my schizoaffective disorder is getting so much worse and the meds are doing nothing. I keep thinking in word salads, talking to random people only to realize they're not there. I said "squirrels are so smart" in a conversation with my Skype friend out of nowhere and he was really weirded out.
I just wanna kill myself before this gets any worse.
>>24977515
tell your doctor you want to try to different medication
channel your mental illness into something creative like drawing/painting
try to eat healthy and get some exercise
>>24977562
She'd put me on some really sedative medication and it would make me a zombie again. I've been on that stuff for like six months, I don't want to be an emotionless numb zombie who can't get out of bed. The hallucinations were still there, I just couldn't think straight enough to care. I much prefer my current meds because they let me get out of bed and do stuff.
I've tried writing and drawing a lot,.
Probably should eat more and exercise.
>>24977515
I'm with you OP. Just waiting for death to clear all the delusions up.
I am so fucked up that I really don't think I can be fixed anymore. I stopped seeing a therapist months ago.
I just feel that I am literally too fucked up to live a decent life. Anyone else feel like this?
>>24977754
Same. Think I'm bipolar. Happiness and sadness is like someone is flicking the light switch on/off.
get more omega 3 fatty acids boys
eat sardines and walnuts
>>24977779
Im bipolar too and I really scare myself sometimes. I once heard it aptly described as "A rollercoaster in the dark with no seat belts"
>>24977807
Would supplements work? Thinking about getting some of those delicious omega-3's.
>>24977827
>hope i'm not bipolar
i think i'm just labile because socially isolated so any little thing that happens to me sticks out
>>24977827
Same. Everything could be going fine, and in the next moment out of nowhere, I just want to fucking die because I feel so sad.
It's only gotten worse as I've gotten older.
>>24977920
do your happy/sad periods go for weeks or just hours/days? do you have trouble sleeping during the happy periods, but still feel energized even on like 4 hours of sleep?
>>24977965
hard to say. i'd say i have hypomanic episodes on occasion, and am mostly baseline depressed and hypersensitive to occurrences in my life. it doesn't involve impulsive behavior.
