I'm just so lonely, the pain is unbearable
>>25063803
There is a way out anon
>>25063835
I think about it everyday, friend.
Worst thing about this crippling loneliness and isolation: Nobody gives a shit, and wont help you beyond giving you pills or giving you the common advice. If you're depressed, borderline suicidal and at a very low point, you're going to be ignored more so. Depressed people are low energy, apathetic, and not "fun". Nobody is going to say "what a mysterious misunderstood person! I can see that there is something special behind that mask of depression!". People care if you're a genuinely nice person, caring, or if you have interesting insights. Yes, there is more to being nice (hence the existence of "nice guys"), but it is almost impossible to market yourself
>>25063803
I'm lonely too. Tell me what you want, I'll listen.
>>25064140
>People care if you're a genuinely nice person, caring, or if you have interesting insights
*don't care
my mistake
I'll try to be your friend
>>25063803
>>25064140
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming
Confusing
>>25064140
if this was someone you cared about how would you help them?
>>25064260
I care. I'm looking for such a person but I didn't find him yet.
>>25064281
I'm not OP, but do you want to be my friend?
>>25063803
>tfw you see cute couples doing cute things
I don't hate them, I don't feel jealous, I just wonder why the fuck did I do wrong in my youth my teens and what I do wrong right now.
I wanted to be like the others, I wanted to be a normie all my life, why does it have to be this way, why is it so easy for other yet fucking impossible for me.
I'd give the few I have to know where the fuck it all went wrong.
I never get lonely.
You just dont hate people enough OP
remind yourself that company can be pretty shitty
>>25064351
Okay let's do it.
>>25064383
if everywhere you go all you meet is bad drivers chances are more than likely you are the bad driver. If everywhere company has been shitty for you then you need to reflect to see why you are the common denominator.
What the fuck do you guys do for fun?
Fapping and shitposting don't count.
>>25064341
I'd try to be more present in their lives, I'd listen and give input to the best of my abilities. There is nothing worse than having all of your ideas, thoughts and feelings festering in your head; never leaving your mind, never seeming "real" and tangible. At the same time, us being together takes their mind off that ails them. Sometimes doing things like this can help, sometimes it can't. But what I'm sure about it that it beats suffering alone.
>>25064390
Okay...how do we start? kek
>>25064464
First you both get burner emails and share your skype or whatever
>>25064464
Could add me on steam or Skype I guess. Although I gotta go to sleep pretty soon
>>25064417
fuck you
you are probably right, time to hate myself even more
my pain is constant and sharp
>>25064510
Okay can I have your skype then? I will contact you tomorrow if you like.
>>25064442
well who could do that for you at this point in time? sounds like you have family/friends/a partner who could help
>>25064420
nothing.
I do occasionally produce music to keep me distracted. but I cant do that all day sadly.
>>25064512
>constant and sharp
Just like that edge senpai
>>25064537
Its laoche1337 just add me now
>>25064512
well your first response to me was an insult, who knows why. maybe you should stop filling yourself with so much anger or hate, for yourself and towards others.
>>25064545
do you have Soundcloud?
>wake up
>strange
>I feel kinda alright!
>try to hum a tune
>try fixing a bagel
>bagel burns
>time to break down again
>song never ends
>on repeat in the mind
>may as well go back to bed
>with sleep, at least I have a chance to pretend i feel something
>bagel still burnt in the toaster
>>25063803
>Loneliness makes him sad
laughinggirls.jpg
>>25064549
And I do not hope for a better world for anyone. In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others.
>>25064692
>not just wanting a happy world for everyone including you
>>25064543
My parents don't empathize much with my feelings of depression. I currently live with my mom and my sister, so they're the only people who are consistently in my life. My sister suffers from loneliness and depression as I do (hell, she even browses r9k) and is basically my best friend. However, next month she's moving out with her boyfriend, leaving me more alone than ever.
>>25064713
>not getting it
l o l
>>25064647
Yes, but its empty.
Being lonely is the least of your problems, how about the fact your post history will survive you? Everyone will know precisely how fucking stupid you actually are and it will completely invalidate any grief they feel about your death. That's the shit I'm dealing with right now. There is nothing I can do about the fact that I ever existed to begin with.
>>25064744
why you dont upload your music there? which genre?
>>25064759
Why do you think anyone even gives a single shit about you right now? Time will go on and everything will be forgotten. Stop thinking you matter in any way
>>25064799
Its funny because I am always telling people that. Demanding they cope with it before I have to, I guess.
>>25064729
nothing to do but find your own happiness
>>25063835
>K-On!
I've never wanted to live more than right now
you guys gotta pull yourselves together and move on with your life.
>>25064692
With edge that sharp, forge a blade, and kill someone's parents, perhaps in dimly lit alley on the night of a particularly snazzy contemporary soiree.
Perhaps the child of said parents will sulk in despair all his life and seek out justice for his own petty atonement.
Now do it 7 billion more times.
>>25064877
You don't understand. I'm not gonna rip into you as to how or why and be presumptuous, but there is some shit happening right now with human beings in general and you don't have the answers. My advice to you is to run far and fast with the sanity you have left, right now.
>>25064766
I dont upload anything there because I dont feel comfortable about my music and showing it to other people.
I just enjoy making music.
if you really want to hear something I made
https://clyp.it/gjfl1zag
>>25064713
>>25064925
>Not getting that it's a quote from American Psycho
>>25064925
No, that's the hard way. He'll never do that.
Give him a biological weapon and it's as simple as letting him die without medical treatment while the rest of the human world goes to all hell. He'll learn nothing and we'll learn nothing. We'll never learn anything. He is the kid who burns ants with a magnifying glass and you're the person who scolds him and you're both wrong.
>>25064993
>https://clyp.it/gjfl1zag
Sounds like shit kill yourself
but keep doing it
>>25064999
That movie was okay, the book was awful, and it's hardly a form of social commentary worth quoting or acknowledging. It's the ultimate muh feels story about a white man with severe damage to the parts of his brain that contribute to whatever keeps us normal monkeys from obsessing over shades of white and stabbing the homeless.
Again the book is fucking awful.
>>25065050
I know and I will anon
>>25065052
The movie and the book were about dubs you pleb. Learn o read beween the lines. Its all about repeating digits
