My nigjt is going like shit because i've been drinking a little and remembered all the stuff i have been putting off and all the things i dislike about myself. You know how it is around these dates haha.
How are you doing?
>>25234150
pretty shit, I just remembered I forgot to write and buy gifts for a few of my relatives.
>>25234185
That sucks a little, but it's nothing you can't handle anon. Merry christmas
>>25234240
I see them like once every 3 or 4 years so most of the time I pretend I don't have family.
>>25234150
Awful. I am remembering how small my family is now. That I will probably never see my father again and that I just can't connect with my remaining family. I'm also thinking how I am going to be alone when I start hitting my later twenties and inevitably stop talking to any of them forever.
On top of that I have been talking to this poor girl that is going in for surgery to get a tumor on her brain removed in a couple weeks. This is the second tumor in the same spot and the exact same surgery. I don't know how to break it to her that I am a complete fuck up and a very real suicide risk. She thinks the world of me too. I don't know why. I know that I can never make her happy and I will never be happy with her if I do date her.
I don't know man, maybe I will kill myself on new years. I hope you other robots are doing well.
>>25234354
> I don't know how to break it to her that I am a complete fuck up and a very real suicide risk. She thinks the world of me too.
Don't tell her. Don't drop that shit on her, man find someone else to help you through that, she has enough on her plate already. Also, her faith in you may very well be product of her desperation or whatever, but what if she's right? What if there is something truly valuable in you ? Are you going to throw that away? Improve yourself to try to live to her expectations and help her through that hell, survive. I know you didn't as for my advice but i wanted to give you my 2 cents.
>>25234305
I do that with 3 of my older siblings, lol
>>25234589
That's really powerful. For now I'll just take it slower. I guess it would be better to not drop anything on her right now. She really is a truly caring and nice person. For her last surgery there was a scare that she wouldn't wake up from the surgery. I'll try to be there for her when she wakes up this time. Thanks, anon.
>>25234853
I'm glad i wrote something useful. Regards from south america.
When I drink all my problems don't bother me. The days when I'm sober though, that's when that shit gets to me.
>>25235091
You know all the damage you're doing to yourself is going to catch up with you, better to stop now than later. What are you trying to forget?
