I fucking hate myself and don't know if I want to get better. I feel behind and stuck in an endless fucking loop of coming on this board, watching dumb YouTube videos, and thinking about dying.
Dubs and I buy a helium tank. Singles and I look into therapy
>>24873599
Looks like you're getting a helium tank.
>>24873599
>trips and you have to come back and ghostpost
>>24873599
No. My dubs counteract your dubs op. Go get help. Killing yourself is lame.
>>24873651
this is the second time ive seen usage of the word "ghostpost" in my life, both today, used in two very different contexts
>>24873599
it's been a pleasure, op.
OP here still a faggot for attention. Looking to find better ways to kill myself. Singles and I call my parents and tell them I have a serious issue. Doubles and I order the pcap mask.
>>24873714
I didn't think shitghost would be immediately understandable in this context.Dubs and OP gets help.
Fuck I hate being a failed normie and I especially hate myself and everything about me
. I can't identify with fucking anyone anymore. I'm redundant to this board and myself.
>>24873815
Even in the void of an after life all ill amount to is a shit ghost.
>>24873856
We're all redundant friendo, nothing we do will ever matter and no one will care in 10 years if either of us killed ourselves tomorrow.
I'm personally just seeing if I can hang on long enough for personalised VR to exist, so I can experience what life would have been like if I was a normal, attractive, well adjusted individual with friends.
>>24873599
Just get therapy. You know you need to make a change and this is it. You can't get a helium tank that doesn't have a bunch of oxygen in it to keep you from killing yourself anyway. Alternately, you can do virtually anything different: start going for walks, play games or watch movies or TV shows that make you happy, pick up a hobby. Anything to break up this shitty routine.
>>24873924
VR can't give you a warm hug.
>>24873960
Neither can real life.
>>24873958
All I do is work a wagekek job for barely minimum wage. I've cut out masturbating because my fetishes are too extreme and I hate myself for it.
I don't sleep regularly and I am stressed that I have no place in being useful in the future. Say I did and make the attempt to get better. Even if my situation does change I'm afraid I'll just fuck up hard again and end up back here shitposting about killing myself.
>>24874009
Trips and I throw myself off of a high place. Lol look at the dumb faggot I am making these dumb faggot threats.
>>24874111
Dubs and you have to do a flip.
>>24873599
>>24873599
Nice knowing you, OP
>>24873599
>>24874111
patiently waiting
Quads and I live stream it.
>>24874310
Come on man, if you have that saved you have a bright future as a sissy bitch.
rollin' for quads my tripleogswag
you're fucked OP, stream it if quads.
>>24874344
I have a mistress who's fucked me like a girl before. She even keked me with a chad. I didn't really ask for it and it was an altogether weird night. I fucking hate myself and my fetishes just another reason for a failure like myself to remove my being from the pool. No one is seriously interested in me. Just taking me and using me. I don't even know what I'm complaining about half the time I just feel like I'm unfocused and rambling with no point to anything. I'm disassociated most the time and high the other part of the time.
I envy those of you that can maintain a stable lifestyle.
Quads and I fucking love stream it.
>>24873599
gonna try therapy myself. dont have high expectations but nothing can hurt.
>>24873599
There is nothing to life. I make only 20k and smile.
There is no pattern to life that you need to abide by. If you feel low, try some new activities. My favorite is camping WAAAAAY the duck out there and just enjoying myself.
Something that turned my life around is trade school. Trade schools are pretty cheap, pretty quick, and pretty easy. A trade career will bring 35k or so.
Op, things look bleak when you don't know how to move forward. I'm telling you, a trade school will get you back into an environment that is surrounded by people with the same goal.
>>24873757
CALL EM UP
dubs you get therapy
>>24874748
Maybe setting up a camping trip for myself would be good. Do you go alone? Also I graduated six months ago with a joke of s degree and feel like a complete joke of a person when it comes to finding regular employment.
I am trying to get out of this shitty seasonal retail job with bad hours. I am looking into finding tutoring or education employment but I'm worried that my lack of overall experience and dour mood to life will hold me back.
I called family. They want to help get me help. I feel like I'm making a cry for help every time I come and shit post on here but I don't even know what to say half the time.
I'm on day 3 of no fap.
Quads and I give up on trying to fix myself.
>>24873599
>he actually thinks the helium will kill him
enjoy oxygen dilution and not dying!
>>24875075
I go alone usually. It's very calm, no entertaining people or doing what they want. It's you and nature out there.
Also, there are a lot of places that claim they require experience, but hire anyway so that the employee can be taught the way the company likes.
Something else that helps, and I'm serious about this, is cutting your ties with technology for a while. Like phones, computers, etc.
I used to do this when I got in a rut. It makes you feel sort of alive again
Also, try cutting sodas, beers, snacks for just one month. Your body feels so much better, and your mentality greatly improves.
>>24873599
At least stream it. I want to see the life leave your eyes.
>>24874469
Your fetishes are fine, but you should work on yourself before you figure sex out.
>>24875246
I usually drink water and coffee anyways. When I'm working shitty hours I try to avoid snacking and eating meals. Weight loss has been one of the only things keeping me going as I started college a fatty virgin at 300 and now I'm just a failed normie kekold under 200 with severe self confidence issues.
I'm gonna plan on a 2-3 day camping trip by myself on this plot of land and just sit and think to myself and cook food. No people, no technology. I've been smoking myself stupid so I don't know if I should bring drugs they have been clouding my already limited mind.
What do you do for 20k anon im curious
>>24875396
I'm a psych orderly.
I would avoid drugs, if only this trip. Sobering up from anything typically leaves a feeling of dull lifelessness.
Bring a hatchet and things for the trip, making your own fire is awesome.
When do you plan on this trip friend?
>>24875581
Gonna ask a family friend if I can use his plot of land to be isolated for a bit. If that fucks up I'm gonna try and find a national park to camp at or something.
Im off to my night shift of opening boxes and stalking shelves. I still think about cutting open my throat.
>>24875801
Have a good one man. Enjoy the wilderness
