
I don't know what to call my feeling, love? Maybe envy mixed with depression?
It's the same gut twist feeling I had when my oneitis smacked me on the head the first time we talked and I knew I was going to lose my mind crushing on her for the next 8 years
I realize now that not caring and therefore not freaking out in social situations is a bad coping strategy since now that I do care, I am completely unprepared for talking to someone I care about
>>26446998
Infatuation
Basically your life is boring so you give big morning to little things and create feelings out of thin air. You do not crave this perons affection but drama, you want to kill yourself with thoughts about him rejecting you all day and dream about him accepting you all night.
You will drag this person to your sea of fagotry only to loose his friendship and then dwell on this forever because you never even wanted him as a friend to begin with
You are an emotional leech willing to cling to any person who gives you the time of day
>>26447152
What do I do?
How do I at least stop with the suicide thoughts?
I see now and agree, I probably don't really want him as a friend since I have no clue what a conversation between us would sound like
Still there's a lot of enhanced truth I enjoy about him
There have been people who express interest in me and I cannot care about them except for one, both real life and internet faggotry
What the fuck is wrong with me
>>26447308
You are bored
Really really bored
You are not in love
You aren't even listening to me
You aren't suicidal either
Go find a hobby
Don't let this be your life
>>26442134
Thanks anon, it is pretty nice but it's not so nice getting all stressed out beforehand.
This girl started ghosting me. Should I stop texting her and block her or should I keep waiting for her?
>>26447371
And of course you ignore me because I choose to tell you the truth instead of feeding your delusions
What a sorry life you must live, go cry about him for 8 more years
>>26447660
Sorry, I was wasting my time as usual and didn't know what to say that would further the conversation
Thanks, I feel better already
>>26446897
>>26446873
Well that helps
PAGE 8 YOU FAGGOTS .
ORIGINAL
>>26448742
Okay okay fine
>>26447660
I talked to him normally
Is it a good thing or a bad thing?
Is it a good thing or a bad thing that I care?
Do I already know the answers to these questions?
final episode, in case anyone wants to watch
>tfw missed almost the entire stream
at least I got mpv and ytdl kinda set up
original post bye everyone thanks
Good night MCF.
Good night anons.
