When did you realize you were autistic?
When everyone left here and I stayed. Also I was into sonic in HS.
When I looked at the mirror and saw nothing wrong, then looked at other people and even those who looked worse than me had a healthier social life.
When my mom told me "you have autism. Remember when you saw that therapist as a child? Well she wanted to have you diagnosed for autism, but that was an insurance risk. So you stopped going to therapy and were never officially diagnosed."
When I noticed that I was the only one fascinated by facts. Literally nobody besides autists care for the truth.
>>25226743
Insurance risk? You get insurance by being on disability for autism. You're probably not autistic, you just came from really stupid people.
When I visited 4chan
>>25226878
No my insurance rate would be hiked because I have autism. It makes me a liability to an insurance company because they have to pay for my medicine on a monthly basis. If you have any diseases or mental illnesses your insurance rates go up.
>>25226861
Same for me. When I started working wageslaves jobs I realized how stupid a lot of people are.
Everyone says I like to argue a lot when I myself am completely calm and just stating facts.
>>25226878
Also you bought into the autism bux meme? In America it is extremely difficult to get disability for having autism. You have to first be diagnosed. You then have to have a referral from a psychiatrist that your autism is debilitating. It has to say that your autism prevents you from ever functioning in the workplace. Then once you have that referral you have to go through a year long or more court process for the government to approve disability. And then after they approve disability, you have to wait 6 months to receive it. And even then the disability isn't that much. I think it's 1.25k-2k a month.
>>25226925
I am not sure if you can call them stupid, most normalfags simply are ignorant towards the truth and rather find comfort in their current belief system than to be critical thinkers.
when i found out my parents sent me to a preschool for autistic children
i was the only kid in my class to make it to regular school
When I started hanging out on r9k and could relate to you guys
>>25226977
Well I did that and get autismbux. And it's nowhere even near 1k/mo.
>>25226908
>It makes me a liability to an insurance company because they have to pay for my medicine on a monthly basis.
Unless you're on disability, which gets you insurance. Hell you can get medical marijuana.
>>25227116
You either have really bad autism, or you fooled the courts if you live in America.
>>25227162
Either way. I'm surprised most people don't even try.
>>25227147
Hey dumbass. I already had health insurance at the time. So if I were to be diagnosed with autism, my insurance company would hike up my rates. They hike up rates because now I'm having to use their money every month to buy medicine.
Hey dumbass. Disability is not the same thing as insurance. You PAY for insurance. DISABILITY PAYS you.
>>25227190
Who's the dumbass who has the same medical condition as me, yet pays for it instead of gets paid for it. Hey retard, fuck you.
Around a year ago. Actually, somebody on 4chan pointed it out to me. I had never even researched autism and had no clue what it was. I did a little research and spent the rest of the night chain-smoking in stunned silence.
When my grandma told she thought I had it. Before then I didn't quite know what autism was. So I researched more and realized that autistic people do understand emotion. They just fail at human interaction to the point that normies are confused or uninterested in them.
>>25227187
>>25227206
You go to jail or get fined if you try and fool the courts. It's this little thing called fraud. You may have heard of it.
>>25226478
After browsing r9k for a few month and seeing what autism is like
>>25227238
So I didn't go to sped classes, didn't get a diagnosis from a professional at a young age, and wasn't an actual sperg throughout my high school years? They can just decide one day these things DON'T make me autistic?
>>25227280
You can have autism, but you have to prove to the courts that your autism is so sever it is impossible for you to function in a work environment. Chances are if you were never in a special ed class your autism isn't severe enough to file for disability.
>>25227309
I was. The court decided it, not me. It's not like I didn't spend years working on it and didn't go to a school for "troubled" kids because of it up until middle school. Lots of people that post here qualify and simply aren't resourceful enough.
>>25227349
You're just a faggot who need to kill himself.
>>25227448
Says the guy who calls himself autistic because he can't admit he's too stupid to function.
>>25226565
>When everyone left here and I stayed
what do you mean by this?
>>25226743
>insurance risk
literally what?
>>25226908
but anon, there are no meds for autism
>>25227610
Shhh let him have his half assed Munchausen syndrome.
>>25227583
Do you dumbfucks not know how insurance works????
A good customer for an insurance company is someone who is healthy, never goes to the doctor, never gets sick. So if you have a disease that requires constant treatment or a disability that requires constant treatment your insurance rate goes up. How the fuck so you people not grasp the basic concept of capitalism that is within insurance???
when I requested to see a copy of my medical records (due to a change in state law it became much easier to do so) and found that I'd been diagnosed at age 7. my parents never told me for some reason, it was a relief knowing that there was a reason that I had no friends and no gf, and that it wasn't my fault like I had previously thought
>>25227622
Disability is the thing that gives you insurance. You're either disabled or you're not.
The problem is that aspergers is a meme for bad parents to relieve themselves of disciplining their stupid kids and the state doesn't want to pay for every single one of these idiot fucks and their families.
>>25227622
I understand perfectly, I'm just confused because I (a full-blown, diagnosed-by-professionals autist) have never received any sort of treatment whatsoever
>>25227619
>>25227610
>>25227583
>>25227523
>>25227349
>>25227280
>>25227206
>>25227187
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>>25226878
CAN YOU ALL JUST KILL YOURSELVES
KILL YOURSELVESKILL YOURSELVESKILL YOURSELVESKILL YOURSELVESKILL YOURSELVESKILL YOURSELVESKILL YOURSELVESKILL YOURSELVESKILL YOURSELVESKILL YOURSELVESKILL YOURSELVESKILL YOURSELVESKILL YOURSELVES
>>25227693
>aspergers is a meme for bad parents to relieve themselves of disciplining their stupid kids
I don't understand, what do you mean by this?
>>25227695
Because it's an inherent condition. Meaning if you've had it your whole life, if you apply and succeed, you will get back pay for it. Meaning you can't treat it with fucking therapy and meds.
>>25227725
Is that your thing? Just getting confused by shit?
>>25227757
I don't even get what you're attempting to say. it's not a "meme" and there's no such thing as "bad" parents, also it has nothing to do with disciplining your kids
>>25227710
Calm down, you should be mad at your parents for having you, not us.
>>25227695
Seeing a psychiatrist is treatment. Have you ever seen one? GUESS WHAT YOU PRICK ITS NOT FREE. SO YOU USE INSURANCE TO PAY FOR IT. INSURANCE COMPANY SEES YOU HAVE AUTISM AND THAT YOU WILL KEEP SEEING THESE TYPES OF MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS SO THEY HIKE YOUR RATE UP
KILL YOURSELF PLZ JUST FUCKING DO IT
FUCK YOU KILL YOURSELF YOU PIECE OF SHIT
YOURE WRONG STOP ACTING LIKE YOURE RIGHT AND JUST KILL YOURSELF
>>25227773
>>25227773
Yeah, its a meme. Doesn't mean it's not real, it means tons of horrible parents try to get a diagnosis so they can complain about it all the time so they never have to actually try to correct their children's behavior. I've seen it way more than I've seen actual autistic kids.
>>25226478
When the psychologist said "you're autistic"
>>25227774
Hey nigger even if you're white you're a fucking nigger that's how low dirty and shitty of a person you are. Do us a favor and slit your wrists and throat.
When my parents told me they were splitting up. And it came as a complete surprise. Didn't read the obvious signs.
I don't think I'm 'truly' (genetically) autistic, just under-socialised tho.
>>25227781
>SO YOU USE INSURANCE TO PAY FOR IT
but we didn't, we paid for it out-of-pocket
>>25227781
Why don't you flip out like this at your shrink and actually prove you're legitimately inept, instead of shitposting here?
>>25227801
you're not supposed to correct your children's behavior
>>25226478
I'm not officially diagnosed so I'm normal
I'm normal
I'm normal
I'm normal
>>25227821
Because I am a shitty person, and for 1 of me there are 9 people at any given time on this board complaining about their autism is holding them back in life. Because they need an excuse to be so fucking stupid.
>>25227834
THATS BECAUSE YOUR PARENTS WERE SMART AND KNEE IT WOULD HIKE THEIR INSURANCE RATES
>>25227824
That's a good way to put it. I think a lot of people are under-socialized. Hang in there, man. Sometimes I wonder which is better, to have parents divorced or to watch them stay married and fight.
>>25227552
A lot of 4chan's userbase left for eight chan around when moot lost his mind.
>>25227922
They don't stop fighting after they divorce, sometimes.
>>25227915
we never had insurance, though
>>25227922
or worse of all, to watch their relationship devolve until they're just two people who happen to live in the same house
>>25227962
Yeah. It's a situation that has very few relatively positive outcomes, if at all. No doubt that all kids feel the sting and helpless.
I was in special ed
I figured it out when I was in high school because no one told me shit or even what autism was
I did not accept that I had it till I was like 19 after doing acid I was looking at my life while on 3 hits and realized how different I was from everyone then I took that aspie test and scored super autism mode then I remembered I did that test like 2 years before and saved the results and that said I was autistic
my psychiatrist said I could go on disability and she vouch for me I just need to get 3 more work credits but im neet right now and I turn 25 in a few months and I will need more credits fml
>>25227961
>when moot lost his mind.
what happened?
>>25228067
Yeah, that's what I meant in that response.
When I got my diagnosis at age 4.
If you haven't been professionally diagnosed by at least two respectable child psychologists you are not autistic. Same goes for any mental illness.
It went the opposite way for me
>as a child, psychiatrists thought I was autistic, but my parents rejected the diagnosis because my brother and sister were fuck-ups already and they didn't want to accept there would be a third round of it
>eventually see psychiatrists again in middle and high school because of school complaining about my behavior, but nevermind I'm completely fine in my head, just "maybe a little too introverted and air-headed for society"
>university, now people are asking me if I have autism or dyslexia or if I was abused by my parents
Did I dodge a bullet, or am I in a worse situation? I'm not even sure
>Be good looking
>girls hit on me all the time in HS
>sperg out and they leave
>go on a date and do my best to not sperg out
>comes over accidentally goes into my office
>it a shrine to my love of gundam and filled with manga, posters, gunpla and other models
>she ask if I watch anime
>gets weirded out and leaves
>Also I'm vegan because I can't stand the taste/texture of meat and I can't eat dairy
I'm not autist, it's just my severe ugliness killed my spirit and all I have left is daydreaming
>>25226478
christmas 2015, when I browsed /r9k/
>get over-excited at some stimuli (e.g. a very funny post on 4chan)
>start smiling madly and get all giddy with joy and feel the need to jump through the walls
Does anybody else do this?
>>25228924
Do you have emotional unstability? When you get annoyed, do you get really pissed off?
>>25228941
Yes, I also get unnecessarily angry when someone pisses me off in a minor way.
I don't have autism though, just severe anxiety and emotional problems.
>>25228989
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Borderline_personality_disorder
this is you
you probably already know but yeah
>>25229055
>tfw now know i have bpd but didnt realize it before i had already destroyed every friendship ive had
>>25229179
I almost have it (I'm angsty as fuck and violent but I don't feel happy highs at all) and I've got to say, I destroyed every positive relationship I could've had, on purpose.
Do something about it before it's too late and you kill someone, anon
>>25228644
your parents are in denial. you suffered because they chose not to face reality
It took a long time to realize, but there were signs all throughout my life. Senior of high school is when it started to dawn on me.
>Be me. Summer before Senior year of HS.
>Working in local coffee shop.
>Manager's mom comes into chat with her.
>Say hi, go about my business.
>Manager later comes up to me laughing, telling me that her mom asked if I was autistic.
That really pissed me off, and I though that would be the end of it.
>Summer before Sophomore year of college.
>Working next door in the bar attached to cafe.
>Owner's sister starts working next door.
>She's 55 and creepily rubs my shoulder all the time, telling me how good of a job I'm doing.
>I ask her to not touch me like that, I like personal space.
>Manager from previous time again tells me that this other woman asked if I was autistic.
Am I doomed to be an autist for all my adult life?
>>25229460
I'm not autistic though, just really fucking strange
>>25229524
Whatever the case might be, you could've gotten help and your parents denied it to you so they could feel better about themselves for a little while.
>>25229480
yes theres no cure
im going to kill myself because of it
When I discovered Wikipedia and found the page for asperger's. This was in like in 2004/2005 when I was 14/15 I think. At first I wasn't sure but then a lot of my friends and classmates also discovered asperger's on Wikipedia and were like 'yep that's anon ahehehuehue!"
>>25229609
I don't need help though, it's not like I have a disorder. Although being verbally abused by my parents constantly fucked up my ego and makes me wish it was the case sometimes so I could have an easy excuse.
>>25229618
I'm planning on it at some point, just going to wait out the storm until it gets really bad. Life is pretty OK right now.
I found out when I was like 12, I get really fascinated with stuff, I know the random shit ever, like facts and what not, I'm shy as fuck and hate making eye contact with other people, I like to keep to myself, also I'm an emotional roller coaster, I'm always dreaming/fantasizing about ideas and what not.
It's killed me socially, fucking sucks man
I've always known growing up, I was diagnosed at 3 for fuck's sake
>>25229669
Bro that sounds perfectly normal
Is there nothing else? Were you even diagnosed?
>>25229480
>>She's 55 and creepily rubs my shoulder all the time, telling me how good of a job I'm doing.
>>I ask her to not touch me like that, I like personal space.
???? I may be autistic/aspie (never bothered to go to a shrink because no cure lmao) but: what the fuck are you supposed to do in that situation? why was she rubbing your sholder? I dont human really well but this seems really weird to me...
pls respond
>>25229714
Yeah i was, it's worse than that but I'm not going into it because it would be maximum autism (I have aspergers)
>>25229746
I have no clue why she was rubbing my shoulder. I see two possibilities, neither of which I like.
1. She was being overly motherly with me.
2. She was trying to hit on me. Which I don't see as very likely, and even though I have a thing for older women, I wasn't attracted to her at all.
I talked to the owner of the bar and I asked him if that made me an autist, and he said no. So I don't know what her fucking problem was.
One time got really high by myself and I looked in the mirror and came to the realization I was autistic.
>>25229789
Go ahead please, I'm curious, since the stuff you mentionned is perfectly normal
>>25229863
When I was younger, hand/arm flapping, I'm clumsy as fuck, I hate going to places where there will be a lot of people, fascinated by the smallest things (like the weather or the day-length) I'm always constantly checking when it will rain or snow and hoping it does, hurricanes, looking at other places when the sun will set, etc. Typical aspie shit
>>25226478
I realized when I was in high school and everyone was together socializing and I stayed alone
Pic related trigger me every time i see it
Now I have a degree and a job, but I nave no friends and never had a gf. I plan to kill myself at 30 if i'll be still alone. There is no point to struggle to live a shitty life
I found out I had Asperger's Syndrome at 9. I also found out that I was schizophrenic, OCD, and ADHD.
Then, at 15, I found out that I wasn't Asperger's, schizophrenic, or OCD, and that my dad just liked diagnosing me with bullshit because his grasp on reality is a little fucked. Apparently I was ADHD, though
Then, at 23, I found out that I had been diagnosed with ADHD, but that as a child I was also diagnosed with PDD-NOS, which basically meant I wasn't quite autistic, but showed certain symptoms. I socialize, but I can be very awkward, and I can offend people without having any idea why.
>>25230890
>PDD-NOS
That's a thing?
What are your symptoms exactly?
>>25230963
I'd say the biggest thing is not having much control over how I come across to other people
You know how Asperger's people can be extremely rude without knowing it? I'm not that bad, but my body language can be off enough that people can get the wrong signals from me and get annoyed with me
sometimes I do something that will piss somebody off, and I won't understand what was bad about it until hours later, when the situation will hit me, along with feelings of shame and regret
I guess it's like being halfway between normal and Asperger's - I show just enough of the Asperger's symptoms to seem a bit "off"
>>25228924
Opposite is true for me, at least in the real world. I can't get excited past a faint smile.
>>25229863
>normal
Then what the fuck is wrong with him? Clearly something led him to spending him (and me too for that matter) to spending tonight on /r9k/.
>>25227781
>Seeing a psychiatrist is treatment. Have you ever seen one? GUESS WHAT YOU PRICK ITS NOT FREE. SO YOU USE INSURANCE TO PAY FOR IT. INSURANCE COMPANY SEES YOU HAVE AUTISM AND THAT YOU WILL KEEP SEEING THESE TYPES OF MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS SO THEY HIKE YOUR RATE UP
>KILL YOURSELF PLZ JUST FUCKING DO IT
And people say autists and robots are the unemotional, unflappable types.
When I went to Uni against my will and had a nervous breakdown after years of emotional trauma and feel suppression.
They thought it was Bipolar but it appears to be a combination of the spergs with ADHD. Currently on Methylphenidate Hydrochloride 27mg ER. Its a little weak though.
>>25231343
Well... >>25229935
Being shy, introverted, and a daydreamer aren't autistic qualities. At worst, they'll make you a homeless jobless beta faggot but that's it.
When I did a self-diagnosis and realized spinning in circles, spinning things, having unusual comfort positions, talking to oneself, and having difficulty showing my own emotions are all autistic behaviours.
>be me
>open Autism shoes thread
>look down at my feet
>feels bad
Obvs I have Autism. It's a built-in excuse for all my failures.
>>25231420
>a combination of the spergs with ADHD
I suspect that I have that too. ADD though. how are the meds working? is it worth it?
My entire life counselors told me I just have social anxiety because of my childhood abuse at home and being bullied in school. I'm 22 and was just recently diagnosed with highly functional autism. I'm pretty normal but have a lot of STIMs I need to go to therapy for and take medication for the social anxiety stuff.
>>25231632
Its a band aid. Without it I wouldn't be able to even do anything. Wont fix underlying problems, might help you get through it, for example, I'm in a shit living situation but I'm using the meds to work on learning programming and make money.
>>25231701
>Without it I wouldn't be able to even do anything.
shit man, I feel you.
>move out to some shitty uni bc thats what everyone does right?
>really good at it for like 3 months (like top 10% good)
>after that I lose motivation to do anything bc it is not new anymore
>manage for a few more months
>my place looks like a messy lives there
>no energy or will to do anything
>drop out
I suspect ADD though, do you have adhd? I really should get my shit together and go to a shrink, but I am kind of scared.
>muh anxiety
>muh depression
>muh OCD
>muh ADD
>muh Autism
What's the difference between you faggots and the tumblr snowflakes again?
