psych ward and mental illness storys general
post your storys
The shape of that room would be enough to gas light me into insanity
>>24826844
You don't like maximized sunlight?
I was in The psych ward for two weeks and it started off really weird mostly because I was drifting in and out of heavy psychosis but once I got my meds changed it was really boring, spent most of my time walking up and down the hall talking to some of the cooler people. This was my third time inside a psych ward but the first two times I wasn't 18 yet so I went into the children's unit, which I liked a lot more.
>>24827057
Were there any qt's there?
>>24826880
That shape also makes me reeeeeeeeeeeeeee
>>24826757
Why are there two fucking sinks?
Psych ward for a month when I was 17.
Got a BJ from a mentally ill 14 year old qt. was nice.
Someone slashed their throat with a plastic knife they smuggled out of meal times. I still see her face when I sleep at night.
Was force-fed my anti-depressants cos I was "non-compliant" and refused to take them. This was not nice.
Was comfy not having any responsibility for the first few days but no internet made me go fucking mental to be quite honest.
Not being in the adult unit was awesome. So many mentally ill qt's; the best kind of qt. The food was shitty and the staff couldn't take a joke most of the time.
We had to share rooms, the guy in the bed next to me was a fucking loony and thought he was a prophet of the one true religion. That wasn't comfortable. He was a fat sandnigger and whenever his parents came to visit I could detect their disappointment.
>>24826844
I'm getting dizzy just looking at it t.b.h
>>24827087
There were hella qts in the children's ward lemme tell you that, this one chick was super qt, like we had the same interests, artsy, but she was fucking nuts.
>>24827170
you know you could of gotten a solo room if you just refused to ever enter the room
I did it
they made me sleep in the quiet room the first night but after that no roommates
>>24826880
No I don't, fuck all that slanted off center shit and it's all so obvious and you can't get comfortable because nothing is how it's supposed to be
I've been thinking about trying to get in one for a while now
haven't been able to talk to anyone at my uni or had friends/female contact for about 3 years
pressure of everything makes me want to die, and with no one to talk to about it, and my parents telling me to fuck off or "you're fine" when I ask to see someone about it or talk to them
maybe if I make a big scene, shoot off my kneecaps with a shotgun or something, I can finally get some help at a ward
>>24826757
Was in one for a while as a teenager. This was the layout. It was hell. I was in the pictured area the entire time
>>24827437
just call a suicide hotline and say your going to kill yourself
they will call the police and send them to pick you up and take you to the hospital
tell the doctors you plan to hang yourself the next day
they will admit you on the spot
>>24827437
Just walk into the er and ask to be committed.
Say you're a danger to yourself and others
>>24827437
I'd only do that as a last resort. wards are fucking boring. imagine everything that you do on a normal day. now cut out 90% of that and replace it with staring at a blank wall. that's life in a ward.
>>24827609
its a good way to learn how to socialize
most of the people there are nice
My mental hospital was nice and cozy. Had my phone, laptop, takeout food, free pills, regular meals, got to share my bedroom with 11 other really cool guys and finally felt accepted. If i wanted I could just sit and talk with the nurses all day or walk the garden.
>>24826757
This actually looks a lot better than my mom's apartment... What country is this in?
I was sent for psychological evaluation once and being around genuine mentals was not a fun time. I got a chemical lobotomy upon arrival but some of the things I remember are:
>This crazy nigger who would eat entire jars of instant coffee
>A fat mongoloid who always felt cold and would literally hug burning hot radiators
>A cutie young girl who was getting shagged by all and sundry: patients, staff even fucking visitors.
>A guy who was always burning himself with cigarettes, entire body covered in red circular scabs
>Some dude killing himself and his body (in a locked bathroom) not being found for days.
Thankfully they decided I was violent but not in a crazy way and I ended up doing 4 months in prison; a stroll in the park in comparison.
I feel like it would be a good place to meet friends. As it is I'm only one step above a homeless person so people don't want to associate with me.
The structured environment would be nice too, I'm basically a child like that. Besides, people tend to think there's something wrong with me anyway. How hard would it be to halfway fake my way in there? Preferably I'd get to leave with a qualification for a higher paying NEETbux also.
>>24827867
its very easy
just say the magic words
im going to kill myself
also bonus points say you hear voices tell you to do it and say other mean things
do you think there's a good chance i might be hospitalized over christmas if i answer yes to both whenever my psychiatrist asks if i've been having suicidal or homicidal thoughts?
>>24827982
additional info i forgot to include: my appointment is only a few days before christmas
>>24827982
all you've gotta do is say it with conviction famo
>>24827982
depends on how you say it. they only hospitalize you if they believe you are a danger to yourself or others.
if you sound shy about it and don't really think you'll kill yourself, they'll chalk it up to you being a mentally ill fuck. if you sound very direct about it like you're actually gonna do it the next day, they'll throw you into a ward no prob.
>>24827867
It really depends on what country you're in. They test for people faking illnesses in there. It's called factitious disorders. Buy a copy of the diagnostic and statistical manual of mental disorders and pick out what illness you'd like. Read up what medications sound lovely that you'd like to get prescribed. Preferably pick an illness that you can say you're "cured" of one day.
>>24828010
well with all the shootings and whatnot going if i tell them i've been thinking about killing people do you think they'll hospitalize me over that?
is there anything anyone wants to know? I'm too stressed and tired to write a stories
>>24828025
depends on the doctor
if you say you are planning to do it they will
>>24828025
it's hard to say because it really is dependent on you. If they believe that you have a specific plan or are crazy enough to actually carry it out, then they'll take you in. However if all you are having is suicidal/murderous thoughts and nothing else, then they may not hospitalize you.
depends on your history with the psychiatrists. If they know you are capable or at least determined to do something crazy like that, they are much more likely to hospitalize you than if they know you are all talk.
if you want to be hospitalized, give a specific date or plan on suicide.
if you don't want to be hospitalized, avoid doing the above.
>>24828066
were you ever sent to the quiet room?
>>24826757
I like that room layout. Perfectly square rooms can drive people nuts.
>>24826757
>putting crazies in warped diagonal rooms
>they'll never regain sanity
>government funding forever
DEVILISH
>>24828118
no, I never caused any problems
I had a room to myself though
>>24827863
>chemical lobotomy
wtf man what country was that and which year?
>>24827863
>cutie young girl
how young are we talkin?
>>24828066
who was the craziest nigga you saw there
>>24828146
what was your favorite meal?
I loved the pot roast and when it got served the second time I requested a double meal
>>24826757
I imagine I'm gonna end up getting sent to one once I actually go see a physicist.
>>24828169
a lot of it is a blur, but one time we were at "school", and some girl had a seizure right on the ground outside
it was really spooky
>>24828171
I'll be honest I don't remember much about the lunches, but I remember eating pancakes, so it must have been good
it seems you've been to a ward as well
did they give you really qt hospital socks too? mine had smiley faces on them
I actually still have them
>>24826757
Do average psych ward rooms actually look like this? this looks like a fucking IKEA showroom, nicer than my apartment.
I faked my way in and out of a psychiatric ward. Funnily enough the only people who caught on that I was acting and not psychotic were the other patients. One of the psychiatrists seemed to have his doubts but never formally changed the diagnosis.
>>24827863
What caused you to get sent for a psychological evaluation?
>>24828213
mine had the little grip things on the bottom and had the hospitals name on them
pic relayed
>>24828227
Tell more, why did you do it? details on how you did it? what do you mean faked out of?
>>24828225
mine was just a small, rectangle, carpeted room
it had a one of those child plastic type bedf rames, desk, and closet thing where you put clothes and shit
>>24828250
sorry for small pic
mine were the blue ones on the top right
top cozy t b h
>tfw could have fucked some qties but missed my chances
>>24828298
I was recently homeless after breaking up with my fiance and had already a decent knowledge of psychology from previous studies. After travelling for a bit I ended up in hospital for an injury and weary and tired I decided "Fuck this" and started feigning symptoms of psychosis in front of the triage nurse examining me. It went from there and I just improvved. After a couple of months I slowly let myself become "sane." I was diagnosed with a subtype of borderline personality disorder with stress induced psychosis.
>>24828435
What are you currently doing and what are your plans for the future? do you still exploit it?
>>24828435
Overall was it worth it?
What kind of literature do you reccommend to fake psychosis?
I just got out of one today. Third time visiting.
There was this puerto rican QT who was super into me that came into the ward last night. But she's kind of totally fucking insane. Like I mentioned a girl I hang out with sometimes and she got mad jealous and kept asking me questions about her.
Anyway I gave her my phone number and I might try to fuck her, I don't know. I have to decide if it's a good idea or not.
>>24828608
>puerto rican
>already has mental issues on top of that
Sorry m8, if you try to pump-n-dump she's gonna burn your house down.
>>24828505
No, it was mostly to escape the cold and hunger I felt at the time. I don't recommend any else try it. Atleast in my own country. The hospitals are struggling as it is and overall it was a selfish move. I work in healthcare now. I want to study further though. If you do want to try it for whatever reason read the latest Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of mental disorders, it's a very simple users guide to mental illness. Not tough at all. Will give you exactly what the physician looks for to diagnose and notes on what to avoid to get caught. Its nearly a manual in itself just for that purpose.
>>24828160
England, 2005. Not a literal lobotomy of course but a xbox hueg syringe full of sickly sweet dreams.
>>24828163.
She was maybe 17-18, had been molested since birth and was hypersexual. Would sit there masturbating with a mental look in her eye... I never tried it on because I had a feeling she'd chimp out on day and bite of someone're cock.
>>24828247.
I got into a fight and when the police arrested me they assaulted my. I beat one of the coppers up pretty good with his own handcuffs. Told the doctors at the hospital I was suicidal so I wouldn't get released back to the cops for another pasting.
>>24827982
They have to give a crisis evaluation to everyone that says they'll hurt themselves regardless of the time. You'll be in a behavioral area at least until then.
>>24828636
yeah but she's so hot though. I don't know, I probably wouldn't try to pump'n'dump, but a sexual relationship isn't out of the question. It's just I'll have to not get stabbed by her.
>>24828210
physicists literally couldn't give a shit about your problems lmao
>>24828957
they might who knows
>>24828957
>physicists
I meant physcitrist.
>>24829173
swing and a miss
the word you are looking for is psychiatrist
>>24827609
it would p much be a last resort
seeing as I'm a college student with basically no money to my name except what I'm given for groceries, I can't afford to go see someone about mental health issue without my parents knowing or approving, and they're sure as hell not going to let it happen because they think I need to just man up and deal with it
I mean, jesus fucking christ, I'm 22 years old, with no friends, never been in a relationship, I'm an alcoholic and I spend my time on 4chan because I've been kicked out of every club I've joined here at uni.
>>24828707
>Would sit there masturbating with a mental look in her eye
damn. So she'd just sit in public with her legs spread and her hand down her pants?
Did she get fucked in public too?
Did she wave her butt to seduce visitors?
Did she get gangbanged by patients?
Did she walk around without underwear and cum on her face?
>>24829313
most colleges offer free counseling to students
otherwise just call a suicide hotline and have them get the police to come take you to the hospital
>>24829211
I blame my drunkenness.
>>24827728
It's really not. Socialising with nurses is fine, but talking to severely mentally ill people (way worse than any /r9k/ browser is, people that bad often don't even make sense, they aren't all there) is not going to teach you any meaningful skills.
Don't go to wards unless you actually believe you're a direct risk to yourself, as in you don't feel like you can stop yourself, or a psychiatrist recommends it based on your honest answers. They aren't fun, the people there are always in some way or another seriously ill, and even in the youth wards, the girls in there will be either depressed and not much fun, or have serious personality disorders, and will make everyone miserable no matter how attractive they might be. You'll sit around all day (there's no internet or vidya in hospitals) waiting for the day to end, or something to happen, you'll see a psych at least once a week depending on how bad you are, and if you're faking, the nurses will know and they'll kick you out. You're under 24 hour surveillance, and they know what they're looking for.
Not to mention, there are people who need these wards, people who otherwise may end up hurting themselves or in terrible situations, being homeless, being exploited, or any number of things. They're not normies, they're people much, much worse off than you are, and they need the beds. The system's too bogged down with people lying about their conditions already.
>>24829352
This is nearly definitely a bullshit story, there is no way in hell that that sort of thing would happen in a hospital. Let alone any sort of sexual activity between patients, that shit just doesn't happen, the nurses can see everywhere but the bathrooms, and there's no way two people are going to walk into the bathrooms together without it being noticed.
>>24829402
but your wrong on pretty much everything
the hospital I went to had internet time and all the Nintendo consoles too bad everyone just wanted to play with the wii and bowl and other stupid shit like that
there were plenty of friendly and coherent people there I even learned how to play cards
all kinds of people end up there I would mainly hang out with this bipolar girl that was constantly trying to cheat on her husband with her x but her x waned nothing to do with her lol and also this lawyer who freaked out on a pot brownie
the psychiatrist would see you every weekday and a regular doctor once a week
all you have to do is say the magic words
im going to kill myself and they cant kick you out
>>24829458
you can be sneaky
I got sectioned on my 16th birthday and spent 10 days in there.
All the way along I told my mother it was making me worse when she visited and she denied and denied and denied until after I got out, she finally admitted it made me worse.
I stole a plastic crafts "knife" and cut myself with it and threatened to call the anorexics fat bitches if the staff didn't leave me alone in my room. I got my own way.
Also because of my age I had compulsory school so I was as cunty as possible, directly insulted the teacher, caused as much mess and arguments as possible, and generally ruined it.
I don't talk to my mother much any more.
>>24829753
get the fuck out roastiebloxbloxblobxbxoxl
>>24829761
20 year old male, this is the third time this month people have taken me as a girl online. I don't like it at all, what makes you think it?
>doctor forces me off my meds and I become really manic, stole some stuff, Messianic delusions, ran around in the rain playing with stray dogs
>doctor forces me into the psych ward because I'm being a giant nuisance on society
>sit in the psychiatric emergency room for like 12 hours, literally nothing to do but read the same Reader's Digest until I've memorized every single word (it's a terrible idea to lock someone up who's manic in a room with nothing to do for hours btw)
>talk to some hospital psychiatrist, I'm clearly manic and have something wrong with me, but somehow he diagnoses me on the papers as having "depression" because he saw the self-harm scars on my legs
>he tricks me into signing away to be sent to the ward
>finally go to the psych ward
>I'm placed in the addiction recovery ward because there's no room anywhere else
>tell the doctor my symptoms and he acts as if none of them are problems (for instance, I told him I was acting really silly and felt euphoric and unstoppable, which is unlike me, and he said "young people always act silly, it is in their nature")
>he writes down depression as my diagnosis because he sees my self-harm scars too, and starts me up on Risperdal, an anti-psychotic, and Zoloft, an SSRI (which is the worst thing to give someone when they're manic)
>put in a room with two other dudes
>one of them's this really chipper Hispanic meth addict, drinks assloads of instant coffee each day (I later found out the coffee was decaffeinated and he was being fueled by placebo)
>other patients:
>a guy who's coming off Suboxone and you could see him sweating like crazy and pacing around in a blanket
>this girl my age with bipolar disorder who was on like shit tons of benzos, she said they felt like Adderall to her and kept her awake because she was so tolerant to their effects
>a group of sassy black people who would put on like Big Momma's House or Sharknado on the TV and talk shit about all the nurses and were always really hilarious
going to a day hospital where I will malinger having schizophrenia so I can live the rest of my life as a parasite. Any advice family?
>>24829551
But I'm not. No actual mental ward allows access to internet, due to the ability to access explicit materials or individuals that may interfere with treatment. Though that's just my country, and America as far as I know from everything I've read. I will take retract the part about vidya though, they do have consoles sometimes, but there's never any actual games.
Sure, nurses and depressed people are coherent, but still not going to teach you to socialise. People that aren't unwell enough get kicked out within a week, usually, they pick up on it. And Bipolar people that are hospitalised are either manic, or severely severely depressed, not exactly the best company. Some patients close to leaving can be pretty cool though, and you do occasionally get someone who's not unwell in a way that impedes their ability to socialise, intermittent psychosis, for example.
Psychiatrists do not see every patient every day, they usually rotate through several hospitals, and just don't have time. Though you can request more appointments if you need them, and doctors are available every day.
Also, guess what? You're wrong about how you can stay there. If they have no reason to believe you'll actually go through with it, as in you've consistently made threats to do things and have never carried through with them, or don't possess any other symptoms, they can and will kick you out, I've seen it happen to a few dropkicks that came into the wards to avoid homelessness and get free food/drugs, they get kicked out within two weeks usually.
>>24829742
Nah, nurses can see everywhere, it just doesn't happen. There's cameras in most rooms, and any rooms that you don't need to be in are usually locked. Even ignoring cameras, nurses do rounds regularly to see patients they can't otherwise see, and every door bar toilets has a glass (or perspex or whatever plastic they use) pane on it.
>>24829805
>literally all the groups were about quitting drugs/alcohol and had no relevance to me whatsoever (pic relevant)
>the doctors see me as being non-compliant when I don't go to their Narcotics Anonymous meeting
>forced to go to all the meetings and every time it was my time to speak I had to awkwardly explain that I didn't use any drugs at all
>they have me taking the Risperdal in the morning (even though it's a really sedative medication) so all day I shuffle around like a zombie and take naps, and all night I can't sleep
>still hallucinating a lot at night because my dose isn't high enough, see spiders and eyes watching me and have hallucinations where I'm talking to my gf
>this guy goes psychotic and tries to attack a nurse and bipolar girl, everyone goes nuts
>you can hear him screaming as he's strapped down and pumped full of benzos and anti-psychotics and whisked down the hallway
>this guy claims to have "protected" bipolar girl (even though bipolar girl told me he didn't do anything) and starts acting like this big tough guy
>the day he leaves he designates me as the "new leader" of the psych ward for some reason
>the sassy black men give me fistbumps and show respect
>the moment I came into the hospital I signed this 72-hour-notice thing that let me leave if I gave 72 hours notice
>my three days pass by and I'm finally let out
>>24829799
>hates mother
>talks about cutting self
>talks about petty insults to other girls
>mental problems around age 16
all of those scream teenage girl angst to me
>>24829805
You may have been suffering a mixed episode, with manic and depressive episodes, but the issues with those are usually more related to those with depression, so he would have written that down.
Psychiatrists can be shit, but they often won't tell a patient (especially one with psychotic issues) their diagnosis. They're especially not going to add anything to your symptoms, they want to downplay them so that you don't feel hopeless, or sink into it worse. I agree Zoloft is dumb though, but I have no real pharmaceutical knowledge, it might be less bad in conjunction with risperdal.
>>24829955
Fair enough, diagnosed BPD which is inherently a female as fuck disorder, so I can see it.
>>24829915
I have been to multiple wards and the doctors came everyday
and 2 of them had computers we could use when it was not group time
>>24829799
you type like a fag and your shit's all retarded
>>24830023
They gave me my forms at the end of my visit and it had written down "Diagnosis: Depression". I wasn't depressed at all, I felt euphoric and happy and unstoppable and I was giggling and smiling and I was making up songs about spiders and cracking jokes with the psychiatrist. I was a little upset being forcibly hospitalized but it wasn't anything like depression, it was more like anger.
I've been to psychiatric ward, but it was a light version of it with patients suffering from neurosis. Half of them were 40+ old women with depression and I had no idea what I'm doing here.
>>24830092
Yeah I can't ever think straight, I feel retarded
better off going to "rehab" t-b-h.
>>24827440
I got put on 72 hour hold in a place like this, it sucked. (Released with a clean bill aside from "minor depression" btw.)
>>24828250
>>24828307
We had these socks too. Also this weird mesh underwear.
>>24830062
So have I, and doctors come every day, but don't see every patient every day, they do rotations through hospitals. And really, I doubt you had internet access, because it allows for people to access the outside world, and all the influences on it, which would defeat the whole point of their treatment.
Either way though, this entire argument is just gonna be me going "No they don't" and you going "Yes they do", so it's kind of pointless I guess.
>>24830095
Huh, I dunno man, I'm sure there was a reason, there's a chance that you were displaying some depressive symptoms, but I don't know really.
It could just be that they couldn't diagnose any more based on you there though, or the doctor you saw in there wasn't a full psychiatrist, they have students doing their rotations work in there sometimes.
But ultimately, I dunno man, I guess it doesn't make too much difference either way now though.
>>24830468
rehabs fun but super expensive
the jews ar ebehind this
I have never been crayz
I recently came out of a mental health center cause I was audio and visual hallucinating about this website for some reason.
Pretty interesting story will post in the morning.
pretty much seen some of the pictures here in the back of my eyes and had meme stories told to me in my head.
>>24832019
lol did you have to explain 4chan to your doctors?
>>24832090
not really, I told them that the website 4chan told me to come here (hospital) I even wrote down the URL for them
>>24832136
what did they say? bl
>>24832199
didnt mention too much about it (they didnt go to the website, at least i think)
yeah story is pretty crazy, ive been hearing shit for nearly a year in my head.
I supposibly got "loli gagging time bombed" and thought i was gonna get killed by the nsa via bomb in head
does anyone remember when they first got on this website and some of the greentext stories were different on r9k? anyone remember "feel smith" stories?
>>24832250
I remember when r9k was just /b/ 2.0
>>24832264
do you remember feel smith or copy pasta stories? some shit also called request, special request as a score or something like
1/3/1 with short dialogue of something called copy pasta (not copying and pasting shit, supposibly copying the word that gets hallucinated in your head)
i looked around theres no archive of em or any saved
>>24832312
nope maybe you hallucinated it
>>24832312
I've never heard of feel smith, or copy pasta stories that aren't just shit like
>cousin
>15
>abs
>solid
Are you actually fully recovered?
>>24827310
Jesus you sound like one of the people that should be in these places
>>24832330
you see the thing is, I guess getting "trolled" irl causes weird shit to happen to you like you see, when I would be trying to read online and shit my eyes would automatically control themselves and point to my mouse which fucking all of a suden changes into the dumb hourglass and back which i guess was just seriously coincidental..........
alot of more weird shit happened to me like automatic body movement, weight gain, involuntarily thinking of some random stuff.
I once thought the yakuza was telling me to rob the world down and got caught stealing at walmart, which was a big meme at the time i guess ( just people getting caught at walmart and greentext about the story )
>>24832331
yeah the format among these were weird, not fully recovered, still hearing shit
basically the threads of these "copy pasta" was about the score they had when they were i guess "trolled" which happened to me supposibly.
so the hallucinations in my head told me I had to deal with these copy pasta game, deal with multi personality disorder ( another person in my body and in my brain )
>>24826757
they design shit like this just to fuck with me
trying to trigger my ocd
weird weird shit like when I first began getting trolled, would hear people i knew voices in my head sometimes causing strange headaches and intentionally pissing me off. would see dicks flying around in my eyelids when i would close my eyes and the voices said ti was apart of "it"
will post more if anyone interested
>>24832504
go on post more
>>24832504
ill post some more in the morning going to sleep
>>24832504
>astrally projecting dicks onto your eyelids
>ESPer trolls
niggas be getting spiritual with this shit
tell me more insane-in-the-membrane sama
>>24832545
what the fuck
if you offer to post more you'd better deliver, this thread ain't gonna wait around while you get your beauty sleep faggot
>>24832544
one more
so basically get memt'd (this is the exact word they told me, it means i guess just get forced thinking of it onto you) all the people in my life or damn near and i wrote down all their names on a notepad. eventually get told to remember them in some random way to get a meme (a meme they told me was just some memeory of them in a goofy way visually or hear their voice and they are on my team to fight against "trolls")
>>24832435
Yeah, those threads as far as I know didn't exist, sorry to say. I'd really recommend staying away from here though, you're not delusional, I mean, you aren't sure about these things, but being here obviously is setting it off. Take some time away from the chan, try other forums if you can't get off the internet.
>>24832597
they told you to think in memes?
>>24832591
>>24832568
lol
>>24832617
they told me to do shit like say boxy bread in my head and supposibly it'll do godlike powers like feed your ass forever and shit which obviously didnt work
>>24832617
He's actually Jack from MGS:R, /r9k/ is Monsoon. He's learning about MEMES THAT KILL.
most of the magical crazy shit stopped once i started taking meds and shit, still some crazy shit in my head though
>>24832646
>>24832639
>godlike powers
>like
>feed your ass forever
mate
you're trying to tell me these doctors were giving people cheatcodes you could use irl and you got the one for disabling ass hunger?
this is too much
Personality disorders are a fucking mess.
the jews are in my mind
punch her in vaggooo
shit thread general no one post
>>24826844
I like it, look really comfy to my eyes
>>24833545
its all slanted tho
>>24827867
>The structured environment would be nice too
That's partly why I want in. I've been trying to see a doc for a while now about depression but I'm a huge sperg that's too afraid to call up to arrange an appointment
>>24829954
Who became the new leader
>>24834084
go to the ER and say your planning to hang yourself
its what I did
my social worker even got me a psychiatrist
I had a meltdown in the ward when she told me to call this office and they said they were not taking new people so she made the calls for me
Any robots gone into full psychosis? What does it feel like?
I got help after I couldn't stop repeating certain words in my head, but they put me into a program for people who have had a first psychosis or are vulnerable to it, apperently I was showing some warning signs
I experianced psychosis and alternate-suicidal reality on 300ug-LSD
>>24834432
meant for >>24834432 , my bad.
>>24834454
but you linked the same post
Pepe is a recurring character in my hallucinations.
>>24834480
well aren't I just fucking forever fried then.
>pic related, AL THE TIME
>>24834564
why not do more acid to fix it
>>24829805
>tfw no stray dogs to play with
Where can I find a stray dog friend?
>>24834847
russia
they ride the subways and are super smart
they roam in packs and use the small cute dogs to beg for food for the rest of pack
>>24826757
nicer than my place
>>24827203
in what ways
>>24834868
neat read
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Street_dogs_in_Moscow
10/10 room OP I'd sit in that bathroom and cry all night every night
>>24835415
jesus fuck I didn't know stalker was contemporary
>>24835553
stalker is real life
Got diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder not too long ago, it sucks, made me feel like there is no hope left, as if I'm doomed to be an autistic fuck up especially since there is no cure.
I guess the attention is nice, all the talks I had with psychiatrists and whatnot feels good.
You can talk about the stupidest shit and they act all interested, I really like that.
Also they tried to get me interested in some special IT college for autists like me, I might do that since it's better than being a NEET.
Autismbux seemed like a nice thing too but I am not eligible since a recent change in the system, I function too well and am, according the the examiners, still able to work a minimum wage job.whether I'm able to get a job like that or if it even exists with the massive unemployment is apparently out of the question.
I also had a little talk about wards, they told me a structured lifestyle would do me good and I think I agree, life with parents or family can be hectic and stressful, especially when you can't really take care of yourself financially
>>24834411
It feels like you aren't in control of your body or mind bit you're still aware of what you're doing. It's the scariest fucking thing in the world. Kind of like a nightmare where you can't move your body and desperately need to. My psychosis was violent so it was especially distressing- I basically was forced to watch myself ruin my entire life and couldn't even enjoy the crazy shit I was doing.
>>24834178
He failed to pass on the title, so a peaceful transition of power was impossible. There was a period of great violence as different sides fought fiercely for the coveted title and the power it entailed. Also during this time without a cohesive leadership anarchy ensued. Half the psych ward was destroyed during the conflicts. Finally order was restored by a patient who claimed to be the reincarnation of Mobutu Sese Seko Kuku Ngbendu Wa Za Banga. There then followed a period of brutal authoritarian rule.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fAEGGnv74xI
>>24826757
if that had a small kitchen, it would be my dream room desu senpai.
>>24836236
what do you need a kitchen for your food is cooked for you
there is a fridge full of snacks and icecream in the common room though
>>24826757
Do all you people who think this apartment looks good not notice that your neighbors TV is on the opposite side of the wall where the head of your bed is in these apartments? Good luck sleeping when your neighbor decides to watch loud movies at 3 am.
time served as teen:
>that time when i cut myself shaving in the shower and wiped blood with the towel, then afterwards the staff checked the towels rack and came to check for cuts, they found nothing on me because there were no traces.
>that violent dude which was threatening as fuck apparently hit a staff member and got sent to a worse ward
>that lanky religious dude who was shaking hard and barely walking who had an obsession with flies and believed himself to be one
>that time a staff member lectured him about masturbation and prohibited it
>that time i caught him masturbating in a public room next to people
he was also somewhat retarded
>that fat 130kg bitch who has gotten her nipple piercing inflamed lel
i spoke no word for at least a month there.. this was one of the characteristics of this and the next(as adult) saga.
gud food
as adult
>caught the russian thug fucking a chick in the toilet in a stall, went out
>had a 70 y/o try to punch me
>shit food
>a dude with one paralyzed arm who was cursing his arm and talking to himself a lot.
didnt get tied at all, being a normal person was enough.
>THREE SHOWERS WITH CURTAINS FUCK YOU
not all was so bad and sometimes i even get a craving to get back there, where life is simple. you dont have to deal with decisions and having your own life. want to feel protected, safe and no responsibility.
life as a robot is pretty depressing.
>>24826757
>be me at 18
>try to commit sudoku
>not the first time
>parents fly me to texas to go to a psych ward
>get put in the adult ward instead of young adult
>everyone is like 40+
>become friends with middle aged guy going through opiate withdrawal
>told me he came in on 25 bars of xanax
>another dude tried to escape three times
>actually made it out twice before they caught him
>another dude wore a collared shirt every single day
>was a lawyer on the outside
>would just sit outside chain-smoking american spirit blacks
>went in quickly whenever an airplane flew overhead
>a crackwhore tried to light a cigarette with the toaster
i ended up staying there around a month but was transferred to the young adult ward half way through. they let us watch its always sunny so that was pretty cool
>>24836447
the simple life is nice
dont go unless you
>>24837405
dont do it do it
I stayed at a clinic for a psychological evaluation.
The majority of the inmates were all girls under 18. There were no boys save for myself and one other guy.
Pic related is where I stayed for the majority of my time in the clinic. In the later weeks I had to switch rooms. I was roommates with the other guy for a while until he left. Almost right afterwards I was assigned another guy roommate my age. Didn't talk with either.
There were a few people who stood out there. A fat tumbrina with dyed hair with self-harm scars on her arms, another chubby girl that had to stay in the restraining room with a guard at the door, one very slim anorexic girl who liked to knit a lot, some shy glasses wearing girl that kept reading books. My time there wasn't horrible but it was a complete waste of time.
The worst people there were the staff. One over-zealous Chad with a taxi-driver cut and denim clothes, 30-something year old 'wow so hip' dude with black hair, hipster glasses and skinny jeans.
>>24837741
when i stayed in a young adult ward everyone was really conventionally attractive for some reason. it was like the set of a tv show and there was constant sexual tension. kind of weird, kind of nice?
>>24828225
>>24826757
FYI most psych wards do not look like this. Most units have square super minimalist rooms -- I'm talking a bed, a night stand, and that's it.
This one is either just a plain hospital room, a super deluxe psych ward for rich people, or a psych ward room in a country that actually has good mental health care (i.e. not US).
Fucking normalfags got off my board!
If you can get a bj in a psych ward you are clearly not a robot, and need to get the fuck out.
>>24837838
I didn't mind that most of the people there were girls. But at the same time I didn't feel like I felt attracted to any of them. Most of the time I just either stayed in my room or sat in the lobby watching TV. The only time I ever spoke to the girls was when I asked why the other chubby girl was in the isolation room.
It was especially creepy when one of the more annoying staff members asked me if I felt attracted to any of the girls there. During the closing conclusions which my mother and the staff participated in, he kept insisting that I be prescribed drugs, which was odd because to my knowledge they found absolutely nothing wrong with me. When I said no, the asshole kept insisting. His argument was "but anon, you take aspirin don't you? how is this any different?"
I don't know. That statement alone made me really sore about that whole ordeal.
>>24826757
Place I was in, 4 years, was an open ward with bunk beds, like a military boot camp setup, 10 beds each side, 6 feet between racks, 6 foot center isle, 4 tables that could seat 4 each, 30 minutes to eat, could only eat sitting at a table, could not make anyone move from a seat, if you did not eat in the time frame you were force fed, lights on 16 hours, off for 8, could not sit or lay on beds if lights were on, had a painted line behind the beds another 10 feet to the windows, this area was for "counselors" we could not leave the center area, no tv, no computers, no radio, had to go on walks and do "activities", we had to play volleyball 3 time a week against another unit, they were medicated, mostly Thorazine, ball would hit the ground before they could react, had to shit and shower with a "counselor" watching you, 15 minutes of individual therapy 3 times a day, 2 1 hour group sessions that were mostly circle jerks, after 4 years my parents insurance said that was it, and by a miracle i was "cured" and released, i am in a semi group home now, mostly they leave me alone, they get the state money, i get some fucking peace and quiet, they let me stay in a Home Depot shed in the backyard, has a split door, 3 windows, i have 2 lights, a heater, microwave, mini fridge, my bed a chair, my laptop, wifi and 6 changes of clothes, and a chemical toilet, i use the shower in the house 1 time a week in the winter and a hose in the yard the rest of the year, i am really happy now, as long as they leave me alone, i really like quiet and having a set plan, i am doing good now and am really happy, i take my meds regular and the house dad lets me have mountain dew after i show him my empty mouth, for Christmas my state worker is getting me a fish, i get to pick her out and name her, having a pet is a big responsibility, but i am ready, i am really excited, i am glad to be happy.
>>24838012
How do you get put into an institution while being sane? Did you do it on purpose?
>>24838469
Psychological evaluation. They wanted to see what was wrong with me. Turned out, apparently nothing.
>>24838531
Why did you get the evaluation in the first place then? Seems weird that they'd put you in some place for weeks
>>24838023
This is the most depressing post I've read this week. Fuck. Just what the fuck kind of hell are you living in.
>>24826757
Almost sent to one last August.
Thats all.
there was this black guy who thought he was obama
>>24838798
we had a guy that tried to convince everyone his family owned the band Korn. also he had so much pomade/ge/grease in his hair that when he leaned against the wall during group there'd be a shiny spot for days
>>24838023
m8, your life sounds utterly horrifying.
>>24832250
>loli gagging time bombed
this phrase seems really fucking familiar to me
where did it come from?
>>24832435
Anon. 4chan made you go crazy
you need to leave this website, you're still all fucked up
>>24838914
Well loli gagging is pretty common phrase
>>24838023
This made me really sad, but I'm glad you're happy now anon.
>>24838023
This is a nightmare.
How old are you?
Where are you from?
What mental illness do you have?
Why are you in a shed and not inside the house?
Do they mistreat you?
>>24839033
>>24838914
It's lollygagging
loli gagging would be something like little girl rape hentai
>>24838023
your life sounds like a bittersweet novel
>>24839033
>>24839201
yeah of course lollygagging is a common phrase but that's why I included the time bomb part
I feel like I've heard that phrase before, it sounds like an old meme I've almost forgotten, like 'no croissants today, boss' or something
its actualy pretty comfy in there
>>24839284
shill trying to get me to turn myself into a ward
well I won't nice fucking try, you can't make me
>>24839326
its not so bad really
nicotine patch and benzos
you get your own room too if you make a big deal about it to
>>24826757
There were a bunch morbidly anorexic girls in my ward, one was coming heavily onto me
Having a skeleton flirt with you isn't fun
>>24838023
What fish are you getting senpai? Your house sounds cozy desu.
>>24826757
Was on suicide watch at hospital for a night after i literally tried to chop my arm off with a kitchen knife. Blood really does squirt out far.
