It started to go wrong when you gave up.

Ive been spending most of my nights smoking cigarettes by myself in a parking lot for the past 2 years. I know these feelings too well.

>>25340617
I tried to make plans with people and they all flaked fampai, I just dont know, the look in the bartenders eyes as each hour passed and I was still sitting alone is what killed me the most

I got so drunk and fucked up on benzodiazepines last night that my body was basically numb. I puked like three times, but that was mainly because I was also binge eating simultaneously.

>>25340595
Is that the cover of an Heretoir album?

>>25341770
Yes, it is the s/t cover.

At least you have the confidence to do that.

I can't even work up the courage to go to the bar by myself...so I just drink in my room.

>>25341810
Nice Band by the way

>>25340595
why don't you umm......make friends or smt

So what? Why the fuck should normies be the only ones entitled to having fun just because they can drag their friends along with them everywhere?
I've been drinking by myself at bars for quite some time. Yes, the bartenders and other guests will of course think you're a fucking weirdo - but (if you're in a city) you have to acknowledge the fact that you'll never see any of these people again - so who actually gives a fuck what them and their fucking drinking buddies think? Once you accept this mindset, you'll start to get more comfortable with drinking (or doing any other "group" activity) alone in public. If you're anything like me (and I believe most of you are), you put enough energy into worrying about what people in your life (classmates/coworkers, family, etc.) think about you - do you really need to worry yourself with the opinions of total strangers, who have no influence over your life whatsoever?
Happy drinking, robots, and I hope you too will one day learn how truly liberating it can be to be "that guy" in a pool of strangers.