>Refuse to follow the path expected of me by society and family
>Read a lot so to figure out what I should do
>All other mindsets /paths seem to require perfection, discipline and extreme dedication
>Can't just bee myself
What do I do now?
In the same situation. Bipolar as well, so every couple months I feel like I'm on the wrong track. Either I'm ecstatic and want to work as a nurse, spend money and do new things all the time. Or I'm depressed as shit and don't want to live at all. Or I'm just average beige and try to change my course to find something exciting. Or I feel everything at once intensely enough to drive myself crazy and do stupid shit. Typically end up in ER, broke af or in a relationship with a man my fathers age.
There is no good options in life for some of us.
>>26319053
OP here, I know that feel. I'm not diagnosed bipolar, only depressed and some character disorder. It feels like I'm constantly walking on the line between suicide and getting my shit together, happiness, excitement and passion come and it's fantastic for a while, then depression swoops in and kills it all till I'm just in my bed wishing for death.
Here is what you can do robots :
>>26319144
OP here, it isn't an existentialist crisis. I've dealt with it a while back. It's more personal than anything else. I just want happiness and satisfaction, but seem to need to go through extremes to reach it.
>>26319100
At least you aren't alone.
>>26319223
Don't know where you got that implication from. I'm completely alone.
>>26319253
I'm in the same spot. There are others who are feeling the exact same.
>>26319173
what type of happiness and satisfaction
>>26319629
Being able to feel again is a nice start, less mental strain on worrying, not being alone. A lot of struggle comes from having to accept my position in society, I'm an ugly deformed motherfucker and it kills me that I'm judged on the spot, stared at and discarded by people. I want to love and be loved, but it is impossible, and changing my mind about it all is breaking me.
>>26319666
nice try, satan. you'll get no help from me.
>>26319666
Well, ugliness can't be cured but there are enough ugly people on the planet and ugly successful people that it must be possible to overcome. The mental part you need to condition yourself to think your way around. Cognitive behavioral therapy, I imagine. I also recommend good literature. Wallowing in misery I don't recommend.
>>26319756
>Read a lot so to figure out what I should do
>>26318660
I'm just bitching here. No one will have words that will magically change me as I know it's all on me. I'm just wearing thin.
>>26318660
You need to elaborate more. What exactly does your family expect you to do with your life?
Unless you're Asian or your family is prominent in some field(example, all the women in my family are nurses), most parents don't push their kids into a specific path anymore.
>>26318660
>Refuse to follow the path expected of me by society and family
Welcome to the MGTOW lifestyle, brother.
