Anyone else going to kill themselves this new years? I don't know how to be happy so I'm just giving up. At a party I'm invited to and I'm not feeling it, I'm just sitting silently listening to the lives everyone else have, watching the bonds they have, knowing I'll never feel the way they feel. I gave life a try and now I give up. Oh well
Why don't you like life? :(
>>25394878
post stream
I don't believe you when you say you're at a party
But maybe you should just sort of start doing your own thing?
Start working out?
Start having a hobby?
Start traveling?
Start a new job?
There's a lot more to life than complacent relationships you know faggot.
There's an entire world of 7 billion people and millions of occupations and things to do and you choose to be a little bitch about everything lol
Get a life. Imagine if you were in high school and you couldn't do any of that stuff, even if you wanted to!
>>25394914
On phone, will take pics 4u senpai
>>25394913
I literally can't feel happy about anything, I have no passions, no dreams, no social ability, lots of self loathing, no direction, nothing. I can't feel positive about life for some reason, Things just make me sad.
>>25394990
You're in a rut you pussy.
Just try something you always wanted to try or do something new
Buy a plane ticket to someplace and just walk around
THINK ABOUT HOW MUCH SHIT YOU COULD FUCKING DO WHENEVER YOU WANT AND YOU CHOOSE TO JUST SIT HERE AND BE A FAG ALL THE TIME. STOP BEING A FAG.
>>25394990
I'm sorry you feel that way. :( How long have you felt like this?
Also, I'm sure you have at least some social ability. You, unlike most of this board, are at a party on NYE. I on the other hand am watching Lord of the Rings and lurking r9k like a fucking loser lol.
>>25395037
I tend to overthink and not place myself highly so I shoot myself down alot. I sorta just decided that I won't be able to have the dedication to do things, or the ability to feel good about it. I assumed that it won't get better from here so might as well die
>>25395065
I didn't care that I had these problems for years now (blissfully ignorant) until something happened in grade 11. Then uni happened and I felt more of a failure due to my lack of "a life", plus I made no friends. Pretty much this is an egotistical suicide (look it up, fun learns). And I'm sitting silently amongst a group of people browsing r9k like a loser as well. Same thing, different environment. I feel sad listening to what my peers have done with their lives, hobbies they excellent at, laughing with friends since they have experiences to share, sharing information and creating bonds with eachother. I'm here, regretting the time I wasted
>>25395037
To push the "you're killing yourself anyway, it doesn't matter" narrative is to misunderstand the suicidal mindset. Just to do normal things causes so much fear or self-hate and work that it doesn't feel like it's worth it to live. Yes, you COULD try to do all of these things but in the end it's pointless. Some people aren't meant to be happy or are simply broken people. For them it would be impossible to do such a thing as simply restart their life because they are too weak to do so. But yeah, it's just a case of brute forcing it and to stop being a pussy isn't it.
fucking idiot.
>>25395121
Literally, the only way to fix that is to literally just STOP DOING IT.
It is IMPOSSIBLE to not feel good about anything, not a single, solitary, singular thing in the entire world.
You're fucking kidding yourself, being a little bitch, pretending your life is more difficult than everyone else's.
Protip: It's not
People who get tons of pussy have just as many problems as you, and sometimes have the same days that you do, take it from me.
All the kids who got a shitton of pussy at my high school were always getting in arguments with their parents, divorced families, constant peer pressure, etc.
And do you really want to live that life? You sound like a pretty introverted person.
Do you really want to be surrounded by vacuous fucks all the time? The reason you haven't found friends is because you haven't found anyone who you share a real connection with.
WhO fUcKiNg CaReS?!?!?!!?!
Your life is about you, and whoever you come across on the side should be there to assist you in whatever you're doing. Just make some big changes in your life, find something that you enjoy. What do you like? What do you enjoy doing? You say you enjoy nothing? Bullshit. There has to be something. Cars? Guns? Hiking? Something like that HAS to be there to allow you to have SOME sort of pleasure in life.
Go fucking do it
Go join the Peace Core or the Red Cross and volunteer for the stupidest shit.
You have absolutely nothing to fucking lose.
Jesus fuck, go fucking do SOMETHING before you decide that you want to fucking kill yourself. Really? You want to end your life? What will you do then? What the fuck is your plan when you're fucking dead? Nothing.
Go do something you huge fuckhole.
>>25395037
>lol dude just stop being a fag bro
>>25394878
Not New Years, but most likely before the year is up. I already have a rough draft of my final note written.
>>25395307
I can say that part of what you're experiencing is pretty normal. I'm guessing I'm around the same age as you (23 years old) and I thought about how much I fucking hated myself and wanted to die today because of what a disappointment I am to my parents. Even though I've "accomplished" things it's all in a fucking worthless field so there's no point.
Also, this is more critical, but fuck what your peers are saying. People in social situations (especially in group situations) aren't going to talk about the shit aspects of their lives, they're just going to talk themselves up. You're hearing about all the good shit they did and none of the bad. Ignore that.
Also, you've never had interest in anything? There must be something you enjoy doing, or at least do in your spare time.
>>25395426
>Some people aren't meant to be happy or are simply broken people
Bullshit.
They are in a mindset, they need someone or something to just snap them out of it.
How come in all these movies where someone goes to commit suicide, it always ends with them getting in a car crash or having something amazing happen to them, and they change? They just need to be shown that they're making their own hell, or someone has made them see to perceive themselves as worthless. You're not.
Make yourself aware of the fact that there's an endless supply of happiness to be delivered to you and an endless supply of things that you could be doing to further yourself and others. Helping people, helping animals, helping nations.
You can do so much, but because you've got some sort of blinder on, catalyzed by some event, you can only see the negative.
There is always a positive.
>>25395599
>How come in all these movies
Because they're fictional movies.
>>25395467
>>25395534
>>25395599
I'm serious tho family, I literally don't find pleasure in life, I'm just nutural with everything, and just hitchhike on what others like (but they don't take me anywhere so that doesn't work). I cry myself to sleep because I can't find a happy memory. I have nothing to strive for, for I have no positive emotion to obtain
>Somehow got invited to a party
>Thinks he's hit rock bottom
Oh boy
>>25395692
One thing.
There is, at the very least (and there is obviously way more than one) one thing that you enjoy.
>>25395037
>sometimes i wish i was suicidial. i'd pull the barrel out of my mouth and point it in the air, start a revolution
Every time.
>>25395728
It's a subjective thing senpai, hard to explain
>>25395738
Im-im sorry... I don't. It hurts
>>25395599
Again, you don't understand the mindset of a suicidal person. What you say is ignorance.
I invited my best friend over yesterday. I hadn't seen him for 5 months. We used to see eachother weekly. For 2 weeks before, just thinking about it made my stomach hurt and I needed to run to the toilet. The night before I didn't sleep at all, and on the day I couldn't relax for 3 hours until I finally calmed down enough to be myself without fear. That was something I wanted to do and have done before.
Now you tell me that I just need to get out there!!!1! There's a huge world and so much happiness! Even the things I want to do and enjoy are blocked off to me. I could name countless things I've not been able to do because of the physical sensations and reactions it's caused me. Fuck off. This isn't being alive. There is not always a positive. You don't magically find inner strength, you don't just change your mindset.
>endless supply of things that you could be doing to further yourself and others
Fuck off. Most people here that aren't neets need to work for a living, that usually takes up most of your time. Yeah, it's possible to volunteer and shit, but that takes way too much discipline. A busy schedule is hell.
>>25395823
You're right, it doesn't just magically happen, you have to make it happen, catalyze it, make a change, just do something.
>>25394878
How are you gonna do it, my brotha?
>>25395871
Yes, and if you're suicidal you don't HAVE motivation to change or you simply can't. You imply that everyone has the mental strength to do so when that's not the case. Why is it that most people write how they're just tired in their suicide note. It takes so much energy to change. It's easier to die.
>>25395871
>If I just keep shitting platitudes, everything will be okay.
>>25395692
Well what do you do in your spare time at least? Can you name me specific things, and can you try to do it objectively? (ie don't tell me "i do this but it's garbage and stupid and i only do it for this reason")
>>25395874
I was gonna hang myself, but then I didn't feel like buying rope, so I'll just lie down at the railroad tracks near my house. I'll get free autism points for death by train
>>25395871
This attitude works with people who are actually just in a small rut. This does not work with actual suicidal/depressed people dude
>>25395911
See a therapist then?
Have someone tell you that you're worth it, or that you can change.
Fuck, there has to be something you can do for yourself
>>25395975
Just casually play vidya. That's literally it. I'm not even that good, nor do I have a favourite genre. It's doesn't even count as a passion
>>25396098
I feel like you're acting like you hate shit because it's edgy or something
Even people who are suicidal that I've spoken with have mentioned that they like to go on walks or work out or something.
>>25394878
I was thinking of exploding a firework next to my head soon. I imagine it would be very lethal.
>>25396095
I've seen therapists on and off for 7 years man. I've been on and off pills, tried the /fit/ life, it doesn't work. It's an emptiness and it clouds everything I do. Nothing changes. Time goes on.
>>25396147
I wish I was senpai, but Im neutral to everything, I derive no happiness from anything. Outside adventure walks are cool
>>25396172
I feel like it might not be that lethal, good luck anon
>>25396283
>Home
Thanks.
>>25394990
Give SSRIs a chance.
>>25396468
Hmm? Explain (remember to be original)
>>25396172
It'll burn your face and blind you, but it certainly won't kill you.
If I ever kill myself I'll be going out in a blaze of glory. (I.e. saving someone or a group of people)
>tfw hero complex
I just want to be a martyr.
Also I promised pics, well here is me sitting at the table listening silently Listening to the people who like living
>>25396527
I don't know, it worked for these guys:
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/11305452
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3150053/Police-Man-shoots-firework-head-dies.html
http://nypost.com/2014/01/06/queens-man-dead-after-firework-explodes-in-his-mouth/
>>25396545
I had this thought as well, but I don't go outside, so I wouldn't have the opportunity to do such a thing. I will die silently and alone, fading away, letting people move on without me
>>25396592
I still worry. Make sure its a powerful one senpai
>>25394878
Soon. Gonna wait for a day when my parents are gonna be gone for a while.
>>25394913
Life is pretty shit desu.
>>25395037
>I don't understand how mental illness works
The most a depressed person would accomplish is going on a mass shooting.
>>25395599
>How come in all these movies
Because it's fiction? There are movies with magic, doesn't mean I can just shoot fire out of my hands.
>>25396594
It's better to burn out than it is to fade away.
>>25396912
/k/ pls go
>>25396840
I wish you well. U done a note or a will yet?
>>25396871
>The most a depressed person would accomplish is going on a mass shooting.
>implying you have the energy to do that with crippling depression
>>25397091
Nah, I just wanna say goodbye to my e-friends first.
>>25397139
Fun fact, many people with clinical depression don't have the energy to kill themselves, but if you give them antidepressants, there's a chance you'll make them feel just well enough to pull off a suicide attempt. This is why ADs carry a suicide risk warning, which seems strange to many people.
>>25397202
I'm probably going to take a bunch of antidepressants with vodka. Too lazy to do anything else. Even just buying the vodka felt like a lot of work.
I was planning on hiking to beachy head and throwing myself off the cliffs if I made it without turning back.
That was on the 28th of December, but I'm still here.
It feels pretty powerful knowing your body still refused to accept death even after you suffer from suicidal thoughts for years on end. To me I knew they were thoughts, but in the end they were nothing more. It gave me a long sense of relief on the walk back, something that helped me much more than any shitty SSRI's I stupidly took.
Nice image OP
>>25397202
Wow coolI will not be muteddddd
>>25397372
i wish i could wear anime shirts in public
>>25397372
Good to see you made it famala
>>25397466
It probably looks dumb but who cares. Most people are fat retards that ruin their body, or they cake themselves in make up or cringy tattoos.
>>25397584
it doesn't look dumb
i just don't wear stuff i like because i have no confidence
>>25395997
Why did you choose that way of dying? I would imagine that it'd be messy and controversial instead of hanging yourself or some shit
>>25397640
I knew a girl who jumped in front of a train. Apparently there wasn't much left of her.
My resolutions for 2016:
1. buy a gun
2. burn everything i own
3. rent a boat and paddle out into the middle of the ocean
4. blow my fucking brains out
I'll leave the deposit in cash
Here's them watching one punch man laughing and talking about various things. I could just leave right now and no one would notice
>>25397640
I was gonna decapitate myself with the train, since drop hanging is harder than lying on the ground
>>25397666
>>25397697
it's an extremely selfish way to kill yourself
a lot of train conductors get fucked up and end up quitting their jobs because of this shit
>>25397673
>having friends that watch OPM
>wanting to leave them
What the fuck you ungrateful shit.
>>25397673
fuck you
go fuck yourself
get up and leave, and then slam your head into a wall until you fall unconscious
>>25397372
Where did you get the shirt?
Redbubble? How's the quality?
>>25397712
Then the normies should legalise euthanasia. They bring this upon themselves!
>>25397712
>Feeling bad about scarring normalfags
What kind of robot are you?
just to be clear, opm is a terrible show
it's animated well but they really fucked the show up hard
I'm going to get hot enough this year to reject anons by the handful every hour of every day walking to work in 4" pumps and pencil skirts.
>>25394878
>imagining the people around you have bonds
this is your autism
ITT: Faggots who will never have the balls to pull the trigger
>>25397788
Well aren't you utterly unique and special?
>>25397766
some weeb redbubble seller about a year back
it's pretty decent. I get really autistic with card details so always pay for stuff like that through paypal
>>25397788
i don't fucking care, you have friends who invited you to something and you're complaining
just die, you don't deserve them
>>25397832
the comic is alright but the pacing and direction of the cartoon is horrible
>>25397721
They just started and are jumping on the bandwagon. Besides I can't be happy here. I would stay if I could, they seem cool.
>>25397712
Eh I know, but what you gonna do eh? I've spent my life giving, caring, and no one reciprocated, no one cared, they just took. I should have one moment of selfishness
>>25397805
Gonna kill myself via train, I will die with maximum autismo
>>25397788
not really though, it's still a pretty good show compared to the rest of the shit that comes out, all these shitty highschool waifu animes and the sort.
>>25397849
It's great, awesome shirt.
I got this one awhile ago, Mugi x Death Grips
>>25397987
Ordered from some Chinese website and it was like $50 but I love it
>>25397868
>I've spent my life giving, caring, and no one reciprocated, no one cared, they just took
When normies talk about "the real world" in part that's what they were talking about.
Give anyone (this can even be family or "friends" but most often "acquaintances" or workmates) an inch and they will exploit you, so do your best to exploit and leech off the world. Use it and them for what you need.
I could probably count the people I trust and care about in one hand, all are close family and I love them dearly. But as for everyone else, fuck em
In my case my ultimate goal of taking it easy (pretty much being a NEET waste of space, eating well and playing vidya with steam friends each night). I would recommend this comfy existence to any other robots
>>25398290
But I'm a giver by heart. Like I'm that guy who would buy you steam games during the sales. Guess I'm on t fit for this world
>>25397721
>not caring about one normie meme
>ungrateful
Almost new years guys, rip me
>>25397788
if other people like it i cant like it. kill yourself hipster
