so i was visiting my girlfriends family last week and we started talking about one of our other friends that has a huge heroin addiction because he has sever anxiety disorder, oh btw did i mention that im a fembot? senpai desu

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I'm 18, mother died in NYC in 2001, father died in Afghanistan 3 years later. Grandparents died when I was 15.

I'm a highschool drop out, with no friends, no family and no money. I wanted a respectable job, so I joined a preschool for neglected and abused children.

Every fucking day, 70 little kids are tell me they love me. I have never been told by anyone that they love me. I love these kids more than they will ever know. I know each of their names, their favorite colors, their parents' name, why they don't live with their parents anymore.

And every fucking day, my co-workers think I'm weird. My "friends" from highschool call me and tell me what a fucking loser I am for dropping out. I come home to an empty shitty apartment where I drink my self to sleep and put a gun to my temple. Every. Fucking. Night.

But then I remember my kids. And I don't want them to be sad like me. So I put the gun away and get ready for the next day.

>>25045882
Damn anon, that broke my heart. I hope things get better for you. Try to ignore the assholes and just focus on positives like the kids. I hope you have a merry Christmas, man.

>>25045136
i can't trust anyone. Not any new people. They're laughing behind my back i know it.
They think I'm a disgusting shit skin, large and ugly they laugh and scowl.
It's fine though, because i don't need them.

>>25046002
same, i hear people talking about me or laughing at me. Only happens when they're in groups though, must be a normie thing.

>>25045882
Stay strong anon.