Homeless at twenty three. This is going to be a shitty journey. It's a lot colder than I expected. I'm paralyzed with fear & anxiety.
what happened anon kun?
sell your phone, dumb phoneposter
>>25780779
find a homeless shelter.
sell your phone and buy 2 flats and a giraffe
>>25780819
worst advice 0/10
>>25780779
OP post a good timestamp if you want people to believe you. Draw it with rocks or something.
After that you can tell the area and we can find the nearest homeless shelter.
>>25780779
Acuire a tent, sleeping bag, a backpack, and maybe a bike.
>>25780814
Life got exponentially worse. Too a point where it got ahead of me and took hold. It was mental quicksand and now I'm drowning.
>left my girlfriend of 7 years
>regret very soon after but too late
Brought me to the edge of sanity
>lost my job due to my distress
>can't hold down a job because I'm obsessed with her.
>forced to live with mum
>she can't stand my depression, kicks me while I'm down while telling me to "kill yourself and follow through with something"
I'm scared to be quite honest. I had a decent chance and I squandered it. While people weren't great and never helped, I really only have myself to blame.
>>25780902
oneitis: not even "once"
>>25780779
Where you at OP? Come live with me
>>25780779
You should nab some tape and cardboard. Make a little cardboard sleeping bag, stuff it with newspapers and wrap your feet in newsprint. Trust me. At least it isn't snowing. Do a workout and hit the sack.
>>25780895
>a bike
>leave to go on a joy ride
>come back and my whoel home is gone
>>25780895
I have what I need to not freeze. No funds, no friends, no family.
>>25780832
My phone had free service so I won't sell it. It's all I have from not going completely insane. My podcast is all I have.
I want to do a time stamp but it's dark and no pen. I also don't want to be moving around because I'm next to an apartment window and don't want cops.
>>25780902
You are in a moment of distress now, try to calm down. Do as others said, you have some battery left so try to find a homeless shelter on google maps or google. Or tell us your area and we will find one for you.
In the morning you can think with some more quality about what to do from now.
>>25780944
I'm in LA so more than likely going to happen. I'll tell them to kill me if they steal my phone.
>>25780779
How'd this happen? Are you ABSOLUTELY alone?
How good are you at blowing strangers for cash?
>>25780984
I have my phone a charger and an extra battery. I know where homeless shelters are. This is not my fear you guys.
I'm 23. Homeless. It'll only dig my grave deeper. I don't see a light at the end of this tunnel. I live in a city with so many homeless. It doesn't matter.
clarity not quality, fuck
>>25781032
What about food and water?
>>25781064
I bought a large jug of water with my last dollar. And made three tupperware of chicken and rice. Since its filling.
>>25780779
Does your ex have a roastie?
>>25780980
Just go do something crazy till the cops pick you up. You better off in there than on the streets white boi
if i didnt live with my parents, id come pick you up my dude.
>>25781097
fuck this advice, once you get your life together you dont want a record
>>25781088
Well that will do for now. Maybe tomorrow or in a couple of days your mother will be more calm and regret letting you out?
>>25781032
Really all you can do is make the most of this fucked up situation. start getting good at panhandling. the homeless where I live make quite a bit of money in a day.
Put down a piece of cardboard or something if you lie down. Lying directly on the ground will suck the heat out of you.
>>25781095
Not really. She was great. I just got cabin fever and tossed it away.
>>25781097
I am a skinny jean wearing white boy. Niggers and cholos already hate me. I'd get raped in jail and prison.
I wish I had a gun to /suicidebycop/ but no money. Not even enough for pills.
>>25780779
op how cold is it
>>25781134
You can walk into any hospital and say you're going to kill yourself, and they'll stick you in the psych ward for a few days.
Pissing your pants will warm you up for a few minutes if your legs get cold.
>>25781122
I already know this. But I'm so tucked that despite being in an alley homeless I am sitting here thinking of my ex.
I have the luxury of having the symptoms of insanity, without the beneifiet of actually being mentally ill.
>>25781191
Not OP, in the USA wouldn't you have to pay for it afterwards?
>>25781170
LA cold which isn't cold to a lot of people 55f which is freezing to me.
>>25781132
This. Intrinsic part of thermodynamics.
Anyway, tmrw morning you should definitely amble to a store and just ask for spare change. The stores all have AP units but they won't respond for a good few minutes. In that time you should be able to retrieve at least two bucks. Use that on travel sized essentials. Continue begging for money, find some people and maybe you can get back on your feed in a few weeks. Homeless isn't the worst man. Good luck.
>>25780895
he will get robbed
or killed
by niggers
>>25781227
Insurance will cover it.
>>25781191
That actually is a great idea. Thank you. I think id have to show signs but I can do that since I'm too big of a coward to actually take my own life.
>>25781261
Private insurance? What if he has none?
>>25781267
You don't have to show any signs, if you claim you're going to kill yourself then they have to take you.
>>25781250
Homeless isn't the worst when you're forty. I'm 23. My life will only go down hill. Thank anyway? I hope you're around when I go apeshit.
>>25781267
>I think id have to show signs
nope
>>25781271
I had to get medical since my regular insurance wanted me to pay 250 for my I inhaler.
I wonder if I went to my doctor tomorrow I could lie about pain or depression and get enough pills to failure of the liver.
>>25781312
but all the people who don't like you will be happy if you die
you can't allow that
>>25780902
>she can't stand my depression, kicks me while I'm down while telling me to "kill yourself and follow through with something"
Wow what a piece of shit.
>>25781312
if you want to kill yourself that way just get enough money to buy a fuckload of grain alcohol and keep drinking that until you die or wake up in a hospital
>>25781360
>grain alcohol
Why call alcohol grain alcohol?
And wouldn't you just puke everything?
>>25781351
Yeah. But my ex would love me if I did. I know it.
Also my mom, brothers, and estranged father would be shocked which pleases me. But I don't want to give up like this. I never thought it would come to this. Two years ago I moved in with my girlfriend, got a great job paying great and i threw it away. Fuck.
>>25781389
grain alcohol is alcohol with a very high proof.
It might kill you, but you'll probably just end up very sick if you do somehow manage to down enough of it (that stuff is vile)
>>25781389
I'm really referring to something like this: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Everclear_%28alcohol%29 that's nearly 100% ethanol, to distinguish from just any spirits.
if you puke while passed out, there's a good chance you'll choke on it and die.
>>25781360
Never drank in my life. I doubt I could get it down.
But herion id be more than willing to do. Of a hotshot. I just want to be numb/content sleep and never wake up.
>>25781405
I know this image is gay as fuck, but remember what Tyler said
>>25780779
hang in there, anon
http://guide2homelessness.blogspot.com/2004/10/introduction-to-project.html
>>25781446
I know. But Tyler had the benefit of being imaginary. I would love to be a martyr. I don't care about anything. I would see no issue being the project mayhem goon. But I'll probably just stay here paralyzed in fear in this alley.
>>25780779
Good luck anon, I've been there homeless at 20, I'm back on my feet now though, kinda. I spent my first night sleeping in a concrete tunnel under the highway in the pitch black, sleeping on a guitar case. It was aweful I won't lie but it gets easier, don't give up.
During the night my leg fell off the case and way lay on the stone all night, it ached for about a week afterwards it got that cold, so learn my lesson and sleep on something, not directly on the floor. I used pizza boxes and card from behind a supermarket and slept in the woods after that.
I also had an aweful nightmare that night, that a man was stood over me holding a knife and just staring at me as I couldn't utter words, then I woke up.
Best tips, wash in supermarkets, wear layers, sleep on insulation, make friends online and find a place to stay, couch surfing.org might help, EAT! Do not make my mistake and not eat I was skin and bones by the time I had finished, fucking eat as much as possible if someone offers you food don't be prideful, I wish I hadn't turned down food when people offered to buy me something, because now id happily buy someone a sandwich, if they offer THEY DONT MIND, but do not beg. Don't get involved in crime, don't make friends with other hobos and make this your life, do not get into drinking or drugs at this point it will finish you, carry a knife, always, carry a backpack with changes of underwear and clothing, brush your teeth daily and change clothes daily. Whenever you get a chance, wash them.
>>25780902
>she can't stand my depression, kicks me while I'm down while telling me to "kill yourself and follow through with something"
>left my girlfriend of 7 years
>Brought me to the edge of sanity
>can't hold down a job because I'm obsessed with her.
women not even once.
OP, I was homeless between like 17-20ish, and you can push through this.
Save phone battery, or have a place to sit and charge in the morning to shore up your resource list; shelters, pantries, agencies, etc.
I almost froze out my first few nights but it was bad weather in a bad location. Spent some time hitchhiking and trying to drink myself to death. Get my GED and finished my degree. In a masters program now...from eating out of trashcans.
The shit is arduous but it can be done. BTW, if your mom said that shit as an out of character statement, try to repair things when shit cools down but if that's what she says to you on a regular basis, fuck her, fuck the toxicity in your household, you WILL be better off without that shit floating in your head.
>>25781501
Meant more the "you are not your job" part than the "collapse the economic system" one
>>25780779
Being homeless is fun though, no one tells you what to do and if you fick up you have no one to blame but yourself.
Hope you git gud and get out of your situation though.
>>25780902
top cuck my friend
>>25781115
>once
More like if.
Someone gonna steal your phone nigga waht you doin
>>25781505
Thanks anon strangley I feel sincerity. I'm scared which is making this worse. I don't have anything going for me. It would taste a lie if I told you that I haven't given up, that I still have a fight in me.. But I don't. I'm tired and want to get off this ride.
>>25781523
Humans. Not even once.
>>25781581
this and FINd a weapon OP
>>25780779
>>25780980
join the army, go to your mom and see if you can stay till you are sent off to boot camp
>>25780779
USA is such a fucking shithole jesus christ.
>>25781533
^Here. Everything this guy said is spot on:
>>25781505
>Best tips, wash in supermarkets, wear layers, sleep on insulation, make friends online and find a place to stay, couch surfing.org might help, EAT! Do not make my mistake and not eat I was skin and bones by the time I had finished, fucking eat as much as possible if someone offers you food don't be prideful, I wish I hadn't turned down food when people offered to buy me something, because now id happily buy someone a sandwich, if they offer THEY DONT MIND, but do not beg. Don't get involved in crime, don't make friends with other hobos and make this your life, do not get into drinking or drugs at this point it will finish you, carry a knife, always, carry a backpack with changes of underwear and clothing, brush your teeth daily and change clothes daily. Whenever you get a chance, wash them.
If the weather permits and you don't go full blown hobo you can actually appear not that scruffy, especially if you supplement with the occasional "I lost my bags" routine at a local transport station, I dunno how well that flies these days but that's something I did as a kid when I was looking my best (I had the foresight to take my khakis and buttondowns rather than a bunch of random clothes). This can help land you a job rather quickly if, again, you don't wallow in self misery.
THERE IS LIFE AFTER THIS if you get your shit together.
>>25781625
that pic could be literally anywhere
>>25781505
Do NOT sell your phone, you need access to the Internet to get out of this mess (it would at least make it easier), sell all other luxuries, invest in a hat, gloves, jacket and sleeping bag. Carry your cash inside your sleeping bag, not in your pocket. Stay dry, avoid the rain and puddles at all costs, don't linger in one place to long, don't go to the same places every day. MCDONALDS - it's cheap and high calories, protien and fat plus it has free wifi it's warm and the people are working minimum wage they won't kick you out worse they do is ask if you're ok.
>>25781581
I'm not scrawny. White 6' 170lbs. But I look scared and out of the element. But I'm tucked away pretty well. I used to go here when I was depressed and got high. Now i live here.
>>25781538
But I'm down for the latter. It'd be more meaningful and kinda fun. I won't be as big of a waste as I am now. the TOR is all talk and I find no help.
>>25780779
what state are you in anon?
>>25781533
Not worth it, you're going to die anyways, literally just kill yourself OP. Fuck suffering.
>>25781653
Yeah. But it's La shit hole apartment. So not that great. I just didn't want to run into other homeless or cops.
>>25781676
TOR?
I have been homeless for around a year. First of all, chill out. Tons of your ancestors lived the way you are now basically. Humans are designed for it. Find a quiet spot and get some sleep. I really don't know enough about you, what is your goal? In my case, I didn't really have one other to survive and browse the internet. If I was you, tomorrow, go to social services and see what they will give you, automatically you will qualify for food stamps, thats all the food you will need. Then chill out rest of day and relax. But I doubt that, you seem like most normies and will probably cry to your mom and go back home in a day or two so whatever.
>>25780902
wow we are literally the same kind of? i was almost homeless a couple days ago.
hang in there family. sending good vibes your way. stop telling yourself you are to blame, it doesn't matter who is at fault, all that matters is shit sux right now.
>>25781653
Read the thread you goatwanker
>>25781705
Get dicked, negro, just because you're an edgy internet faggot doesn't mean OP can't come out of this better in the end than anyone who encouraged giving up.
MY CONCERN IS NOT WHERE TO GET FOOD SND WATER. IM NOT AN IDIOT. ITS HOW DO I GET OUT OF THIS HOLE? With no one to fall on I just keep falling and falling. If my mind is paralyzed what do I do???
This is my struggle. I wish it was just food and water. Even the weather isn't phasing me. It's the despair.
>>25781740
reminder that women CAN'T be homeless
>>25781776
>1776
Cool digits tbqh anon
I understand... hope seems to me like it would be just as important as the rest of those.. or more imporant
I've slept out on the street once (and another time in the woods) because I lost my wallet and was out of town without my car. Shit fucking sucked and no one would answer the phone because it was already midnight. Fell asleep for 3 hours in an abandoned house like a squatter until I finally got a phone call at 7am.
>>25780902
>"kill yourself and follow through with something"
Holy fuck
>>25781740
Wow. Mystery.jpg on my /lifeending/ thread. I hope you're sincere.
>>25781776
The first days of homelessness can be quite the shock, you'll adapt.
>>25781134
Lostallhope.org
Pills have a very high failure rate. A firearm is the best option but jumping off a bridge or in front of a train have very high success rates.
You sound miserable and you're not going to do anything to change your situation. You should just kill yourself.
>>25781740
>i was almost homeless a couple days ago
guarantee this is some over exaggerated bullshit and she wasn't anywhere near "almost homeless". shut the fuck up whore, the people with real problems are speaking
>>25781739
Eh, it's less how well designed we are and more a matter of how hazardous it becomes as a member of an underclass in a social organization that has neither safetynet or tolerance of vagrancy.
But yeah, pretty much all that.
>>25781776
Senpai, as an actualized adult there is nobody to fall back on. Parents die and friends only have so much room between everything they're doing. You need to be able to get by. More to the point, you've got a ton of anons trying to give you some calming advice and perspectives on how THEY got out of the hole with no backup.
Shit sucks, we all feel you, we've all been on the first night out and you have no clue wtf is even going on, what tomorrow or a month or a year from the present emergency looks like.
The most important thing you can do is try to REST if there's no going back tonight so you can go through the usual public aid routine/shelter/agency routine. At least IMO.
>>25781823
Yeah. That was the final nail. My own mother, my last support fallen. Fuck life. Twenty three, my birthday is on February 24th and I am 100% killing myself before then. I won't ever see my ex, I won't ever go on the WSOP, so much I won't experience.
>>25781852
Fuck off, his situation is very new and scary, he isn't thinking 100% right now
>>25781739
No they lived in either villages or as tribes moving around. What that guy is experiencing is more akin to dumping a monkey who lived comfortably in the zoo
its entire life straight into the wilderness, alone.
Jump in front of a train imo, thats what I will do as soon as I get kicked out, which... my parents would rather just take away my vidya than kick me out..
Think of this as a (shitty and sad of course) opportunity to summon the courage to get out of this gay Earth
>>25781831
i am sincere. your life isn't over, hang in there bud. mental quicksand is a good way of putting it, but maybe get on some anti-depressants or something to calm the distress.
no one is ever going to understand how you're feeling right now other than people who have been there, and kek, i have been there.
if you're ever in ontario let me now and i'll offer you a couch or something.
>>25781898
Well where was your dog going to go if you ended up homeless...?
>>25780902
>she can't stand my depression, kicks me while I'm down while telling me to "kill yourself and follow through with something"
Where are you? Want to meet up and go rape that bitch?
join the military, are you in the US?
>>25781892
There is a train very close by. I'm going to go walk to it tomorrow. It would be over quickly But what if that .000014% chance of happiness comes if I wait. Fckkkkkk
>>25781865
It's the same as the "I was almost raaaped" shit. Pure attention whoring.
>>25780902
whatever happens, cut all ties with your mother, you should never forgive her
>>25781922
You're too young, die later
>>25781909
was going to leave him with my parents
>why don't you just live with your parents
because they fucking hate me, i'm basically an orphan. 2bh my mom would probably poison my pupper so i'd probably just adopt him out to a decent family
>>25781776
YOU NEED A JOB NGA
go to random restaurants and ask if they need dishwashers.
>>25781676
>I used to go here when I was depressed and got high. Now i live here
Fuck man, this really got to me.
>>25781911
My mom? Los Angeles. I thought about murdering her to teach her not to treat people like this. But if much prefer her living in shame knowing she pushed her son over the edge.
>>25781898
Fuck. This is tough to be honest. No where near anyone without transport. I just want a hug and cry. I miss my ex so much even while I'm homeless. Falling in love and losing it is a fate worse than death.
Hi OP, you should consider not basing your self worth on other people, cheers.
>>25781865
your right, because its hard for someone like me to be homeless. all i had to do was reach out to a couple friends i have in a lesfem group on facebook and i suddenly have three couches to sleep on, room for my dog, and money thrown at me.
feels good to be loved and there ain't no love like another woman's love.
>>25781984
Jesus Christ was your ex's pussy made of gold?
M O V E
O N
>>25781999
At first I was glad you contributed. But that last comment really assures me without those things I am fucked.
>>25781898
You've been there? You mean you were living on the streets? Did you parents even kick you out or did you leave on your own accord?
>>25781984
Your mom sounds like a cunt like mine, mine sided w/ my pedophile abusive ex like the cunt she is. Wish you were at least on the east coast
Also, seriously, go on meds. I don't care how memetier they are. Your "love" for your ex is codependent psychosis and you will be so much better functioning when you are numbed from it. Don't kill yourself 2bh.
This is what you get for living a normie life for any amount of time. The rest of you fucking normies better watch out, this is what's coming your way.
>>25782023
Two years best friends. Seven years best fiends second through fourth year we saw each other every day. We had an amazing story. I told her I loved her. She said she just wanted a friend. I stayed with it for another year and it finally came through. All to throw it away when I get cabin fever.
>>25781999
With this post, you laugh at a funeral.
Drown in piss, bitch
>>25782026
A woman will love you again one day. Your ex wasn't the only one. Just focus on taking care of yourself anon. Forget about the past. There is a reason why it's the past.
Please don't kill yourself senpai. ;_;
>>25782053
Irrelevant. Move on. Look forward, not backwards.
>>25782035
My parents have threatened to kick me out multiple times, but the only time where I was truly on my own I wasn't even living with them, I was in another country and was trying to leave my ex who was a pedo who cucked me. My parents had no idea at all and don't really care much about that situation, so yeah I guess of my own accord.
>>25781999
damn, i was feeling bad for you and then you posted this.
>>25782049
I am a failed normie for sure. Countless robots have it worse and stick it though. I am spoiled in the regard. I am moderately attractive, skinny, and charismatic. But it all went to shit because of a FUCKKNG GIRL I HSTE HER SL MUCH. FUUCK. I WANT TO GI TO SAN DIEGO AND CHOKE HER AND STARE INTO HER EYES AS THE ELECTIRCTIY LEAVESS FCK
>>25782036
He's fucking homeless IDIOT, he can't just get on meds fuck you're aggravating
>>25781740
>>25781898
>>25781955
>>25781999
Mystery, you are an awful person and I genuinely want nothing but bad things to happen to you.
This man is literally at the lowest point he'll ever be in his life, and you decide to make even this thread all about yourself while bragging about the fact that you have too many social connections to become homeless. Go fuck yourself, GO FUCK YOURSELF.
>>25782117
It's your fault, man. Fix it.
You guys are all cunts.
You seriously don't have tripfags filtered yet?
>>25782142
this. Mystery has a boyfriend too so OP she is trying to play you. She cant relate to you in anyway.
>>25782158
No shit man. Kinda hard when I'm past the point of no return. But thanks for contributing idiot.
>>25782119
idk what its like in americuck but in canada you can pretty much show up to a hospital and tell them you are suicidal and they will take you in and put you on meds if you honestly are
do americucks not have health insurance?
crying all night on the street won't do him any good. do you WANT him to kill himself? i don't, his soul seems pure and good
>>25781823
>>25781356
Why do people like this even have children?
>>25781776
Aww whitey fucked himself up and can't get back on his feet! Hahaha what a fucking retard. I hope you die in the cold, nigger. It's fucking SIMPLE: save up money, hit the homeless shelter, and work your way with a fucking job out of the rut. It isn't rocket science. It isn't college algebra. It's the easiet shit.
AgainC j hope you are killed by a pack of feral niggers. Goddamn whites people squandering your fucking benefits then whining
>baaaaw how get out of self inflicted circumstances?!?!?!
>>25782179
I know. But she's pretty and looks very similar to my ex. It's hard. I believe her for some reason.
Fuck
>>25782211
Women have screwed you over to the point of insanity and homeless. Are you really going to return to your vomit like a dog and repeat the same mistakes?
>>25782210
Actually made me laugh. And I am op. I'll take your advice why extend this?
>>25782211
Stop being a cuck dude it'll kill you
>>25782142
over two years ago i was in a foreign country with only my passport and a few short documents after catching the man that i had wasted my entire life on cheating on me with 15 year old girls (under the A o C in the country) and watching cp
if anyone can relate to OP its me, i didn't know anyone other than him and i didnt even have the ability to contact anyone or post on fucking /r9k/. i had to be interrogated by the cops for two hours because i couldnt come up with ID because i didnt want to go to the fucking police station and stay the night in jail in a foreign fucking country for loitering you fucking fucks
i was literally on the brink of committing suicide but i am very glad i didnt because yes, now, i have people in my life who genuinely love me. op will get there one day too.
Check yourself into a psych ward, they'll keep you until they find a place for you to stay long-term. You get to stay in a nice comfy hospital in the mean time; three meals a day, a bed, and lots of crazies screaming throughout the night.
>>25782236
Based biblical reference
>>25782250
You're still doing it, cunt. Fuck off
>>25782236
>>25782249
don't bother
these guys who end up homeless are so fucked up in the head you can't help them, they're beta to the point they'll ruin their entire live for some cunt.
>>25782236
No. But it's like a mirage. I can't help myself. My life is ending and I'm thinking to myself if my ex is thinking of me. I'm ill over a girl. Not even a 10, just my best friend that hasn't responded to my daily texts for a year. All she says is "stop Aric"
>>25782250
>waah i have problems too PAY ATTENTION TO ME
>on the brink of suicide because you didn't want to spend one measly night in jail
>>25782284
You can't even fathom. I put all my eggs in one basket. I threw the basket In river. Then I put all my chips down on getting her back. Burning family, friends, and financial bridges. Thanks tho.
>>25780779
Dunno if this helps, but here's some advice: Check dumpsters behind supermarkets. Make sure to check the expiration dates, as it'll most likely still be passable a little after the date. Also, if you find any bakery type places, then ask for bread leftovers and/or old bread. Best of luck, OP.
>>25782250
>me me me me me me me me ME ME ME ME ME
You are pathologically self-obsessed. And literally no one is going to care about your sob story, because we all hate your fucking guts and WANT bad things to happen to you. You're not a good person. Hell, you aren't even an INTERESTING person. I care about Eggman because he at least makes me laugh sometimes. You, on the other hand, contribute nothing to this board or the world.
>>25781984
>Falling in love and losing it is a fate worse than death.
I feel you, especially when it's your first love and you've never had anyone that really cared for you before that. My life spiralled out of control after I lost her and I'd be homeless if not for the support of my parents. It still a bit more than a year later. It's surprising I'm still alive.
>>25782285
You've been texting her daily for a w no response for a YEAR!?
Fuck.
Not good bro. Not healthy.
if you're near /cincinnati/ i'll come pick you up and you can at least stay outside my house. i'll give you food and shit. i've been homeless before, it fucking blows.
>>25782250
Mystery. While I for some reason believe you. It's just not the same. At the absolute worst some guy would love to just take you home. Not likely for me unless I run into a nun
>>25782314
>on the brink of suicide because i just found out the man i moved half way across the world for cucked me with children
kill yourself
OP leave some way to send you some money. i have like not so much money in my account but i dont mind helping out someone who actually knows what tragedy feels like
>>25782285
Women cannot understand love or comprehend it like a man. Women do not love like a man. They are children controlled completely by their desires and impulses. They just move on to another boy, they don't know how to give love. They only know how to receive love, attention and praise.
being homeless is easy as fuck and you'll get used to it. that said it's debilitating as fuck, and i STRONGLY reccomend staying the fuck away from other homeless people and try your best to not look homeless. I was homeless for a year or so, so if you want any tips or anything just ask
>>25782250
just killyourself
we don't want to hear this shit in here
fuck off roastie
lol faggot boi
>>25782321
You know how I feel. My only girlfriend, only girl I've had sex with. We did so much together. And now she's in San Diego and I'm here obsessed over her
>>25782315
start again, and this time put all your time into yourself
Never ever ever have your life revolve around one woman, women prey on guys who do that and take advantage of them, and by the end they have nothing left.
Women are best used as an amusement in life, have 3 or 4 at once (but make sure they don't know about each other)
>>25782320
Fucking this. Fuck you mystery, go to hell and get raped by a pack of feral niggers. Eggman? He legitimately wants to help people and actually tries to. He doesn't put forth these empty ass "lol Yol get through it xDDD" messages. He doesn't make shit about him. you? You're a piece of shit. Drink bleach.
>>25782373
I'm going back home to SD in a week or so. What's her name?
>>25782347
>dating a pedophile
you kill yourself, why didn't you fucking see that coming you fucking illiterate retard. how could have not known he was a pedo? you're so fucking dumb.
>>25782393
eggman literally spends all his time on r9k begging for views and money
kek
>>25782392
The worst part I suppose. After j left her. She came to my apartment one day unannounced. Crying at the door, asked me to get my stuff and let's start over. I looked at her dead in the eyes and said "no" next day I regretted it. But I did too much damage.
>>25782411
Just fuck off from here
How hard is it
>>25782411
Why are you here?
No one here likes you, you don't fit in with the community, and you ruin every thread you touch. What are you getting out of being here?
>>25782411
And even he's better than you
>>25782395
Mystery is fine right now. She under estimates how easy she has it. Leave her be. I just want to keep reading till one of you say something to make me actually lay down on the train tracks
>>25782411
can you just stop replying, you ruin ever thread you go in, this isn't about you it's about a guy who is out in the cold on his own
So where do you sleep when you're homeless? Where do you get food? I can manage to keep myself clean and I can hang out in the Library/Restaurants during the day.
>>25782360
>i STRONGLY reccomend staying the fuck away from other homeless people
I've never been homeless, but when imagining it I always get the feel this is a good idea. Can you elaborate, what are your experiences?
>>25782411
Just leave already. You aren't wanted here. You have a boyfriend, you had enough money to go to another country, you problems are trivial.
>>25782452
Food stamps start on the first. Starving takes three weeks. I can get water library to charge my phone and external battery.
>>25781878
my son died 2 years ago,you both have the same birthday.
>>25782452
R u schizo? People have been telling u those things and you said you knew all that shit akready
>>25782476
That makes me genuinely sad. My golden birthday and I'll have to force myself to stop all this.
>>25782447
Okay OP, here is what you're going to do
Stop being a pussy about the train tracks
Go whore your boi pussy out for some heroin
At least go out in a bang, fuck. Maybe opiates can be your new gf. There is so much to live for.
>>25782478
That's not op. I'm op.
>>25782250
put your ego in check, mystery. People will respond to you a lot better if you do.
>>25780779
i was homeless for two years (by choice more or less). i had food stamps and would steal food on a daily basis - i was in a tech neighborhood and i'd coordinate the food heist when 100s of workers would flood into this market that had a buffet. basically i'd go in there fill up a to go box, get a drink, then walk out and only once was i apprehended by loss prevention. i said 'fuck off or either you pay for this food because i'm severely hungry or get out of my way'. one of them tried to grab my arm and said 'get your dirty mutt hands off me you shit bag' i'm yelling really loud at this point and they just let me go.
i had a sleeping bag i'd just sleep outside had like 5 different spots. all in all my best advice for you is look at it like an excursion and watch the shit out of society. see how it operates, the people, the cars, the busy lifestyle, and realize none of it really matters. just do what you got to do and try get out.
>>25782494
>being miserable and addicted to heroin is better than being dead
>this is what normalfags actually think
oh wow
>>25782494
Suck pedo dick u stain
>>25782494
Wow. Now get the fuck out of here. I DONT KNOW ANYONE TO HRT HERION OTHETWISE ID HAVE SMASHED THEIR HEAD IN WITH A ROCK AND STEAL IT TO DIE. ROASTIE BITCH.
>>25782447
>I just want to keep reading till one of you say something to make me actually lay down on the train tracks
Either something happens when you die, or it doesn't, forever. Forever is so absurd it makes more sense to me that something will happen, seeing as how it already did once to break the last period of "forever."
Thats what I'll tell myself if I need the courage to do it
>hate mystery
>keep feeding the tripfag with replies anyways
Why can't you faggots just ignore the fucking whore?
>>25781676
Well OP, the question is.
>Do you really want to die?
My friend sent me a link to this thread. Hope you get your shit together OP.
>>25782580
Hate is fun
>>25782580
We aren't the only ones giving her attention.
If we completely ignored her, she would still have an army of orbiters to feed her ego. At least this way we might be able to take her down a notch and get her to leave.
>>25781898
take off the fucking trip if your'e sincere attentionwhore
>>25782591
No. But I'm in a cold painful corner. I genuinely don't otherwise I would have without posting
OP go join the Marine Corps. You'll get really fit, get your mind set straight, become an alpha and if you want to go to college for free when you get out. That or join the Navy and travel for free.
Update. Going on a nightwalk to clear my head and stand up. Hid my bag in the crawl space. If it gets stolen I'm done.
Op, you managed to reach normie life once
There is nothing you can't do
I know how first love hurts, I have oneitis
You never really "get over it"
But you can distract yourself
Don't give up OP
Don't believe in yourself, belive in me who believes in you
Life is a bitch, but you just gotta learn how to fuck it
>>25782641
Horribly unhealthy. Extreme asthma. Don't take well to being yelled at or degraded.
Why don't you get a job, Anon?
>>25782664
Hey man I'm not religious but maybe ask some churches for help? They like to be charitable I hear
>>25782664
Good luck don't get fucking killed/mugged ohpee
>>25782185
Fuck off roastie. Goddamn canadistan faggot
>>25782211
wow holy fuck. i was rooting for you before, but now i think you should go lay on some train tracks. Being homeless in america is easier than life in lots of other places. man up you cry baby bitch.
>>25782692
Can't shower. Long gap in employment.
Mentally unstable due to unhealthy obsession. I'm in a bad place. Even Walmart wouldn't hire me. I worked for a huge company as a sales rep. I was doing so well but I flew too close to the sun and my wings burned sending me plummeting to earth.
>>25782678
Thanks buddy. No homo but I just want to be held. At this point I don't care if you're a guy I just hate feeling THIS alone
>>25780902 >>25780779
>left my girlfriend of 7 years
And here I was going to give you advice from a few times homeless guy to a newbie but fuck you, normie scum.
>>25782636
Well not suicide, but you could still go out with a bang I guess. Better than being found hanging from a rope in a motel room.
>>25782664
>>25782664
so you're trying to get your bag stolen so you'll have an excuse to kill yourself? smart move
>>25782735
All valid points. Even though I hate you for being a asshole. I don't wish this pain on anyone. To cut a hole out of yourself to make room for someone, just to have them gone leaving you with a gaping chasm. Thanks anon I'll see you in hell.
>>25782756
I would love to be the next Elliot. But no funds, and am too sympathetic (empathetic?)
>>25782757
It's too heavy. I closed it up so if it's getting stolen they can have my marijuana license and clothes.
>>25782664
Is that a fucking Herschel backpack? This is such a joke.
>>25782751
Yes. OP kill yourself. Seriously bro. Go to fucking /adv/ maybe those normie cunts might help you. Just fuck off from here.
>>25782739
Dude you can't accept those things as part of your identity.
You can rise above, but you have to shed all those false conceptions of yourself.
You can wash. People itt told you how: supemarkets
I suggested going to random restaurants and asking if they need dishwashers
They always do. They won't care if you're scruffy as fuck.
You have to evolve
>>25782411
go date another pedo roastie
>>25782797
Yeah haha. I used to have funds. Bought it because it's well made. But no joke and not bait
>>25782494
ur kinda a cunt m8
>>25782804
You're right. My name is Aric by the way. Maybe you could remember me as long as possible. I guess I wouldn't be truly dead until I am forgotten.
>>25782686
Well they'd be able to fix all of that, but asthma takes you out sadly. What state are you in? If you live near me I could maybe help you out some man.
>>25782764
im already there man. hope that makes you feel better
>>25782864
I know it does. Los Angeles California apparently all of you bots live far away.
>>25782491
anon im a 40 year old man,i have been with this boy through 2 divorces an eviction and this kid helped me quit drinking.
and his favourite movie was finding nemo.Loved that dumb movie till he was 17,and he was psyched about the finding dory movie.
and through all this shit he just kept telling me to"just keep swimming."
one day while at work i heard he got hit by a car,fuck everyone in this thread saying kill yourself or trying to sympa-advertise with you.
im begging you from man to man,please dont do it
>tfw i realize this isnt the manchild board after all
>>25782920
Fuck. I'll be your son anon dad I loved that movie too. I have the urge to keep swimming but am paralyzed and drowning.
>>25782739
What part of LA are you in?
>>25782971
Sfv. Please don't get my hopes up. I don't believe in angles and my luck is dried up.
Op, honestly. This is all your fault, stop with that " I'm so sad because I kicked my gf", stop being a spoiled little brat and unfuck yourself. First time life throw a obstacle at you, and you behave like this? Just be a man and get over this shit.
>>25783015
Maybe you should re read. I said all of this. I dug this grave. I've fucked myself past the point of fuck all. Now tell me your wisdom sensei?
>>25782920
Stop being such a faggot. Nobody deserves to suffer because you are too weak to handle their suicide.
>>25782951
i promised myself id see that movie with him,but for closure i will.
anon i want you to just breathe.
now that you have literally nothing to distract you,cause you have lost it all.
make sure theres no one around,close your eyes and just try and meditate until you are calm enough to think out a course.
that one anon that said he was from cincinatti.reply to him and see what you can work out.
fish cant drown anon,you just think you are drowning,the only obstruction is your mind.
he once told me that we should both shave our heads and become monks.
learn how to use a staff and all that stuff.
we used to love cheesy kung fu flicks,just imagine all the cool stuff you can do in life
>>25782902
Yeah man I'm in Va I'd help if I could sorry.
>>25783042
Death would be a nice remedy. I'm a coward and fear not known if I'll be able to hear my ex laugh one last time.
>>25782996
I'm not that anon but are you anywhere near North Hollywood?
>>25780779
Anybody that believes this shit is as dumb as fuck
>>25783076
Me too buddy, me too. Even the gesture is warming.
>>25783042
well if he wants to kill himself,i cant stop him nor can i hate him for it.
and i dont like how you guys just compare with him,saying that ppl have been through worse ,we all differ in mental strength.
im just voicing my concern on a bloody imageboard,i know its not much but all i can do is level with him using words.
>>25783090
Yes. Kinda. Sherman way and Van nuys basically.
>>25783102
Good luck and Stick in there. Hopefully you look back on this in 10 years, and see how far you've made it.
>>25783038
I don't know, just try to make this through without the " I'm going to kill myself" plenty of people here said this is manageable, so think until you find a solution to this.
>>25782211
>mystery
>pretty
Pick one
>>25783096
I'm serious. Want a time stamp in dirt? Tell me something I could write so you would know.
>>25783150
I never saw her, post a pic if it's possible.
>>25783150
She looks like my ex vaguely. It's the sickness and she tricked me into believe her nonsense. She is ugly on the inside like all women
>>25783038
OP Why kill yourself when you haven't even lived. Like another poster said, you're homeless in America, do you know what that means? This could be you OP
https://youtu.be/bmav517MQJc
You could blog about your life, set up an ad sense account, say some stuff about being homeless. You have 0 obligations and responsibilities right now. Just spend some time up keeping your appearance, go out and about on nice days to the beach if you can, and spend time talking to people. I'd also do what another anon said about couch surfing. I'm also not sure how close you live to LAX, but you always could buy a refundable first class ticket, indulge at the complementary bar, and then refund your ticket. You also could make posts on Craigslist that you're looking for a roommate. Honestly OP I feel like you're trolling at this point
>>25782739
>Can't shower. Long gap in employment.
>Mentally unstable due to unhealthy obsession. I'm in a bad place. Even Walmart wouldn't hire me.
You can still get a job at a place that nobody else wants to work. Like washing dishes at some fly by night eatery, scrubbing tires and fenders at a brushless car wash, cleaning the floor and polishing body panels at an auto detail shop.
>>25783126
I live on Saticoy and Laurel Canyon
>>25783189
I have 1.58$ to my name. No friends. So now. I can't even get one of you to be my friend what would a blog do? I'm too robot for normies, too normie for robots. Im alone. Nothingg
>>25783226
I know where that is exactly. Cool to know, but nothing has changed haha.
>>25782996
Original anon that asked the LA question. I'm down in Gardena
Get yourself a job asap. Whatever you can. You can escape this cycle, you have to be quick. Do you have a pair of clean clothes? Get to a shelter. We are with you senpai.
>>25783251
Too far to walk. No car or bus funds.
>>25783162
fuck the fucking robot jesus god damn
>>25783273
The clothes on my back. Plus a pair of shorts, underwear and socks. A towel and jacket. the cycle is already half way through. Job is out of reach, im more worried about a bed or even four walls.
Isn't California like half homeless people anyway?
At least you aren't on the northeast coast, you'd be dead from the weather
>>25783343
Both true. But the former is to my detriment. Another drop in the bucket and the weakest link. I'm phucked.
>>25783251
You're getting closer to the realization that Opie is probably sitting somewhere in the east coast chuckling at us all.
>>25783306
She is not that ugly, would easily fuck her.
>>25783389
of course, because you're pathetic and desperate like most men
>>25783383
Nay. Really here. Really homeless. I wish this was bait or a meme. But I'm here paralyzed by fear and my past decisions.
>>25783232
>I have $1.58 to my name
Use a free wordpress or blogger in the meantime, you can use adsense for a free blogger account but you need to make like 7 - 11 posts, I can link you/email you more info if you're interested. This wouldn't solve your problems however
>I'm alone, I'm too robot for normies too normie for robots
ANON you're going to have to talk to strangers if you want to live life. You have to make an effort to look presentable ie - go in a convenience store, open up their product, apply it on your body (think deodorant/hairgel).
You should also look at staying at a church/asking them for money, and you could talk to them about your problems which = potential friends, or at least someone that can help.
What I'm saying is anon is that if you want to live, not just exist, you're going to have to learn how to talk to people, be willing to be uncomfortable, and change OP. You HAVE to be willing to change. Right now, you're a loser, finding ways out, to lose at life. You're going to have to change your attitude, and find ways to win at life. If you can promise me and yourself that you'll go out of your comfort zone to find a way to win, and get out of your situation, then I can promise you that you'll make it out.
>>25783306
it looks like her only kiss was a really hard fall on concreet
>>25783402
Yeah right. And as more and more people reading your thread offer to meet up and help you, the more elusive you will become.
>>25783444
4 is my lucky number.
I'll meet up with anyone and talk. But no one wants to be my genuine friend for the reasons I've stated.
I was cheering for OP but now i want to punch him really hard so he can snap out of his retardation and man the fuck up.
Where did you work OP?
>>25783472
But >>25783251 is driving close to where you are now. Let me guess, you don't want his help because it's not "genuine" help.
>>25780902
maybe take up crack and heroin and alcoholism, should do you less damage than having a gf
