Have you ever deconstructed yourself to find purpose and meaning? If so what conclusions did you come to?
Purpose and meaning on the same level as absolute truth is something impossible to find since you would need to step out of the Universe to make your judgement but then again you would need to step out again because what surrounds the Universe is also just subject to another reality.
For me the realization is that any meaning we give our lives is subjective. There is no false or wrong and it is more like an opinion than absolute truth. We have to accept that to move forward.
Where I am kind of stuck is where I want to go to. What is my goal in life when it doesn't have absolute meaning? I really don't know to be honest and this is one of my main remaining sources of deep depression.