Do any of you have things you feel intense shame over but didn't do anything to bring upon yourself and don't seem to be able to alleviate?
For me
I have feederism tendencies that make my sexuality dysfunctional. The act of sex itself and the female body is less appealing than the idea of a growing figure. It keeps me from having real intimate relationships as I will never desire a woman in the way she deserves and fulfilling my sexual kink would be incredible destructive on a person I respect and love. I will never be normal all because I probably saw some cartoon as a child and the weird input wired my brain wrong. I don't want power over women or make her unattractive to others my brains just fucked.
I actually relate to you very well, OP. I'm the inverse of you where I want to gain and get impossibly fat and I've wanted that since I was a little kid.
But I don't. I keep healthy, don't overeat, stay active, and avoid masturbating to that fantasy at all costs. It takes a lot of work to masturbate to other things but it is possible.
>>25583672
Its just incredibly cruel that basic human intimacy is denied to me because I'm a weirdo .
>>25583672
>>25583672
how does a sexual fantasy based on desire of ones own body work?
>>25583672
How do you stay hard without your fetish? Difficult to bone a woman and not be into it.
>>25583845
I could masturbate to the idea of myself getting fat. No other person required, it's just the imagination of what it would feel like. It's an unhealthy fetish though so I don't masturbate to it.
>>25583741
Aren't you capable of self-control though? You don't have to physically desire a woman in order to still love her and enjoy her company.
>>25583877
Not fair to her though to not be desired, better to be celibate.
>>25583868
I don't have a penis and I don't orgasm from sex.
>>25583627
I'm a fat grill who gained 100lbs this year, if you wanna post contact I can show you before pics and stuff
>>25583948
What caused you to?
>>25584050
d-does it really matter? I'm a little fattass, I really like pizza and cheesecake.
>>25584107
not really I suppose, I was just wondering if it was kink, what the hell made a drop email
>>25583877
Why do you stay trim if it brings you decreased satisfaction in life?
>>25584107
little fatties are the sexiest
