>practice guitar nonstop hours a day for years
>feel like i'm really starting to get good
>get tons of compliments on my playing from anyone who hears me
>people keep telling me how beautiful a song i played sounds or how skilled i am
>decide to record myself
>turn on laptop webcam
>start playing
>watch recording
>sounds fucking awful
>maybe i just wasn't focused, let me try again
>record again
>still fucking awful
>2 hours pass of repeating this process with every song i know
>all sounds fucking awful
>realize i fucking suck and people have just been trying to be nice
I have exactly one passion and even after pouring my life into it i'm still garbage. Fuck this gay earth. Ugly, social awkward, anxious as fuck, depressed, and completely untalented. Time to end it.
Pic unrelated: it's tim from tim and eric in his earlier years
there's no way that's tim
>>24878627
>>24878640
oh wait I just realized you meant the blonde kid and not the musician
>>24878640
It is him. He's pretty dope. please kill me
Get lessons from a pro, you noob.
Laptop webcams sound awful you dingus.
>>24878627
you're on /r9k/ mate. there is a chance you suck at it, but it's as likely you're hypercritical considering how you've described yourself.
upload it?
>>24878679
>upload it?
no.
>>24878678
Yeah sure, i've been using endless excuses. First i just needed a better guitar, then it was just poor recording quality, and so on. The truth is i've been in denial.
>>24878679
>upload it?
no
OP, we don't want to hear your shitty "music", i assume you want us to beg you to upload it, even though "you don't want to" and "you think it's bad".
So just fuck off
>>24878769
No. I'm not going to upload it, and I wasn't planning too either. Genuinely. Just sharing a feel.
>>24878780
Okay then, honestly if you practiced that long and you still suck, just let it go man. Find a different thing, maybe a different instrument.
>>24878627
If you're good enough that people are complimenting your skills, or saying a song sounds beautiful, you're more than good enough to play live. And if you're good enough to play live to a good reception, you're good enough to record.
Don't expect anything that you record at home through a shitty microphone to sound anywhere near as good as what they'll get out of a professional studio, with all the proper gear and post recording editing
>>24878822
>Don't expect anything that you record at home through a shitty microphone to sound anywhere near as good as what they'll get out of a professional studio, with all the proper gear and post recording editing
this
try recording thru good shit in a studio then get back to us
>>24878793
I wrote out a long reply but I accidentally clicked back and it's all gone.
I'm tired of living. I'm tired of suffering. My life wasn't meant to happen. I'm so depressed it physically hurts. I'm losing my sanity, and my physical health is getting worse by the day. I don't belong anywhere. Sometimes I just wander the streets for hours. I feel empty. My job was the only thing keeping me distracted enough to not jump, but even that's barely helping anymore. I don't care about my parents or siblings anymore. I don't care about anything. I just wanna end it all. God was also cruel enough to make me crave human contact and give me a sex drive, while creating me as a creature entirely incapable of socializing. I see attractive women all day and it drives me mad. My very visage is repulsive to other humans. I tried to quit masturbation and porn but honestly what's the point? My life was a mistake. I want off this fucking ride.
>jeromes dream
Nice.
>>24878972
Jerome's dream is shit. I can't take people who like Jerome's dream, iwrotehaikusaboutcanniblisminyouryearbook, or any other pretentious intentionally awful screamo band seriously.
They were probably honest, most people can't tell decent playing at all, and most actual guitarists are shitter than you think.
Just play punk or screamo or something and fake it til u make it.
>>24878994
You just don't get it family member. It's okay, they're not for everyone.especially not plebs like you
>>24878915
You need to change your perspective on the world. If you had a job it was basically all you needed to be normal, nobody will shun you if you don't play instruments. Look at other people, and see what you see as "hardship" other people just call "normal life".
>>24878627
It doesn't matter what it sounds like. As.long you enjoy playing it, that's all that matters.
>>24878915
I'm the guy who berated you for wanting attention, now i'm asking you myself to upload it, i'm genuinely curious.
>>24879042
>nobody will shun you if you don't play instruments
Nobody needs any reason to shun me, there is no one in the first place. No one talks to me at all, i'm utterly incapable of even functioning socially. In fact, I don't actually exist. I could disappear anytime, there isn't anyone to look for me or anything. I've done it multiple times, actually. I'm not ever going to live a "normal " life. I was okay with that before, but eventually the emptiness gets to you man. There's nothing to live for at all. It's all cool until you start getting sick, then you start to see the truth
>>24879073
Everyone has that "emptiness", you just have to use it somehow. Your passion is music, write a fucking song about it.
>>24878627
Play wonderwall
>>24878627
Congratulations OP, you took an important step.
Realizing that you suck is important, it means you have taste, and you know what 'good' is. That's how you improve.
Plenty of people go though life working on skills, but they're too shit to even realize how bad they are, and they don't think they need to get better because they can't tell how shit they are.
I recommend finding a mentor who isn't shit who can help you improve. Pay for lessons, watch youtube video tutorials on various techniques. Try this guy, I dunno: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-tob2N4dze8
>>24879073
>No one talks to me at all, i'm utterly incapable of even functioning socially.
That's because you don't have social skills.
I didn't have social skills for the first 25 years of my life. I thought I was autistic. Then I actually read some books on how to read body language and have a conversation, actively practised on people, and things improved.
People aren't going to seek you out and be your friend, and a girl isn't going to beat down your door asking to be your gf. It's not like anime. You have to do the work and risk feeling uncomfortable in order to get things.
>>24878627
Tom Kelley told another fun anecdote about a music student who hated practice. Maybe he was like the Allen Iverson of music, he didn't want to go to practice. They went to an event where Yo-Yo Ma was performing, and 3 students were given an opportunity to ask him a question.
The student used his one question to ask Yo-Yo Ma, "Isn't it great now that you're famous, you don't have to practice anymore?" Yo-Yo Ma told the student that he still practices 6 hours a day. Tom said, "Creativity is not the golden ticket. It's your passion & ability to be in touch with your creativity that changes the world."
