Welcome to highschool.
>youre supposed to be 18 to post on this board

>>25188568
God, do i really sound like I'm in high school. I'm actually goin to a community college. I'm really going no where, and its just how i feel. My bad

>>25188627
I know this feel. Sometimes going to community college seems like you're trying to dig out of a ditch, while everyone else is moving ahead in life.

I don't know your situation, but instead of giving into self-destructive impulses, you should strive to improve yourself.

It seems like your character needs work

>>25188513
you're in the same boat as me, dude. minus the cigs.

>dropped out of college
>got a job as a prep cook
>make shit money
>started smoking because they give me smoke breaks but not a lunch break
Feels good being a piece of shit
it actually doesnt

>>25189165
I Know what you mean but at this point i can't help it, its consumed my personality.

>>25190012
Then reform your personality. Reach out for others for help. Use iron-clad rules to discipline yourself into better behavior.

Even if you slip up, the struggle to achieve a better more functioning life beats wasting away in a bitter emotional stew of self-loathing.