>be robot af for years
>KHV at the age of 20
>worried I was gonna go full wizard
>FINALLY get a girlfriend
>I still don't know how, but it clicked and we're amazing together
>been dating for 6 months
>lost virginity - we're close - it's great
Okay here's the problem.
>During all that time I was khv, I fapped to porn ... a lot
>developed bizarre fetishes, including sub/masochist tendencies
>sub tendencies spiral out of control
>eventually wind up regularly fapping to cuckold porn
Now that I'm with my gf, that cuckold porn is taking its revenge. I literally cannot stop fantasizing about my gf cuckolding me. I fap to it a lot - I often think about it when we're fucking. Whenever we're out in public and she ... maybe glances in the direction of a chad I think about them fucking while she hurls humiliation at me and it gets me off.
She doesn't know I think this yet and I'm worried that telling her is gonna creep her out. But then again, it might be hot af to roleplay this shit with her. I dunno.
How do I stop this stupid fucking fetish? Or, alternatively, what's the argument against me just telling her and trying to get off with it?
>>25282582
Stop watching porn. Fap to your thoughts.
>>25282626
But ... then I'll still be reinforcing the cuck thing tho.
...hell, if I dropped porn, then I'd prolly be much more likely to think about my gf getting railed by Chad's giant cock. At least porn is removed from real life.
A cuck fetish is a natural development of porn addiction. It makes sense if you think about it. With porn, you're watching someone else fuck. If you've been watching it for years, it's embedded subconsciously. When you watch actual cuckoldery, it projects your shame on the screen, which is disturbing, and you need something disturbing to get off because you're desensitized from the normal shit. I know I sound like an armchair psychologist but if you think about it you'll know what I'm talking about. I know this from personal experience, I'm in the same boat (but no gf). When I watch the cuck porn I get off to the man's humiliation, but it applies to me because I'm a cuck for watching someone I want to fuck get fucked by another man through a TV screen. So the answer is to stop watching porn. It's super EZ with a gf and I would take the opportunity while you have it or else shit is just gonna get worse and worse.
You'll probably regret it if you got her to actually cuck you. The only people who engage in cuckolding are old as fuck hippies and swingers who can't move past the old days of degeneracy they once enjoyed.
>>25282725
>When you watch actual cuckoldery, it projects your shame on the screen
Wait ... what shame, exactly? I like porn because I self-insert into the role of the cuck to enjoy the humiliation. I'm not ashamed of that. It's just that it's a bizarre fetish far removed from actual sex between my gf and I, and I can't imagine how I could integrate it in an emotionally healthy way.
Porn isn't cuckoldry. That's just a stupid r9k meme. Porn is voyeurism definitely, and it emotionally requires a lack of participation, but cuckoldry is something else.
>>25282732
>You'll probably regret it if you got her to actually cuck you.
Ya I'd imagine so. Like ... sometimes I insert guys I actually know into my fantasies ("ya *my gf's name*, suck my giant football player friend's probably huge cock" hahahah) and ... I mean, it's hot af but even when kept to fantasies, the jealousy quickly gets a bit palpable. But obviously this fetish is a sort of emotional masochism so, like a self-destructive junkie, I want to push that feeling to get even more intense.
I think the main thing I'd want to hear is like .... for her to verbally humiliate me and roleplay with me or tell me about her exes (I already know a lil bit hahah) or ... something with dildos? But I dunno, it could be emotionally volatile.
And besides, it seems like it's the sorta fetish that you just don't tell a girl that you have.
>>25282725
>With porn, you're watching someone else fuck
>not exclusively watching porn of solo girls
baka senpai
>>25282879
Meh. Variety my nigga
