What's been the most traumatic experience in your life so far?
Well, I'm certain I don't have to watch that show now.
>>25119223
Probably going though public education.
My first gf cheated on me with a good friend of mine. It might have been less traumatic had other certain factors not been there, but it really was a perfect storm of treachery and bullshit.
Three years later and I'm still hesitant to trust people.
>>25119223
getting rejected in seventh grade
never recovered
>car crash when I was 4
>bullied and no friends in middle school
Getting beaten up really horribly when I was 15 by a couple of guys who had guns, but for whatever reason chose not to use them. I was pretty normal before that, but ever since I've been completely numb and apathetic, and mostly hiding on the computer.
Getting told "I'm gonna shoot you with my 9mm" while you run for your life is pretty shitty
assault and synthetic drugs
>>25119272
the exact same thing happened to me dude...
thats so crazy
got called out for being a virgin in front of a whole table of classmates by some alpha kid in our class on the first day of high-school and everyone started laughing hysterically at me, like a bad movie trope.
I didn't say anything, I didn't even know what to say I was frozen, I was too embarrassed and couldn't breathe.
my life went pretty much downhill from there.
When I was about four years old, I watched the episode where the babies put a lizard in their diapers to smuggle "Baby Reptar" to go see Reptar on Ice. I thought the expressions they made, particularly Chucky, when the lizard wriggled around in their diaper funny. Sometimes I would act out a scenes from episodes I was familiar with as it happened on the TV and one day I put a little plastic dinosaur in the front of my underwear and spazzed out with Chucky, imitating his grunts. The feeling of the iguanadon on my prepubescent penis caused me to become erect for the first time I was consciously aware of. It kind of startled me and made me feel weird about this episode for the next couple years. That said, Reptar on Ice is a great episode.
>>25119258
>light casting a shadow
wut
>9 years old
>have unknown medical issue; i.e. no immune system
>go to Cincinnati to a special doctor
>get hella sick, I'm talking about 105 fever style baby
>about a week of hospital admittance, my mother and father go out to eat while I'm in the hospital due to stress
>it's all good because my grandma is with me
>mom slipps off booth and cracks her head open
>blood everywhere apparently, has a massive seizure
>everyone thought she was gonna die
>grandma told me this
>whole world fell apart
>flipped shit, bawling my eyes out, and screaming it's all my fault we should of never been here
>all of this while I had 104-105 fever and an infected iv that hurt like hell
>on the bright side the tv was on and the spurs were beating the shit out of the cavs
It all worked out though. Through my severe illness, doctors figured out what was wrong with me and gave me proper meds. My mother is perfectly fine now too. That two week period was pure hell though.
A guy forced himself on me at knifepoint in high school. I was staying to help set up for a Christmas dance thing at the building right next to the school and he snuck up on me in the parking lot when I was leaving.
>>25119327
>virgin
>first day of high school
you mean like everyone else?
>>25119223
I confided in my first love about my depression/anxiety problems and that I sometimes have suicidal and unpleasant thoughts.
Then when she decided to break up with me no good reason (that she would give), she told everyone my secrets to make me look crazy.
my ex gf cheating on me with one of my close friends
losing a testicle
>>25119391
thats too fucking dark
I know girls who have joked about doing that but to actually do that.....
fuck
>>25119223
My dad's first deployment to Iraq. Apparently my third grade self literally wouldn't stop crying. I remember nothing from it apart from what he said before he left. That hurts so much to remember.
>>25119383
little bit different, they were obviously alpha as fuck and found out I had a hot GF from middle school who went to a different school at the time and they found out and asked me if I fucked her yet and I said no and yeah, that was that
>>25119437
Fuck man this reminded me of a kid named Ryan in my second grade class. He'd show up crying at least 2 of the 5 days every week. I always wondered why he was so upset, I guess he transferred schools the next year because I never saw him again.
>>25119391
>"I have these... unpleasant thoughts. They haunt my soul. I'm a pretty dark person, unlike everybody else."
>"Ew edgelord. You're dumped sry"
what tv show is the OP
>>25119223
When people did not use my pronouns :^)
Being forced to have sex with my roommate by home invaders.
>>25119497
Yeah some people take it differently. Every kid is effected, but it is worse when their is a strong relationship.
It hurts to see how much this changed us. It's like we both died and were replaced by different people. At least he has a valid reason.
>>25119243
what show are you talking about?
>>25119708
F is for family, Bill Burr's animated show.
When i was dead for like 30 seconds.
being hunted like game by my psycho father when I was 5. finding a hidden monastery saved us.
this happened in america.
>>25119560
Nice burn, reddit.
>>25119223
>Webm related actually happened to me.
Top fucking kek.
My brother had extreme bi-polar and would freak at terribly over the smallest shit. Imagine a 17 year old, 200lb kid having a temper tantrum like a 5 year old. Smashing walls, breaking my valuable things and fucking my whole life up. Everybody saw the police at my house all the time and that's when I became alienated at school. Because I had the 'crazy brother' who everybody made fun of. I thought it was strange that he was so fucked up and I wasn't until I got to around age 20, where I was hit by crippling anxiety and depression paired with the beginnings of alcoholism. Tried to kill myself a few times, but never really went through with it because I knew I was just being a drunk emotional piece of shit.
Bad genes desu
>>25119223
Laughed so hard at that scene
>>25119569
F is for family, it's Bill Burrs show, it's on Netflix, or if you live in a third world country like me, there's a torrent on Kickass torrents
>>25120167
Is it worth watching? I wasn't too impressed with the trailer netflix released.
>>25120123
Not my most traumatic story, but I went to elementary school with an extremely bi-polar kid and he entered a manic state, turned around and kicked me square in the ballsack full force.
I can only imagine how it would be living with someone experiencing that all the time, I feel for you man.
>>25120188
Thanks man. Most people don't really get it. He tried to kill me and my parents a few times with a knife, but luckily we were /fit/ while he was a sack of shit. Literally the old 'hanging over your bed with a knife' trope. It was just a whacky, bizarre experience where logic held no ground. We're older now, and he's on the right meds and can really be a caring, swell person when he wants to be. He just needs alone time and stress management. He still has issues, but I no longer feel in danger around him. I actually love him a lot.
>>25120123
This one is so painful because I feel like it could be my younger brother writing this. I never broke his stuff and the cops never came, but otherwise I see my teenage self in it and it makes me so ashamed.
Part of why I keep my friends at such arm's length and don't pursue relationships now is that I can still feel that side of me within myself. It's not really gone or even controlled, I just take steps to avoid it, and that means sacrificing a lot of the things I wish I could have in my life.
>>25120178
I love his stand up and podcast so I love it, still 1 more episode to go. This is a little bit like an anti sitcom, and the jokes are alright. Sometimes really funny. I like the Characters too. It's only 6 episodes
When I was a 13 I bought some weed for the first time from my best friend. He totally fucked me over and I ended up owing him. He then gave me an iPod he had stolen, and told me I could have it for free. A few weeks later he corners me and tells me it's time to pay up. He tells me I owe him $200 total. I'm 13 and in middle school so I don't have a job. I freak out and say no so he pushes me to the ground and beats me up until I tell him I'll give him his money. Just when I thought it was over he grabs a big hunting knife from his backpack and pushes it against my face telling me that I better not tell my parents or anyone about this issue. I was so fucked up, for 3 years I fantasized about killing him. He is the only person I have ever truly hated.
>>25119223
Both me and my sister, ages 5 and 7, were forced to suck a 40 year old stranger's cock. Now at an adult age, I'm a pathetic neet while my sister is currently in prostitution.
Being abused by my dad when I was little
He also did lots of creepy pedo stuff that I only remembered more recently
Every time I remember something new it just makes it all worse
He threatened to kill me and punished me for everything that happened
Now I have tons of mental disorders and "daddy issues"
>>25119367
Are you gay with a rape fetish now?
>>25119650
Green arrow fammmm.
>>25120712
How does this even happen? Where are your parents?
being trans
growing up with an abusive father and an alcoholic, post-natally depressed mother. The physical and verbal abuse from my father combined with my mother's attempts at suicide in front of me, her institutionalisation and both of them blaming me for it, among years upon years of other shit. knowing your birth broke a happy family apart isn't fun. nowadays i feel to blame for everything and people nag at me for apologising too much. I'm a broken wageslave mess with no place to go.
>mother raped in front of me when I was 8
I've all but blocked it out now but there's no way it hasnt affected me subconsciously
>>25121825
sorry man
that's fucked up
>>25119303
Were they black?
>>25120956
Was he black?
Car accident, i have anxiety while driving, cant drive in cities at all.
>>25121065
im sorry man hope it gets better
>>25120956
It's usually somebody that the victim knows.
Had knives on me more than a few times.
Bullied and alienated through school even though I always just tried to do what I thought was right.
Older, abusive, angry violent brother (who caused 60% of those "knives on me" incidents) was a bonafide, literal sociopath. Not talkin' edgy creepy looking rapist sociopath, talking actual diagnosable sociopath. The whole dexter hidin' what he's really like sociopath.
Seriously. He'd get away with everythin', and why - because "he's a good boy" that's fuckin' why.
My parents raised me right, unfortunately, they didn't raise him right. No discipline, and ignoring every red-flag when he really shoulda been sent to a damned shrink. They enabled him, and the things he did to me.
It's affected me greatly. I've learned that right and wrong is irrelevant - it's all about perspective. So long as people see you as a good, normal guy, you can kill rape and steal and they'll turn a blind eye towards any evidence otherwise.
It's all about perspective. That's why I'd say I'm a cyborg. It's hard to care about the sheeple when you know they'd target you just because your different, it's hard to care when you're acting rather than being yourself, just to survive.
In many ways, I'd say I've ended up just as bad as my brother, as far as manipulating others goes. There is only so many times I can watch him hittin' me saying "You fuckin' deserve this" and sudenly changing when a witness walks in "OMG, are you okay? You're so clumsy. Look where you're going, okay? you'll be fine".
I've been playing a long con for years now, to convince my parents he's bad. I cannot tell them - they need to ee it for themselves. So it's simple, I be his slave, even to unreasonable proportions. When they ask why I'm giving him a lift at 3 AM somewhere, when they tell me to say "no", I simply shrug and say "Why bother".
It's working. I've watched how they talk about him. They know he's a psycho-asshole.
Just gotta play the right role.
>>25119896
Winner of thread imo. Being momentarilly unconcious for the first time is probably equally bad and what the experience of death is like. Just *fade* and gone. Nothing. No memory.
Emotional:
At the age of 12-13 my parents found the porn folder. To be fair, half of the images were taken from dad's porn folder, which explains why he didn't become as angry as mom despite being about twice as indignant about "bringing that kind of smut into this house"
The very closest i've been to being caught jacking it is second place.Don't be retarded like i am, never do it with the door open AND pants down.
Physical:
Generic schoolyard bully shit in highschool, but thankfully only once before he moved onto someone else and then some other school.
Second place is getting spanked that one time by dad
> don't even remember what i did to deserve the spank
Mental:
Forgetting to close out the web browser when leaving 4chan up even on worksafe boards. Second place is all the times parents just step right in, just because the door is open.
>>25122183
>I've been playing a long con for years now, to convince my parents he's bad.
Your post says you've got it all figured out, but your actions say "moralcuck".
Assuming you live in a shithole, just shank the guy and get it over with. If you're in a good country just sociopath the cops or something and send him to the big house :^)
>crush on a girl my senior year of college
>hadn't had sex in college since a few party fucks Freshman year with ugly girls
>become friends with my crush
>one night she texts me to meet her at a bar
>I walk in the door, she runs up and hugs me, I do the most alpha thing of my life and just lean in and kiss her
>we make out for like 20 minutes
>she tells me we should go back to my place
>get back to my bedroom
>can't get hard
>we try having sex for like 3 hours and I just cannot get hard
>she tries blowing me to get me hard and it doesn't work
>says it's OK and we can try again the next night
>she comes over the next night
>same thing happens
>we try and try and try and I just can't get hard
>not sure if it's the nerves or what
>she stays the night and says it doesn't matter to her
>the next day she texts me that she doesn't want to see me
>starts fucking a friend of mine a few weeks later
And I haven't attempted to find a sexual partner since
Probably my third car crash
Probably getting the shit kicked out of me by 5 serbian refugees. One of them had a pipe or something and if it wasn't for the 2 huge native fellows who pulled up in a truck and chased them off, I think they would have killed me. Broke a bunch of bones in my face, like half my ribs, and I was black and blue from my knees up to my armpits from getting kicked.
Although watching a guy get stabbed from behind with a machete and watching it come out through his chest ranks up there too. Whats even crazier is that he just got pissed and started beating up the guy while blood was squirting out of his back/chest (literally squirting). Both people ended up living fwiw.
I dont really get ptsd, or have nightmares or anything like that, so I dont think I was really traumatized, but its shit I'll never forget.
>>25119223
A guy staring and masturbating at me in the subway, when I was 12.
Gotta love Paris and its wonderful people.
>>25120488
Did you pay him? How?
>>25122183
You write like a fag and your shit's all retarded.
When I was 5 I was run over by, had to get a skin graft on the side of my right knee (looks pretty badass tbqh) and split my chin which only left a faint scar.
I get nervous when i cross busy roads
>>25124298
Run over by a van**
>>25119223
0/20
feels good to not be an ugly loser neet autist
>>25119401
Howd you lose a nut?
being born into the family i was born into. i got unlucky. that's all it is.
>>25123466
What shithole do you live in?
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>>25119359
>on the bright side the tv was on and the spurs were beating the shit out of the cavs
Pops is your real pop.
>>25123366
My third car crash fucked me up too.
It's funny. I'd totalled two cars being a dumbass as a teenager, and that never really fucked me up, just taught me lessons about not doing stupid shit.
And then, early this year, I had a minor crash. First one in over ten years. Just went into a corner too fast in the mountains, and couldn't quite make it, slid into the guardrail. No serious damage, just a damaged fender and some suspension bits. I fixed it myself.
But the damage to my pride was immense. Some of my friends were there, and they all said it was just a common mistake, that it happens to every enthusiast who drives aggressively in the canyons, but to me, it was the end of faith in my own skills.
>be clinical psychology in training
>friend a mess over a girl he's dating with BPD
>friend starts missing class
>flakes on vidya sessions
He shot himself over that girl. And somehow I didn't see it coming despite being a year from earning my PhD.
>>25121065
>nowadays i feel to blame for everything and people nag at me for apologising too much. I'm a broken wageslave mess with no place to go
this is me as well
>>25119355
It's a reflective band, not a light source
>>25124572
Winnipeg
Its not even that bad here I just used to hang out with a lot of shitty people
Saw my dad slowly dying to cancer. The last days were the worst, he wasn't able to formulate anything rational, his sentences he tried to speak were completely random. I have a huge fear of diseases that attack your mental health now.
>>25125318
although it wasn't someone as close as my dad, I know the feel bro. Watching relatives waste away from alzheimers/dementia or other degenerative diseases is terrible
Went to marine boot camp and stayed there for 5 months because I broke my foot. When I graduated my gf of 5 years broke up with me for no reason (I can guess a few). I picked a shitty desk job because I thought we were going to get married so now I'm stuck doing a job I hate for 3 years. Isn't life grand!
>>25119223
5 year long torture session with my first gf.
Loved her more than anything else. Would have done anything for her. Ended up getting shattered multiple times over the course of years turned my soul into dust.
Never able to get over it. I think of her everyday. What a mistake it all was.
Dad was dying in front of me the entire time. Lost most of my friends, which was a very small number already. Was a fat loser and dropped all the weight for her. I tried to turn my life around for her.
I would still give everything for her but I quickly learned that the worst pain you can have is regret.
What a joke this all is.
>>25125412
>I turned my life around for her
If you're life's turned around why dont you use it to do something for you? Im guessing you broke up less than a year ago? You'll get over it, trust me, you just have to quit wallowing in your own self pity, and do something meaningful or find someone better.
>>25125376
Sorry for your loss anon, I hope medicine finds a cure some day. I don't care that we all die at some point(not really), but dying to dementia is the worst that can happen to anybody.
>>25125458
>Im guessing you broke up less than a year ago? You'll get over it, trust me, you just have to quit wallowing in your own self pity, and do something meaningful or find someone better.
Im not bringing this up out of nowhere, this is the topic of the thread.
Its not self pity either, morel like profound sorrow that the things I always wanted in life (true love, complete loyalty, pure feelings) are just a fantasy.
Feelings are fleeting. The truth that I cannot get what I want defeats me. Money is nothing, Time is worthless. I still enjoy life but less so.
>>25119353
What the fuck man?? That was traumatic?
Driving by a Buddhist temple and it not being burned down and the orange faggots not lynched
>>25119223
I left my on/off gf and this dominican for five minutes, came back and they were having sex on my bed.
I'm never letting normies party at my apartment again. I wanted them to leave an hour or two before it happened but they wouldn't.
Now I just smoke a shitton of pot because alcohol gives me anxiety.
>>25125412
Ugh, I know this feel.
It was 5 years for me as well, and it's been almost 3 since the breakup. I don't really think about her anymore, but I think a lot about the years I wasted, the shit I put up with for no reason, the dating skills I could have been developing so that I could actually meet new women now.
Riding a hufe ass rollercoaster. Shit is nothing but pure fear.
Panic attack on drugs and that one time when i tried to cut myself out of selfbondage but accidentally cut my wrist
>>25124893
Why was he a mess? Because she broke up with him?
Living through hell right now, my uncle has severe dementia, doesn't know who anybody is anymore, he's been like that for years. Now my dads starting to show signs of it. I'm scared senpai
probably the time I spent living at home when my mother really ramped up her insanity. she's an alcoholic and abusive, stemming from overt delusions and probable schizoid disorder of some kind
she stepped it up a ton by shit-talking me, my sister and my dad to family and family friends, and it really was to a point where I had to dispel accusations of doing illegal or abusive things by actually providing banking statements and offering to get testimony from friends and workers at my usual hangouts. having to live my life like I was in an ongoing court case because some alcoholic had a bad dream or two
add in that at roughly the same time, I had some other bad shit going on and it culmnated in me cutting myself open outside of a bar because some girls started a fight with me, and it was just generally a bad few months. it did get me to finally move out though. I'm less stressed out in general and my own mental health improved slightly, but I feel the damage has been done and it's permanent. I'll never trust another woman in my life, and I've got some bad anger issues and get frustrated and give up on things really easily, probably stemming from my home life being a constant series of times I got fucked over because my mom decided to be horrible again, and most of the other bad things happening in my life being at the hands of or otherwise due to women.
>>25125530
>Im not bringing this up out of nowhere, this is the topic of the thread.
>didn't deny it
so you got dumped like 20 minutes ago and your fee-fees still sting, gotcha
call back when she hits you with a wine bottle or something
baka
>>25125851
>so you got dumped like 20 minutes ago and your fee-fees still sting, gotcha
Its been a year and a half you fucking twit.
>>25119223
Maybe 8th grade
Mainly because there was this shitlord bully that everyone, even school officials, turned a blind eye to. Even my "friends" for fuck's sake.
He made my life a living hell.
Stabbed me in the eye oncedidn't lose the eye and can still see out of itand tried to cut my throat once with a broken piece of glass. Like, he just barely cut it, but it was enough to let it bleed quite a bit and I just walked around school all day like that and no one gave a fuck.
Come to think of it, I was pretty much bullied by everyone except the other "losers" at the school. This bullying went on from 5th grade until my senior year of high school, though in high school it became more psychological than physical.
I had rocks thrown at me, bags of un-popped popcornit sounds weird, but these fuckers hurt like shit, had tacks and shit slammed in my back, there were kids that made makeshift blowguns and used me as target practice, one kid even tried to snap my neck, a lot of the time they made me do the truffle shuffle because I was fat, got a tennis serve to the sack, and one guy all throughout high school would always punch me in the stomach right before band class.
Because of that experience through school, I'm super jumpy now. Anytime anyone opens a door, gets near me, comes up behind me, touches me, etc. I either flinch or jump up and my heart starts racing like a motherfucker until I'm able to calm down.
I think I might have PTSD from my school experience, but idk.
>>25125877
you are hella pathetic then
>wah wah a woman dumped me, woe is meeeeeee
are you fucking 14?
kusoyaro baka
smdh
>>25126111
Ive been dumped a couple times. This just happened as a weak point and I loved her too much.
Read my post. It explains everything you seem to assume.
>first year of college in crime ridden city
>only friend is some half cast guy who really likes the nazis
>always talks about how great the white race is
>we went out to a quiet pub and had a few drinks before we started walking home
>some homeless nigger starts chasing up to us on bikes and start demanding our phones and wallets while he is shuffling around trying to open up a flick knife
>my friend pulls out a knuckle duster and instantly starts hitting him in the face, after the first punch he was clearly out but he kept hitting him
>he got 13 years in prison cause the guy died
That's it, pretty tame compared to africa
>>25126084
Did you wear autism shoes senpai?
>>25126152
I read it and it doesn't sound all that bad
seems like you're just a huge weeping cunt
>>25126264
>Insults about being weak from the faggot that cuts himself
Sure.
>>25126316
again, call back when a bitch actually threatens your professional, personal or literal life
>>25126419
Why would that be a traumatic experience? Why are you so afraid of women?
>>25123348
You're a slut and deserve sluts.
>>25126477
>mother was abusive
>most women in my life did do things that significantly lowered my quality of life
but hey, a girl dumped you. nevermind that girls have withheld rent from my, that I had to sleep on the street because of my mother and that she's stolen from me a bunch, that my sister broke projects of mine, that girls accuse me of things that lead to actual trouble with security/police, nah, you got dumped once, poor widdle babby ur life is ruined :^(
>>25126548
>that my sister broke projects of mine
Dam, I didnt know that.
Shit. Sorry bro. I could never understand the despair this must of caused you.
You will never get that project back. Here I am, talking about my five year relatipnship exploding and my dad dying and family falling apart, but you had to endure that.
Im sorry.
>>25119223
Discovering masturbation and pornography.
That stuff managed to make me ruin my life.
>>25126609
>oh no this chick said she didnt like me
>totally the same as ruining actual tangible work
>b-btw my dad totally died, i know i didnt mention it till now but pls believe that my ~Five Year Relationship~ was the most important thing ever because im 14 and cant get over my oneitis!!!
>>25126548
>>25126609
one's pain is most evident to himself
>>25126800
>>b-btw my dad totally died, i know i didnt mention it till now
>>25125412
>Dad was dying in front of me the entire time.
Knew you didnt read it. Fucking retard.
>>25126866
>dad dies
>the important part tho is that my gf broke up w me ;_;
you sound totally not pathetic at all now
but w/e, keep living your entire fucking life for one roastie who probably never loved you
>>25126084
Man that's horrible.
>>25126916
Your the guy that cuts himself over his little sister ruining his school projects.
I guess we are both faggots. Your just more of a bitch though.
Tripping on acid in my room when my roommate knocks on door. His Mom had just committed suicide and he needed me to come with him to her house. Waiting there for hours while the police and coroner came; him, his sister, and Mom's bf alternately drifting around in stunned silence or losing their shit in grief. I don't think I said more than two words the whole time, I had no idea what to do.
>>25124861
Dude seriously just be more careful driving
>>25126985
>little sister
>has to invent things now and gets hung up on tiny details
pffhfhahahahaha
but w/e, call back when a chick threatens your life in some way and not just ~shatters~ you by going off with chad like any other bitch
>>25119258
this desu senpai
>no respect for authority other than my mom's
>first memory of school was on my first day of school, couldn't think about anything other than how I could escape their fucking boring classroom
>restless, act out constantly
>teachers are completely unable to deal with me, call my mother, I'm completely obedient to her and do what she says, second she's out of the picture I'm doing whatever I want again
>eventually they start throwing me out of class without calling my mother around 5th grade
>I accept this, spend most of my time wandering around the campus, after being caught wandering too far they start putting me in a supply closet with a textbook
>slowly grow apart from the few friends I had
>6th grade, they throw me out of the highly capable program for 'behavioral issues' despite remaining in the 90th percentile of test takers
>have very few friends through middle school, spend most of my time going into the fields, reading and looking for animals
Fast forward, I have a lot of acquaintances but I can't connect with other people very well, I can't do social occasions without wanting to escape. I visited a shrink under the table, off the record and he diagnosed me with SPD.
>>25119223
My childhood as a whole
>be me, 8
>happy kid, the best student in class. family of me, mother, father, my a lot older sister and brother living together
>suddenly mother has cancer
>see her wither day by day, they move her to the other side of my country
>see her once a month or two
>she is a walking skeleton who only wakes up to suffer
>she dies, I wasn't able to talk to her in months
Here the rollercoaster begins..
>sister and brother leave the house so I now only live with my father
>father falls into depression, leaves his job, stays in bed for days
>no one bothers to help him, I am the only person who talks to him
>I am 9 now, I take care of shopping, even cooking
>years go by, my father has it worse
>I still am the best in my class, he doesn't bother going to school, doesn't bother about me as an entity at all
>I am aware now, 13 year old, I know he might simply kill himself and I am ending up in orphanage as our family abandoned us
>I start skipping school to take care of him, fearing each and every second I am too far away from home he will leave me alone here
>I spay days and days with him doing nothing but reading books
.. will continue if someone want a blog
>>25127067
Why do you care so much about my particular case? Your intense hatred is just weird and irrational. Im not even the lightest thing in this thread.
I understand that your trolling but you dont have any logic. Nor does your gay ass story seem to have and impact/ You just seem like a faggot.
>>25125812
I don't think you understand how dangerous girls with borderline are. They will fuck you up.
>realizing you will never escape the invisible jail cell known as autism
>>25122014
Always. If they weren't kidnapped is basically a guarantee. The parents usually know them too
>>25127088
Sure. It's gonna be better then the two saddos who are arguing on this thread anyway.
It's fucking xmas and you are all this depressed? Seriously fucking kill your self you will never be happy.
>>25120931
I pretty much just dropped out of the real world. It killed my libido outright, too. Not to mention the guilt from getting the abortion.I was in bed when you replied.
>>25119223
By result? My birth.
>>25119223
I already told this story before.
I was around 15-16. One day my uncle picked me, my bro and cousin up from school and treated us to pizza. We were eating the pizza inside the pizzeria. Everything was going well until a piece got lodged in my throat and started choking. Tried to remain calm and tried to cough it up. That didn't work and I started having difficulty to breath. So then I got scared and I thought I was gonna die. In a panic I then lodged my fingers in my throat to induce vomiting and after two tries I managed to remove that fucking chunk of stringy cheese.
After that, my uncle just reprimanded me by saying "Don't be a pig, anon" and we left shortly after that.
What gets me is, not only how my uncle reacted, he didn't even ask if I was ok. In fact, the pizzeria was small and pretty full. No one helped me then. I was told by my uncle later that a couple of customers left in disgust after the vomit thing. Made me feel insignificant and worthless up to this day. Doesn't help that a similar event happen years before but instead of choking it was drowning.
I now avoid that shitty stringy pizza.
>>25127491
Choking or having something lodged in your throat and nobody giving a shit is the scariest thing ever. Second most traumatic experience was pretty similar.
>be me
>11
>playing at recess with friends
>shove a bunch of jellybeans into my mouth and proceed to play tag
>one falls to the back of my throat
>perfectly seals my windpipe
>literally can't breathe at all
>piss my pants
>panic like I've never panicked before
>run into bathroom
>start punching my throat to try get it out (nobody told me how to induce vomiting or anything)
>attempt to pry it out
>can't
>thisishowitends.jpg
>nobody has come to see what's wrong, still all alone
>crying my eyes out
>suddenly it pops out
>continue crying until my 'friends' finally come to see what's wrong 10 minutes later
>they all laugh at me because I pissed myself
>jeez anon you should've just asked for help and not peed yourself
I still don't get why people don't take choking on shit seriously.
>>25127491
Had a similar experience. I was sucking on a candy. At one point it formed into a circular plate and it somehow got stuck near the entrance to my lungs.
I was outside at the time with my grandma. I started choking really hard and it started to hurt. I felt that I didn't get any air into me while I tried to breath in. Got a bit dizzy while I ran into the house nearby to find something to drink.
My grandmother didn't react properly as your uncle in your story. She even kinda ignored all of it.
I don't think this incident affected my mental health in the future, but it was really scary.
>>25127088
>>25127324
2/?
>we live off only with my school stipend and social benefit
>my father just sits there trying to be "busy", aka visiting my mothers grave every single day for hours at a time
>we are dirt poor, I mostly prepare food like rice, vegetables, I go to social institutions for free ingredients to be able to add something to it
>my teachers started noticing I am not attending school but it's fine as long as I have good grades
>while I am at school all I can ever think about is what will happen to me when my father kills himself
>I start getting obsessive thoughts, all I can think about is how fragile everything is, I can't stop thinking I am going to end up in orphanage
>>25125812
I dated a borderline girl and yeah just do a little bit of research on it, it rally fucked my shit up. Two years after breaking up with her I get major anxiety attacks, suicidal thoughts, and I'm pretty sure I've developed Tourette's because I sometimes say the phrase "kill me" when I remember embarrassing things without any sort of control
>>25128219
>I'm 15 now
>end of middle school, I lost so much weight due to both being poor and, perhaps even more, due to constantly worrying
>I literally start getting grey hair because of how stressted I am
>I got called to talk with schools psychologist a lot, I denied everything and simply said it's just that my father is looking for a new job so it's stressful period for us
>I start fearing getting back home to see him hanging from the ceiling
>I sing up for every single math, computer science, physics afterschool activity just not to go back home, just to have this normal life for as long as I can keep it
I'm sure half these stories are fake so I'll contribute some of my shit.
>get a phone call on mother's day from a police officer that my mom passed away
>dropped out of high school and try getting my GED and failed the math 5 times
>still don't have it
>lost a good paying job because they found out I didn't have my diploma
>getting molested by a friend of the family when he got me drunk and high off coke
>constantly got picked on in high school while my family didn't help me at all
>got into a bad accident on a go-kart when I was 14 years old at a friend's place, had to get stitches between my thigh and almost bled out
Damn, reading through this thread and ya'll gone through some shit.
I haven't had much traumatic experiences. Maybe worst is being alone and smoking synthetic cannabis and get a bad trip with really strong closed-eyes visuals. Thankfully the worst part only lasted like 15 minutes.
>>25126609
Yeah, we get it. Your life's harsh. Boo-fucking-hoo.
We all have problems.
not being allowed to have a qt jc gf because it causes PTSD in the WYMYN that can't have me
>>25128372
I want more
>>25126995
Shit, haven't your trip interrupted by real life business is actually quite disturbing.
>plan trip monday
>move appointment with client to wedensday
>tripping 300+ ug
>client forgot we moved the appointment and calls me from the office wondering why I'm not there
I have absolutely no idea how I conveyed the message that the appointment had been rescheduled, but somehow she recalled and hang up. I felt shit about how wedensday would turn out. "Oh sorry about monday yeah I was fucking lost on drugs when you called haha" doesn't fly well in business.
>>25128326
I do that memory spasm thing too, had it for about ten years now. I will basically plead to kill myself out loud. It's not Tourette's, it's ptsd. It changes volume based on who's around, but I'll be loud accidentally with someone right around the corner.
In the first person, I'll say "I wish I was dead" a bunch of times in a row.
In the second person, I'll say loll yourself please Alex kill yourself kill yourself
In the third person, I say Alex is dead Alex is dead.
This happens ten times a day on average.
>>25129271
Lol what an autistic khv not being himself
When I was 14 I woke up to the kitchen covered in blood from my fathers attempted suicide (cut both his wrists and tried to slash his own throat).
>>25129271
Damn dude that's shitty. I've always struggled with guilt but the spasms didn't start until the end of my relationship with that girl so you might be right. I wonder if it came from this one point--she found out that I had been whackin to the thought of other girls we knew and she was understandably upset. Well the next day the local theater had a showing of 2001 and so I smoked three huge bowls to go see t as I had never seen it before. We both lived in the same dorm so I went to go say goodbye and she just started going insane like mentally emotionally berating me like no other just telling me how horrible I was I've never been berated so harshly. I was suuuuuuuuuper stoned too so it was a million times worse I couldn't react or talk I just sat there while she killed me it was horrible. I can't smoke weed anymore, I just get these insanely bad guilt trip anxiety attacks. It was around that time that u developed those guilt tics as well.
>>25119223
>Guy stole my drivers license
>asks for it back
>"fuck off"
>demand it back
>"or what faggot?"
>punch him in the face
>hand explodes in pain
>he stumbles
>I'm hesitant to hit him again, sort of in a daze
>he tackles me to the ground
>blows exchanged but I come off worse
>next day one of his friends feels bad and gives me back the driving license
>two week later throw a can of emulsion paint over his car at night
>can't stitch me up to the police because he would have to admit to being a cunt.
Real life beta uprising shit
>>25129964
why would he steal your drivers license? what's the context?
>>25119223
witnessing my sleeping mother having what looked like an epileptic seizure and being so shocked and too much of a pussy to call for ambulance thus watching her die
yep, that's probably the one
>>25120123
>>25120261
I feel like I want to apologize to you.
(interesting that >>25120311 is thinking the same thing)
I didn't do anything that would have caused physical danger but I'm a sperglord.
I think i'm a very nice person with good morals. it's just i've noticed that i think very different thoughts that other people do. I interpret things differently and my emotional reactions are very different.
I'm trying my absolute best to be a good brother.
but i'm just so different. it's hard to explain.
you believe people are thinking and doing a certain thing. you apply your morals to that thing and react the best way possible. that ends up being the wrong response.
or you feel like people are being incredibly unfair to you so you become angry. people think that anger is inappropriate.
>>25119223
where is this webm from?
I've been beaten and sexually assulted as a child but none could beat me being banned from a place called Lemonpunch on gmod. We where family, and I was treated like a meme in the end. Beaten with harrasment, not a single person was nice. They told me to kill myself even when I was being nice. Go to Lemonpunch . Com and look at the user Dr.pepper 10 and Armin. The comments people made on my profile drove me to almost kills myself.
Bump
Nig
>8 years old
>knees swell up to grapefruit size, can't walk
>go to the hospital and I spend a week there getting my knees drained of fluid every day
>the doctors think it's an infection and they tell us they're gonna amputate my fucking legs
>my dad just heard of Lyme Disease so he asks them to check for that
>it was Lyme! I kept my legs and took medication and got better
>12 years old
>develop osgood schlatter's
>once again my knees are fucked, excluded from sports which led to being generally excluded and bullied from 12-14
I don't feel traumatized but this is probably the reason for the part of my (severe, SEVERE) OCD that has to do with my body
the bullying was bad but if it never happened, this wouldn't have either
>I saw my middle school bully on the street for the first time in years, when we were 17
>eye contact
>I'm not sure who started running first, but I end up chasing him down and knockout gaming that bitch from behind
I like to think he saw my eyes and knew, but it's just as likely that I charged him as soon as I saw him, I don't remember
I have more revenge porn stories if you want to hear them
>>25123348
When you can't get hard,that suck's a lot had same trick.
>>25119913
Am I the only one who's curious about this?
>explain pls
>>25119589
how did the black man transform himself into a mulatto baby?!?!?!?!?
>>25119223
nearly died murdered, intense bullying, homelessness, no love, no emotion, emotional abuse growing up, betrayal, seeing a friend die from my own eyes, People being asshole and a bunch of pretentious shit, Dad being missing since I was born, poverty, mother being distant growing up and always working (can't blame that, we were poor), grandmother with bipolar,
Heavy Violence. Growing up in a black neighborhood.
Where u at OP ?
>Spent several days in a coma with hepatic encephalopathy from a decade of hard drinking.
>woke up tripping balls from the ammonia in my brain. Tubes in mouth, nose, penis, and b hole.
>strapped to bed, covered in my own poop
>hallucinate death curses, travel, imaginary people, angels, etc
>several weeks in intensive care
>now I walk with a cane and talk funny, have trouble remember things
>>25133025
Tell
>>25119223
Family member commited suicide by slitting wrists in my house. Had to clean it up and had a University exam next day. Got told i'd be given extra % as muh traumatic experiences. Got 100%, will never know if it was genuine 100% or not, feels bad.
>>25119359
Based Spurs fan. 210 reppin
>tried to stop my father from beating my mother at the age of 9
>had to sit in the car with my father as we drunk drove down an expressway at the age of 10
>couldn't stand up for myself when confronted by a child a year younger than me and got punched in the face. really damaged my self esteem
>acquired literal PTSD from watching people get crushed to death
>be like 9 or something
>at some mcdonalds with dad
>dad gets pissy because i couldn't finish my strips
>he goes off hastily towards car and starts driving away while i'm still outside the restaurant
>i don't know what the fuck just happened or what to do
>he comes back a minute or two later and picks me up
tbf, i don't know what memories from my childhood is real and what is something i've dreamt nowadays
anyone else in the same spot?
my dreams can feel so real that memories of them feel as real as real memories
>watch my dead gf of 3 years over skype with me being able to do nothing
>kill my own 6 year old german shepard as he was having seizures and nearing his death
>watch him vomit his stomach acid everyday for weeks
>thrown against the wall by my own father when I was a child
>watch my cat throw up blood before death
these are the ones that come to mind at least.
>
>>25119223
thinking
>electroshock therapy
>>25119401
Same
For the bottom one
>>25123348
it probably was nerves
had the same thing
you should attempt to find someone new
do it until youre not nervous anymore, you have nothing to lose
>>25119391
That is why you never show weakness, especially around women.
>>25119589
>We blessed
