>all i have is my shitty fantasy
>>24982202
Do a flip, kodae.
We're here anon. And we'll always be here.
Seriously, Always.
>>24982256
Not for long.Trips.
i live mostly in my head
>>24982306
Same, I like it there.
>>24982339
Me too but sometimes it feels like drowning in my fishtank
Why is your fantasy shitty
>>24982383
I think it is because its an excuse to run away
>>24982339
Its great until it hits you that its not real and you will never lead the life you dream of
>>24982505
Exactly. Which feeds the fantasy and continues the cycle.
>>24982602
but i cant really avoid it, my mind just goes there automatically. Even in school or at work
>>24982656
I know. I'm the same way. It's just as natural as breathing. It gives me hope to hang onto but the same thing crushes my hopes.
>thinking of developing a Tulpa just so I don't have to be alone
I told myself that I would wait a year because things were bound to get better.that was five years ago
>>24982835
I already do and it just makes things slightly less shit
>>24982899
How long did it take you to fully develop your tulpa?
>>24982929
Less than a year. It was pretty natural. It was way easier once I found the girl I wanted it to look like and from there I just focus on her being there all the time.
>tfw not sure what my fantasy even is anymore
It's spiralled out of control!
>>24983041
Does she talk to you and all that?
I sort of have one
He doesn't speak but he has some crude personality characteristics
His appearance is very well fleshed-out, though
>tfw fantasize about one day seeing him in real life and picking him out of the crowd
>tfw realize it'd probably seem very bizarre from his end if I didunless he made a tulpa of me too
I hate that feel. Sometimes I wonder if it would be better if I was like a machine instead.
I live my life through escapism
It's not that bad, since I just drown the sad feelings in a river of information and entertainment. It's pretty comfy once you just give up.
>>24983304
Not really. I get responses in a talking to myself, stream-of-consciousness kind of way most of the time because I'm aware that it's a fantasy. I just try to ignore it, take the plunge and try to escape into the mind game. Imposing that other person aspect onto her.
The personality and appearance are pretty much solid. I've settled on who I want it to be.
I always imagine her next to me like in an empty seat or somewhere in my dreamland with my imaginary self. But always close by. I guess that's where we differ. I sort of use her as a safety blanket so it's never really externalized in a way where she's in a crowd like you say.
>>24982202
At least you still have it
>>24983568
The nightmare is that you are a machine, you just don't know it.
>>24983852
Part bionic, and organic
Not a cyborg
>>24983907
Nah, no way ot.
