Give me a reason why I shouldn't look her up and see how she's doing?
It hurts robots, why must we feel this feel?
Went to see my ex after three years bc I was lonely. She's still the same bitch who cheated on me. Don't do it.
>these feels will stay with you
Nobody? Okay. Guess I'll go look her up then and I'll an hero when I see her.
>>25043668
tfw anon kun doesnt even look at your post.
>>25043660
She wasn't my ex-gf, but a ex-crush who actually showed interest in me and I fucked it up by ignoring her. The attention got to my head and now she's gone. And I miss her, and the way she smiles and how her hair was so curly.
She had this nice soft laugh, the kind you'd hear from those nerdy and shy qt3.14 in movies. The ones who give you that smile that makes time stand still or at least, slow down.
>>25043744
Oh okay, maybe you should text her and just ask how she is doing see where it goes.
>>25043578
nothing good will come from it.
>>25043787
He has a small possibility of getting laid
>>25043770
>>25043770
I can't. I had to burn bridges with her and everyone I knew.
Doesn't help that after losing interest in me, things became strained and I ended up carrying the guilt of hurting her. We patched things up? But the guilt never left. I even apologised again for what happened during our graduation dinner, which was 2 years later after we had patched things up.
Should I then?
>>25043889
Depends on what you did really to burn the bridges. You have two realistic options. Either text her w.o feeling bad about it or never talk to her again.
>i'd go with first option, if she tells you to fuck off atleast you dont have to feel bad anymore
>>25043949
Burnt my bridges by:
>deleting normiebook
>blocked friends number and deleted them
>spent last 3 months of sixth form telling them to piss off
>stopped hanging around them
>gave them the stare that says "I fucking hate you with all my hate" or blanked them completely
>made it clear I rather not be around them during grad dinner or even go unless I had something important to do there.
>after apologising to her, I left grad dinner.
>didn't say good bye or anything. Left without a word.
>bitter and cold towards friends during free periods or classes with them
>>25043578
How did it end, OP?
If it ended well and with a minimal amount of heartbreak, youshouldn't.
If it ended in a really shitty way, youshouldn't.
Now, ifshe contacts youthen,you decide for yourself.
>>25044107
you can just say you were going through a tough time or some shit if she brings it up. Really up to you at this point.
>>25044129
Story time so you can judge
>be me
>friends with crush
>crush's birthday is coming up
>finds out she's into marvel and HP stuff
>buy her a HP bracelet
>she starts showing interest in me
>paranoid and think she's fucking showing interest cause money
>start being on guard around her but still friendly
>one day after school, see she's waiting at the car park for her sisters. go up to her and start talking to her and ended up setting a date.
>ohfuckno.png
>see her on FB ever time I'm on fb talking to friend.
Know this cause after going on for a few minutes, she appears every time
>play the waiting game
>expected no one will make the first move.
>asexpected.jpeg
>she starts losing interest
>ok.exe
>ask her if she wanted to see some movies with our mutual friends.
>thinks is a date and says no and tells me she has a bf
>mad.png
>tell myself to get over her now
>fucking hurts man
>make her uncomfortable by accident
>she hates me now
>OHFUCKNO
>tried to fix shit
>she doesn't give me the time of day to do this
>become depressed
>this wasn't how it was suppose to be
>eventually confronted her and said I'm
Sorry and will leave her alone forever
>she didn't want
>forgave me and we started to enjoy each other again
>life is okay
Part 1/2
>>25044383
>even though shit's fixed to some degree, I'm still feeling the guilt.
>rarely talked to her despite being around her friends 24/7
>sixth form decided to hold a trip for us to an amusement park
>figured this would be the best chance to see if talking to her like before is a good idea
>knew some kids wanted to stay behind to study for exams
>asked her if she was going to go
>she said she will
>She became ill few days before the trip
>message her on normiebook if she can make it.
>can't
>decide to get her a gift
>get gift and on the day I was gonna give it to her, realised wtf am I doing.
>give it to someone else I knew
>rarely talked to her, and the times I do, I felt uncomfortable around her because of the guilt.
>started to become depressed again
>summer approached
>planned to do something with friends
>they bailed
>feeling lonely
>become bitter
>started to sink lower than before
>childhood loneliness started to surface
>fucking trust no one, become defensive and angsty around everyone.
>do >>25044107
And that's how everything ended
>>25044383
Sounds like you didn't actually have anything with her. It also sounds like keeping a line of communication with her would just make you feel worse.
Let it go and move on.
>>25044547
I've tried. It just comes back to me randomly. Maybe I need professional help.
Thank you btw
Shit felt good to somewhat left out. But it will come back again.
>>25044547
I agree with anon OP, in the future don't be so defensive around next chick
>>25044595
Only if you carry that mindset. Really. (At least try to) find hobbies, volunteer, get a job. (At least try to) find your center and grow and flourish as a person by opening yourself up to new experiences. Go to a museum, go see a movie in a language you don't speak. Anything! In time, you'll find yourself a far better person and this won't bother you.
Also, be grateful you don't actually have to see her.I still have to see my ex. I made the mistake of dating within my same department at work.But that's my fault and I have only myself to blame. That being said, it doesn't really bother me anymore.
Chin up, OP.
>>25044634
I should of also added this:
>childhood consisted of strict parents that treated you harshly and treated your brothers better
>nothing but a test monkey for their rules and nothing else
>no actual love
>dislike home for that
>had good friends as a kid
>love school because of that
>close friends with grill
>start loving her
>Got close to her and letted her get close to me
>finds out feelings for her
>she plays along and pretends to be in a relationship with me
>fucking happy days for my ignorance
>find out
>devestated
>close group of friends never there for me
>class is categorised by age
>half of my peer group ends up in a different class
>my friends are in said class
>I'm alone in a class with no friends
>had my heartbroken and alone in new class
>never trusted or loved parents. Now applies to school and anyone
>become introverted, paranoid, bitter, isolated, angry, angsty at 10 years old
>close group of friends have a new kid in their group now
>I've been replaced
>wander the playground and field alone during break and lunches for the rest of the year.
And that's how I developed my paranoia and never let me people get near me again
>>25043578
because you are a normie
>>25044874
Damn, nigga. Letting the past hold you back much?
>>25045002
Wat do then lad?
>>25045022
For starters, this: >>25044833
Also, there's a song by Queens of the Stone Age. "Kalopsia" The last lines are:
> fates favor the ones who help themselves
> the rest feel the sting of the lash
> as they row the boat to hell
Make of that what you will.You could also stop being a little bitch.Jk.Not really.
>>25045122
Dubs have spoken and thou shall comply
>>25044833
holy shit dude go back to reddit and fucking kill yourself
you dont fucking belong here GET OUT
>Go to a museum, go see a movie in a language you don't speak. Anything!
Wow so quirky and hip!!!
FUCKING KILL YOURSELF
Don't do it anon. Don't. You'll most likely end up hurting yourself
>>25043660
Don't do it because you'll feel worse. It's that simple.
No sense in having your emotional nutsack kicked again. Slam beers,push the bitterness down,tell yourself you're over it. Rinse. Repeat
>>25043578
You can't look her up because she doesn't exist
You feel it because you choose to
