December 16th 2012, my girl friend died, i just turned 21 then
Life before that was normal and great
I didn't know what 4chan was, i didn't really spend much time on the internet
But after my ex died i became this, its only been 3 years now, time flys
I moved back home with my parents when that happened they said i could stay
I was emotionally destroyed and couldn't deal with life anymore, everything became grey. I started smoking cigarettes 3 years now, i have been through about 300 packs of cigs in that time period
I drank alot of beer, smoke a bit of weed and blocked the whole world out
Last night my dad walked in my room
>I have a job for you starting on the 27th Dec
>Agree with it without thinking about it
>Later realised
>What state im in
>Have no exercised or have done anything psychical since that time, i barely been active,
>My dad said the jobs a psychically challenging, stacking packing boxes
10 hour shifts.
I use to do this kind of stuff before my GF passed, i remember doing this
But after the time i became what i am now, im so unsure
What do /r9k/ ???
normie
haha
you should actually go with it anon,
don't be a NEET and pick yourself up
>>25043886
>December 16th 2012, my girl friend died, i just turned 21 then
February 2010, girlfriend died, I was just a few semesters into college
>Life before that was normal and great
Life before that was great, a bit antisocial and definitely no Chad, but I had fun and loved life/being alive
>I didn't know what 4chan was, i didn't really spend much time on the internet
Used 4chan for /s/, apart from that the boards all seemed like a load of truly cringe-y stuff.
>But after my ex died i became this, its only been 3 years now, time flys
After ex died I became a shut-in who found it difficult to enjoy socialization, thus found it difficult to engage friends or make new ones, no motivation to seek out or create social activities
>I moved back home with my parents when that happened they said i could stay
Moved back home, tried going to uni again, quit and cried a bit and contemplated suicide a bunch and moved back home, NEET for almost a year, just sat on the internet reading shitty webcomics and whatnot
>I was emotionally destroyed and couldn't deal with life anymore, everything became grey. I started smoking cigarettes 3 years now, i have been through about 300 packs of cigs in that time period
>I drank alot of beer, smoke a bit of weed and blocked the whole world out
Suicidal thoughts were my drug, and if I wasn't a giant fucking bitch I'd've killed myself a while ago.
Physical labor (I work construction/trades now) did a lot for me. The constant physical activity, no time to sit back on my ass and think about how much I hated life, really put me in a better state. The longer the shift, the less time you have after shift to sink into depression before going to sleep and waking up the next day. Even weekends/vacation seem brighter, since you haven't been stuck in a self-pitying trap and have the potential to be happy (or at least not depressed for a few hours.)
FUCK OFF, TRAITOR!
Enjoy contributing to my NEETbux, OP.
You've been through a bit of sht, anon, and I know where you're coming from. My life fell apart several years ago and I still havne' recovered. I had supportive parents, a alcohol and cig problem, and began spending my days on teh internet.
Your advantage?
>I have a job for you
THis is golden. My dad did somethign similar, but instead said
>You need to find a job
Do you understand how profoundly different your interaction wtih your father is than mine?
Take the job. I'm still here.