things you've noticed because of depression
I'll start
>kinda hungry
>still don't want to eat at all
>eating makes me want to puke
>generally just end up starving myself and not eating
i want off this ride senpai
>>25126263
I know that feel
however I'll share a different one.
>tfw little to no motivation
>not even for breating
and so it becomes tedious and heavy
when does it change for the better, if ever?
>always sleepy
>can't actually sleep
>nothing is as good as it used to
>bored as hell
>hope's something nice will happen
>it doesn't
depressions isnt real :^)
>>25126364
what do you do when you don't want to breathe? the human mind is hard-wired to let you breathe and I'm sure it takes more energy to try and hold your breath
Didint eat for almost 1 week when depression was really bad, was hoping to die, but just felt weaker than ever
>>25126364
Same, no motivation for anythingkill me
>hallucinating demons and shadowpeople at every turn
>convinced that every car that pulls up near me is trying to get me
>weird beliefs in astral projection and telekinesis
>spend all my day in my room too afraid to even go to the bathroom
>can sometimes see my face be contorted into that of the devil in the mirror
Who /psychotic depression/ here?
>>25126616
wow man, you need to rush to a doctor, you are being delusional
>>25126536
did you ever pass out, anon? a few nights ago i hadnt slept in 48 hours and hadnt eaten all day and i passed out on the stairs. i made it to the landing before i blacked out tho, whether that's for better or worse
>>25126263
>>25126531
You are reposting my pics
>>25126507
I have exactly this and it fucking sucks. I raised my meds 2 weeks ago and it is still the same.
>>25126616
sounds more like schizophrenia than depression to me. Good luck anon. My uncle spent his entire life getting his schizophrenia under control but now he's married and owns his own place
>>25126616
You sound like an anime protagonist. Just roll with it senpai
>>25126657
I am already seeing a doctor, she gives me anti-psychotics and talks to me like I'm a child. She thinks I might have schizoaffective disorder. I am probably her weirdest patient, she's only seeing like 30 or so people and they all have regular depression, so she doesn't know what to do with me.
>>25126531
Yeah I recall that there was this odd built in mechanism preventing us from ceasing to breath.
Like with drowning, when You desperately grasp for air only to suffocate with water.
One way or the other, point is that weight of sorrow can become enough of a burden for breathing to be hard, I swear last week I kept feeling nauseous and light headed with this sensation that I'm not getting enough air, that I simply am slowly suffocating myself. I tried to grasp more but to no effect. I finally ended up sleeping almost non stop for 2 days in a row.
And now up to this day I feel odd and eerie.
Unhappy and miserable for sure.
I just want everyonenice/kindto be happy. Hopefully myself just as well.
>>25126536
swapkillwithhugand find me transport and we're good off
>>25126616
Can relate, one day at school went pretty bad on me, to the point of me going really psychotic, shaking hands, twitches, shivers, light head and weak legs, I pretty much had to hide for the rest of the day not to disturb anyone. Besides I'm into lucid dreams, astral projections and egregores, if not overall occult so yeah. That's that.
>>25126682
I like the sweating one, pretty cute.
damn it, writing and thinking properly, coherently or in order is becoming ever more of a trouble
putting the scraps of toughts into right words and then phrases, not to mention epxressing oneself or certain concepts and ideas is pretty damn fucking agonizing now
>>25126728
or maybe it was three weeks ago, my memory capacity degraded overtime pretty badly just as well
really I have no sense of time anymore
>>25126531
Not him but holding my breath/not breathing has become much less... Painful so to say. I could probably asphyxiate myself and only get a weird feeling in my chest. Not sure if my experience helps you understand him but even basic things like breathing doesn't feel painful of not done these days
>>25126682
take it as a compliment senpai, you have good taste
mind staying and posting more?
>>25126723
Have you tried sitting in her lap?
>>25126682
You are reposting my pic
Also thats me in your pic!
oh I've got another one
>tfw lost all interest and ambitions
I used to be very passionate abotu drawing, but it beceame ever more flustrating and agonizing.
While in the case of writing I realised how shit my writing is.
>>25126788
I don't anime, but I probably should since I do nothing else with my life. Where is this from and where would be a decent place to watch it senpai?
>>25126822
>>25126824
>>25126682
this got confusing very quickly
>>25126840
Thx friend, is it good as well?
>>25126824
Same, stop, impostor!
>>25126854
I was here before you
>>25126868
Very
>>25126868
Nothing in life is good, sorry for that
>>25126904
Aww man...I need an escape
I know, also in relatance to the /psychotic depression/
anyone ever notices themselves sitting oddly and moving around like people locked up in mental asylums, I don't remeber the word that stood for this movement, like, making this weird circle moves with the body and head while being stationary.. ugh I really don't know how to explain
>>25126904
>posting my wall
>>25126929
Its good, go watch it, family
>>25126932
I think you're talking about akathisia, it's common with schizophrenics.
>>25126951
Alright I'll watch it. Any good streaming sites to do so? My computer is dead so I'm using my phone (computer sites will be good for the future tho)
>>25126951
>>25126929
>>25126998
Frankly i dont think it is something you can watch to escapewatch kenny vs spenny or something else
>my wall
>meanwhile it is mine
Something else that is funny***
>>25126998
Dont listen to him, its a good thing to escape
>>25127010
>>25127041
Here is my pillow, impostor
>>25127051
Dw senpai I'll watch it on my phone. Will Google it or something
>>25127099
Have fun
xx
>>25127051
>>25127099
>>25127132
>lying online
He will just feel worse after it
>>25127139
>He will just feel worse after it
>lying on the internet
You know what pisses me off, how fucking doublefaced people tend to be. Like take my family for example, one moment they wanted to help me, and another they blamed me for failing at something, shouting how fucking awful and piece of a shit I am, and then for some time again trying to be supportive, and then again only making things worse, and then again and again and just making things even more awful.
>>25126981
I doubt that it would be the thing, considering it's fully controlable, it's just I catch myself doing so quite often when in stress, toruble and alike, like, rotating in circle the whole upper half of the body. However what are the criteria or likelyhood of suffering from schizofrenia, if what are the symptoms and what not.
From what I recall it was related with hearing voices, or is it just one possibility.
Hey guy asking for the anime, if you're still here it's called WataMote. You can watch it for free in 480p on Crunchyroll.
>>25127336
>You mean Cebruz*
fixed that for you
>>25127350
Cebruzmote
Ftfy, imposto
>>25127336
>>25127350
Hi I'm still here, decided to watch it because why not, I feel pretty bad anyways. So what's the name of this anime then? Crunchyroll has a mobile this right?
>>25127411
See >>25127390
Its Cebruzmote
>>25127411
http://www.crunchyroll.com/watamote-no-matter-how-i-look-at-it-its-you-guys-fault-im-not-popular
I don't know if you have to download an app or not.
>>25127438
>>25127458
Thanks guys, I'll check it out
op here, is my stomach gonna be fucked up forever as a result of not eating?
>>25127729
As long you dont drink acid i dont think you can fuck up your stomach
>>25127751
I'm more concerned about my apetite, will it always be this way?
>>25127729
your intestines can get fucked up if you're not eating enough for extended time, because it upsets the natural homeostasis of the bacteria cultures.
>>25128018
how long would "an extended time" be?
>>25126616
Psychosis is no joke man, you seem to be still having a grasp on reality by posting this but that will end soon, you need to turn yourself in to get help before you head off into the streets and do god knows what.
