Everyone is more important than me because there's a lot people out there and I'm just one lonely person by myself.
If it makes you feel any better, you're as important to me as anybody on this planet who isn't related to me or a friend. That includes world leaders. So... to me, you're as important as Barack Obama. Chin up, buddy.
It kind of sucks to receive no validation whatsoever from anyoneactually it really sucks
Reporting in. I always see robots talking about how they want a gf and stuff, and I honestly believe I could never get accepted enough by anyone to be in a serious relationship. It's kind of weird.
>>24784500
I get what you mean. I honestly can't see myself with anyone, it's like an alien concept to me.
>>24784526
Do you have any offline friends? I never really made any. The only reason I have online friends is because they kept pushing through my lack of self confidence until I got comfortable enough to talk to them.
>>24784369
>be me
>bullied all life
>already had bad social anxiety since being a kid
>normies tell me 'I just need confidence' and 'youll never get anywhere with that attitude' despite the fact they contributed to the way I am
>mfw
>>24784453
Self esteem doesn't come from external validation. It comes from yourself giving yourself permission to be confident, accepting yourself for what you are and forgiving yourself for your flaws. That's why its called SELF esteem.
I've noticed a steady downward trend in my life and at this point I think I'm just too tired/bitter to even stop it.
>had friends when I was a young kid
>got bullied
>started isolating myself
>completely happy with my life alone in my room, couldn't imagine anything better, complete bliss
>after years start to feel lonely
>try to improve myself
>achieve nothing
>turn bitter and hopeless
>>24784500
I know that feel. when I find someone attractive the first thing I think is that there's no point to even try to talk/flirt with them because they don't deserve some as ugly and useless as me. And it's obvious that they're going to reject me. Feels real bad man, but i can't help it.
>>24784453
Yep, this, every day, I am deemed too gross and weird and stupid to interact with on more than a basic level, to the normies all they have to do is stick a peanut through the cage and pat me on the head and go about their day. Just once, I want someone to laugh at my creepy jokes and find my self deprecating sarcasm charming, but i just drive people away. Happiness is a lie
>>24784560
>despite the fact they contributed to the way I am
So you're hanging out with your childhood bullies? Or are you doing the normie meme where a normie is 'anyone who I see as more fortunate than myself'... also known as the 'privilege meme' on tumblr
>>24784549
I used to, I cut off contact because I felt like a burden. The only person I ever talk to is my brother and that's because we share a bed.
>>24784615
hahaha you're so funny anon
>tfw feel anxious seeing anime girls and knowing theyd be disgusted by me
>Try to play video games online
>Feel like I'm completely shit
>Stop playing
>Don't like being seen to the point I even avoid family members
>Try to talk to people online via IM (can't talk to people in real life anyway)
>Imitate how they write to try and be more appealing to them
>>24784631
>I cut off contact because I felt like a burden.
That's a strong feel anon. I wasn't ready for it.
>horrible anxiety problems
>can't get close to anyone because you feel like you are just wasting their time
>you're a waste of others' resources
>too scared to get a job because you'll fuck everything up and they'll yell at you
>by avoiding fucking everything up, you fuck everything up by being a useless leech
>the world would be a better place if you were dead
>you don't even deserve the cold comfort of death
>can't kill yourself because your parents would be heartbroken
And then just now as i enter this thread, lonely is the night started playing on the radio :o I feel like rock n roll and music videos set me up for a fantasy, I will never be that cool. Also dazed and confused made trust high school which was really foolish of me; because it made me think I'd ever actually be invited to any party :(
>>24784655
r u me?
You summed my life up better than my own post on this thread lol.
>>24784369
You're not important, faggot. That's not low self esteem that's just realism.
unwarranted self importance is one of the many steps towards narcissism and than eventual selfhatred.
>>24784655
Are you me? Does your name start with an M?
The worst part of it is that my parents still have some faith in me. I don't understand how they can think I'll ever amount to anything. Sometimes it seems it would be better if everyone hated me and I could just stay in my hole for the rest of my life without feeling like I'm letting someone down because of it
>>24784686
Me too, the M stands for "Me", right?
>>24784720
No. It stands for Miles.
>tfw you don't want a gf because you don't deserve love and would just fuck someone's life up by getting close to them
>tfw the only person you truly hate is yourself
>>24784633
Omg tfw i got legit happy reading this and getting a reply, but then i went back and remembered what i wrote, and the first thing that came to mind was that you are pitying me. Even my brain wants to convince me i will never be good enough haha ;_; just take the compliment stupid, even if its pity, remember it made you happy -me attempting to take a normie perspective on myself and compliments
>>24784741
>you'd compare yourself to Hitler but that would be giving you too much credit
>>24784720
Tfw my name is also me
Our moms weren't very creative, were they?
>>24784582
Self esteem doesn't come from external validation
wrong
>It comes from yourself giving yourself permission to be confident, accepting yourself for what you are and forgiving yourself for your flaws
true
>>24784754
>tfw Hitler didn't exterminate your genetic line and make it so you were never born
One the one hand, I'm egocentric as fuck. Everything in my life is about me, I don't care for others.
On the other hand I'm constantly asking myself why anyone would care about a piece of shit like me. I have a really low opinion of myself, because there is nothing I'm really good at.
I have no self esteem, and it's ruining my life.
The thing is though, I should. People tell me i look normal(albeit chubby with a slightly big ass for a dude), I got a decent amount of friends, and I got a qt latino girlfriend who loves me. But I still get nervous and even kinda twitchy when I have to do anything social.fuck my very existence, just kill me please
>>24784774
Normies are all bullies and all of my problems are because of them; if it weren't a thing to have to worry about how you come across to the general public and worry about what you contribute to society, maybe i could just be happy with the strange little creepy asshole i was born to be. Fuck your normieology and "b urself" ass nugget logic
>>24784840
Well, if you can't be yourself, why not just strive to be someone else?
>>24784748
your sarcasm and self-pity are so charming anon. i just can't resist it.
want to lick my pussy?
>>24784890
No, I am scared of girls *sobs into my shirt, salivates from my eyeballs*
>>24784867
Because i hate people and I would probably shoot up a school if i had to do that, I am a neet so i dont really need to start normieing up for any reason other than i want a friend. I am mostly just mad that stupid bitches and fake people don't struggle at all and i can't even hold a basic tiny conversation with a sweet old lady or any person who normally would be easy to talk to. I'm like a fuckin alien or something.
>>24784369
I've always been /low self esteem/.
This sounds edgy but I often feel I probably wasn't meant to exist.
>>24784840
But anon, I didn't say otherwise. I even implied self-esteem is highly determined by your external environment.
But at it's core, self-esteem is all about how YOU perceive yourself, and not what the world thinks of you. The world can throw shit at you everyday, and in most cases it will bring you down. But if you are able to say fuck the world and still be happy with who you are, and like the other anon said, actually learn to accept your flaws, then your self esteem won't be low.
My self-esteem is absolute shit because I haven't amounted to anything in life in my 24 years. I'm a social, academic, sexual failure. I know my parents are disappointed in me.
What I'm trying to say is, essentially we tie down how we feel to how the world thinks we should behave. that we should be doing "x, y, z" and if we aren't, we are failing at life. We evaluate our life on this measure and feel like absolute shit when we aren't meeting these standards.
That, or I'm just projecting. Probably the latter...
>>24784369
> feeling the urge to jerk off
> look at porn pics
> scrolling through them rubbing my flaccid cock
> a lot of the girls are attractive
> can't even get hard because all I can think about is these nudes were for their bfs/husband's
> picture how much of a happy couple they are
> start thinking about how pathetic I am because tfw no gf
> knowing that I will never meet a woman who will never love me passionately and sexually because I'm an ugly shitskin
> close tab
> feel like shit for the next couple of hours
Happened this morning. Fuck loneliness.
>>24785006
>I am mostly just mad that stupid bitches and fake people don't struggle
They do struggle, just not in the way you see, because well, they are faking it.
>I can't even hold a basic tiny conversation with a sweet old lady or any person who normally would be easy to talk to
Basic conversations are over rated and feel fake as fuck. I work in retail and need to pretend I'm interested in other peoples shit even when I couldn't care less. I feel like I can't connect with anyone anymore. Everything feels fake and made up.
What are some of your interest?
>>24784950
pathetic faggot
i never liked you anyway
>>24785065
>knowing that I will never meet a woman who will never love me passionately and sexually because I'm an ugly shitskin
Well your parents had you, I assume they love each other to a certain degree.
>>24785149
They divorced almost a decade ago... Haven't seen him since.
>girl told me she had depression and suicide thoughts.
>wants to be her savior
>exchange a few texts then she stops answering
>>24785192
Well that sucks. At least there was some level of infatuation for them to conceive you. Maybe you can be like baba jee without the leaving your wife and kid part.
>>24784655
damn. literally me
>act like myself while doing things, such as college work or jobs for people
>never get any thanks or decent grades, sometimes get reprimanded
>act like I'm really outgoing in a very fake way or completely bullshit my college work with shit they obviously want to hear
>good grades, compliments, "why don't you act like this all the time"
>would have to actually put in all this work just to act completely fake and like a totally different person just to make it through life
i don't value myself enough or respect them enough to do that constantly
>>24784655
You just summed up a lot of my feelings... iktfb
brain damage by pink floyd just came on and i thought about how perfect it would be to end it to this song
>>24784369
>Have a nice time with some guys I know from the uni, including a girl I have crush on
>Get home
>instantly think about how irrelevant and common the event must have been to them while it's so important to me
>remember how irrelevant I am to anyone
>>24785427
HOLY FUCK THIS
Whenever I do have the chance to hang out with people, it's like the biggest happiest event of my life, and it's another fucking saturday night for them.
I bring shit like that to them constantly and have to remind myself of it all the time because it's all I've had in life.
If we plan to do something say like, a year from now, I do NOT SHUT UP with excitement for the entire year and I know it pisses them off, but it's actually the only thing I have going for me.
>>24785461
to continue on this
>life is essentially built around waiting for events or things to happen
>right now it's christmas, tell myself to at least make it to christmas because it'll be worth it
>after christmas I'll probably tell myself to wait for summer to go on a roadtrip with the same annoyed people or something
>life is built around anticipating fun events, nothing more
>constantly buy people stuff because it's exciting to send people gifts and make them happy (at least to me it is)
>ask myself why the fuck I did it after I do it every single time
>>24784655
my exact life story, except fpr when I dropped out of uni
I like to punch myself in the gut and head and remind myself how fucking worthless I am.
Fuck i hate my 1/10 face so much i sometimes wanna cut it or burn it just to look different same with my voice it just sounds awful and on top of that i have a strong accent just kill me pls
>>24784600
This, I don't even notice when I do it anymore. It has become normal for me.
>tfw low self esteem
>still winning at life
>still feel miserable everyday
