who else here /sexuallyabusedasachild/?
I feel you. You are not alone.
I don't know if I was.
It might have been a dream.
>>24869971
Yeah.
Sucks.
Whatcanyado.
>tfw your mom made you suck her tits when you were little
>>24869971
Can /physicallyandemotionallyabused/ chill in this thread?
I wish I was
there has never been a sexual event in my life ever
>>24870616
>>24870639
>>24870717
what happened anons? ;__;
>>24870823
only if you post stories
>>24869971
my mom forced me to touch her vagina when i was only 9 months old
>>24870843
Grass is greener i guess. fucked with my whole concept of sex and trust though, I'd rather not have had the experiences.
>>24870843
not when it wasn't with a gril
>>24869971
Yes, my qt babysitter made me eat her out.
Ended up with me becoming a social outcast when I became older because I sexually matured too early. Never told my parents even up to now.
Now I am clinically diagnosed to be completely numb to human emotion, including love.
>>24870851
I don't know if my older brother fucked me when I was half conscious as I objected at 13, or if I simply had a vivid and detailed dream in which he did.
I think it was just a dream, but I've never been sure.
>tfw fucked my older hot 16 year old cousin when I was 13
>tfw she forced me to suck on her vagina then on her tits
>tfw ended up shoving my dick inside her and didnt know what the fuck to do
was I abused?
>>24870932
pls be in london?
original comment is orginal
>>24870851
Step father molested me like four times. no rape, it could have been worse, guilt over being so impacted over it when I was never penetrated.
I don't understand how people can rationalize pedophilia as being good for the children. It utterly baffles me.
>>24870956
It is abuse if it fucked up your social and emotional development.
>>24870985
Lol @ It is abuse if it fucked up your social and emotional development.
The only thing that affected me was that I couldnt fap anymore and just knowing that I lost my virginity to my cousin makes me feel nasty
>>24870985
Also pic related, she's 22 now
>>24870930
i'm sorry to hear that t bh
>>24870932
I hear that's something common with sexual abuse
that kids kind of like block it from their memories and then end up not being able to remember if it was real or not
>>24870956
I think so at least
>>24870981
still that's pretty fucked
I'm sorry anon
>>24870985
not them but I don't think it fucked up my development later..
I mean I don't think so
I told an online friend once and they told me to talk to someone about it even if I don't think it did
>>24871027
Good for you.
For me, it gave me schizoid personality disorder and crippling depression making me being unable to feel love and happiness the way normies do. Permanently.
>>24871111
>oh no boohoo i got touched when i was a kid
Get over it, at least you had sex you stupid normie
>>24871104
>if it was real or not
Nothing actually changed in the way we interacted afterwards though.
For those of you who experienced actual abuse, I'm sure your relationship dynamic with the abuser changed, right?
My cousin took me into the bathroom when i was like 7 and made me suck her tits. Also my neighbor did the same thing. I kinda regret being a faggot and not sucking on my neighbors titties.
>>24871055
I wish I could track down my qt babysitter.(She forced me to eat her out and suck her tits)
I will force her to take my unlubricated dick in all of her sweet holes. Payback for fucking up my brain.
>>24871179
Fuck you.
It made me sexually mature earlier than my peers. Fucking up my every single friendship and relationship I ever had.
>>24870851
>father abusive to mother
>father leaves
>mom becomes alcoholic
>be me almost any night of my childhood
>she gets drunk as shit
>she screams as loud as she can at me
>throws shit at me
>bang on doors as loud as she could whenever I would have the audacity to want a decent night of sleep and would lock the door.
>forced me to ride with her in car when she was drunk to get more booze
>almost wrecked several times because of this
>forced me to take her to get booze when I was 12 and could push gas pedal and brakes
>purposely would get really drunk and scream at me during big test nights in High School
>this causes me to fail two AP tests and only barely pass all of the others
>would purposefully say mean shit to me while drunk just to give her a reason to fight and scream at me
And to top it all fucking off, every god damn time I would try to confront her about her shit she would get defensive and deny that she is an alcoholic. Going as far as to accuse me of being cruel to her.
Not really that much physical abuse I guess and she was decent enough to me any time she managed to stay sober, but this shit still has me fucked up to this day.
My shit ain't that bad. I'm gonna fuck off and get wasted now.
>>24871183
same with me, doesn't change anything
I think we were just too young to know that it wasn't normal
>>24871285
damn anon that sucks
are you at least out of that situation now?
>>24871273
don't bother responding
Yeah, when I was 11 I got raped by a 16-17 year old in my ass, punched in my head, got a sock stuffed in my mouth, then after a couple minutes he pulled out and came on my face, then wiped it off.
I'm 25 now. Life isn't so great.
>>24871104
What happened to you anon?
>7 years old
>a guy fucks me in the ass
>felt kinda nice
>he also wanted me to jerk him off
>nope
I guess that's the reason im attracted to traps
Feels bad man
>>24871318
How would you feel if your teacher caught you eating out your kindergarten crush in the closet; and everybody flips their shit out and you have no idea what is going on? Confused? Angry?
It made me think that Love==Sex, at the fucking age of 7.
>>24871318
You should kill yourself, autist.
>>24871366
yes, I moved far away from the hick town I was raised in.
I live next to a fucking hospital, I hear loud sirens blazing every night, but that is fucking peace and quite compared to what I grew up with.
>>24871395
They're baiting you friend.
>>24871449
You are that insensitive virgin faggot who never got pussy.
>>24870902
>fucked with my whole concept of sex and trust though
virgin here, i certainly don't trust anyone and my concept of sex is "something fun other people do that i will never do." i bet you had several relationships that didn't work out in the end (like most relationships) and now you've decided you're fundamentally broken or some shit when there are people who will never even get the chance to experience them in the first place. am i wrong?
>>24871383
that is horrible
what happened to them?
>>24871386
I don't know how much this really counts but
>be some young age that I don't remember (I wasn't developed yet, he was)
>family friend that was 4 years older and other friend coax me into play these "games"
>eventually family friend begins showing me porn
>shows me how to jerk off
>don't cum because I'm a kid
>asks me to do him "favors", ie., sucking his dick, letting him fuck me in the butt
>this goes on for a year or so
>think it's normal and even quite enjoy it
>eventually get tired of it and don't want to do it anymore
>trades me kid toys in order to let him use me
>one time don't want to do it anymore and he holds me down and does it anyway
>ask him not to cum inside
>he does
I think that was the last time it really happened
I know I'm not gay today, but sometimes I still think about sucking dick and it makes me feel guilty
sorry if it was hard to read or if I left details out
>>24871595
>>24871386
ehm also I thought it was normal I think, so I convinced another friend to do/receive oral iirc
at least that's what I tell myself
luckily he moved away that day
>>24870902
I know that feel bro. Every night, I fantasized about raping raping my crushes in a sex dungeon before sleeping when I was 8.
God, I was fucked up. I wish she never showed me that BDSM porno.
>>24871563
Sex is "something you have to do to prove to people you love them so they won't leave you or hurt you" It's dirty, it's bad. It was bad.
I didn't understand the concept of wanting to have sex to feel good or for myself, and it gets really embarrassing in my opinion when something random triggers me because I'm 24 fucking years old just because a guy wants me to give him a blowjob doesn't mean that he's using me.
I've had relationships that have worked. I was in therapy for four years. My case was not as bad as other people's cases. I'm not saying that your situation is better or worse than mine, I'm simply saying that the grass is greener on the other side.
I would have at least liked to have found out what masturbation was before being abused, so that I would have at least one sexual discovery of my own.
>>24871743
>triggers
i knew it. hi, tumblr. enjoy your normal boring life, as well as the victim status to help spice things up when it gets a little too boring (like the lull between chads or whatever).
>>24871743
tumblr pls go and stay go
>>24871872
>>24871925
Nice ad homenims
>>24871595
Nothing happened to him, he was just taller than me and muscular fat, probably weighed twice as much as me. Pinned me down and I couldn't move or scream with a sock in my mouth. He lives in another city now. I was too embarrassed to say anything at the time, mainly because I was friends with his brother, but also because my parents were coworkers and I didn't want to cause drama like my dad potentially killing someone because of it.
I only recently started dealing with it this year with a psychiatrist and therapist, they said I should have gotten help a long time ago because it's essentially fucked me up past normal functioning.
>>24871940
nice spelling you fucking BITHC
>>24871955
>fucked me up past normal functioning.
Same here.
My mom tried to murder me when I was like 12.
>>24872004
fuck man. please tell me you got out of that shit.
>>24870775
Dear god, how disgusting
>>24872004
That's fucked up man.
Story?
>>24871955
you know what to to, go get yours senpai.
get yours and you'll feel whole again, trust me.
>>24872004
Isaac, God saved you
>>24872004
how did your mom try to murder you>
>>24870775
>>24872188
They all did that anon, its called breastfeeding.
>dry hump my hot aunt all the time as a kid
>she never did anything to me
I wish I was
>>24869971
I was at a family friends house party At 8 years of age and a17 year old girl made me suck her tits behind my house, she also blew me until i told her it hurt and then proceeded to make out with me. Im not making this up i got a fucking blowjob at 8. Oh yeah the whole night she would follow me into quiet places like the bathroom ad flash me her hairy pussy. I didn't know why i liked it but i did. Later on it made me very sexual towards people and an unexplainable lust for older women which now at 21 ive fulfilled 4 times in the past 2 years.
>>24873411
how much older have you fulfilled?
You probably deserved it desu
>>24869971
I knew people who were.
>24869971
Get a mouthfull of meat fgt
>>24872283
lmao shit made me laugh
thx
ex gf abused by dad and granddad. i only could open up to her becuase i knew, someone with this history cant be a normie judging you. i was right, best ive ever felt. then she broke up with me and ended therapy i helped her to start. now shes dating an ugly fucktard. cringe tier. she wasnt a beauty herself though, but ive felt secure and loved for a while.
>>24874613
>someone with this history cant be a normie judging you.
yea fucking right. women with "this history" comprise much of the worst of tumblr.
>>24873411
Ah yes the pedo girls...gotta watch out for those ones. Damn near impossible to detect though. Those bitches are far better at then their male counterparts.
Watched the movie 'Heavy Metal' when I was 4 with my whole family.
At the time I would recreate anything I saw on tv after watching it, terminator/predator/wwf/star wars.
Well my older sister wanted to play one of the scenes(pic related) from heavy metal. So we both had to be naked, she would grind my flaccid dick for sexual pleasure while I would say lines from the movie.
This happened several times before my mother actually caught us in the act, my sister jumped up immediately, ashamed, I had no idea what we were doing was wrong. I had no idea what sex or incest were.
Years go by, as I start to learn about sex around I realize just how fucked up what happened really was. No one in the family has ever brought this up to me even privately, i'm the black sheep in the family at this point, not invited to any gatherings and haven't even seen my sisters 2 and 6 year old kids.
It sucks.
>>24869971
Hey uh, anyone got a link to the thread the other day where some black qt posted nudes?
was raped by an uncle when I was 5-6
pretty apathetic about the event but any half decent psych would note that this event may have directly led to me being emotionally disconnected
ether way life moves on
>>24873411
This is very hot. Too bad it never happened to me :(
>>24878000
I at the time was blindfolded and in combination with the ass pain thought I was getting a wedgie like pic related as some form of strange punishment.
after words he made me swear I wouldn't tell anyone or I would be punished further.
ever afterwards he would always talk to me like hes walking on eggshells, I used to think he must of thought I was mentally slow but now its apparent that its because he knows I have something over him.
>>24877088
>only the younger child gets punished because he's a male
Fucking typical.
Molested and raped by an older boy at a foster home. Ended with basically all the children groping and kissing me all the time, mostly girls though.
>>24870930
>not being able to feel love
Anon I've been feeling this since birth.
completely original bamp
This older kid put his dick in my ass when I was like 7.
Does that count, or was it just "experimentation"?
It wasn't my choice, but I guess it didn't hurt (didn't feel good either).
>be about 5
>get it up the pooper from some old guy and suck him off
thats about it
Lost my virginity at 10 to a girl the same age, does that count or?
How do you know that you got molested and such when you were only like 0-3 years old? I don't remember shit about my dad, but he supposedly was with us till I was 4. I only know him from pictures, and in one I was sitting with him in the bathtub, both naked. Kinda fishy.
>tfw dad is child molester
>he wouldn't even rape me i'm so undesirable, only other kids ;__;
>>24871383
sounds pretty hot
>>24877088
See when I was 11 I did something similar to my 5-year-old sister. I was starting to get boners at that point and our parents would still shower together with us (Europe, I know). She started stroking my dick in the shower for no reason and realized it became hard. My dad was there and he just... let it happen?
Eventually we would just do kinky stuff on the bed. Never any sex because I didn't really know what that was. It stopped when I just had a random moment of sobriety.
I also had oral sex with one of my male friends a year after that. Never spoke to him since.
I'm fairly convinced it's what caused me to be a pedophile now. What happens, just happens I guess.
When I was 11 I sucked my cousins dick and he didn't suck mine back. Then he tried to get me to suck his friends dicks. It was then I realized I got played super fucking hard and this cunt was onto my shtick. Fucked me up good senpai.
my cousin who is 2 years older made me suck his dick, then he sucked mine when we were like 10-12
We used to show eachother our dicks and give eachother hand jobs.
Never mentioned again as we got older.
>tfw no female cousins to have hot incestual sex with
