back from the abyss
whatsup with faggots trying to steal my bar and tripcode as soon as i started doing this
whats your story anon, would youd like anything to drink?
It's 10am, I'll have appletini. :3
>>24835927
Gimme your cheapest beer with the highest %
white russian
uni exams coming up which will ravage my anus
i feel so defeated
>>24835968
surething anon
hows life?
>>24836037
here you go man
what subjects you got?
If I want to order Whiskey at a bar, do I need to specify the kind? I want to try going to a bar, but I dont want the bartender to assume its my first time being at a bar.
also post your homebar
>mfw im a student
>mfw id rather spend my allowance on booze than proper food
>>24836060
i see quite a few terrible brands there anon.
>>24836052
just order jack daniels, stuffs good enough to drink
>>24836051
thats a well made drink.
macro economics this week and corporate finance next week
ayy lmao
>>24836060
spending money on applejuice is a good idea, you can make your own booze with it
>>24836074
i know, i know. but not everything good is available here, and i buy what fits in my budget
>>24836075
I drink cheap vodka mostly at home, but just because its cheaper.
If I were to order whiskey thought what exactly would I have to say?
"I'll have a jack daniels" The fuck that does not sound right.
Jack on the rocks? Fucking normie memes. I dont know whats real
Nigger where is my fucking beer
My ex gf just texted me
>>24835927
A warm beer for me please
Man, I'm reaching the bottom... Today i had "the talk" and now i feel like absolute shit... I already know that i'm a piece of shit but when you have your parents telling you that it's much worse...
Going to be kicked out soon... Maybe i'll live with my grandma for now...
>>24836077
learning stuff can be increased by connecting a certain colour or smell to it in your mind
also, try reading your textbook pages out loud, while copying it, youll be amazed how good itll stick in your brain
>>24836102
say you want an old fashioned, they will probably give you a good whiskey. old fashioned is basically a whiskey on the rocks
>>24836102
I would ask for Jack and Coke. Don't really like either but it's popular. Or if you want it straight just ask for a double neat. Usually unless it's some club bartenders are happy to talk about their spirits.
>>24836102
just call the drink by its name, youll be fine
>>24836103
here you go anon
what did she say?
how did you guys break up?
>>24836124
warm beer? tastes are different i guess
why would they kick you out?
>>24836130
see, thats my problem. i write down everything because thats the only way ill remember it. but i have so much theory in both of these subjects that its gonna take me fucking ages even if i actually manage to study. and the math from corporate finance will just fuck me regardless.
>>24836178
split the amount of information, then just repeat old stuff each day youstudy the next thing
ittll be alright man
>>24835927
One manhatan please
>tfw i believed i would fail at exams but i did good and now i wont lose the entire semester
Feels good man
>>24836177
>why would they kick you out?
The usual... I don't do nothing with my life, not giving a shit about college, not taking advantage of the oportunities... You know, the usual...
Matter of fact, since August i've been spiral down to the abyss... I feel like a living dead...
>>24835927
just fill up your largest glass with vodka, please
>>24836253
get some hobbies anon, and dont fap each night, itll do wonders to your motivation[0
>>24836271
anon couldnt finish it last night, here you go
whats goin on anyway anon?
what are some cocktails that girls like that will get them fucking smashed but they wont taste the alc in it?
>>24836275
>get some hobbies anon
already have... yet i can't do anything... I dunno... I think i will just confess my defeat... Get a job and spend the rest of my life browsing the internet
>>24836317
you cant spend your entire life on the internet, that will get boring very quick after like two years. you need SOMETHING to do. even if its spraying graffiti in your city or riding a motorcycle like a madman with a deathwish, find something to do thats exciting and helps make the future more painless
>>24836280
I stopped feeling shit. The only thing that brings me any satisfaction now is finishing the day's work, and now I'm afraid of losing that too.
>>24836379
Well... recently i've becoming an alchoolic... I feel quite happy (relieved) when i'm drunk...
I guess that's the path i have to take
>>24836282
safari sense with jusdorange should do the trick, they love it, and you will too
>>24836411
hobbies and nofap will make you feel even bettetr, just try something new, travel a lot, itll give you a lot of new experiences
>>24836468
>travel a lot
not with my anxiety and medical condition
>>24836391
find some hobbies, get into a serie, game, learn to play an instrument just balance your work with things youll like
>>24836489
what medical conditions?
>>24836455
recipe for that drink please?
>>24836523
two shots of safari sense in a water bottle, fill it up with jusdorange
>>24836521
chronic neck\back pain
>>24836643
havent you seen a doctor for this?
One Becks please.
>>24835927
You didn't make this up faggot, I miss the OG BarKeep.
You went from, "tell me your story" to "what's faggots" in like 3 posts. This is what replies does to people, nigger.
>>24837006
what's up*, fuck
>>24835927
I'll take a Tequila Sunrise please.
>>24837006
>>24835927
You also said you were a newfag in last thread, and give horse-shit advice compared to BarKeep, who was a real bartender or someshit
>>24837064
here you go anon
hows life
>>24837095
OG Colorado BarKeep was the boss. I tried filling in once when he went off somewhere, shit was harder than it looks.
>>24837095
ive got two threads before this and didnt say that in those, other people are trying this too
>>24837095
>>24817530
tell me wheter its horeshit or not, and if it is ill stop
>>24835927
I'm all hopped up on cocaine and I've got a butcher knife on my lap and I'm seriously contemplating suicide by cop, like holding up a gas station with this knife and making everyone evacuate, and wait for the cops to show, and then chimp out on them and go down in a hail of bullets.
Give me something to take the edge off, barkeep.
>>24837181
try to find something in your life that you really want, work towards that while stopping with cocaine, its easier to do when you have some motivation
>>24837265
There is nothing, I have nothing.
>>24837282
were there any things that you liked before using cocaine? any reasons why you started with cocaine?
Glass of water, thanks. I don't drink.
Today's the day. Gotta pick up a few last minute supplies. Wrote my note. Hope it's peaceful. Hope I don't end up brain damaged or a vegetable.
>>24835927
Eh what the hell, it's never too early. I'll have a Newcastle.
>>24835927
give me a redwine. Im the guy who wrote about the girl with depression yesterday. still kinda hard to let her go, she told me shes used to get stepped on and is currently going to psychologist, the conversation ended when she went to bed. and i cant write first cuz i wrote "you can write if you need someone to talk to"
Probably wont see her again until new year (hopefully newyears eve?).
>>24837354
what are you planning? fuckmutes
>>24835927
I'll have some hydrogen cyanide please,
There's two things I really want in life you know, and I'd be happy with either one. Number 1 is finding love, number 2 is joining the military. The thing is, I have aspergers (on this board? who could have guessed?) The military won't take aspies and I have no idea how to speak to women. I have friends who are joining the military and there's a girl in my class that I really like, she's got a great sense of humour and she's an overal nice person. I just have no fucking clue how to talk to her.
>>24837399
Carbon monoxide by charcoal. Gonna bed down for a nap and never wake up.
>>24837380
hey man
ittl come with time, just dont be bored meanwhile or your thoughts will drift back to her
Cola libre.
I'm not happy. I'll never be. The only reason I'm still alive is because I want to get my revenge on the world. I'm full of hatred and frustration, nothing more. Maybe I should just fucking kill myself.
>>24837422
what happened to push you this far anon?
Pour me a Coke. I don't feel like drinking tonight, it'll just make me feel worse.
I screwed up some money related things, feel like shit. My parents will surely find out and ill end up a complete fuck up like my older brother.
Such is life. Mine atleast.
>>24837437
i dont really remember who said it, but someone said that the best revenge is becoming more succesfull than the people who you want to take revenmge on
what happened to you anyway?
>>24837445
I'm not really sure. I've always thought about killing myself, and in some way I think I've always known I would die by suicide. I've always struggled with depression and anxiety, and I had a mental breakdown starting a new job in my field. I don't have anything left to live for and I'm a drain on everyone around me. I hate myself. It would be better if I were gone.
>>24837452
what did you do? fucking mutes
>>24837484
im not gonna try to stop you, thats not my choice to make
what made you depressed?
>>24837464
I can't just become "more successful". I'm not a normie. I can't. I couldn't have normie friends, get married, have kids, a family, a fucking dog and a pretty house.
It's not like something happened. It has always been like that. Even when I was a kid, I was different. I'm not saying I was more intelligent or something, I was just different. They hated me for that.
>>24837506
I don't know if there's anything that made me this way. Maybe I was just born with it. Family life held literally constant fighting from my parents when I was younger. Got in trouble with the law in university and that fucked my head up big time because I was so worried about being charged I figured it would be better to kill myself. I think thats the major stuff.
I'm about to go into an impossibly hard time in my life. I can avoid it, but if I do I know I'll kill myself. If I go where I'm going, there's a chance I won't, so it's a chance I'm willing to take. I wish I had a boyfriend to help me through, but I'm all alone, talking to you.
>>24837529
do you feel like youre better off on your own?
>>24837551
well, since youre talking to me anyway, whats going on?
>>24837540
what made you hate yourself? what did you do in uni?
>>24836160
We dated for like 5 years and haven't talked in 2. She wanted to get married and I didn't, then I regretted becoming an asshole and making up break up.
>>24837573
I'd rather not say, I'll probably get shit on considering that most people on this board consider it a mental illness. I mean, it is, but I just don't know what else to fucking do.
>>24837609
what did she text you?
>>24837627
'is this still your number'
>>24837623
right now youre anonymous, other people here are too, theres literally no worth to what anons say, you simply accept it or not
id like to listen to your story
>>24837644
>whos number
xd
>>24837644
what did you tell her?
you want to get back with her?
>>24837653
I'm trans, and I'm about a month into transition. I feel like I can't talk to anyone about it, most of my friends are accepting of me, but still are incredibly uncomfortable about it so I avoid upsetting them because I don't want to lose any. Some of my friends have left me entirely because of it. I feel like I have nobody close, who I can trust to support me and stand with me no matter who I am and that's a far worse feeling and fear than transitioning. All of my friends avoid me when there's someone "better" to talk to and are embarrassed to be seen with me, even before they knew I was trans, it's like I'm still in fucking high school.
>>24835927
I cannot get myself up. I spent almost the entire day in bed unless something forces me out, and even then I push it to the last minute. I barely eat, I stay in bed until 4 pm and then eat some shit food and maybe something at night. I don't know what to do. But if I'm forced out I actually get stuff done, it's just the motivation to get out of the bed, I don't have it.
>>24837781
leave your curtains open, or take em down, its easier with a lot of light, leave your phone/laptop/tv/whjatever far away from your bed, youl get bored after a while
would this work?
>>24835927
Bartender my life is going fucking great for once give me the most expensive shit ya got.
>>24835927
Who /anxiety every morning/ here?
I applied for a job last week and they haven't called or emailed me despite telling me everything looks good, do I go into the store and ask what the status is? Can't hurt right?
>>24837839
this is the most expensive ive got, need a glass or just the bottle?
>>24837836
The problem is my only window is on street level, meaning people can look inside my room... not really something I want the world to see. But luckily I'm moving in a month.
I will try that, but I'm not sure it will work. I just need that little push of energy to go and start, then I actually get things done...
>>24837730
male to female or female to male?
ofcourse people are weirded out by it, its basically fucking with nature, explain to your friends that u might look different but are still the same guy or girl that they know
>>24837888
plan forward, and leave fucking everything you can use to entertain yourself far away from yourbed and youll be just fine
>>2483784
Dude employers love to see a guy show interest after the fact, just show up once a week and inquire about your application, it totally works and not many do it, this is from my own personal experiences not just some nebulous protip it really helps, it may take a while, but you'll get the job
Oi bartender you got a tv?
Lets watch some anime together familys
and give me a coke
>>24837843
/anxiety every morning/ here family.
>>24837913
Male to Female, I don't look all that masculine and I'm pretty short, I let myself get heavy from depression and there was
a year when I basically didn't leave my parents basement at all. I've been on /r9k/ since I was 15, 4 years ago, and it's probably fucked me up more than it's helped.
when and how did you decide to do the big ol switcharoo?
>>24837979
sucks man, been happening more and more often as soon as I open my eyes
>>24835927
What up bartender?
Give me a Siberian Mist and keep 'em comming.
Had a rough day and my wife tells me she's having her period. That means no sex tonight. Any white trash woman in here looking for some action?
Why are white trash woman so damn hott??
BTW, bartender shave that damn beard. I'm having flashbacks up in this motherfucker.
>>24837960
thanks man, glad I caught your post
>>24837941
I will try that, thanks.
>>24837877
Fuck it man pass the bottle over I'm gonna have a great fuckin night!
>>24838031
I was struggling with being masculine vs feminine since I was a really little kid. I would always take on the role of daughter/mother when playing house with my sister/friends in preschool. When I entered middle school, I started getting made fun of for being really feminine, so I started to go to the gym and become more masculine, because I thought it would make me happier. It didn't, and I ended up being more depressed than ever, and packed on weight that I've kept until a couple months back where I started doing cardio and cut my calories in half to lose weight. I'm down 40 lbs now, but still far heavier than I'd like (160). Moving on, I discovered trans shit when I discovered 4chan, when I was about 15. I was confused about how I guy could "become" a girl, but it also made me incredibly happy it was possible. I decided when I was about 16 that this was the only path I could take where I might not end up in the ground. I'm scared as hell, but I'm also incredibly excited, and am starting college next September. My life is looking up, but there's also the fear that if I don't kill myself, someone else might.
>>24838061
No problem man I hope it helps! I need someone to share this >>24837877 with man go ahead. Here's to success!
>>24835927
Hey, is this the same bartender from yesterdays thread? If so, I wanna say thanks man. I called qt latino gf last night and basically asked told her how I felt, about my anxiety and how I didn't feel like I was good enough for her.
She ended up telling me she was fine with me, awkwardness and all, and that she liked me because I was a genuinely nice guy who cared about her.
It was hard to take in that anybody, especially a social and outgoing qt normie like her, would care about me that much, so hearing her say that really hit me, and now I feel better than ever.
Normies aren't that bad, now that I think about it.
Oh, and a scotch on the rocks for me
>>24838288
yeah i am
im glad it worked out man
>>24838046
>>24835927
Where da fuck is my motherfucking drink?
What the fuck is wrong with you?
You wanna die?
Give me my motherfucking Siberian Mist asshole!
>>24838338
You do not taint scotch with water like that.
hungover and looking for a hair of the dog
got any Old Monk? if so, I'll take some with coffee and cream. if not, just pour me a shot of spiced rum or bourbon
>>24838496
I asked the bartender, not you ya snooty jackass.
>>24838496
Implying I'm not using scotch-rocks
>>24838386
Let's celebrate, next rounds on me guys
>>24838338
ive got a different drink for you anon
>>24835927
maybe get a custom trip, more recognsable than the mess of characters you have now
>>24838582
you call it anon!
>>24838616
what are you talking about fuck mutes seriously
>>24838603
I dunno, looks watered down...
I'll take it if its half price
>>24838500
>tfw ignored by the bartender
just like at a real bar, thanks OP
>>24838667
free for you anon
>>24838723
no story, no feels, no need to reply
im not simply roleplaying here mate
>>24838748
... Then what are you doing?
>>24838748
seems like you are to me, you just want to ignore me like everyone else
that's part of the reason I crave attention so much, because my whole life it has seemed like everyone makes a conscious effort to deny it to me
>>24838832
Stop being such a tumblrina
"I NEED PEOPLE'S ATTENTION"
>>24838726
Thanks, asshole
>>24838835
share the Van Gogh ones, should be good for a kek
>>24838835
thats fucking amazing bro
10/10
how about i just hook in a new vate of beer and attach a tube to the tap for you
>>24838861
everyone does. especially at the bar, it feels bad to be sitting drinkless and sober for ages while the bartender flirts with some obnoxious Chad/Stacy or serves drinks to literally everyone who enters after you for half an hour
>>24838835
post em here friend
Ay barkeep, what's a good vodka-based cocktail? I usually just drink straight whiskey or vodka, but feel like a change.
As for feels, I got a twofer:
>Finals coming up tomorrow
Even if I do well, I'm gonna lose my scholarship that pays 85% of tuition because I've been getting straight Bs for a few semesters now.
>girl I like seems like she's ignoring me
I see her online multiple times a day, but she won't respond. Not sure if I said something wrong or what, but I'm literally losing sleep over it (just in time for finals! :^D)
Kek me up desu
>>24838936
Much appreciated Barkeep
Yo anons, I'm drafting a speech for the first man on mars scenario
Give me some inspirational shit to say, like the moonlanding was "one small step for man one giant leap for mankind" need something similar for mars
I only ask you guys because I find that those feeling down usually have the most inspirational shit to say
>>24839001
>I see her online multiple times a day, but she won't respond. Not sure if I said something wrong or what, but I'm literally losing sleep over it (just in time for finals! :^D)
same boat anon, she said her phone broke and that she's been busy, she generally doesn't seem to talk to people much though so there's that at least.
>>24839049
Kek, mine told me she lost her phone and she's been busy/tired lately. Is that a stock excuse or something?
Best of luck though anon, hopefully it turns out well for you.
Slippery nipple please
>>24839116
>tfw
I don't know man
On one hand I feel like she wouldn't lie to me
On the other, after I asked her about it she said "sometimes I get the texts and sometimes I don't"
On the other other hand, I did overhear her discussing getting a new phone with her friend
and ik for a fact she really is busy most of the time
so 3/4 says she's telling the truth
I'm overthinking, I know.
>>24839001
wait for her to message you, if she doesnt, then it wouldnt have worked out anyway, balance the amount of times you-she starts the conversation so you wont look like a tryhard
abpout the exams, ive given some other anon in this thread some studying advice, might that work for you
>>24835927
I'll have a Jim Beam Apple on the rocks please.
Today is the first day I've been single in 4 years. Early twenties and already have high GTG so my liver is going to shut down eventually.
>>24839197
>overthinking
You can say that again, brother. I don't think she's ignoring you, just from what you've shared. Does she know you like her? Like is it a mutual thing, or?
>>24839199
Yeah, true. I figure if I don't hear back by Friday (it'll have been 5 days or so by then) then I'll just assume I won't hear anything and commence the moving on phase.
>studying
The color/smell association and the grouping method thing? I knew about the grouping, never thought to make use of that color/smell thing, though. Thanks, dude
>>24838288
Wow, you sound like a pussy
>>24836020
Just being a lonely neet trapped in my room. I decided to paint some furniture today and read some books on psychology.
May I have an poison apple cocktail?
>>24835927
I dunno man everything goes pretty smooth right now, I take a Guiness Stout, if don't got that give me closest thing to british lager.
I reconciled with my brother, get along greatly with my nephew and got a position which allows me to study med with my way to bad finals score. I started working out regulary and my guitar skills skyrocketed since I dismissed the classical guitarmusic teacher, mostly training with Rocksmith 2014 and right now I'm able to play Iron Maiden fluently.
It makes me wonder about the point of school since it slowed everything down which made me fun brought mental pleasure.
I think I'm going to ask out my high school crush, the worst thing she can say is no, as we are parting ways now, if it works out great if not I don't mind.
At some moments I feel great, happy, but at some moments it feels like a film noir.
At the end everything is going to work out I can feel it in my bones.
Strongest whiskey you got.
>joined soccer league
>supposed to be social league
>end up on really good team - I'm the worst team
>become a liability every game
>realize that my attempt to make friends ended up making me feel worse than ever, like it always does
>went to sleep realizing that I'll always be alone
>woke up with no will to get out of bed - it's 2, been laying here since 8, can't find a good reason to get up
I'd rather be born into poverty and disease than this loneliness.
>>24839529
>I'm the worst on my team*
can't even type right.
Sloe Gin. Nice on cold days.
Tomorrow is my very last chance with her. Pray for me robots, I'll need it.
>>24839587
Started training and calling women out on their bullshit.
My arms feel like pudding now.
Hit me with a basil smash. Can't drink alcohol IRL anymore that much, too big chance of a relapse.
Whichever beer you drink around here...
Should be studying... instead hanging around here... I should better go study and gather the courage for friday to kiss this qt I've been seeing lately. WIll probably still be sad even with her around.
>>24839587
And praying for you, man
>>24839633
I fear I'm going there anon. How do I stop myself from becoming an alcoholic?
After 2 long years of living in this shithole town of Tallahassee I'm finally moving back to the biggest and greatest shit hole in the world, New York City. I'll take a Manhattan for the boys back home bartender. Pic related
>>24839315
>Does she know you like her? Like is it a mutual thing, or?
yeah here, I'll greentext it
>be inna college
>meet her in one of my classes
>can never tell when a girls into me
>invites me over one day
>still not sure if she likes me
>end up having a great time and kiss at the end
here's where it gets complicated
>she'd been a lesbian up until that point
>I was the first guy she'd ever kissed/done anything intimate with
>tells me she decided if she was ever going to date a guy it'd have to be me cause I'm extremely attractive (not to brag desu her words not mine)
>generally happy with her for a week or two
>tells me she's scared of having sex
>says that she thinks she really is a lesbian after all
>wants to stay friends
>agree because she's just a good person to be around plus obviously wont be seeing other guys
and now we're here
she's cool during class when we talk, I just can't wrap my head around the fact that she just doesn't have feelings for me anymore
told me to give her time to decide but there's just no way she's going to want to get back together
Feels like I could have talked my way out of this entire situation but when she told me she felt that she was a lesbian I didn't really want to push her to try something she wouldn't be comfortable with
fuck man, I just want to go back to the happy times
I just pulled my neck muscle while yawning
I'll have a shoulder rub, pls
Not only to soothe the sore ache of my neck but because I'm lonely and need affection, too. The sore ache of my soul needs to be soothed as well, and I think a shoulder rub might do the trick.
>>24839662
Girls numb the pain. Kiss her. Don't ever let her go. Don't ever let her know how you really feel inside. They can't handle the abyss.
>>24839672
Honestly, what helped me was starting to get in shape. I only drink socially anymore. It takes selfcontrol. But when I come home with bad thoughts I just do the bodyweight exercises from Mark Lauren's "Be your own Gym" and then I have other sorrows than my usual robot sorrows. My arms are too exhausted to even lift a glass of water for more than 30 seconds right now. Feels awesome. No Gym membership, no social pressure, just being true to myself and training at home.
I honestly just do this atm to be confident enough to shit on women IRL and being able to beat up my buddy (we made a date by which we are going to beat each other up while listening to death grips, so I wanna throw a good punch).
TLDR: Selfcontrol and impulse divertion.
>>24839684
pic looks like something a normy would post
>>24839702
Hey thats not the worst situation you can be in Anon. Like you said, she probably won't be fucking other guys so theres no stigma with keeping her as a friend. Also girls are fun and give you access to fun things especially in college. Keep her around you won't regret it.
>>24839724
>Don't ever let her know how you really feel inside. They can't handle the abyss.
I wonder if there are women that feel the same way
I've only ever noticed it happen with men
even fictional ones like Big Boss have ridiculous amounts of feels they just never show
I've never felt like I could talk to anyone about how I really feel, even my best bro and my actual brother
>>24839761
You sound like I'd want to be friends with you. Thanks.
>>24839769
Why do you say that friend?
>>24839529
hobbies, i cant say this enough
as long as you have distraction you wont care what happens
>>24837310
I'm actually not typically much of a cokie, I just thought I was actually going to go through with these plans I've been mulling over for a long time now, and I was sniffing coke to try and get the nerve up.
I wound up just crying and throwing shit until I came down. It's not going to happen. It's not ever going to happen. I don't have the guts. I'm just going to go back to my wagekek life and go through the monotonous days until nature takes its course and my instincts of self-preservation won't mean anything, any more.
>>24839790
Yeah you're right anon
don't want to lose one of the few people I get along with
>>24839702
Goddamn lad, that's rough, I'm sorry. It probably is better to keep her as a friend than not at all, in the long run, but in the short term that just has to fucking hurt...
hey bar keep, I'll take 6 of what's cheapest.
Question;
Last night I lost my only two friends. They are a couple in a bad relationship; and I got caught up in one of their fights after telling an edgy sexost joke(was drunk); ended up with both of them ganging up on me; kicking me out etc.
Do I try to get these friends back? they're the only thing keeping me from 100% shut-in NEETdom. Or do I just accept this as a blessing. and enjoy my freedom and extra NEET time?
Thanks barkeep, here's a good tip.
>>24839810
Why not?
Send me your skype handle here:
[email protected]
(It's a throwaway mail for 60 minutes)
I could use some new skype friends and I like to help other people be better at being true to themselves.
>>24839897
Felt lost and empty for a while
This thread is really the only place I can even go to talk about shit like this and it helps, thanks for taking the time to reply man I really appreciate it
>>24837099
I once loved a girl, 8 years ago. It lasted 2 months till I broke up due to reasons. One week after break-up she fucked the next best guys, but I never even saw her naked. Anyway, since then I didn't have a single relationship with a girl. All my friends fucked around like there is/was no tomorrow. I'm the quiet one now. I go to their "parties" and try to fit in since I want to have some people around me but at the same time not. I'm wake up to go to work and earn money which I spend on my car. I get back home just to start up my PC and watch a film or two. This is my daily life. Sometimes on a weekend I visit my friends and drink some beers. It realy feels repetetive. I really hope my dreams of going to Canada for a year will come true. 2-3 more fucking years and I have the money and the opportunity. I want to see the north-lights and meet people who are way more open then the fucks here in Germany. And last but not least do I want to be loved, by a girl who's tender and lovely.
>it's from yesterday but you closed and told me to save it for today
>>24840057
sent.
For originality.
>>24840607
>8 years
Damn anon, think you'd still care about her if you found another girl?
>girls forget about people within a week at most
It's my friends birthday so I'm gunna force myself out of the house to have dinner with him and some other people. 12 page paper due tomorrow that I haven't even started on. Kinda snapped and now Im not even thinking about grades for the first time since high school.
>>24840718
And here lies the problem. I wanted to forget about her but never found another girlfriend. I try not to think about her, but everytime I meet a new girl it just reminds me of what happened in the past.
>>24840668
So why not accept my contact request? ;)
>>24840875
I didn't get one yet..?
>>24840826
good luck finding another one, maybe in your travels to Canada you'll find someone
>>24841160
Thank you Anon, I really hope I will.
>>24835927
I got work anon. I can't drink.
But I am thinking on quitting soon. Giving my 2 weeks notice.
>19
>able bodied
>good grades
>tons of volunteer work
>have been in leadership positions
>no drugs
>no alcohol
>no incarceration
>no tickets even
>can't get a minimum wage job
why
the
fuck
>>24841157
Wait, uh ... You are the german guy who wrote me, right? I sent you a contact request in German (Kraut here, too)
>>24841157
This is pretty weird. If you are online, you should have gotten a contact request.
Either your internet is slow or the skype server fucked up again.
>>24835927
>be 2nd year finance major
>have exam mon-fri
>no wiggle room all set in stone
>request off of work 3 weeks in advance
>some how called into work
>manager tries to guilt me into it, and how I didn't follow some protocol
>tell him no
I'm probably just gonna quit desu, $11.50 an hour aint worth it.
>>24841318
Yeah, I'm the German. Nothing yet. We'll see. You got my mail anyway so if anything doesn't work we have a backup.
>>24841510
Updated Skype, sent another request...
>>24841457
>finance major
I fucking hate you guys.
>>24841457
$11.50 is more than you'll ever make with a finance degree desu senpai
>>24841663
I only did it because I have the personal connections to the president of two Large Regional banks in the South, and family who work in Finance in Boston. It was the best work:reward situation for me honestly.
>>24841739
thats a pretty hot meme you are spitting, I guess I should have gone Petro Engineering? Lmao. Why would I do anything else when I can make more money in Finance
>>24841829
Have fun when the next bubble busts, and you lose your job and you're not qualified for anything but playing with money.
>>24841897
Thats a pretty dumb argument. You can make that argument for any major or person honestly.
>>24841510
Well I am going to bed now, kind of tired after training. Check back into skype tomorrow to see if it updated. If that doesnt work I will give you my Addy via the Email you provided.
>>24841940
All of the finance majors I knew in college had the same smug attitude about it.
Two of them killed themselves, one's working at Applebee's, and another's a sign spinner.
>mfw in an entry-level peon chemical engineering position and making $70k
>mfw I don't do anything but tell grunts to wear their hard hats
Finance is every bit as useless as any other liberal arts major.
I'll take a sweet vermouth on the rocks with a twist, please
>>24835927
Good to see the Frog and Feels is open. Could you remember to put the name in the subject bar next time? Thanks.
Send a coughee my way - vodka and chocolate milk.
My confidence levels have been on the rise. It's a combination of finally getting off my arse and doing the things I've thought about and not failing horrifically at them.
Time will tell how long it'll last. I may end up becoming a normie.
>Eeeemm to be honest we're busy right now with holidays and stuff so we might give you a call sometime in january after taking a look at your application
KILL YOURSELF YOU STUPID CUNT IT'D TAKE YOU TWO FUCKING SECONDS TO TAKE A LOOK AT MY GOD DAMN APPLICATION AND RESUME PLUS THE OTHER DUDE THAT ALREADY DID SAID IT LOOKED GOOD JUST GIVE ME THE JOB SO I CAN BE A NORMIE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
