Let's start a depression thread in this depressing time
Post depressing pictures/music/stories
Not sure if not killing myself in 2015 is an accomplishment or a failure
I have a real hard time leaving my bed and finding energy to do anything, am I depressed?
I don't want to get diagnosed in rl, it would just make my parents sadder about the poor creation they gave me
>>25385279
Yeah, sounds like it. Try opiates, they help
How come this type of thread doesn't get replies?
I find them comforting
took this picture of a painting at the louvre this year
>yfw the last survivor sitting there alone
>>25385363
I've only done weed and thinner my whole life
>>25385417
I don't really know anon. I guess most of us are just too tired to care at this point. Best of luck to you
>>25385425
It's beautiful. If you took more photos and it's okay with you to share, I would like to see them
>>25385230
Why would God make a human who desires meaning the most but was born without any ability to achieve it?
I watched as everyone spent years making real connections and truly living, I listened to the endless shouting between my parents outside my closed door in my youth, I walked through doors to wander through places where I don't belong.
I only ever wanted some good friends to laugh with, a loving family to return to waiting in my home during the evenings.
But I have no home, I'll probably never be able to have one.
Yet the curse of hope is still within me, telling sweet lies in my ears when I break, while the will to survive is holding my hand.
Time to wake up.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Dayas2Q4CY
I love depressed people though wtf
>>25385659
God doesn't fucking exist, religion is only there to fill the non-sense of your existence and keeping you away from wondering about your reason to live.
>>25385634
i made more pics but not depressing, except maybe the paris catacombes, pretty fucked up place tbqh
i'm pretty fucking depressed, just waiting to go home and take some benedryl and sleep until the new year
>>25385659
>Why would God make a human who desires meaning the most but was born without any ability to achieve it?
>implying all humans inherently desire meaning
you can impose that perspective on anything, but that doesn't make it true
>>25385864
Top tip right here: take some dimenhydrenate with the diphen, it's usually sold as drammamine or something like that. Helps relax you more.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=662uPQ7Xrdw
>>25385813
>muh religion is the opiates to the masses XDDDDDDDDDDDD
You're already dead inside and a stupid fuck up so why won't you kill yourself? Tired of people like you plaguing every fucking discussion, you literal cancer. Your views are shit and your existence is too. Die.
>>25385867
Where did I say all humans desire meaning?
All I meant was it's ridiculous that someone who's completely unable to make connections with people but can be driven to suicide by their absence should exist in this world.
Besides, by meaning I didn't mean purpose or goal, I meant having something real and rooted.
>>25385741
I really like this
>>25385858
I would really like to go one day, and I would like to see whatever you're willing to show
>>25385999
Fuck, I like it and trips checked
>>25385999
amazing, thank you anon
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F30G87zlRPw
>>25385659
>>25386212
I know how you feel
You know, we are going to die eventually, so with our short existence let's keep trying? At least that's what I think sometimes but other times I think that I can't take it anymore and want to die
>>25386242
will post some catas
>>25386412
they stored up to 6 million human skeletons down there since the 17th century, these people died hundreds of years ago
>>25386536
original desu senpai
>>25386571
a bunch of these skulls were stolen, they check your bags when you leave... cant imagine why people would do this
>>25386571
I don't think this is depressing, personally found it a very interesting place to inspect. Hope you didn't use a flash when making the picture tho.
>>25386655
i remember the thread on /b/ about dude putting dick in hundreds years old skull. I bet someone has the screencap
checked
>>25386412
Did you visit as a tourist ? I'm a local and there's some abandonned entries. In the most known spots there's junkies and punks, but in dangerous areas, real adventure begins. One time I met a grandpa with a carbide lamp.
>>25386412
Wow it's fascinating. Thank you for sharing, my day is a little better now
>>25386685
no flash was used that day - srsly dont know why though, you know why?
i did not think it was particular depressing, still odd feeling down there thinking about these people. meet some americans outside talking with them to pass the time, they immediately went for a rofl picture putting sunglasses on skulls giving thumbs up though... mfw these people exist
>wake up at 0630
>collapse back in bed
>set alarm for 0700
>0710
>0720
>0730
>0800
>crawl out of bed at the last minute
>get dressed in the same clothes as the day before
>walk 4 miles to college
>cant focus on anything
>workload increasing
>demands from everyone
>walk back 4 miles
>tell myself I'll study when I'm home
>sit down in desk chair
>sleep
>wake up and grab a load of food
>shitpost
>look at clock
>0300
>crawl into bed
>cry
>>25386849
no, as tourist from germany - i tried to avoid these places t b h
Who /psychotic depression/ here? I got 3 hours of sleep last night because I thought a demon was trying to kill me.
>>25385999
>>25386242
>>25386306
Watch the movie, I really urge you to it. Robot's essential movie: Synecdoche, New York
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IA_ubhYgjAc
Happy new year
Original comment desu
>>25385999
>>25387175
God yes, I just entered this thread and saw this.
This is my favourite movie of all time.
Everyone here watch it.
>>25385279
That's how it started for me. Ended up missing school and couldn't graduate so I dropped out. Lost all my friends because I'd never want to put in the effort to try to hangout with them. Meds are basically the only way to go. I'm on like 3 different meds to help with my depression. They help deplete it and make me seem normal and get me out of bed, but its not fully gone.
Currently in my sitting room drinking, dwelling on my failures. No one wished me a happy new year.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=io-Rn_ebQ9U
>>25389306
Happy new year anon
>>25389369
Thank you anon, same to you. Hopefully life gets more tolerable this year
Picasso's Blue Period was pretty depressing.
Another blue period
I love how you can hear Nick Drakes optimism die as his albums progress. Not that he was ever a very happy person, but Five Leaves Left and Bryter Layter had a very hopeful outlook that is completely not present in Pink Moon. It's a wonder anyone was surprised by his suicide.
>Be a depressed kid
>Have friends
>Family is nice to me
>Be a depressed adult
>No friends
>Family resents me more and more because I feel shitty all the time
Its sucks the most when people call you a faggot for not having a girlfriend. At least they don't call me loser for having not a friends.
>Maybe I am beta testing shit for a god in a blind study.
Considering using feb. 29 as the day since it only comes around once every 4 years.
Its almost like it doesn't exist. Like me.
>>25391718
Best of luck to you in all your pursuits, anon.
Also, that's a great picture and I will think of you everything I see it.
>>25386049
I could say the same about you
>>25385999
fuck this is so good
>>25385230
>live alone
>go to parent's home for new years
>"anon it's best if you leave you have exams next week"
>"o-ok"
>have a little sister that i'd kill for
>when i leave she cried
>heart fucking shattered
>now i'm all alone , all over again
>literal 0 friends because moved to new state
>not a fucking single person messages me on any social media
>it's 1:03 am
>crying
>>25386049
face it anon god is just a lie
not here to convert you , but don't be clingy to your empty hopes.
>>25386049
>Die.
Haha who invited tumblr to the new years party?
Im tired of it robots. Im so so so so so so fucking tired.
>>25392088
Thanks. I think you made things a little bit more not so bad.
https://youtu.be/kI1PWcTe0W4
https://youtu.be/MfvcPeWO8yk
>go to kikebook to check people i used to know for whatever reason
>everyone has tons of friends, relationships, jobs and some moved to different countries
>meanwhile im fat neet for the past 6 years with no real friends or education and barely find enjoyment in anything
oh god just end it
>be home for holidays
>supposed to be a fun time
>have 9 relatives come over and stay at our house
>house is filled with people
>I'm not good with having a lot of people around me
>won't leave me alone
>start snapping at them
>giving harsh, short answers
>Quickly irritated
>annoyed by everything they do
>try and calm down in my room by reading manga
>dad comes in 5 minutes later yelling at me for not socializing
>yell back that I have been socializing with family but there's too many of them and too many questions being thrown at me
>forces me back out to family room
>family keeps trying to ask me questions about my future and college and girlfriends (kek)
>I have no future, I fucking hate college, I've never had a girlfriend, and all "friends" I have are made up
>get tired of lying and just start telling them the truth about how shit everything is
>they finally start ignoring me
>dad getting more and more mad
>keeps pulling me aside to tell at me
>tell him whatever and barricade myself in my room
>extended family finally left today so house is quiet
>dad still pissed
>I'm pissed
>mom's on my side because she doesn't like our relatives anyway
>family tensions high
>I'm get to leave on Saturday to go back to my apartment two states away
>Saturday cannot come quicker
Fuck family holidays, they all suck
My brother is a fucking normie Chad and rubs it in my face ever goddamn time he sees me.
He has a relevant degree, 80k a year job, and a fiance.
He fucking won life.
While I spend my days sleeping in bed
Fuck this gay earth.
No one will text you and tell you happy new years.
I used to like listening to music it helped me cope now all music sounds annyoing and irritating to me but I can't shut it off because I've grown so used to the noise. I used to listen to music constantly and loved it so much now I hate it. I keep hoping I'll find a song I like but I never do. I keep listening to the same music I listened to before but nothing rekindles the interest.
>>25394429
>I keep listening to the same music I listened to before
This is your problem, explore new things. Find an entirely new genre that is unlike anything you have heard before. Never listened to post rock? Doom metal? Slowcore? Power electronics? Industrial hip hop? Get on it anon.
Prove that depression is real and not just the result of pussyfooting and avoidance.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dF_3w_gXing
>Sorrow and solitude, these are the precious things and the only words that are worth remembering
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vt1Pwfnh5pc
This song always gives me a bittersweet feeling, it's a sad song, but makes me feel better.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2qsL1JDcDeQ
Bumping with music that makes me want to anhero
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mN4AxskpSAE
Every fuckin time
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uW4hwUVsGls
Feel with me anons
>>25385230
Why would you want to feel depressed?
Actual depression is feeling nothing.
you just want to feel sorry for yourself and look for reasons why your life is shit. Fucking selfish cocksucking beta faggot.
>>25394350
Are you me? I have psychotic depression, so I have all of those feels with the occasional demon sighting.
dumping some of my projects
>>25392491
Your little sister loves you.
Keep in touch with her, Skype, text, whatever.
>>25397911
*cue another one meme*
>>25397948
going for the tumblrisc vibe
>>25397972
Another tumblr inspired wrist-cutter.
>>25398005
>>25397972
>>25397948
>>25397911
Loved your work
Was looking for a thread like this. I'm so tired guys. I spoke with my dad earlier and he and his family are going to a neighbor's party. Haven't spoken with my mom since high school so who knows where she is now. I'm just sitting alone in my apartment, stuck at my computer. I just want everything to end.
>>25398005
Continue, friend robot. These pics make me feel comfy somehow.
What's the meaning of everything... Why the entire world it's like " you gotta be a good person, you gotta help each other, you gotta love your family, you gotta think in the other first than think in yourself" ... But why... Why if you spent 21 years living on that way but the people always treat you like shit.... Everytime that someone ask for help I'm there for them.... Anytime. But when I need help nobody help me.... My parents think that I have self esteem that I'm secure of myself... But in the inside I feel like shit... I finished high school like a funny fat fuck with a lot of friends and with luck with woman but I start a college completely alone.... My parents want to me study some shit so I did it.
I'm paramedic.. But I don't know what my parents want from me... Tonight they are pushing me to hang out and get drinking with some cousins.... I'm not like that.. I like reading... Eating... Vidya.. Why nobody can accept me. I'm really shy.. Nobody accept Me just the way I am.. Nobody
They are expecting me to be a Chad with a lot of girlfriends and getting drunk all time
I just want someone to talk... I need a hug so bad.....
I wanna die
I just want someone to hug.
Schizoaffective disorder checking in. Wake me up
What is the distinction between eccentricity and autism/Asperger's?
>>25398599
Damn son, look at the quints in my time and the dubs.
>>25398005
This one is my pride and dream.
>>25398773
Dude, how'd you take this photo?
>>25398861
My friend saved it from somewhere else. I'm pretty sure its from a movie, but I don't really know the origin.
great music being posted bros
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lcqwfFKagH4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6-X3owaKFLc
Nothing says misery like ringing in the new year with this
>>25399176
damn anon that's really nice, thank you.
Depressing pic:
I find this one very depressing just by itself, but it's even worse when taking into account the character's story.
Depressing music:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Urbvj2wpyR0
Related, from the same game.
Depressing story:
My online "friends" who I've hanged out with for over two years decided to get together irl for new year's eve this year and failed to invite me. Worst of all, they kept talking about it for months in our group chat like I wasn't even there and completely ignored my presence and never once spoke directly to me about it. They just didn't fucking care. And all this time I thought I was a cool dude and everyone there liked me. I'm cutting contact with them and leaving the Steam group and any other groups I might be in with them. Let's see how long until they notice my absence, if at all.
>>25385261
Personally, I think it's a small victory each year that goes by and I manage not to kill myself.
>>25399512
>implying it is a victory even if it small to stay alive waiting for more disapoiting events, regret
and death
This picture is me for the rest of my life
>>25400883
ohhhh that one actually make me sad
What is causing you guys to be depressed? The only time I felt depressed is when I did munch of MDMA and the next few days I felt like complete shit.
>>25400992
My uncle has the same problem as me (psychotic depression) and has been admitted to several mental hospitals. Life is becoming a waking nightmare.
I always just spam the update button because I want someone to respond to me.
At least we have /r9k/
We're all alone together
![deathconciousnessig9[1].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/sMlA9v0.jpg "deathconciousnessig9[1].jpg")
who /have a nice life/ in here?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=snhkO-c-S0c
it might be plebby but it's literally one of my favorite band's ever
I have never felt so alone in my life.
I'm in this limbo, and it feels like I'm underwater, looking at the world above me. It's a strange solitary peace but I want to be wanted. I want to be loved by just one person so much that they want me to be with them always.
And then I remember that I'm untamed wilderness and no one wants a mess.
>shit childhood, war, starvation, no electricity or running water
>still remember my dad going to war, mother being shot, and her surgery
>first day of school, didn't make a single friend, father was busy being an alcoholic to teach me much, my mother was busy keeping the family together
>move to a 1st world country
>first day of school, didn't make a single friend, bullying started on that day, parents alienated by first world and didn't support me
>no one told me "i love you" till i said it to my mom on her birthday when i was 20
>extreme bullying through school
>failed education, didn't get into college, depression span out of control, anxiety through the roof to the point i missed a whole year of repeated schooling
>cue 8 years straight of sitting in my room, trying to work on my art and passions in between the crushing misery
>throw in an online relationship with an ideal girl that crushed me in the ways i worst feared (fucking a dude and telling me she doesn't love me any more)
>worked for a few years as well, tried drugs and other escapism
>offing myself any day now, probably in a week
You'll never escape depression. Killed my life, killed my relationship, and it will kill my future.
>>25401650
Also forgot to mention the usual robot criteria
>friendless
>24 yo hhkv
>ugly
>>25385425
Oh hey I recognize that picture, good book too.
>>25401650
theres always a chance to improve. there is light at the end of the tunnel anon. dont off yourself plox
Life so far.
Dad would bash mom everyday and when he got bored turn to me
Coming home from school was always scary cause if you could hear loud music from the main street you know he was drunk.
He always called me useless and worthless he showed me how to pretend to be sick.
always missed school because of it never learnt anything
mum finally left him and we lived on benefit money and that only cover lights and rent would eat canned food every night. grandparents would give us alittle money to get by but my pop past away and that stopped so back to beans on toast.
I was a normie at school had friends they didn't know the truth and if they did i would of been shunned and they all moved on to high school and i found vidya games at 12 and well i found this site then too one night, i liked to join chat rooms and have older guys praise me just idk why made me feel better about my life but all my friends went to parties while i became a shut in with no contact to anyone from before and just sat and slowly let this shit hole take over while i just sit and wait for it to end so dont have to put up with living anymore an that went on till about 17. got alot better if anyone wants to hear.
>>25401515
Maybe were not alone then
>>25385230
TRY TO FEEL GOOD AT LEAST ONCE FAGGOT
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d0k92qEn13c
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d0k92qEn13c
TRY GETTING A JOB FIRST>inb4 ree normie out
Does anyone have that consistent feeling of inferiority
>constantly think I'm worthless, useless, talentless, and stupid
>Don't understand something immediately, think to myself "Holy shit I am fucking idiot. Low IQ. Moron. Genetically inferior"
>Genetically inferior rings in my mind ever since I watched the Black Pill
>Mfw Eggman was right
I just need to kill myself to get some peace
Does having an existential crisis for the last 2 years count as depression?
>realize life has no meaning whatsoever
>when we die its nothing but fading away from existence
>fill the void by shitposting and playing vidya
I mean there's literally no point doing anything because we're all gonna die one day, so why bother?
Might as well just keep doing what I'm doing this year.
>>25401704
that book was GOAT
feeling of isolation, sacrifice, hard leadership, cowardice in a setting of an unmapped frozen wasteland while a mythical monster wants your guts.
Do you have any recs for books similar to that? I'm a huge sucker for fictional history in the frontier times intertwined with beings from local mythos.
PS: His new book about Everest, The Abominable, is really really bad. Don't buy it. Don't even read it. It's funny that in the Prologue, Dan Simmons states that The Abominable is the book he wanted to write originally but he was pressured to make it into what The Terror ended up being, and now 15 years later he finally can write what he wanted, and it ended up being straight garbage. I wish I could slap the guy.
>>25401872
The way I deal with it is just reminding myself we are all just apes. There are smart apes, and I'm a stupid one. But apes nonetheless.
If I don't think of people as human its easier for me to deal with my inferiority.
>Do you miss the blend,
Of colors she left in your black and white field?
>Do you feel condemned just being there?
>I am not your friend
>I am just a man who knows how to feel
>I am not your friend
>I'm not your lover
>I'm not your family
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fSX13jgRxI4
Surprised nobody posted this yet.
https://youtu.be/zuuObGsB0No
>>25401966
nice song
>>25399176
This is great, thanks
>>25401650
What is your original country?
My country is at war too, but I still didn't escape to a 1st world country (and I want to of course)
>>25401795
I'm happy it got better and I'd like to hear
>>25400992
life
originalcomment
>>25401937
I just don't want to be inferior, man. How can I write, design, think, or improve if I know my thoughts all stem from my inferior mind? How can I do anything worthwhile?
Fuck man
How did it get like this? Sure you were shy as a kid but you had friends growing up, in school. Maybe a little bit awkward, not the best relationship with your family, and you didn't develop like the other kids. As they matured, grew up, found relationships. Maybe you were just a late bloomer.
You believed you had a purpose, so you joined the military to help you find it. You finally felt like you belonged somewhere, here in this new family. But then when they discovered your 'secret,' that you weren't truly a man yet, the humiliation that followed closed you up and drove you away. Fear of anyone else ever finding out isolated you and you simply turned away from anything that might help you. Eight years you spent this way.
You got out. Pursued education and a new career. You tried hard to fit in with your classmates, coming from similar backgrounds, and pursuing similar goals. Yet as they went for drinks together every night after class, they wondered who you were. You graduated together. Got jobs together. They recognized you now, that familiar face. Yet when you pass them in the hall at work, with your polite 'hello' or 'good morning,' your greetings are not returned. The recognition is there, but the acknowledgement is not. Their equal you may be, but one of them you are not. You are an outsider, an observer. You can look but never touch. You shut yourself out from the world and the world locked the door behind you. The closest you will ever be to a meaningful existence is the odd glance through the keyhole at this 'secret world' of life and happiness. Every attempt you make at stepping through the door ends with another chair being propped up against it. You are not welcome here.Happy New Year, Heidi.
>>25394354
Do most people get happy new years texts?
>>25402151
Well will go down before it goes up so i got in contact with this girl whos raped me as a kid and with the intentions of fucking her and leaving as a way to get back at her but being a virgin i feel in love with here and copped her cheating on me 15+ times with different guys and i kept getting back with her and she introduced to her friend who was so much hotter then here and i got a crush and after the 15th time of her telling me she cheated on me i told her friend to find someone to talk to and she wanted to meet up and i ended up with her and left the friend and its been 2 years so far and no one has cheated and we live together and she inspired me to go back to school and being 18 i went to a trades college and found out i loved cooking and am really good at it, So now i'm with this amazing girl and i work two jobs one as a ap chef twice a week and the other working 28 hr doing 4 shifts in a deli making $26 hr (Australia) so pays goes up with age. shes away vising her mum atm so when shes not around i come here to stop the thoughts and the loneliness coming back but it dosent help to much but its better then it was so it keeps me going and trust guys its not hard to do alittle better just try to fuck your rapist sister and all will come.
sorry for late reply man. hope you are still here
>>25401555
Prefer Gilles Corey
>>25402746
Re reading my posts is something i should do more often
whos brother*
My current antidepressant takes the edge off but I don't think it will ever go away completely.
>>25387042
What's the difference between that and schizophrenia?
>>25402746
That was wild, it really pleases me that it's going good with you and hopefully it only gets better
I still have some hope for myself, this reinforces it
I suffer from a chronic condition that results in a lot of pain and discomfort, last summer it put me in the hospital for a week. Due to insurance issues it's been about four months since I've gotten any care and never managed to achieve the remission that properly treated patients get after diagnosis. My family is unsympathetic and only concerned that I am not wagecucking hard enough at my job. For around four months I have watched myself get sicker and sicker every day until I couldn't take it anymore. I knew my dad had had oral surgery several months ago and was perscribed painkillers. I took them, there were only about 4 or 5 and they lasted me near a month. Today I still haven't gotten treatment, I'm still getting worse and have no relief, but my parents found the pills missing. My Chad brother called me a scumbag who's just trying to get high so now my parents don't trust me anymore They believe I hit remission after I left the hospital and that I'm just faking to get more painkillers. This resulted in the complete overreaction of taking me off their insurance, when I was already caught up trying to find a specialist in our network. Unless I can cut through all the red tape at medicaid quickly I am not sure what is going to happen to me.
>>25403168
jesus anon
i hope you make it.
>>25403168
shit anon that actually pissed me off while reading it.
good luck, I wish you only the best. You deserve it.
>>25402951
Yeah and 4chan is cancer and ruins lives but it teaches you what humans are really like so it makes it easier to step over others for yourself. an i love you and everyone on here you sick fucks are my family.
>>25391718
That's my birthday. Only thing "special" about me.
>>25403207
>>25403329
Thank you guys, take care of yourselves. Health is a precious thing.
>>25399067
I fucking love Lust for Life.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bAJ_74tDZzU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tk0BOK0EDFE
Morrissey with the feels ;-;
>have to hide the fact that I am a virgin
I can move on from the fact that I will be alone forever, and find a different comfort in life, because people will always remind you that it sucks to be you.
>>25385230
>>25385261
I don't think new years is the day for this.
On my birthday I "celebrate" not dying that year.
Unless you're born on Jan 1st
Original commander
>>25386958
Basically the same without the crying. I haven't been able to do that for years.
>2016
>Go on fb
>Oneitis is now in a relationship with *Generic slavic peasant name*
why me
>>25405872
The worst part of depression is when you get to the point where you simply become numb, it's like your brain has resorted to blocking out all emotion to stop the pain, you just don't feel anything, both the misery and any possible good, you're just a shell, though the anxiety's still there.
I honestly believe that for some of us "getting better" is just never going to happen.
>>25385230
Fuck depression bruh. I feel like i'm starting to make it out right now but in a few hours i'll feel trapped again
>>25406629
Holy fuck this is me so much. They even uploaded a photo of them kissing under the fireworks.
>>25401555
https://youtu.be/rx8VLhHS3oA
You may enjoy that. Also check out Duster if you haven't.
>>25406629
I tried to forget my oneitis after a disastrous outing with her in January (not even a date).
We only had like 4 conversations for the entire year after that.
Then, out of the blue, she messages me to wish me a happy new year and asks how I'm doing.
What do I think, robots? Is she just being polite or what?
>>25402229
Why do you believe that you're dumb
>>25402593
Yep. I used to have friends and get quote a few of these. Haven't received any for quite a few years now.
>>25409451
Just being polite.
You have to move on anon.
>>25409451
She's just being polite. If you aren't willing to escalate then just cut contact with her, period.
good way to start off the new year
>>25410152
>sent a message to a girl i didnt contact for a year+
>she hasn't seen it yet
I guess i will get a similar reply too when her friends hear so don't sweat it.
Spent the night with the woman i like (nothing sexual) but she'll never like me back.
Watching her go away today has left a huge void inside of me for some reason.
I tried playing the guitar, but i just can't shake this feeling, this anguish.
Fucks sake, why do i ache for emotional bonding?
I had to get out, so im going to the movies by myself.
There's a void in my chest
I just want my pain to end senpai
>>25398295
There is no world
So who here /acceptedtheirfate/ ?
I know that my life can't offer anything new for me now and that after all the failed efforts I'm just not able to live normaly in this world. I will live comfortable in my mediocrity for the rest of my life. I won't be happy, but I won't be completely sad.
>>25410378
I tried, but eventually there's things that remind you how sad your life is
>>25410378
I can't feel happiness at all, so I decided to just kill myself, could that be a way to accept my fate?
>attend NYE party
>people say I look like some transgender person
As if I needed more insecurities
>>25410427
yeah i suppose, but aren't you scared of what comes next? i would never suicide and i even fear death when i'm going out
>>25410450
Nah senpai, I don't think Ive properly developed feelings, I'm neutral to everything. It prevents me from following happiness, having preferences, motivation to achieve greatness in those preferences, e.t.c. I don't fear death, I just want the option that makes me feel better, and since I can't feel happiness, I would rather feel nothing at all
Life for me is usually fine as long as I can stay home. Whenever I try to leave, besides short trips to the store near where I live, I always get the worse stomach pain and on occasion, start hearing voices and hallucinating and it seems like everything's out to get me.
>be me
>haven't had a gf in years and figured I never will anymore
>one day meet qt3.14 8/10
>she is everything I could ever hope for
>talk for about three months then work up the courage to ask her out
>over joyed when she says yes
Two months later
>we're sitting down and talking and tells me we need to break up
>wtfwhy.gif
>tells me because she doesn't show me enough affection and that she feels guilty
>tells me I have the whole day to think about my decision
>end of day comes around
>tell her I want to stay with her
>tells me it can't be that way and that its over...
One month later
>find out from a friend the truth
>turns out, her ex found out about us and threatened to hurt her and me if we didn't break up
>become the angriest I ever been and cry like a bitch
Why the fuck do people have to ruin other peoples happiness like that? Why can't people just let other be happy and fuck off
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XiCrniLQGYc
>can NEVER, EVER be like my idolized heroes
>all because i'm brown and 5'6
i'll never truly be happy
>>25410672
If her ex is still not dead youre faggot
>>25410672
You have 3 options
>1. Kill the ex
>2. Murder his entire family and let him live
>3. report the guy to the cops!
my new years resolution is to clean my apartment and keep it neat cause its pretty bad right now.
I have been sober for a year now and I feel like screaming cause i was told this way would be better but i still feel like sleeping all day and how death (nothing) is better than the way im living right now.
I want to go to a psychologist just to tell them to give me a pill that makes me feel whole on the inside cause im doing everything they told me to and its not working. They say god can fill that piece thats missing but ive tried prayer and it doesnt work cause i 'know' there is no god.
Is anyone here actually trying to be better but still feeling just as empty as before you started trying to do anything about it.
Meds are a meme
>>25398773
>>25398861
>>25399031
it's a jewelry ad
I am still depressed
>go outside for food or something
>all i see are people with bf/gf
>go home
>>25410672
Holy shit senpai, I had the exact same thing happen almost (well the first part atleast). Got my first gf, dated for 2 months. Literally the best time of my life and I really loved her, still do. She said she felt GUILTY because she wasn't as AFFECTIONATE. I told her I didn't care about that and I just liked being with her like the beta cuck I am and she left.I called her last night when I was drunk :(
How do I suicide goodly
