Feels stories, anyone? I want to feel the sadness flow through me.
>shit my pants
>shit them again
why
>>25450839
>bowel movement
you're really feeling something
>cat die
>eat body
>cry
>>25451155
OP here telling you to get your shit off my thread.
>>25450774
There was this girl who kept looking at me, obviously she was into me.
I liked her too, but didn't went to her and now she's with a buff nigga (not an actual nigger just a chad).
This was years ago tho
still have feels from it
yeah i'm that shy, sorry joselyn ;__;
>was fat fuck my entire life
>350lbs at my worst, 270+ through middle and high school
>very little friends
>kissless virgin
>now
>225lbs, been lifting on and off since May
>actually look halfway normal
>still a kissless virgin
>halfway decent genetics, not Chad Thundercock-tier handsome but not ugly either, blonde hair blue eye master race
>actually halfway decent at being social with dudes, or even with girls who i'm not interested in or who I assume aren't interested in me
>but once I think a girl might be interested, the fucking S E C O N D she starts showing signs of attraction
>eye contact gone
>correct, open posture devolves into the beta slump I had all through high school
>don't talk to or look at her, and if she says anything to me, respond to her as succinctly as possible, and generally avoid her
>tfw never going to get laid
>tfw never going to even kiss a fucking girl
>tfw always going to be a little fucking bitchboi who's terrified of being intimate with women
What's even the fucking point?
For a long time I just numbed my pain with weed, but I've been trying to not do that as much lately, so all I'm left with is massive amounts of self-loathing, zero self confidence, and a fucking negative feedback loop of never being able to even be friends with any remotely fuckable girl, because as soon as they start being friendly, for some dumbshit fucking reason I always assume they either secretly wish I would go away, or are just trying to turn me into a beta orbiter.
I've never been with a girl. I came close but fucked up a few years ago and haven't moved on. I'm fucking pathetic, and sad and lonely. I mask my sadness with a cheerful, hopeful outlook and talk to people as if everything in my life is going okay, but I'm so fucking sad and ugly feeling and I feel that I have no one I can confide in because everyone I can talk to would judge me for how I am. I moved my pillow down to my side because it's more comfy to sleep without it and it felt fucking good on my crotch like how I imagine a girl would feel lying next to me. I'm pathetic.
>spend two days downloading revengance in shitty Internet
>install it and delete iso for space
>Norton deletes steam.api
>>25451358
Don't killy yourself if that's what you're implying.
>>25451535
Fucking bawled all over keyboard. The feels just penetrated me hard.
In February it will have been 5 years since my grandfather died. One of my last memories of him is arguing with him over some stupid bullshit and him telling me to grow up. I also remember the very last time I saw him alive. We were visiting his house and my brother hugged him as were saying goodbye. I just waved at him, but I had a feeling in that moment. I ignored it and walked out. He had been in and out of the hospital because he just got gastric bypass surgery and was losing a ton of weight. Things were looking up and I was confident I'd see him again and I hate hospitals so I never came to visit. He had another heart attack while in the hospital and by the time I got there the doctors and nurses were trying to revive him. His body was alive but he left with us all standing in the room. I never had a chance to say goodbye because I was too busy playing WoW. I don't even like that fucking game anymore.
>>25451537
If I had the balls to end myself, I would've done it 125lbs ago.
>>25451621
damn, dude right in my feeler. this is why I don't play WoW. plus, i'm a poorfag
