Im fairly sure that life gets worse as it goes on. (atleast that has been my experience) I am depressed and sometimes suicidal but know I wont kill myself for a while now but see it as a certainty in the future. Probably around 30-35 years old (27 now). Life just isnt my cup of tea.
What age will you die r9k?
>>24855339
I'm 27 too. I probably won't need to kill myself as I am genetic trash and collect weird conditions. I will probably die when I'm about to finally reach the point where I turned my life around.
It's always been like this. When I do the right thing, life tries to kill me.
My plan is to work hard for the next ~10 years(I'm 25), buy property in West Virginia near my family, and just be a crazy mountain man who smokes an egregious amount of weed and spends my time doing whatever it is that I want to until I die in my 60s.
That's the dream, fuck working until you're too old to live.
>TFW I end up working until I'm 85 and die at work because I couldn't afford to live without working.
>>24855442
Thats a good plan. What do you do for work?
I work hard but nothing ever comes out of it except debt and pain. Hopefully a war or cancer takes me
>>24855489
I'm a CNC Machinist. It pays pretty well for someone who has no education after high school, but it's stressful where I work. Sometimes I love it and sometimes I hate it, but I mostly just stick with it because nothing else sounds any better.
>life just isn't my cup of tea
Don't fall into this mindset. Avoid the pitfall. Your mindset is poisoned with despair. You need to find something to live for. Make a list of dreams you want to make a reality, important or not. Start thinking of ways you could make steps toward achieving those goals.
Don't give up op. You can make a better future for yourself if you don't.
>22
>No education
>Mommy takes care of me
>Definitely going to kill myself when I end up homeless in 2-4 years
Meh, I didn't really enjoy living anyway.
>>24855657
Ive looked and found nothing. i wont give up yet but im saying that in a few years i will. I can already see it.
>>24855721
What is one thing you've thought that you might enjoy doing?
>>24855744
I have things i enjoy but that enjoyment is always fleeting or a case of going through the motions of life. i enjoy and dont enjoy most things. everything is just OK. i like listenng to music tho
>>24855797
take a break from the technology for a while. let your mind settle and things will come to you. but these things wont make you happy in and of themselves. you need to improve yourself as a person and give you that mental satisfaction that you're making progress toward a goal for you to be happy. for example, being fit, getting into a relationship, eating well, serving your God, etc.
>tfw your closest friend tells you that he is suicidal as well
Having someone to ride to Valhalla with feels great. I'm pretty sure I won't make it past January and even that is stretching it a little bit, although I've come to accept it really.
