Mental health general
I sometimes think I might be schizoaffective but i'm too much of a pussy to see a therapist in case they hospitalize me for haiving suicidal tendencies or delusions
can anyone help diagnose me or something
the attatched picture is largely unrelated
>>24959442
I want the girl in the pic
PDNOS here. Possible BPD
Thank you childhood abuse
>tfw no abused gf
Why do these normans who 'cut' themselves scratch themselves instead of cutting?
These are not cuts.
>>24959484
thats what i've always thought
i've still got red scars from around four months ago
They wont hospitalize you for having suicidal thoughts. I tell my therapist I want to kill myself all the time. She then says' are you serious about it, and do you have a plan? If you answer yes to both of these questions, THEN they can hospitalize you, so just say no and you'll be fine.
>>24959641
In America they can. I wanted to be hospitalized in the hopes of getting a crazy gf
>tfw British and they hospitalize you after a serious attempt
>>24959484
i dont really have anything to cut deep enough so i use a (i think its called) diaper pin to slash at my legs just to punish myself momentarily and then i feel really good better and can go about my day
i dont really want to cut too deep anyway
its mostly about momentary relief even though it always comes back
>>24959641
But would they hospitalize me for delusions?
Because i swear to fucking god there are times when i'm talking to people and i'm sure they can read my mind
it feels stupid to type it out but i can't get away from the feeling
britbong btw
>>24959712
>i dont really have anything to cut deep enough
Everyone has knives at home.
>i dont really want to cut too deep anyway
Oh, so you're just a normalfag attention whore?
You should probably just kill yourself, cunt.
>>24959712
Have you considered flogging yourself?
>>24959641
Thoughts, no. But if they have reason to believe you're a danger to yourself or to others, you don't really have a say in the matter
>>24959766
ah yes its totally as simple to cut into your thigh as it is to cut into a cooked steak
ive tried many times but its always too dull anon.
I never tell people except on anonymous imageboards so i cant really call myself an attention whore but hey lol i bet anonymously insulting people feels pretty good right?
>>24959690
I'm in America and its the same. I've told several shrinks that I wanted to kill myself and wish I had the courage to do it. Just like the other anon said they'll just ask you if you have any definite plans, and if you say you don't they won't even mention forced hospitalization.
>>24959798
i have actually! it definitely provides similar relief without too many physical repercussions
>>24959766
Not that anon, but it doesn't really work that way mate. You seem to be projecting quite hard here though.
Can't imagine why.
>>24959742
>there are times when i'm talking to people and i'm sure they can read my mind
Same here. I think it's normal.
I also think people can hear the music I'm listening to when I'm riding the bus or when I'm outside. Sometimes, I choose my favorite songs to 'impress' everyone in the bus.
I catch myself staring at people and waiting for some kind of reaction to the music.
I eventually realize no one can hear what I'm listening to because there's obviously no way they can, but sometimes it takes me a while to accept it. I don't know, it's hard to explain.
It's probably autism.
>>24959840
You're fucking kidding, right? Sharpen a knife and cut your flesh. A sharp knife can easily cut any kind of human or animal flesh.
>>24959442
Very superficial cuts and not actually deep. I used to slice deep into myself
>>24959442
>>24959712
use the razor blade from a pencil sharpener and slit your throat you worthless tumblr whore
look at you scratching a fucking meme into your leg with a little pin, you're honestly fucking pathetic, do you know that? You can't even do mental illness right. You're just a dumb little 15 year old whore whose daddy didn't hug her enough.
Get the fuck off my board and never come back.
>>24959870
>it doesn't really work that way mate
How does it work then? Explain it to me. Why do you scratch yourself instead of cutting?
>You seem to be projecting quite hard here though.
Nice meme. I'm just calling out fags like you.
>>24959690
I've been in group therapy with a few qt crazy girls. Crazy girls just want Chad as well.
Only once I saw a hot 9/10 schizophrenic girl have a short, below average looking, nerdy robot BF, but other than that the girls just had the same desire for tall, confident alpha guys.
>>24959840
Go back to tumblr, whore.
>>24959946
She had a point though. If you don't tell anyone then it's not really attention whoring, is it?
>>24959870
>it doesn't really work that way
Yes it does. Scratching yourself is retarded. At least call it scratching instead of cutting.
>>24959840
you know steak is just flesh you bloody idiot? The reason the knife isn't cutting is because you're a little pussy and afraid to apply too much pressure. Imagine being so useless you can't even harm yourself properly? What does that feel like? Maybe you should try swallowing all the pills in your parent's medicine cabinet sweetheart, that seems more your style.
>>24959876
fuck, i do that thing with the music as well
i'm not autistic though, my friends come to me for emotional help and advice
>>24959484
I had an ex who did this until her thighs, when I met her recently, were completely webbed over. I think it's about surface pain vs deep, paper-cut like. I've done it from time to time and noticed going a millimeter or two was just as painful as a wide gash, but the shallow ones healed up quick and didn't get keloid. I mean, this was mostly to get blood for artsy shit when drunk before I became a needle user, not really emo shit.
ADHD-I, Anxiety, Depression, addiction.
I think it may be way deeper, but I realize I've not since I was 15 (10yr) had a period longer than a couple months off of drugs or heavy drinking. So my diagnoses are likely always gonna be skewed.
>>24959973
she literally made an entire thread for attention
>>24959840
trolling for reactions is still attention whoring when you don't know the people who respond
you still desperately crave acknowledgement
nothing about you is interesting so you make yourself bleed a little. still boring.
>>24959973
>If you don't tell anyone then it's not really attention whoring, is it?
She obviously told us.
>inb4 anonymous
I bet this is not the first time that roast mentioned this here.
She wants sympathy from others because she's scratching her legs.
>>24959442
Pozt nudessssgh fj
>>24959894
They're British they're not even allowed to have unlicensed teaspoons
>>24959442
>cutting
fucking normie
>>24959976
This. Kill yourself, you fucking worthless whore. If you're such a pussy which you are, at least go back to reddit or tumblr with your bullshit, cunt.
im not trying to kill myself you guys are all perceiving this wrong but self harm is my emotional relief
what hurts works
im not trying to cut myself so deep to see the yellow blubbery shit in my thighs i just want to hurt for a little bit
(im also not op)
>>24959977
It has to be autism. There's no other explanation, unless it's very common, but no one talks about it.
>>24959915
I used to do that! It's been about 12-13 years since I stopped and all of the scars are spindly and pale. Most people don't notice them between my arm hair and freckles. Even deeper cuts heal well if you're lucky. I have much more recent surgical scarring that's also pretty unnoticeable.
>>24960047
You should kill yourself. You're a pathetic failure and everyone hates you. Your friends at school don't really like you, your parents are disappointed in you and your fat fucking thunder thighs are disgusting. At the very least, you should cut much, much deeper because you are in desperate need of some punishment for your transgressions.
In future, unless you're going to hang your stupid fucking little neck from the ceilling on livestream, we don't want to hear about your boring little problems. Just take it somewhere else because nobody here cares about you.
>>24960082
No, you didn't used to "slit your throat" you dumb little bitch. If you did that we wouldn't have to suffer your presence. Please consider it though.
>>24960047
I hope you die, whore. Post tits or gtfo. Scratch your tits a little before you post them.
>>24960083
well this sure got me haha heres your response
>>24960064
How is autism even a valid explination?
I think I might have aspergers but I won't self diagnose like an asshole and I don't see how a doctor telling me I have aspergers would help me improve anything so I'm just going to do my damndest to succeed despite some likely imaginary "illness"
then again people have told me I have brain problems more than one occasion
>>24960103
Maybe you should take the hint from the post that robots are much, much more mentally ill than you and that if you want emotional support for your highschool drama bullshit you should literally take it to tumblr. They'll be plenty of people there willing to shower you with the validation you so desperately crave. Cunt.
>>24960106
Look up "theory of mind"
Lots of aspergers in this thread looks like. Nobody's gonna get her nudes this way. And cutters seem to be the first to do that, I laze in on scars on girls and know who they are right away.
Practising psychologist here...
>>24960106
Lacking a theory of mind(hallmark autism symptom) can lead to the assumption that other people know what you know, and sense what you sense.
my parents bought me a budgie because i didn't have any friends.
for some reason she doesn't like me, she would climb onto my shoulder and bite my neck and face, i would shoo her away then put her in the cage.
but now i enjoy the biting, it makes me feel something, sometimes she draws blood when she pecks in one area. ears and lips are the most painful and most enjoyable. bites on the hand she can gnaw real hard before i have to stop her.
>why doesn't Chad want me
>I only have 5 friends
>no one likes me
>I scratch myself because of it
Fucking pathetic. I want all roastie whores to go back to reddit and tumblr.
>>24960096
I used a razor from a pencil sharpener on my arms and legs. I'd never slit my throat, that sounds terrible. If I were to kill myself now if probably get jacked up on a pharma cocktail and throw myself of a bridge, since guns are so hard to get here. But I'm not going to. Your jimmy rustling is weak, bro.
lol lots of sperg in this thread. You'll never get her nudes this way. I laze in on girls in public with visible cutting scars. You know just a bit better who they are all of a sudden. If they're not landwales you'll at least get pics
>>24960123
>much more mentally ill than you
you're the one sounding like tumblr here
please give me your self diagnosed list of disorders
>>24960179
But wouldn't the fact that i don't lack empathy and can give other people advice and emotional support mean that i don't have autism
>>24960195
>probably get jacked up on a pharma cocktail and throw myself of a bridge
A cowardly way out for a cowardly, pathetic little girl. Why do you come here? Serious question? Do you laugh at all those damned misogynists only to cry out desperately for compassion from them when Chad dumps you and you cry and binge on a tub of Ben & Jerries? I wish I could get my hands on you you fucking slimy little cunt, then I'd give you a real death. Fucking bitch whore.
>>24960222
Not necessarily. But diagnosing autism is very complicated, it includes a history of your childhood, interviewing your parents and psychological testing to exclude other disorders that might explain symptoms better.
>>24960216
>honestly comparing scratching your leg and uploading pictures tier "mental illness" to the gamut of schizos and autists that populate /r9k/
mate
this is the board that housed chris mercer, elliot "can't dodge the rodge" rodger and likely Dylan "Pull the trigger on every nigger" Roof.
>>24960272
>you'll never get to torture a whore with a buddy
>you'll never get to drive at night with your only friend and kidnap cunts to mutilate them
Why live?
>>24959976
but its much more tender flesh that has been cooked, if you think a knife goes through skin as easily as it goes through a steak you're delusional
>>24960317
Whats the problem? Do you absolutely need a partner?
>>24960330
if you attempt to stab or slice yourself with actual force you will cut flesh
t. guy who has accidentally cut himself while cooking multiple times
>>24960294
Ah right
i don't think i have autism but i feel like there is something wrong with me
the only reason i think its schitzoaffective is because i feel suicidal and i think i have delusions but that could be a number of things really
>>24960350
I guess I don't, but I want to see what I look like when I do it if you know what I mean. It would be just my accomplice and I. No talking, no eye contact, just us sharing that one thing we have in common. It's just a fantasy, though.
Nine years of self harm here. Ask me anything /r9k/.
I want to cut open the bitch in ops picture, and all the dumb whores who do the same shit. Cat scratches so everyone knows how broken and sad you are. Disgusting.
>>24960317
You wanna meet up and do this shit or not. Get off /r9k/ and let's put our plan into motion man I'm sick of you stalling
>>24960418
I should add that deficits in theory of mind are not exclusive to autism spectrum disorders. It can also occur with ADHD, psychotic disorders, brain damage and related conditions(schizotypal pd, conduct disorder, etc).
>the only reason i think its schitzoaffective is because i feel suicidal and i think i have delusions but that could be a number of things really
Schizoaffective disorder is diagnosed very rarely. If you haven't had a psychotic episode and history of a manic or depressive episode, you wont be diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder.
The most commonly diagnosed personality disorder, Borderline pd, features prominent suicidal behavior and lapses into paranoid and delusional thinking under stress. That might be worth looking into.
>>24960494
You sound like a cop.
>>24960562
Hey I'm doing the robot same as you. You wanna be rapers with me or not guise
>>24960562
4chan staff here, our resident /r9k/ police officer is off duty right now(it's Sunday.)
>>24960562
Hey I'm doing the robot same as you all, you know desu and caturday, lol. So you gonna be rapers with me or not robo buddies?
>>24960545
What to you would indicate borderline personality disorder as opposed to another mental illness
>>24960494
>>24960600
I don't feel comfortable talking about it on here. This board is probably being monitored by the feds. I'm in Europe, though.
It's just a fantasy anyway.
>>24960354
hmm, guess its time for me to sharpen my knives then
>>24960600
I don't want to rape. It's not a sexual desire.
Fuck off, normalfag. Don't reply to me again.
>>24960648
You can't get busted for thought crimes. There wouldn't be torture porn sites and rape porns sites if a ton of us didn't have the same fantasies. I just find girls who are into abuse, hell, my fantasies come from my first GF asking me to do all sorts of nasty things. Lol starting with cutting her to stay on topic
>>24960676
I was cutting bread a few weeks ago and cut myself without even noticing it at first. It was a very deep cut, around .5cm-1cm into my palm. It's not hard at all.
>>24960722
Theres my confession, orificer
>>24960676
is it worth going to the cutlery for them, i haven't sharpened mine in a year
>>24959849
i dont understand the plan stuff at all. what is a plan? who doesn't have one? are there people who think "i want to die" and never have their thoughts go beyond that?
>>24959442
bpd
bipolar
transgender
non-24 hour sleep disorder
anxiety
ptsd from the transgender stuff and abuse in the past
Ive mostly been concerned as of late and I keep getting into awkward scenarios where my friends are screaming at me for it. I cant really feel the emotions of others only my own. Like they can be crying and it doesnt bother me. I just sorta stare at them and they get angry. I feel awful about it.
>>24959442
You have Stage 1: Attention Whorington's Disease.
I recommend a 50mg of Reality taken three times a day and a daily suppository of Grow-the-fuck-up-phinol.
Unfortunately, these permanent scars will scare away any man but the most pussified beta male who will settle for damaged goods.
>>24960630
Without writing a book on this subject, I wish you specified what other mental illness. It's distinguished from bipolar disorder in that mood swings are short lasted(patients go from being very angry at the world to being completely numb in a matter of a few hours), whilst patients with bipolar disorder commonly experience mood swings that last from at least a week to several months. Brief psychotic and dissociative episodes set it apart from ADHD.
>>24960703
>normalfags are rapists
Funny.
>>24960772
Not having a set plan just refers to feeling in general that life isn't worth living and death would be preferable. You think about suicide but haven't taken any active steps towards it. They can't hospitalize you for that.
Having a set plan is something like "I've bought a gun today and tomorrow I will shoot myself." If you say something like that to a shrink then they can have you hospitalized without your consent.
>>24960816
That's depression and lack of intensity. If they're crying or whatever, it's definitely not as bad as whatever caused your PTSD so your brain, with its heightened sense of what's bad, doesn't give a shit unless they're doing or feeling something more intense
>>24960730
>>24960771
plz answer I'm only just learning to cook
I'm on fourth day of taking ssri.
>>24960834
by mental illness i mean problem with a person's mental health
also despite reading about it i haven't really grasped the meaning of the term dissociation in a mental illness context, so could you please help me with my understanding on it?
>>24960893
Enjoy your brain zaps when they fail to properly help and you quit like most people
>>24960893
what you taking, anon? I'm getting on them on thursday, seeing my psychiatrist on Wednesday
>>24960908
w-what are brain zaps?
>>24960919
says escitalopram on the bottle
>>24960959
I believe it's something to do with your serotonin levels changing suddenly. Look it up. I was on an SNRI for about a year and I ran out while on a greyhound heading home. Every few seconds or every time I moved my head suddenly it felt like an electrical zap and I forgot where I was and what I was doing for a few moments. It was a nightmare to get home in that state. I got back on them then experienced it again later. Just a warning. There are other psych meds that may help. Gabapentin has helped me immensely.
>>24959442
if your thighs are spontaneously bleeding like that, you should be more urgently concerned about your physical health.
I've been seeing therapist but I've been lying about suicidal thoughts because of the fear of hospitalization. Mental health has been improving, so I guess the lying isn't that bad.
>>24961022
They're not permanent right? Just while you adjut to not taking the meds?
>>24960959
>>24961022
Happened to me too with SSRIs. The drugs worked wonders but the side-effects became unbearable so I stopped them abruptly. I would get a zap/zinging sensation in my head when I was thinking or moving my head. It's weird and distracting but it felt better than staying on the meds. At least until the anxiety came back.
>>24961097
Just coming off of them. But when you fuck with your brain chemistry like that, if you decide to switch or quit, you get what amounts to a rebound effect. You get withdrawals for sometimes months. Not zaps, just rebound depression. I'd try lighter chemicals or certain types of CBT
>>24961097
bump this question. seeing gp tomorrow, hopefully get meds, but im not so sure...
>>24961129
To continue, honestly using certain drugs might help more. Illegal and not. Smoke certain strains of pot if you can, or get on light benzos or adhd meds until you learn how to deal with life, then use those techniques to keep living less anxiously. I mean what's your diagnosis?
>>24961132
he'll give you meds for sure if you suck his smelly dick
>>24961169
Anxiety disorder.
I already took adderall but it didn't help anxiety.
>>24961198
SNRI here again. I was a mess for years, tried lots of things, eventually got into hard drugs to deal with it, and while I was happy on them I realized I was a pretty ok dude. I socialized more and was more sure if myself. It was a nightmare getting off, and now I use GABA-related pharm drugs which totally kill the remaining anxiety. Antidepressants used to be better than most things they could prescribe but honestly they're based on 40+ year old research and they're just first-line bullshit
>>24961264
But you're welcome to try them, there's not a ton of harm if used short-term, just remember the longer you use them the worse you'll feel after. My girl here says I'm wrong and that 6 months fucked her up for 4 years, but I'm just giving you my and others experiences for your perusal
>>24959916
Except I don't, or rather used to. It's not something you just wake up and decide to do one day, it's more of an in the moment thing.
What I was getting at there is being confused as to why you are visibly raging over a comment like that. Much less how it's possible [bar tripfagging] to be an attention whore on an anonymous imageboard.
>>24961264
>>24961322
Thanks, I'll think about it.
What are GABA related pharm.
>>24960192
Someone please explain this picture
>>24961676
Looks like syria bombings to me
>>24961394
Lyrica, gabapentin, phenibut
>>24961676
What's there to explain? I like the rib cage to the side. Makes me giggle.
So I play D&D regularly. For a year I've been playing with one group. One of the guys a few days ago killed himself. He hadn't been coming to games lately, but I thought it was because of his job schedule.
I feel terrible because the last time I saw him I brushed him off because I was super busy.
My last interaction with him was brushing him off. Likely it wouldn't have made a difference, but I feel like shit.
>>24962097
You shouldn't have hassled his character dude. And do you RP or dungeon crawl? I'd kill myself playing constant dungeon crawls, and the DM
>>24959484
would you want "NICE MEME" permanently scarred into your flesh?
>>24960676
Do that, I actually accidentally cut off the tip of my thumb while cutting onions.
>>24960890
Yes, sharp knives are essential to an efficient workflow
