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>2016
>believing "it gets better"
> 1 January
> Already a fucking shitty day
>reading old journals
>wanted it go get better every year
>it never did
it does if you work on it
>tfw when you realize you are getting exactly what you deserve in life
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GkpYTU7bg38
'is there any point in trying to change? No matter what I do it always stays the same'
Thats closest Ill ever get to real partying
Happy 2016, robots
It only gets better if you improve yourself and the world around you. If you're a fucking NEET loser than nothing will change.
>tfw when decided to wait it out to see if things ever change
>>25413930
Well, I almost got to make out with a girl on a New Years party
Too bad I passed out from too much alcohol before I could. But felt nice nevertheless, even if it lasted a mere few seconds
But hey... maybe it's better that you never had anything worth losing. You're just numb... that's better than hurting from losing something you loved, right?
>2016
>having to celebrate another birthday at some point
>>25413930
I'll be 20 in a couple months. This picture scares me to no end.
Remember to act like you appreciate it....or else.
>>25414046
normalfag background story was that the guy came to the restaurant with his wife every day and kept coming when she died
PROVED FAKE
only robots know the truth
>2016
>is this the year I have friendsI can count on?
...or just say "fuck it" and have the party anyway
>>25413930
oh don't worry
i don't believe that kind of shit since a long time by now
>tfw good looks couldn't even save you
>>25414008
gay ass song my nigga what are you -3?
i've believed in the it will get better meme for too long only to be proven than everything gets shittier daily
who /anhero2016/?
>>25414170
Reminder that a large group of friends and I found him and wished him a happy birthday
>>25414264
do you have proof? post them
>be 10
>worst player on little league team
>beg dad to play catch with me
>dad says no every time and lays on the couch to watch tv instead
>start throwing tennis ball against brick wall outside of house so I can work on throwing and catching
>dad finally comes out! did he change his mind?
>dad yells at me because the tennis ball hitting the wall is making noise and disturbing his TV viewing
>quit baseball forever
Happy fucking holidays
>>25413930
It's not getting worse, so it's definitely an improvement
>>25414112
>>25414138
>>25414238
you have quite the collection! i had never seen these ones before. got any more?
>>25413930
I believe in improving myself, ofc it's not going to magically "get better".
aren't you glad you came out of your room?
>tfw your parents try to give you the anime themed birthday party they think you've always wanted
Sometimes having years worth of practice smiling on command comes in handy. Even the upper class are not immune to friendless loneliness.
>>25413952
>that gif
Literally me right now. Feels comfy tbqh.
>implying years mean anything practically
>implying it's not just another day in your life
my birthday is at the end of January
So this time from NYE to my birthday is the worst. After that I tell myself I have 10 months to make things work this time. To make friends or even find a gf. And stop being alone.
>2016
>another year that will pass just like the last one
>tfw you promised yourself you'd really try this year
>>25414527
Keep listening to those tapes, anon. No matter what... keep listening.
>>25414351
wow your dad is an asshole
> go to NYE party
> couldn't get laid
> caught a flu
> spend the whole day in bed
Yeah, 2016 started quite fucking well
>birthday in april
>turning 25
>luckily its on Saturday this year so there wont be any awkwardness at work
>will probably go buy a cheap piece of cake and eat it outside the supermarket
why wont anyone love me
i did not need to read this thread.
>>25414036
You calling me a fucking loser has made me lose all hope and motivation to better myself. Before reading this, I was going to better myself and the world around me, but you ruined everything.
>Going to turn 27 this year
>enough said
>>25414036
true, I'm sitting in my basement like things will get better on their own.
>>25416009
Same. I got denied into grad school so I'm just going to continue to be a neet.
Nothing gets better when you are a 26 year old ugly balding manlet fatfuck with a 13 cm pencil pee pee. Wish I wasn't a fucking coward so I could end it.
>>25416009
Three weeks for me.
>>25413930
Just turned 20 today, this is literally me.
Why are these pictures so fucking depressing?
The people who took these pictures had no clue that what they were capturing was so powerful. A part of the human experience that remains ignored.
it does if you try
>depressed at school
>depressed at work
Just turned 19 43 minutes ago. When does it start getting better m80s?
>>25418464
Turning 22 in a few days.
No idea.
Happy birthday anon
>>25418464
When you do something to change it.
>>25418464
20 here. Don't know mate. Maybe never? I definetely don't expect it to get better, anymore.
Life just sucks. We have to deal with or just do an hero. But I'm to much of a pussy for that.
somehow this makes me feel a little better that loads of robots feel bad on supposedly good days too
>2016
>about to quit my job because I just can't do it and hate everything and want to kill myself
>family don't get it and think I'm just a lazy shit
I hate normies. I hate normies so much because they literally think they EARNED their happiness when it was just fucking given to them
>>25418600
Getting a job was supposed to be my change. The money's nice, and the only thing keeping me there. The thing is, it's a good job but I just cant seem to be comfortable there.
>>25418543
Thanks man, happy birthday in advance to yourself.
>>25413952
that pepe looks pretty comfy to be honest
i love the sound of rain, and gray skies are right in the goldilocks zone of too bright/too dark.
>>25413930
>dropped out of uni because depressed
>reattended and dropped out again because it made my depression worse
>parents want me to attend again or find work
>jobs I have had I couldn't keep for over a month
>having to work or follow education makes me anxious
>
>>25414351
>not killing your asshole dad and putting in on your mom
why so weak?
27yo this month
>JUST
human bean are not in control, we are being played by forces we do not understand, like physic and probability.
I wasted over three decades decause I am mentally ill, but for many years I did not realize that I am ill.
fuck this shit
>>25418994
>wasted over three decades
>27
How's that work exactly?
Only reason I go on is because I know I could off myself anytime
>>25413930
>>25413954
>>25413986
>>25414013
>>25414138
>>25414196
>>25414170
>>25414567
>>25414699
>>25414623
Fuck, this shit is depressing. Why is this world so awful?
>>25419038
For some reason auto corect fucked up and there is over instead almost
>>25419124
Knowledge.
The bible was right about that one.
I quit smoking drugs and cigs. Not some new year resolution bullshit, I just happened to realize I should start trying to self improve the little bit I can. I go to a uni and have a 3.0, a few friends, but fuck getting a girl to even be friends with me post high school is going to be harder than going to fucking space. I know its fucking day three but I've never wanted to off myself more. I know I'll be able to quit, but I don't know if I will ever feel ok again with out pumping dopamine into my brain artifically. I feel like a fucking sack of shit and I hate that I'm a pissed off little dickhead to everyone I come across. I just wish I could keep my fucking mouth shut arround people I like. I almost wish I'd get an attitude with the wrong person to get put in my place.
>>25414623
story please.
here's my fucking original comment
>>25418464
turned 19 about a month ago, I don't think it will ever get better. Circumstances will change but everything will have the same outcome
I mean i would try to change and have a better life, but i have no idea what i want.
My idea of perfect life is getting a random job that pays enough, live with my family/parents and play videogames in my free time.
Feeling numb 24/7 but at least i wouldn't be sad and still have some fun untill i die
Damn, i'm feeling worse as days pass by, i might be able to outgrowth the fear of killing myself. Not even the people (family) i grew up with and had a wonderful time as a kid/teen want to talk to me...at 1st i didn't care, i mean, i liked being alone, just thinking and wasting time, but now i'm 23, haven't had a relationship since i was 12 or something, no friends, no job, doing nothing all day. I tried to change, tried to make friends, but i couldn't because i don't understand people and they don't seem to be interested in me in any way, i know a few people and team members from sport related stuff, but even when they are making plans to go out and have fun, they don't consider me.
So i tried to get along better with my family, my cousins and siblings, but it was the same, and that got me even more depressed, the realization that not even your own family wants to talk to you or include you in their plans.
I don't know robots, this year might be the year for me, when i get the balls it takes to shoot my brains out.
>>25419124
I just want to ask these guys if they wanna hang out and play some vidya
>>25419780
>hang out
>play vidya
Pick one and choose your existance
>>25414090
>tfw the girl taking the picture is laughing
>>25419780
>>25419385
Oh yeah, vydia doesnt even appeal to me anymore now that i quit drugs. I guess most of my hobbies are fading too. All I do now is clean shit and lay in bed. I feel like Im fucking flatlining now. Literally the only reason I havent and wont off myself is because of my parrents and my siblings, but existing in perpetual depression, anxiety, and bipolarism is making every day exponentially harder.
>>25414351
And the cats in the cradle in the silver spoon
Little boy blue and the man on the moon............
>22
>everyone keeps asking me when I'm going to graduate from college
>failed every single class last year
>all friends cut contact with me
>sit in my room all day
>rarely play vidya
>no gf
>>25420301
I feel you. i fucked up hard last semester and friends are dropping like flys, not that I ever had many anyways. Hope things go better for you than me.
>>25414351
>year 7
>want to play football
>school team tryouts coming up
>ask dad to help me practice
>tells me to fuck off because I'll fail anyway
>>25420460
For some reason that reminded me of the time my dad punched me off the chair I was sitting on at the kitchen table. When I got up he threw the chair at me.
>>25420351
Is dropping out of uni a common occurrence for robots?
>depressed and hated course so didn't both going in most days
>get kicked out of uni
>forced to move back in with parents
>no job
>no friends
>parents hate me
ughuuuuuu this thread is so depressing... it feels nice to not be alone
>>25420609
i didnt drop out, im still pulling a 3.0 somehow but yeah it seems common for robots.
>depressed and hated course so didn't both going in most days
me too, that and being on drugs most of the time. but quitting like i've posted earlier leaves me feeling hallow
>>25420674
>not be alone
Fuck off, normie
>>25414567
what a lousy cake
I wish there was a government program where robots were drafted into the army by force and put into robot companies consisting with at least 90% robots. They would act as a reserve and would never be sent to fight abroad, but they would be paid minimum wage and would have to live together in standard quarters with no internet or computers. After 5 years of service, the robot would be allowed to leave the compound for a trial period, to see how well they've adjusted to other people.
It may sound harsh, but there are different kinds of suffering and this would be the type that mostly do good and serves to strengthen character.
>>25420693faggot
I am anything but a normie.
>>25420712
mental illness and the military doesn't mix well. There would be a lot of suicide attempts, people going AWOL, people doing anything in their will to try to get out. That happens even when people volunteer. Imagine if it was mandatory
>>25420686
As much as I hated the course I miss all of the few friends I made there.
>>25420765
Then let them kill themselves
>these pictures of robot birthdays
This is my future
>moving
>gonna have almost an entire 24hr period with no internet
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
>>25420351
The only friends I have are online now. We'll pull through somehow.
>>25420609
I think about it everyday. The only reason I haven't is because I'm so far in (4 years) and my mom freaks the fuck out and tells me I'll work at McDonalds the rest of my life if I don't continue. Couldn't even take a semester off because of this. The lack of a break has really fucked with my grades.
>>25420920
Its gonna be our time soon this lonely cycle.
>>25414623
>that probably pedo bear shirt
audible chuckle
>>25420963
Yay, I'm nearing 20. Hope the pain goes soon
>>25421193
The pain never goes away anon.
Never goes away.
>>25421242
wish i could disprove that
more than anything
>>25421242
Thanks for shattering my hope, anon
You wish you weren't born, why even care how old you are?
>>25421503
i wouldnt know im 22 if i didnt have a fraternal twin
I didnt know it was my birthday until he said something stupid about it
>>25421618
as much as a person's life may be dull i can't see how can anyone forget the date of his birthday t b h
>>25417112
Happy birthday man
So glad that this was not original
>>25413930
>>25413986
>>25414138
>>25414567
These guys are just 20.
I'm 23 and I have never had a birthday party or even just spent my birthday with friends (as I've never had any).
What do you robots wish for when you blow out your candles?
>>25421692
its not important and every day is a repeat of the same shit for me
no one tells me happy birthday and when you dont keep track of the days it becomes irrelevent
>>25421817
all i remember is its arround thanksgiving
>>25421804
I'm turning 20 on Monday.
>no job
>no friends
>kv
>mediocre academic history
What am I looking forward to?
I at least want to know, so I can at least brace for it, instead of being surprised when things happen.
>>25421815
>having a cake
top kek m8. i tip my top fedora to you
>>25421815
there was a real cake, and candles.....
>Every birthday since I was 15 i've asked myself is it better yet?
>Every year I say no
>Turning 30 this year
>still isn't better it's worse
>going to wrap my car around a tree after getting as drunk as possible on my birthday
Good luck guys, if you haven't fixed your life by 25 give up, its all down hill from there
>>25421804
the guy in the op pic would be older by now, I reverse image searched it before and there were posts from 2013.
>tfw 23 year old neet
>>25420712
it's called joining a Buddhist monastery
>23
>close to dropping out from my mediocre school, attending a mediocre no future course, for the second time
>no interest to pursue anything in life
>no job I wish I was doing for the rest of my life
I just don't give a shit what to do
>>25413930
Why is there never a girl in a pic like this?
Women say they have it back but they will never know that feel.
>>25420609
I actually graduated uni, but I've been unemployed for 2 years.
>>25421923
This pretty much. If I havent succeced by the time im 30 then in going to off myself. And yes I am trying dammit.
Just fuck my desu up desu
>>25421874
I used to be all four of those things, now I'm just a friendless kv. It took failing out of my previous school and having to move back home to turn around academically, but I rededicated myself and now I'm on a steady path, getting A's and B's. I have an alright part time job to help out at home and have some spending money while I'm going to school. Trying to solve those other two points this year.
>>25421953
I don't doubt it. I remember seeing this picture >>25413986 when I was younger and not wanting to turn out that way. Now I'm 3 years older and in still in the same boat.
>>25419038
1st decade: 0-10
2nd decade: 10-20
3rd decade: 20-30
So he would be in the 3rd decade.
>>25421989
What did you study?
Keep getting muted
>>25422097
I studied English Literaturepls no bully, I had no idea what I was doing at the time.
I graduated with high honours, but I don't want to do law or teaching so I might as well not even have a degree.
>1 (one) day into 2016 and things are shittier than ever
why even try
>>25422158
Better than what I want to study. Why don't you try writing some literature or something
>>25413930
It gets better
It better!
It gets better
It better!
I'd like to ask a normie what makes him happy to live his life, like really. I have no clue on why even keep breathing other than my family and friends which will probably get a real life and leave me alone once again
Anyone else has literally no ambition in life? Don't want to become anyone, don't feel the need to earn big money, don't want kids
I' just live out of sheer curiosity of how will the world look like in the future
>>25421988
Girls still smile on the outside when their internal life is a living hell.
>>25422325
>Anyone else has literally no ambition in life? Don't want to become anyone, don't feel the need to earn big money, don't want kids
same here senpai.
I could be happy just doing nothing for the rest of my days.
>>25422325
you probably have some sort of addiction that has royally fucked up your brain's reward system
>>25422417
Internet addiction
>>25422325
Yup. As long as my basic needs are taken care of, I'm content to sit back and see what happens.
It's like being an NPC
>>25422454
That too.
>Senpai poor as fuck moves into semi-bad part of NY on charity of a guy who is probably dating my brother but won't admit it, "family friend"
>Haven't had personal space for years, ever since oldest brother and his wife moved back in when I was in HS
>Shit gets worse over time, me being naive little fuck goes to Uni, bipolar or something gets worse (multiple diagnoses)
>Drugs, open pipe business, fail out within one year, parents push me to go back to Uni despite no help or mental health recovery
>Family getting sick as well, drop out again, now I just finished moving into this place in NY while my senpai pushes me out of my bed and watches star wars
>Everyone concerned about having their own space and shit but act differently
This cluster fuck of six people in a one bedroom apt is just the surface of it all.
I know what I am, a shit bag who can't focus on anything. Feel sorry for my parents, even if pops bitches to me about having failures for sons, mom might be an airhead sometimes who emotionally manipulates others but she does go the extra mile to make us comfortable.
>>25422362
That seems fake in some way. No one can be that happy or fake it that well.
>day 1 of 2016
>girl I asked out doesn't show up for date
>get a hernia
>bank charges me triple digit overdraft fee
>>25422417
Probably porn if I were to speculate.
>>25419833
Jesus christ. I never noticed that.
>>25413958
>sit around and wait for life to get better
>it never gets better
>go on r9k and complain
Insert smug reddit frog here.
>>25422526
>2016
>still not balancing your checkbook
>>25414351
>>25420460
>>25420519
I know these feels, guys. You aren't alone.
We'll get through this.
>>25414166
no wonder she died if she kept eating burgers every day
>>25413986
i never even asked to be born. fuck this
>>25421350
>>25421354
He's right, though. I remember seeing some of these pictures when I was in highschool, thinking "haha, must suck to be that guy!"
Now I'm 24 and I am that guy.
>>25414196
WOW, this is sad
>alone
>asian male
>FUCKING BOONES FARM
thats a trifecta of beta-ness. bitches drink that shit
>>25418658
>>about to quit my job because I just can't do it and hate everything and want to kill myself
>>family don't get it and think I'm just a lazy shit
I know the pain, anon. I've been depressed forever, it seems, and even when I was a kid and felt like killing myself, my parents just yelled and kicked, calling me a lazy shit.
I don't have to deal with them much anymore, so they don't even know enough about me to call me a piece of shit.Even though I am.
>>25422325
pretty much but I have few things I need to do before I actually commit to full no one...
>>25422325
Another one here.
I really want to kill myself, and leave nothing behind, but the only thing that keeps me going is curiosity.
I mean, I've probably got 60-80 years left in my life if I just keep going. A lot can happen in 60 years.
Just the last 20 years have been absolutely ridiculous for human advancement. I just can't wait to see what the future will be like.I just want to be a time traveler, honestly.
>>25413930
Jesus, if you think this is sad,
I just turned 50 on Christmas Eve
The "Big" party was just me and my blind dog
I had a Domino's Pizza and my birthday cake was the Chocolate Lava Cake they sell
I toasted to my mid-life with a bottle of Boone's Farm Blackberry Ridge, this flavor has been discontinued, so the store I got it from ordered me 5 cases, I have enough to enjoy a bottle on my birthday until I turn 101, it was the first hard liquor I tried when I turned 21, I am a creature of habit, the 5 cases ended up being .89 cents per bottle, a pretty good investment
Had a few friends years ago, but we drifted apart, so now that my parents have passed it's just me and Bob
Wouldn't have it any other way, I enjoy my life and look forward to new adventures in my second half century
>>25423043
1/10
-9 points for thinking boone's farm is hard liquor
>>25423043
How do you deal with being old and alone? If you really happy then I envy you, tell me your secrets
>>25421815
Swift death while asleep.
>>25421988
I haven't had a birthday party since I was 12
I have no friends so nobody says happy birthday to me besides my grandparents and sister
My mother tries to make me a cake every year but my dad throws them in the trash occasionally because he hates us (including the one from last year when I turned 23)
This year I'm just going to take a day off from work and leave in the morning without telling anyone
It got better for some people. Actually it got better for a lot of people. It definitely got better for people that I know. There are people in this world that started 2016 really well and their years will go on to get even better.
Good for them
>>25423146
Keep busy, read a lot, take 1 major trip a year, go to museums, art galleries, ballet, concerts, lots of free stuff to do in my city
I have a small apartment, but no car, plenty of public transit, if I take a driving trip I just rent a car
I volunteer a lot, soup kitchens, places for people worse off than me, keeps your perspective
I have a a great 401k, other investments, so retirement is going to be OK
I walk a lot to keep in shape, eat pretty good, except for my birthday
After a while you just don't care about sex or having to compromise with someone to have a relationship, I do and go where I want, no one around to "fix" me
Never wanted kids, they are uninteresting to me until they can have a proper conversation
Thought about ending everything when I was younger, but I decided if I did that then "they" win
When I die no one will miss me, no one will probably notice, won't matter to me by then
I will join all the billions of people who have died before me, unknown, anonymous, forgotten, I will just be one more grain of sand added to an endless beach
Only a very few of us really matter when you step back and look at it, doesn't mean my life was a waste, it mattered to me.
>>25414264
So what? Facebook wishes aren't worth shit, people mainly do it coz it makes them look and feel good
hahaha it's funny because it's my birthday today and it is exactly what it will look like hahahaha
>>25423488
Do you have a job?> Any tips on making money?
>>25420609
>tfw 2.5 Gpa
And I used to think I was smart but lazy.
>>25414170
This...feel....
>>25423520
>Facebook wishes aren't worth shit
I have a facebook account that I don't log into and it made me feel alright when people posted on it, because I'd get e-mails saying who sent me a birthday post. I didn't get a single post last year though, so I guess people really don't care about me anymore.
>>25423600
Went to community college, to get all my lower courses taken care of, really cheap, then I transferred to a four year to get my degree, I have a basic Liberal Arts degree
Got a job with the federal government, pushing papers around for Social Security, most local, state and federal jobs are always listed, now the do it online
I just kept my nose clean, completely a-political at work, just the nice guy down the hall, my job and benefits are more important than wearing my opinions on my sleeve, always early, stay late, make yourself the go-to guy, I have taken more classes to keep myself current, time and good reviews, up you move and more money you get
I buy what I need, not what I want, try to save so I can pay big items off at once, keep stuff to a minimum, quality lasts, junk is just junk.
I have always "paid" myself first, full amount into 401k and IRA, a simple low risk mutual fund is what I use
My job is not high profile, no excitement, but it pays my bills and lets me do the other things that I enjoy.
>>25421923
>going to wrap my car around a tree
?
>>25414036
If you weren't such a naive faggot, you'd know some people are doomed from the start, or that "better" doesn't always exist.
I'm the latter. I don't want a job. I don't want a gf. I don't want money. I don't want to kill myself. I'm just tired. I don't care about anything, so there aren't any goals to fight towards.
>>25422517
>girls
>not masters of faking
>>25424277
He means smash his car into a tree.
>>25423043
I respect you man. wish you have many more years as long as you're happy.
Frozen in place
My blood runs thick like sludge
I can feel the last of the warmth slipping away
>living situation and life in general keep improving
>still getting more depressed each week
I think that happiness is just unobtainable for me, probably going to kill myself soon.
>>25424277
He wants to kill himself
>>25424849
>>25424335
yeah i got it, thanks.
>>25414170
God bless him.
>>25417083
just start running and jump right over that chasm.
just jump right over. jump. do it you pussy.
haha
I'm so lonely. I'm 29 and I've felt this way for almost a decade. Most everyone I used to know has drifted off onto normie lives. I'd do anything to meet a new, real-life friend.
I had a terrible dream the other night. Random mundane events from the past unfolded in my mind's eye as a voice screamed over and over "I'm being tortured!" superimposed over the moving images of my memory. It was my inner voice that has been silenced by years of sadness and apathy. I can't even figure out how to meet people over the internet anymore. There seems to be so many new technologies to help people meet each other but my own life just keeps drifting farther down the spiral.
>>25424320
Normals don't understand this train of thought.
I'll be 20 this year. Probably a 20 years old virgin. Who's never had a gf.
Damn it kinda hurts. Mostly because I can still do something about it but I know I wont.
Starting a new course at tech school this year.
I'll make friends this time...right?
>>25413930
How exactly is celebrating your birthday with your family bad? Pretty sure you're more of a robot if you don't even have a cake or family that cares about celebrating your birthday.
>>25426364
I wish my family would just leave me alone on my birthday. I hate receiving presents and I can buy a cake myself.
>>25426414
You should stop being an autist. Our families are the only people that care about us. Normies are our enemies, not our families familia.
I know I sound like a faggot but
>>25426465
Defending family doesn't make you a faggot.
We just have different opinions. I just prefer my own company.
>>25413930
I'm glad no one took pictures of my birthdays except when I was little. Other wise they would've looked like those pictures...
My 20th Birthday was more depressing then most of those kids though, because my Grandpa died the day before my birthday and I found out the night before my birthday.
>>25426297
Yeah, look confident and bold. Someone will talk to you since first impressions aren't around yet, but you only get one chance before the normies tag you as "qiuet worthless beta". You should try to greet one of the less chad-looking dudes, it's all or nothing
>>25426465
I agree, anon shouldn't complain anymore
>>25413930
Guys, I was thinking the same thing coming into 2014, I was broke, a community college dropout and lonely as fuck, 2 years later and I own my own home, have my first car, my own basset hound puppy, and am engaged to the type of girl where, if I described how perfect she is, you all would accuse me of being full of shit. It wasn't easy, I had to work my ass off to get here, but goddamnit it was worth it. I have been in the darkest depths of despair, as in homeless after I caused an FBI raid on my dads house with no one willing to take me in, to having the life I never dreamed of. Don't give up guys, if you try your hardest, it really can get better.
>>25426977
I hope that can help or inspire someone. I'm not stupid wealthy or anything unobtainable, I just put myself out there and am now the top of my sales team at Lifetime which, in conjunction with the help of my fiancee means we can afford a mortgage. It got better, and this time 2 or 3 years ago I was seriously contemplating giving up. I'm really glad I didn't and you will be too.
anyone want to try job corp with me at any location in southern california? i've already tried college, trade school, army, regular jobs, and my anxiety gets me everywhere i go. maybe a fellow robot could ease my suffering. 22 male here.
http://www.jobcorps.gov/home.aspx
if anyone is interested, basically you give up your freedom to the government in exchange for nothing. welfare education tier shit, but maybe my parents will think i'm doing something for once.
kik:joej818k
>>25427034
So you sell cable to people? Like, you cold-call and get people to sign up?
>>25427073
Lifetime is an athletic facility. I do some 'cold' calling, as in people who expressed interest in the past but wound up not signing up, but most of my sales come from people bringing their friends in or web leads. I recently sold a membership to a person who happens to be a recruiter for a financial advisement company who thinks I would be a really good match for them, so if that pans out it could get me from $50k a year 100% commission to 60k a year commission + 15k base salary which would be pretty incredible. I'm definitely learning that the harder I work, the luckier I get. I used to sit around doing nothing and lamenting that nothing good came my way, when all I had to do was go make good fortune come my way manually through hard work and giving myself a chance.
>>25414090
>facing the picture out towards the rest of the restaurant instead of towards himself to look straight at
attention whore
>>25416008
Cry me a fucking river loser
>>25425674
I read posts like yours and I never know what to say. I know all those feels, especially not being able to even make internet friends.
Sorry anon, have a (You).
In the past year, I got robbed, my bike was stolen twice, got fired twice, my roommates kicked me out, and I went to jail. Still waiting on my lawyers and the DA to hash out a deal for me, but I'm probably not on the top of their list.
On the plus side, I vastly improved my grades and slept with 2 girls. I also markedly improved my morale and decreased my sense of jealousy towards others' lives.
I'm feeling actually pretty decent despite all of the negatives. Jail was probably the worst out of all of it.
I guess my point OP is that I already feel like rock bottom came and went, so fuck it, here's to looking ahead.
>>25427299
Not the anon you were replying to, but why do you people browse /r9k/? what is the point of being so hostile to the few others who are like you?
>>25427062
perhaps united we can achieve mediocrity..anyone interested?
>>25427062
just give me my (you) please
>>25427461
>my bike was stolen twice
what like the same bike?
Well my mom can't die twice so this year is going to be better by default.
>>25427461
How was jail?
>>25427662
I ask the same question to all the shitposters whining about "normalfags" etc. when they see someone doing anything that's not complete and utter social failure.
>>25416710
at least you don't have to worry about getting kicked out because of your master's grades. i just wanna be NEET again
>sibling wants me to take her to the movies to see star wars
>try to convince our mom to go because my anxiety gets exponentially worse in crowded areas
>she agrees, only to change her mind an hour before the movie starts
>drive myself and sibling to next city over to see the movie
>can't do it
>leave
>cry
tl;dr star wars is a bad movie don't go see it
>>25427884
Two different bikes.
>>25427938
Flat out awful, never go in there anon. I was lucky enough to get bailed out before being sent into genpop. I will never forget it.
>>25428059
How long were you there for? What was bad about it? How did you get along with your fellow inmates?
>>25413930
>It will all be over one day and nothing will hurt no more
>>25415744
hey, im ont he same boat, but i turn 25 on a tuesday. its gonnabe p terrible
>tfw 24 and have nothing to show for myself
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hwTA2ekGZCE
>>25421692
>tfw i forgot my own birtbday
I didn't realize it until my parents wished me a happy birthday.
>>25428059
I've lost my freedom before. I'll die before I ever lose it again.
>>25414138
>mfw one of my closest friends from when I went to exchange in Paris had a surprise party for his 18th anniversary
>mfw all his family went to the party and only two friends and I went
>mfw we faked I had a sprain so we could get away to a club
Holy shit, bro, I'm so sorry.
>>25428059
12 hours maybe, I'm fairly well off and my parents give a shit about me so I made bail almost immediately.
The worst part was the food, being cold as fuck, and having zero communication with the outside world. The other dudes were either drunk/high, completely quiet and creepy and didn't bother anyone, or generally nice and helpful. Most of those dudes understood I had made a mistake and probably didn't belong in jail. I talked to a dude that was in and out of jail like 7 or 8 times that year for a slew of charges. He was a pretty smart dude, just addicted to drugs when he was outside. Some people flat out didn't deserve to be in there.
The worst part, now that I think of it, was seeing a childhood friend of mine in there for a really serious charge. He looked like he knew he was in for a long time.
>>25419124
Fuck, I'm gonna give my friends a call.
>>25414170
This is why I stopped trying to ask people to hang out or do things way back in high-school. It just hurts so fucking much when you realize that you're the "unwanted friend".
>>25428248
>"unwanted friend"
>>25417083
This guy probably has enough materials to build a tall enough tower to hang glide off of to the other side.
>>25414351
>>25420460
>>25420519
>tfw your dad constantly calling you an imbecile and pointing out how you'll never be as successful as he is
>>25428286
I don't think he's mentally stable enough to think about that.
>tfw dad just totally ignored you unless you did something he was interested in
>was bad at stuff he was interested in
>he just ignored me or got angry if I tried to get him to do stuff with me
>>25428324
lol what a fagggot
>>25420351
>tfw failed 4 courses last semester
Am I going to lose all my friends too, anon?
>dad lied to me constantly
>would make promises and break them
>would always change his mind
>but dad you said we'd go to the beach today!
>"i lied"
why did I always believe him when he had such a poor track record
>>25428264
It's now been 10 years since high school and they all still hang out together... it gets so awkward when my dad tries to ask me about my "old friends" and I just lie and say everybody got married/moved away... but they still get together every weekend to drink,party,go on vacations to Mexico and shit together or just organize a game of ball.
I wish I never had "friends".
guess i'm shadow b& or something. exiled from the exiles, guess it really can always be worse...
>>25420351
This.
>Start of last semester
>Things could be better but pretty smooth so far
>Overhear parents debating a divorce
>Makes my depression worse
>Start failing classes
>Friends cut contact ever since I moved
>Realize this
>More depression
>Straight F's for the semester
>JUST
>Lying to my parents about grades
>Parents are also ultra-strict slavs
>tfw I am legit fucked
How can I make suicide look like an accident brobots? I'm tired, I want to get off the ride.
>>25428325
>tfw parents stopped giving me both Christmas and Birthday presents after I got 14
>we're not even poor
>had to buy my vidya and stuff from my own salary
>they'd still gift me any clothes I wanted whenever I told them anyways
They were just trying to make me normal.
>>25414013
bruh is this the kid who cosplayed as robin in teen titans with a disgusting bulge
>>25428395
Have your (you) you so desperately want.
>>25427062
i wanted to do a job corp thing in cali when i was 19. it was a forestry thing, but i was going into uni and had responsibilities. i cant remember the name of it anymore but wanna do it before i get too old. you had to be younger than 24 i think
>>25428438
thanks
>>25428478
yeah i think younger than 24, someone from KY told me about it while i was briefly in the army, no way in hell i'm going in alone though, and don't have any other options at this point.
>>25428094
this was intended for you:
>>25428223
>parents were 1 and 2 years older than my current age when they got married
>still haven't had a girlfriend, not trying to pursue one
welp
>>25422362
is that sunny lane?
>>25428707
not even close nigger
good taste in porn sluts tho
>>25422362
that microwave is huge
>>25422362
There's no way this picture is accurate. Her parents probably begged for her to take a pic with them before she hit up the club with her buddies and got railed by 3 chads at once.
>>25420162
Fuck you anon. I don't want these feels
>>25419722
Good luck. It might be the year for me as well.
>>25428223
Lol. 12 hours?
I was in for 16! Maybe 18!
Like you Im thankful I never got transferred to the spic and nig filled county jail. Even the noise level in the police station jail was terrible. Crazy druggies and alcoholics raging, people banging on the doors, and slamming doors. All. The. Time.
I was in a fight (and lost) before the police showed up. It sucked being hauled into jail looking like a complete mess (even though it probably helped my case). Some people wanted to know what happened and I didn't really want to talk about it. I just gave them the concise answer : "some dude road raged on me, and I really dont even know why I was arrested."
I shared a cell with a sleepy old hobo at the station. We made some small talk, and he just fell asleep while we were talking.
Luckily my case was rejected in less than a month and I never had to go to court.
Unfortunately, I haven't improved my life much since then. I have consistent (near min wage part time ) work now, and I am going back to school(even though I already have a BA), but Im still a no friends, no career KHV loser closing in on 30 fast
It will never get better, when I was 18 I thought it would maybe get better, then 20 years later I don't even hope, it just won't happen.
Protip: get money, money will fix everything and bring you happiness.
>>25428917
Going on 25 and can confirm that everything just gets worse and alls I want in life is a job where I can be financially independent but haven't figured out how to make that happen
>>25428943
The only way to make the real big bucks, is to make your own company, you won't get anywhere just slaving away, unless you're in some sort of a higher up position where you get paid tons.
I've been thinking of setting a firework off next to my head.
>Fucked up college so I still have debt and didnt graduate
>Jobs going to shit and I have no new prospects
>Want to finish school but cant get approved for any loans with the debt I have.
>Cant pay down enough debt with my shitty job
>>25428917
I"m 27 and I've realized that friends only hold you back. You're kinda right... make lots of money, make sure to get a pre-nup, impregnate some bitch and pray for the best but prepare for the worst.
>>25429067
You'll likely just end up blinding yourself or something
>New years eve
>"I do love you dad"
>"Yeah okay"
REE
26 here, it doesn't get better.
You either kill yourself or just learn to accept it. It's not so bad once you give up hope. Kind of a relief desu.
>>25419890
>All I do now is clean shit and lay in bed.
oh god this hit me hard, 24 year old NEET, all I do is clean and get yelled at by mom for not cleaning well enough. My pets keep me going at least
>2016
>waiting for it to get better without actually doing anything
What, do you expect that your anime waifu will just knock on your door one day and ask to get married? Do you think you'll just wake up one day without your neckbeard in your own house with wife and children and 5 million dollars? Do you think it takes no effort to achieve anything? Not even to switch off your computer and get a hold of yourself?
Sorry if I'm too "normie" for your standards, but you're not getting anything you won't fight for, or at least ask for. You guys really are just crybabies like everyone says.
>>25429744
normie bait alert
>>25414699
That garden looks REAL comfy
>depressed
>suicidal
>anxiety
>can't hold down a job
>can't stick with therapy
>medications don't help
Gonna be 27 in a few months, it's over
>>25429074
Fixed your image for you pal
>>25413986
>deserve
Again with this word. All people deserve everything that happens to them, and you're not some special snowflake here, kid.
>>25423488
This is very nice to hear and I think you are a lovely person. Thank you for giving us a new perspective on life and I truly wish you the best, as well as your dog. I bet he really appreciates your company and you are a great person. Thank you
Im so tired
I just get sicker and sicker every day
Wake up multiple times a night to fight puking
Never sleep right
Just want my families love but they don't love me
I just sit in place for hours now everyday just sobbing
I want the pain to stop
I just want to be normal and worried about normal things
I can't even hold a normal job anymore
>>25414567
This one always gets me
He looks like a childhood friend of mine
>>25414351
>That gif
Fucking got me. It's just a stupid dog that wants to have fun and found a way to play by himself. I know it's just staged and it has an owner and such but it's the idea.
For some reason the ones that really get to me are innocent and enjoying their loneliness like it doesn't bother them. They've just accepted it. It's nice maybe but it's still sad.
>>25414438
Imagine the cashier's face when she scans one of these out
>>25413986
I remember looking at this picture thinking how depressing it was when I turned 19. I'm 23 now and this shit just reached a whole new level of hurt.
>>25413930
he's pretty cute no homo he could score if he tried
>>25418464
I'm turning 28 in February.
It doesn't. Every year you'll think "this is the year I'll turn it around." But you won't. It's all downhill from here.
>>25418464
I'm 29 this year. My life is better now than when I was 19 but I'm still depressed.
>>25420301
>>25420351
>>25420609
>>25428362
>>25428432
>>25420686
>>25420930
>>25421989
>>25423729
At least you didn't drop out of HS.
I'm 22 and I'm about to enrol at an Engineering uni.
Wish me luck.
>Trump still in the lead
>Finally catching up on my anime backlog
>Lots of weed
>Work isn't so busy anymore
2016 is already off to a good start.
I'm 23, at college, I still dream about high school sometimes. But normally those dreams are mixed with my current life somehow.
Last night I dreamt I was taking college classes, and high school classes at the same time, and i messed up with the high school classes because I had too much of a "college attitude", i.e. skipping classes to study at home, etc.
>>25430622
Good luck, Anon. Hopefully you can turn things around.
>>25430710
Thanks mayne.
My grades are good and I'm not stupid, I just fucked up but I've sobered up now.
>>25430648
> Trump
The fact that moron isn't seen as a complete joke in your country is beyond embarrassing.
>>25430742
Trump is literally a memelord
Cruz is superior and a true ConservLib
>>25429096
>impregnate some bitch and pray for the best but prepare for the worst.
An hero you fucking beta pussy faggot.
>>25430648
>Trump still in the lead
You're a fucking retard is what that told me.
>>25427922
just remember the good parts you had with her anon
>>25415744
>not baking your own cake
what's wrong with you man
>>25413954
>decide to not think about nogf and nofriends and just have a nice nye
>start going through old journals
>relive your slow decent into depression, day by day
>have worst nye ever
>>25414438
Spent my xmas alone at the age of 19 drinking skoal vodka and gatorade alone when my gf dumped me a week earlier now im 25 stuff got a little better
>>25421804
Im 29 and i never had a birthay party too.
These pics are sad, but people need to harden the fuck up.
>>25430742
>>25431150
> liberal tears
>>25430622
Good luck anon, keep getting good grades and try to get internships
>>25415744
Maybe if I met I'll know why no one loves you, even then, I won't tell you, because I'm not your friend and it's not in my best interest to see you doing well... this is how normies do it right?
>we're all gonna make it
How many years has it been for you lads? If the meme is true it should be fairly low for most people
5 for me, 2011 was the beginning of the end
>>25413986
>tfw you realize this has absolutely no meaning whatsoever
>>25413952
that looks comfy as fuck tbqh
>>25432666
Nice satanic trips, but since I was 13, and I am now 25. I just do whatever and don't really give a shit about anything anymore (burn time and that is about it).
>>25414467
are you sure? god knows what life has hidden for us in it's diarrhea filled anus
>>25414013
I'm jealous of his big bowl of cheesy puffs.
>>25430742
>tfw I just want trump to win so it pisses off all the leftist uni students I'm friends with on facebook
I think the guy is a wanker desu
>>25433920
im jealous of his cake and delicious cupcakes he got there
>>25429686
>lonely as fuck
>NEET living with parent and sibling
>they are allergic to cats and dogs
FUCK I just want a cat or a loyal dog to keep me company. Even if I get a job it will be low-paying and living expenses are brutal in Sweden so it would take a long time until I can move
>>25433948
this. Trump winning wouldn't affect me anyway I just want him to win to see how people react
>>25417083
This pic speaks volumes to me.
>>25414138
>>25414112
Did Frankie Muniz get a lobotomy? What the fuck happened to him?
>>25422056
Still wouldn't be over three.
>>25422325
I did have the ambition to become an independent film director making Netflix-core arthouse films and talking about them at festivals.
Then I realized I don't have the time, money, location or connections to do that. Even something like Blair Witch might as well be a $100 million project to me.
>Be clueless at class like everyone else
>January 2nd 2016
>Holiday
>Tells my dad my problems at university
>Lecturers slacking off with lessons and constantly absent classes
>Overwhelming number of assignments and self study that I need to do
>On the brink of breakdown due to the workload
>3-4 hours of sleep everyday.
>Threw up my breakfast the other day due to stress
>Tells him I want to quit and move to another university
>My dad shouted at me and told me to suck up it.
>He implied that I was just stupid and unable to handle to course material that was given.
>Makes snarky remarks about my leisure time playing games during the holiday
>Tells me I'm obviously not trying hard enough.
mfw
I feel so letdown and unmotivated now.
I can't even count on my family to push my spirits up. No one can help me...
>>25430415
I always buy two when i choose 1 person dinners.
For exactly that reason
>>25436114
i'm in the same situation I barely passed last semester with straight C's.
>only because my classes curved the grades ...
Community college
>>25430402
That pictures giving me some serious feels.
My entire life right now is just working out till I feel like I'm going to throw up and crying myself to sleep.
>>25436868
Any result? How long have you been training?
Just to lose weight or to gain muscle?
This is the year I turn shit around. Mark my words. By this time next year I'll be
Employed, out of the parents, might even have a gf,
It's either that or kill myself
Who else /TurnTheirLivesAround/ here
Every once in awhile this kind of thread come
JUST
>>25414351
This dog is you. The stairs are 4chan. The ball is the feels we share.
>>25437013
Damn good results
>How long have you been training?
I lifted in highschool and got up to a builtfat 220 pounds. Entered a deep depression my senior year, starved myself and ran until I got down to 150(lost a lot of muscle). Started lifting again after the depression ended and I've put on almost 20 pounds of lean muscle since then.
>>25428436
Holy shit yes I think so.
>>25423043
MY word. What do you do at that point? Its either complete paradise or hell on earth.
So many questions:
Do you bang milfs, surely you are banging some 40yo poon?
Are you set financially?
Do you have any kids?
Do you play video games and just go around travelling the world?
You ever go on adventures, trips to Game farms, base jumping, shark cage diving that kind of stuff?
How is your life in general?
>>25437074
>neet living with rents
>on verge of an hero
>stay in my room all day cause can't stand interacting with parents
>going through some old papers and shit
>find old unused gift card for panera that someone gave me several years ago
>decide to get out of house
>bring laptop to panera and order coffee
>camp out at corner table in the back
>browse interwebs and drink coffee
>realize being around is ok i don't actually have to interact with them
>make panera a routine
>start looking forward to it
>start wearing nicer clothes when I go sit at my table at panera cause sometimes qt's are there
>begin using my alone time there to look for jobs online
it's not much, but better than it was
>>25423488
One more thing. You are pretty much "US" in 20 years so. Any advice for young robots?
Also, does it really get easier to fuck bitches at your age, like are there lonely late 30's to 40's aged women looking for dick or not?
Turned 27 today. Have a Master's but have been unemployed for 3 years so am basically unemployable. Oh well, NEET bux please!
>>25428436
>>25437337
what, elaborate
>>25437605
>what, elaborate
There's a picture of this dude in green spandex where he is stood next to a George Foreman's Lean, Mean, Fat-Reducing Grilling Machine and he has a very visible boner. Kek.
If I don't have any friends in 6 months, then I'm gonna upload a pic of myself in front of a birthday cake. I guarantee someone, probably a true robot, would say "why is a Chad alone on his birthday"
>>25428436
>>25437605
Anons I have news for you. Boner Robin is the owner of the biggest most popular cosplay erotica website on the internet...
>>25437605
I bet you just wanted it to be posted all along, pervert.
>>25437659
lel, pls post
>>25437668
>most popular cosplay erotica website
wow
>>25437668
>Boner Robin is the owner of the biggest most popular cosplay erotica website on the internet...
Prove it.
>>25437668
Is that W.T snacks?
>>25437723
>>25437705
Just check their website famalam
>Troy Doerner - Owner, Webmaster, Graphic Designer.
>>25437748
>Just check their website famalam
And what is the name of the cunting website!? You really are a total nigger, anon.
>>25437775
http://www.cosplaydeviants.com/static/faq.html
Also here's his twitter
https://twitter.com/troydoerner?lang=no
>>25427163
Howhard is it to get into sales?
>>25437814
Thanks. You have been upgraded to being a half-nigger, well done.
>>25437872
>Howhard is it to get into sales?
Harder than my cock right now.
>>25413930
Oh god, this guy looks exactly like me. Its even scarier, Im turning 20 in 28 days!
>>25437872
commissioned sales is easy as fuck to get into. unfortunately, you need to be Chad 24/7 to succeed in selling shit to people.
>>25414013
He has potential too, that's the saddest part
If he got contacts, got a better haircut, cleared his skin up, dressed better, and got cooler he could be the lovechild of Chad and Hercules
>>25430415
thats why you always buy 2
>>25415350
>heard a super-bug was going around in my area (PNW USA)
>highly contagious and couldn't be treated with any common cold medicine
>insanely huge party happened in the town over, big EDM mansion party or something
>everyone who went got sick
>I was invited but stayed home because I anticipated this
>>25418600
"When you do something to change it."
I see this argument everywhere but no one actually explains how.
>>25437074
don't get a gf
>>25438139
Yeah, nice one, Poindexter.
>>25420609
I went to community college right out of highschool cause it seemed like the thing to do and I didn't want to try. Well I didn't try and soon dropped out. Haven't done anything since and my dad is finally forcing me to get a job.
The dream is coming to an end.
>>25419833
Is she? You can't really see it.
>>25427952
Go away friend, you do not belong here
I suggest reddit as an alternative
>>25439316
>le meme du aller au reddit pourquoi tu n'est pas un NEET.
>I'm 20 and my life is already over!
How cute.
>>25439493
>I'm 22 and you 20 year olds have it easy
How cute.
>>25439404
Dont you have a party to attend? Or a thesis to write?
>>25439404
English motherfucker.
>>25439651
Stop oppressing me with your totalitarian government!
Or don't.
>>25429953
Are you retarded? Did you even read his post
>34 this year
>Still live my mom
>Literally can't come to terms with the reality of being a human being
>Finally became an Atheist
>Can't even whine to God when I feel depressed anymore
>>25437872
Sales is like the worst possible career for someone with autism
>22 years old
>basically fuck up any chance I ever have with getting my life together
>can't ever get a gf
>NEET, still living at home
>not even on any neetbux
>honestly thinking about giving up and just being a basement-dwelling neckbeard until I kill myself eventually
>turned 27 last week
>neet for 2 years and not even trying to get a job anymore
>its freezing outside and i play pokemon all day in my warm bed
Feels not too bad man
>>25439888
post ends in 888
totalitarian china confirmed
>>25440031
>condemning your immortal soul to everlasting torment in the fires of Hell
Shaking my head to be quite honest family.
>>25440722
I'm glad this shit is fake
>>25414264
Shut the fuck up attention whore, get your ego boost fix else where.
>>25440743
It's real, but way less terrifying than it looks. That's just how it digests food, and its not like its strong enough to digest living human tissue.
> brother got into ivy league school
> I'm failing community college
Let's face it guys, we are the ones who suicide
>>25440904
>failing community college
So, you literally put in no effort at all huh? Because community college is easy as shit. My classmates would skip class all the time, not do several assignments, never study, and get passed with Cs. How the fuck do you manage to routinely get Fs unless you want Fs?
>>25437748
>that fatty
HHHHHHHHHNNNNGGGGG
>>25441227
good taste
i wanna see that belly jiggle and make them thighs flop around like a fish on land
>>25439087
>remember saving that image a few years ago
>found it funny and strange because of how much i related to it
>haven't done anything since then
>life is still exactly the same 3 years later
>>25441755
This
I used to like it 'ironically', now it just hits way too close to home.
>>25437481
late reply but this made me smile, nice one anon.
>>25437481
>realize being around people is ok as long as i don't actually have to interact with them
accidentally a word
i've literally NEVER had a birthday party or had anyone want to celebrate my birthday at all and i'm 27
hell i'd be happy to get a cake
>>25418658
i was you last year
i just up and quit. been a NEET since living off my savings. fuck life.
>>25418736
Same here
Did finish college but it's like I didn't study anyway
>>25422526
I know this all too well, friend
>>25418658
>family don't get it and think I'm just a lazy shit
Therapy has helped me, and it's made my parents realize what's up a little more clearly, but they still think I'm lazy and arrogant and egoistic.
I just want to be left alone.
>>25418736
Just let me know in a month or two how did it ends
>All these people pining after a birthday "party"
>Even being aware of when your birthday is or what age you are without having to count the years
Fucking normies.
>>25418658
>they literally think they EARNED their happiness when it was just fucking given to them
This is absolutely true. And furthermore they blame unblessed people for their fate, that's outrageous
I don't hate people, I'd wish they at least make a little effort to realize and treat the luckless better
>>25444551
>the luckless
top kek for believing being "luckless" is what's holding you back
>>25428792
Otherwise it would go against le RedPill narrative XDXDXDDXD
>>25413954
>>25413986
These pictures are killing me holy shit.
>>25413954
Post some scans of your journal please.
>>25421193
I'm 27 and it doesn't go away at all. In fact it gets worse and worse.
>>25414351
these feels, man
>be me
>be youngest of three siblings
>parents were super busy running their own business by the time im born
>parents pretty much never around
>dad a big junkie, loves to speedball
>mum works late and spends lots of time with friends
>pretty much raised by my schizo junkie brother, he was only five years older than me, used to beat the absolute shit out of me on a regular bases or would leave me home alone for hours to get high with his friends
>sister moved out by the time I was 7, she was incompetent anyway
>suffer from depression and anxiety, pretty much constantly trembling, fuck up at school because I don't turn up, skipping because I don't like the people there
>fail everything, have to go to college instead of sixth form
>meet a girl
>spend a year and a half dating, being best friends, meeting up every day
>dad fucks up business and have to move away
>move in with gf's brother part time, he lives between my new house and college
>Dad can't afford to pay my rent so I get a job
>work almost full time at a job whilst studying
>Gf gets a job, our hours become completely incompatible
>we brake up because we can't see each other anymore
>still living in her bro's house, has more than a couple of pics of her and her family around the house
>tfw her family accepted me and looked after me better than my own
>spiral into depression
>fuck up at work constantly
>am either drunk or high most of the time
>dont even turn up to college anymore
>brother tries to commit an hero but is discovered by parents
>had a bad experience of my brother trying to get me to get him and my dad coke
>turn everything around because I hate my family and don't want to become them
>stop smoking and drinking
>started studying again
>succeed
>get into decent uni
>dad still likes to get high but now he likes to pretend he had something to do with my current success, stopped trying to borrow money off me now though
Family can be poison, anon
>>25413954
What actions did you take to make things better?
>>25447342
Here's one scan of an old journal, anon
>>25418994
>human bean are not in control, we are being played by forces we do not understand, like physic and probability.
Ding ding ding.
>>25428236
Why did this picture terrify me?
>>25447935
I would go to the college library and read self help books and take tons of notes. I spent many Friday and Saturday nights there.
I started going to the intervarsity christian group meetings at my college with hundreds of people.
Hung out with roommates more. Going to clubs and stupid shit.
Read more self help books. Bought into the PAU meme for a few months.
Got normalfag job in IT then quit after 2 years.
It never gets better. The same shit that haunted me 15 years ago haunts me today.
>>25428432
Meet shrink, he will help you, belive me
>>25448200
You can tell exactly who is alpha in that pic. It probably makes you feels inferior.
2016 will be a good year anons, just hold on and try to think positive!
>>25414699
Seems like that kid's gonna bald pretty badly
>>25440172
This
I lasted one week, spent the whole time thinking it would make me more social/outgoing etc but it didn't quite work out like that. no matter how bad it gets NEVER do sales
>>25422362
That's because girls set aside half an hour on their birthday to humor their family before they go out and make a meat toilet of themselves
>>25448077
Those are some top feels familia
>>25414261
I am with you
Not a single one of these robot birthday pictures is of a girl.
>>25439087
this was my day but I'm not a robot, just a lurker.
>>25428325
Sounds like your dad was autistic.
>>25423546happy birthday, anon-kun!
>>25448938
No he was just insanely self centered and the biggest bully I've ever known. He mellowed out in his older years though, but remained negative and hateful to the end.
>>25422472
>its like being an NPC
lmao
>>25428325
>>25448938
I'm not the guy you posted to but my dad is autistic and has the same personality
as far as I know I'm not autistic (as far as I know)
but god damn does having a father like that suck
>>25422325
moro txtpegg
>>25423729
Everyone thinks theyre smart and lazy. But there's the secret. Smart people arent born smart, they just put the effort in into learning. It really fucking pisses me off when people say they're smart but just lazy. School isnt even that fucking hard. Just pay attention in lessons, ask questions and do what the teacher tells you to do and you can easily get a 3.5 GPA.
>>25447897
>dad still likes to get high but now he likes to pretend he had something to do with my current success,
I can relate, this gets me really mad.
>work 5 to 6 times a week
>every day i get at least one or two people that get really mad at me for doing my job
>on days off am constantly in contact with work so it feels like i never even really left
>when im not working im going to school to get a stupid fucking faggot degree
>can only take 2 classes a semester with work so i'm going to be in school forever
>have no real friends
>try to text people to hang out but they dont respond, blow me off, or cancel at the last minute
>the few friends i do have i cant connect with on any level that is beyond the superficial
>only the girls i am not attracted to are attracted to me
>with every other girl i usually end up spazzing out pretty hard on and they never make eye contact with me when i see them in public
>used to think it was just social ineptitude but i've realized i try moving too fast every time but it's just because i'm so lonely that i jump at any opportunity to connect deeper with someone
>seeing happy couples makes me angry with myself
>i constantly persecute myself for perceived injustices against me
>realize that the 40 hour work week that already makes me feel so tired, depressed and lonely is going to the rest of my life after i get out of college
>suicide seems more appealing every day
>the plans are getting more detailed and concrete every day
>the fear of death fades and becomes appealing
>it's day 2 of 2016
nothings getting better. just worse and worse
>>25428264
Just find new hobbies and friends... Unwanted is probably on your end.. You'll laugh when they want to be friends with you after blowing them off.. fuck em
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