Be honest, /r9k/.She ruined your life didn't she?
MAN HANDS
Oh no, I ruined everything for myself actually.
>>26035016
If she said yes I could have continued to develop normally with normal relationships and would have had something to motivate me to not drop out of society
I'd kill her if I saw her today
>>26035046
What was she like? How did you meet her?
>>26035016
I watched EoE in a friend's basement on a huge projector in our little anime club ~15 years ago.
End of Evangelion seriously threw me into an existential crisis and gave me PTSD.
I dunno, kind of worth it though.
>>26035116
I don't think you know what PTSD means.
>>26035016
No.
It happened much earlier.
>>26035079
same, i know how you feel anon. shit hurts even though it's been 8 years
>>26035142
I don't think you know what 9 inches in your mom means
Asuka saved my life
>>26035079
>>26035046
I was confused for a sec because I thought this thread was about Asuka.
Because of Asuka I fap to 2D.
Thanks, Asuka!
>>26035216
Did she have red hair?
>>26035016
Yes, she did.
When i watched Eva in 2009 i literally saw myself in her: Child with a bright future ahead, issues with my parents, never up with the expectations afterwards, hating everyone around, while at the same time wanting to somebody to notice me, etc
>>26035238
Not when I was with her, but afterwards yes.
She didn't, but she made things worse for me.
>>26035272
Ditto.
The expectations hurt the most. If only I'd realized I was a useless autist sooner instead of making a fool out of myself for years.
Yeah... but those few years before she ruined my life while we were friends/dating were pretty awesome.
I still wish I'd never met her though
>OG Asuka?
or
>Angelic Days Asuka?
>>26035273
How old is she now? Has she ever been to Japan?
>>26035016
She a shit, Rei best girl.
>>26035016
she asked me for my number on her own initiative
she said she would call
she never did
She's ruining my life as we speak. I'm trying to cut off contact but I'm feeling withdrawal symptoms. It's fucking terrible and I want to give up and go back in orbit every single day. I don't know if it's worth it.
>>26035388
Does she talk to you at all? Or are you a pure orbiter?
Yes she did. I have trust issues, i cant talk to girls and i am very self conscious about my looks. I think i could be a failed normie but im a full blown robot instead
>>26035016
na she gave me plenty of porn to fap to
>>26035393
She does, we've been great friends and fooled around once. She's not interested. I just can't take being just a friend, I'm just dreading the moment when she'll find a boyfriend and I'll have to look at him living the life I'll never have. Not to mention all the times when we're mistaken for lovers because the things and moments we share are so similar to a romantic relationship.
Actually, he did.
>>26035435
Holy shit are you me?
I'm in the same boat, except we tried dating for a bit but in the end she said she just wanted to be friends. Now I want to be sexual towards her like I was once, so being with her hurts. I've been using my anger and bitterness to fuel myself into avoiding her, because I know it hurts her that I'm not in her life, and now we're both hurt.
Just so you know, last time I avoided her like this she missed my company and became my girlfriend. If this happens to you don't expect it to last.
If you really need to, explain that you see her as more than a friend, and that you need "time apart" from her so that you stop having feelings for her. And tell her it's awkward to be with her as friends because of how you feel. If you're in the same situation as me, she'll understand.
End of Evangelion ruined my life.
>>26035554
You ARE me.
>I've been using my anger and bitterness to fuel myself into avoiding her, because I know it hurts her that I'm not in her life, and now we're both hurt.
From the motives to the results, our situations are really similar. Last time I sort of did this, it lead to the night when we hooked up. No relationship came out of it though.
And you're right, I should talk to her and explain how I feel. I feel too bitter and frustrated to talk about this with her though. What makes it worse is that we really don't have that heart-to-heart kind of relationship, we just get along incredibly well to the point where we can complete each other sentences and have crazy synchronicity overall. Talking about feelings is almost as grating as telling your dad about your first sexual experience.
It's definitely the last time I'll ever let myself have an attractive female friend. In the meantime, I'm stuck in purgatory.
>>26035703
Oddly enough it made mine better and improved my writing.
started talking to her again senpai.
>>26035703
End of Evangelion is some fucking GREAT shit but holy shit did it grow some edgy shit.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=btvyJ2eLybg
>>26035016
Here's is some old-timey Asuka AMV from an old-time weeb
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iZKq1HqZuvw
No because I don't watch overrated garbage anime.
>>26035016
Asuka didn't ruin me, Usuka did
>>26035709
Oh, you don't have that kind of relationship. That makes it a lot tougher. I'm not really sure how to help, the relationship we [used to] have is very close and I would tell her everything about my feelings, and vice versa. Apart from how I felt about her of course.
What happened when you guys hooked up?
>>26035836
We started hugging, we were slightly drunk. Then we made out and she asked me if I had condoms. I didn't so we went down on each other and overall had a really good time. As we fell asleep, she just muttered : "This is weird".
We barely talked about it afterwards, except from one time when she approached me during a party one month later and told me that she was happy that it happened.
>>26035822
Ew, what faggot drew that?I miss him too.
>>26035016
Who, Asuka? Nope, helped me syop masturbating.
i cri everytem
>>26035703
The End of Evangelion was the only good thing about Eva at all. The regular series and Rebuild weren't great.
>>26035875
>This is weird.
I can relate too much.
But the fact that she said she was happy it happened is a little strange, don't you think? I can't tell you what's gonna happen, but I know that if you just stay friends with her it's not gonna turn out in your favor. I mean you could TRY turning it into something more... which probably isn't gonna happen, or cut her out of your life completely. But I'd say staying friends isn't a good option in the long run.
And cutting someone like that out of your life sucks. What if one day the bitterness and anger is overpowered by wanting her again?
>>26036001
>And cutting someone like that out of your life sucks. What if one day the bitterness and anger is overpowered by wanting her again?
You're right, I'm going to have to overcome the discomfort of opening up to her eventually. Cutting all contact is like carrying a weight, I might get crushed eventually. Ending the friendship properly is like letting go of the burden.
Thanks anon, and good luck to you.
>>26036099
Thanks, and best of luck to you too.
