when is the last time you cried?
i broke down this evening because i was just overwhelmed with how much of a piece of shit i am and that im too much of a pussy to ever kill myself.
>>25215659
just remember OP, this too shall pass
you may be having a low moment now, but eventually things might turn better
even if they dont... eventually the people who had expectations for you will die
just relax
>>25215679
if you wanna talk or vent or whatever ill listen
to answer your question though... I honestly dont remember. probably in high school when i was suspended for doing dumb shit, and then suspended again the same week... I thought my life was over but I hardly remember it now
When I get sad now because I am a piece of shit i just get this depressed feeling inside of me, but I think i am too emotionally reserved to cry anymore. I found out a few years ago that i literally lost the ability to scream, I am just too... quiet i guess. that was interesting
>>25215679
i've been low since high school, i just want to end it soon.
>>25215659
2 nights ago, and that was after a 3 week stretch of not crying, but I was kinda drunk too.
>>25215659
On the contrary, I cry when I think about my death. Of course, it might not be as bad when it's happening, but I'm going to miss on so much unimaginably good shit so well catered to me be like minded people. Games, books, movies, maybe even songs or just events or updates for games. Not to mention space travel, and the development of politics to what I'd think should be some sort of mincapitalism that actually would never happen but something better than now anyway
Maybe once a week. Sometimes more. That period between 11:00pm and 3:00am where the real hard thinking happens has led to some "cry to sleep" nights.