>>25472036
i love pakistani girls since they have strictest parents and get atleast whipped more often than any other ethnic girls; a lot of them are polite and sincere. their bodies getting lashed with bruises and stitches turns me on; i like it when a women is horrendously abused despite having no hope in life. Suppressing/opressing women makes me hard.

Wanna quit school and start selling drugs like my normie friends but Im suck a pussy to do it and father is probably going to kick my ass too

>>25472036

I have all kinds of big dreams and shit and in the back of my mind I have a feeling that I won't achieve and that I should just kill myself now and not bother.


What I plan to do is just try anyway and if I am nowhere close by 30 years old, then I'll kill myself.

>>25472036
>almost 20 and still sleep with my baby blankies
my parents sometimes take jabs at me for it but its my only sense of security

My sister is severely disabled. I wish she was never born. You're supposed to be extremely supportive of your sibling when they turn out like this but fuck it.
I wish she was never born. She's responsible for most of the problems of our family.

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I'm struggling with rationalizing my existence. I can't seem to find any viewpoint that is convincing. Most of the time I'd rather be dead than carry the psychological burden of being alive.

I have psychosis NOS which in my case is basically just schizophrenia. I'm getting worse and my deepest fear is that I'll end up as some useless bumblefuck waiting to die in a group home somewhere. I'll probably an hero if it comes down to it but I know it'll kill my parents and I don't know if I could do that to them. Plus I'm a fucking pussy. I don't know what to do.

>>25472036
>i like the filet o fish at McDonald's
omg end you'reself