Paper haha dying
how ar eyou all doing
how do you think
depressed
and slightly high
>>24766394
Same but very high
>>24766394
>>24766409
What is yous peoples choice of drugs?
You're a good tripfag OP, you fag
>>24766437
Ayy lmao and the occasional psychedelic.
>>24766437
it would be cocaine if it wasn't so expensive
alcohol (but just like 6 beers so I wake up fine next morning)
what country you guys from?
>>24766478
Thanks friendo, I try
>>24766488
Never done memes or psychedelics
>>24766496
Everyday?
>>24766499
US, why?
American Uni fag here.
>tfw miss class cause didn't do hw
>tfw get anxiety while in dorm
>tfw anxiety turns into a depression as i realize how pathetic i must be
>>24766278
Wagekek here, enjoying my Saturday. Gonna drink some box wine later. Need to rake my yard, bunch of shit leaves everywhere. Gonna make a fire in muh fire pit later.
>>24766521
What semester are you on?
>>24766543
Sounds like a relaxing saturday
Sat in an MRI for most of the morning, stocked up on 18mg vape fluid, considered taking a nap but got coffee instead. Pretty good day man.
>>24766569
very first semester. At least in Highscool i had my small group of friends to feel normie....
>>24766666
nice quintz m80
>>24766437
everything except smack, PCP, and molly
>>24766666
quads czeched.
Friends are a nigh guarantee in highschool since you all have to live with each other 6+ hours a day. In college you have to go seeking for people. The hard part is when you aren't forced together it's really hard to tolerate people you deeply dislike/hate.
I have a 2400 word paper due on Monday and I haven't even started yet.
I seriously want to an hero.
>>24766569
Saturday is the only day I truly enjoy. I spend whole Sunday dreading upcoming workweek.
>>24766576
What was the MIR for?
>>24766666
Nice digits friend.
Have you made any friends there?
>>24766727
That could be a lot of drugs senpai
>>24766736
I made a few friend in college but they were fuckingn awful and now we dont speak
>>24766750
Whats it on? And thats not too bad I have like 10 more pages to due on this paper and it was due yesterday lmao
>>24766765
Same desu :(
>tfw you should be studying for finals but you just want to do nothing (i.e., browse /r9k/) and sleep
I'm gonna fail.
>>24766790
Luckily most of mine are papers, although it still sucks to do all of them
what finals do you have to do?
>>24766790
I know that feel, anon.
>>24766783
I wouldn't say I made friends. A few friendly people I know in class but its just that.
For entertainment, my roomate is gay so i saw the rise and fall of his faggotry relationship.
>>24766278
oyy lmao senpai the procrastination runs deep
im gonna have like 3 papers + finals next week and all i can do is shitpost and listen to post rock. it feels bad too because all my friends are socializing and i blow them off all the time because i like to be alone when i'm not busy and i NEED to be alone when i'm being keked over by HW
slowly learning to accept this as my life though
>>24766861
So is most of the problem school anxiety?
>>24766876
Wew lad life sucks hard
Cant wait to be done with school
Also I too blow off people all the time because I cant handle it
>>24766957
It's all my fault tbqh. I wont make friends cause i dont like anyone really. Then I get lonely and stay in all the time. Get depressed, develop anxiety, worsens depression/mood, repeats cycle.
>tfw canot simulate human flesh touching via internet
>tfw waiting for public release of the rift
>>24766499
usa
>kentucky
>>24766814
Chemistry, Biology, and Calculus, all on Monday.
>>24766957
>Also I too blow off people all the time because I cant handle it
ayy fampai how's this worked for you in general? i'm a freshman and ive never really had friends before uni so i've got no idea if my friends will eventually stop caring about me
>tfw the thought that I will run out of weed on Tuesday is giving me high anxiety
>>24767027
Are there any hobbies you could meet people through?
>>24767110
I don't think it could ever be the same
>>24767144
Thats hella gross
>>24767184
Ive come off as unreliable and sketchy but I'm still very well liked so they haven't abandoned me yet. I can totally see why cus I'm not reliable at all lol
>>24767189
Can you get more before then?
>>24767222
Next year I might try out rugby. It looks fun but it'll be full of jock people.
Anime club seems fun but Im not ready to kill my "normie" look in class
>>24767411
Oh man the anime club at my school was/is a disaster. Now I don't do any campus clubs haha
>>24767445
With a weeaboo name I have to assume it's a disaster.
Ill also be back later. Gotta get food and vape stuff.
>>24767539
Oh shit, you're at SIU? I might be going there next year, small world
Also we get it, you consume food
>>24767222
>Can you get more before then?
I should be able to. My connect is through my friend and he says he contacted the connect who said they'd be picking up soon. But I don't have a definitive date for that so I'm just trying to smoke as little as possible until then. I haven't smoked at all yet today and won't until around 8
>>24767578
>tfw considered transfering to be closer to HS friends....
>>24767637
You dependant on it? Does it help you?
>>24767676
Damn son you keep getting rad numbers.
But it happens, a lot of people go back to their hometown for school and shit. Most people who went away from here came back. But really its not the best idea to transfer jsut for your friends.
>tfw cymbalta and welbutrin killed my appetite
>>24768102
I've lost like 20ish pounds on wellbutrin in a month
>>24768148
30 here senpai. On my way to skelington life.
Im not doing to well, im stuck in the cycle of goin to bed early n wakin up early. I dont do anything during the day and i hate it. I feel like im rotting every day, and it physically hurts, save me. When does it all end
>>24767719
>You dependant on it? Does it help you?
I don't know. I visited my family for a week and I didn't smoke at all but my anxiety also increased. It helps me to relax and to not be so depressed and feel all alone.
I know it's not healthy for me to smoke as often as I do and that just increases my anxiety.
>>24768210
Im still around 200lbs so IDK if I'll ever be not fat, even on this
>>24768225
Do you work or anything? Or are you NEET?
>>24768236
Maybe drop weed and get actual anxiety meds?
>>24768247
Im a student and i even find it impossible to study, i dont work though, why?
>>24768301
Just curious. You ever thought about therapy or something like that?
>>24768102
>>24768148
>>24768210
Shit, I guess I should my buproprion (Wellbutrin for you rich fags).
>>24768342
I'm on generic buproprion too i just call it wellbutrin because habits
>>24768247
>Maybe drop weed and get actual anxiety meds?
SSRIs scare me. I am going to see a psychiatrist soon but other than the anxiety that comes when I start to run out, weed is pretty damn effective for me.
>>24768425
why do they scare YOU?
Walked out of my job today because nobody would clock me in and give me work.
I hope I don't get fired tomorrow.
I really feel like shit though. My anxiety kicks in there and depression when I leave. I mean I tried and talked to people, but nothing came of it. Maybe if they fire me I'll just commit suicide.
>>24768425
I've decided to not smoke at all in uni. After I did LSD I thought I should really focus on class (albeit im not even focused to do that) but I do notice I'm not as nihilistic and depressed when sober.
Why don't we all meet up?
>>24766543
Boxed wine is pretty based to be honest. I'll be drinking pic related tonight.
>>24768865
Can you get a different job?
>>24769004
A lot of people here would be uncomfortable with it to be honest. Also we're all very far away
>>24769138
>Can you get a different job?
It's my first job.
>>24769162
What do you do? How old are you btw?
>>24769180
19
I was supposed to be a cashier
today was my second day
>>24769200
OH damn, thats not exactly good on your second day. Why wouldn't anyone clock you in?
>>24768743
Because I've heard all the horror stories, about how it basically takes trying 20 different combinations of medicines to find the right SSRI balance, how long it takes to find the right one, how you feel just downed out 24/7, how it fucks with your mood and personality, all that shit. I just feel a lot more comfortable with marijuana and quite honestly I'd like to move to a state where it's legal if it doesn't become legal in my state any time soon
>>24768973
I did LSD twice and I discovered no other drug but weed is really for me.
>>24766278
doing bad. trying so hard to be normmie. in good shape. dress normal. got good high paying job. still never no friends. girls still hate me.I still hate myself
>>24769212
They were all busy.
I still have to go back in tomorrow. Not sure what is going to happen. I've already been scheduled for the rest of the week as well.
>>24769232
If it works for you, go for it. WIsh it helped me desu
>>24769246
Well hating yourself is changing your perceptive on everything. Why do you hate yourself?
>>24769279
Hm, just apologise I suppose. Not sure what to do
>>24769138
I know we'd be uncomfortable but we won't ever be comfortable if we all stay in reclusion.
We could all live together or something.
>>24769505
Well I don't want to travel. If you guys were at my uni I'd consider meeting you guys but for now it's just too unrealistic
>>24769505
Eh, I really just want to live alone. I wouldn't mind visiting people though. Where are you?
>>24769528
Also kind of this
>>24769353
>If it works for you, go for it. WIsh it helped me desu
Yeah it's just a shame I don't have a reliable supply. Sometimes I think about buying it online over the darkweb but I'm too much of a pussy for that
>>24769559
Darkwebs the safest way desu. Use bitcoins get a PO box or something you're golden
got back from my adventure desu~
Local mexican restaurant sucked and I got a good deal on ejuice.
Also walked behind a qt and got nervous af desu baka
>>24766278
sup skelly, its ups work project guy here again, still haven't finished but I think I getting close to it. Even though I taking work home I still can't seen to get it done. Also I may have to present it t my manager on Tuesday so the pressure's on.
>I'm wondering how I used to get stuff done in uni but I can't seem to get this done.I just want to come home I do what I want to do for a change, I haven't fapped for 2 weeks too
>>24769741
Welcome back anon. Sorry your mexican sucked and you got nervous about the qt.
Also is that u irl
>>24769880
Just keep plugging away at it, I'm also tryign to finish this shit.
Also i jerk off constantly when I'm stressed so i do a lot of it when working on papers
>>24769932
if I werent 230lbs and had blue hair, sure
>>24770013
Just lose weight and dye your hair easy anon
Decided to chad up a year ago after a burn out mixed with cripling stumach pains and i realised i was afraid to die
Lost 30 kilo, stopped smoking, i sport 3 days a week, cycle 100+km a week, made new freinds, girls start to like me.
Still derpressed as fuck and can't be alone on a weekend night without crying myself to sleep.
>>24769932
My jerk off sessions typically last >4hours so when I done it's basically the entire night lost. I trying to power through it thoughI want to use my butt plug too
>>24770096
Time for therapy/meds?
>>24770126
holy shit dude thats super long. I'm nowhere near that. Also >tfw cant have sex toys because living at home
What meds you guys on? I'm on lexapro and clonopin. I feel like a new person, and as long as I push my negative thoughts to the back of mind I have pretty good days.
Started lifting weights and cured my suicidal depression.
AMA
>>24766278
Took the Putnam today. Got one right out of 12, feeling stupid/ uneducated.
>>24770173
neat glad exercise worked for you. You hot now?
>>24770166
Wellbutrin and busporine.
>>24769595
I've heard you don't want to use a PO Box actually, that it's actually more risky that way. If I am gonna go darkwebs I'm going to learn as much as I can about how to do it before doing so. I imagine weed is the worst thing in the world to ship considering the smell
>>24770173
how do you deal with the meat heads at the gym?
All the weight lifters at my school were dumbass jocks that just screamed after doing 2 reps
>>24770213
Oh, today I learned. If they seal it it shouldn't really smell. Could you just move to a legal state soonish?
>>24770165
I live at home too but you can visit a sex shop and get some. Also if there's a delivery service you can have them meet you at a semi deserted place.Also I used a cock rings to keep from ejaculating
>>24770247
I dont really have a good place to keep them. I'd just order it off amazon and say its magic cards or something.thats pretty lewd anon
>>24770208
Yeah - helped that I had a decent face and a big dick though.
>>24770228
Ignore them, put in earbuds, but what's most likely to shut them up is to do more weight without being a histrionic pussy and making fuckloads of noise.
Dying with the thesis desu sempai. How many pages do you have to do?
>>24770281
I keep mine in a drawer next to my bed, but I have to get another place if I want to buy more.
>Anyways no more lewdness back to project
Want to watch Fave anime but dont want to cry like a bitch.
>tfw no motivation to even leave seat to get more comfy
>>24770132
Can't / don't want to do meds because i have extremly bad experience with adhd meds, they made me pretty much a hollow shell and wasted 3 years of my life.
And a bad trip from weed fucked me up for a looonggg time and makes me extremly anxious with medicen. Last thing i treid where light sleeping pills and i was compelty freaked out the whole night.
And my expereince with therapy is that i might as well get drunk with a depressed buddy of mine and talk about how fucked everything is.
>>24770295
This.
Music also helps to keep me motivated. Also i'm pretty weak but knowing i can outrun them on a hunguver saturday also helps.
>>24766278
Doing better than 2 days ago.
Got some strong painkiller that made me pretty numb, and i feel a lot more released. Thanks to this i was able to eat after 4 days of starvation. I might consider watching a movie later.
Is it normal to have delusions of your roomate and their friends talking shit behind your back?
>>24770436
8-10, strugglin qq
>>24770471
GLHF
>>24770550
whats your favorite anime?
>>24770696
ADHD meds will do that, you just have to watch what you're taking and switch whenit doesnt work
>>24770956
Do you have pain or something? Or recreation? Also what movie?
>>24770986
no
>>24771096
Toradora is fave anime.
Also Im constantly denying le mental illness while convinced i have schizo tendancies
>boss pulled me aside to tell me I was doing a bad job
>hands shake too much from medical condition to draw or write, things I love to do
>insurance company denied meds
I thought I was getting better. Fuck it lads I'm going to get drunk tonight.
Well, I haven't been on here in a while. I got that job, turns out it's shittier than I thought, but at least it meant I had the means to leave home.
I work on a one day weekend/three day weekend fortnight. It's actually really fucking draining. I feel a little better, but I still would rather be dead than doing this shit, so I guess not as better as I thought?
Today I'm going to get really drunk and not do terribly much, then hate myself for it tomorrow.
Hope you all have a lovely day too.
>>24766278
How does it feel? Being depressed. I spent three years almost locked in my room, showering once a month, scarcely eating, scarcely going to the bathroom, going to bed around 6AM, waking up at 4PM...without any of the aforementioned being present before that....or now, after. Didn't play videogames or watched a lot of movies to waste my time, I can't even remember what I was doing back them...
Was that depression? It left a huge social scar on me. I don't have friends, I am as "kv" and "touchless" a person can get, but whenever I remember any of this, it doesn't seem important. I find resolution in the fact that I can get through a day without it. Every few months or in a longer timeframe, it really is random, I have this single day that I feel the loneliest I possibly can. Naked. That I need to hold and punch someone simultaneously, so I usually hit a duffel or scream in an isolated place on that particular day and continue as usual. In between those, everything feels passing, surmountable as any other day, -0 libido and desire to change it
>>24771116
NEver seen it also go see a therapist
>>24771317
:(
Thats a pretty shitty day anon, I'm sorry
>>24771361
Oh hey it has been a while. That is a really weird schedule I've never heard of that
>>24771496
It sounds like depression, or some sort of like mania I'm not sure. What are you doing now? Have you ever thought about therapy?
>>24771096
Continuous back pain and rsi. The painkillers i used to take pretty much fucked up my liver so i have to pay twice the price for some special kind of mixture.
Was thinking about Kontroll or some other artsy movie that goes with getting wasted.
I don't know how much longer i can hold on. Yet i say this, and i will hold on. But i literally have suicide thoughts every single week, and i've had them for years. I'm stuck on a ride i can't get out of.
>>24771673
Go to a doctor
>>24771659
I've been watching rifftrax all day. Fun stuff
>>24771673
Might want to see a therapist
>>24771715
How will a normie doctor help me? How the fuck can a doctor understand anything.
>>24771744
Same answer to you. How can a therapist truly understand "our" situation(s) ?
>>24771746
They're trained to deal with non-normies; trust me
>>24771769
People are actually pretty predictable, even in depression. You're not the only one to ever feel this way
>>24771646
I'm from a fairly traditional country with fairly traditional social life (Eastern Europe). Not talking suppression, mockery and people viewing you as a deviant, but visiting experts does carry its stigma. No one has to know, of course, except me, which is the problem. I'm the man in the house, so I "molded" myself in the best possible image I could.
To put it simple, I don't know how to lean on. Never talked about this to anyone, this is my second post here. Lurked here once in a while but never felt the need for an input. Just seized the moment, and I only use diclorapid when I'm sore, as far as medication goes
How can I learn to lean or, let go and such? Can the "right person" help me achieve this? I never cared about being loved, but being heard was always important to me
>>24771673
We're on the same ride, sadly i can't give you any kind of advice besides try to see a doctor. Since i stopped visiting my therapist the ride accelerated like it never did before, tried ending it but too much fear of the unknown and changing couldnt do it having sweaty nights and even worse days.
I think i should go back to theraphy.
>Just go to a doctor
Not bad actually. I've just discovered the joys of drinking myself into a stupor every night before I go to bed. Means I can just collapse unconscious and not spend three hours lying awake with my thoughts. Works well, at least until I get up the next day.
>>24771803
Yeah, sure. Some normie doctor living a good life, having experienced all the things we have not. And probably even having children our ages that probably taunted us or would have done so given the chance.
>>24771810
Of course i'm not the only one, but how can i put this. How is a fish that's trained to swim and breathe underwater supposed to teach a lizard to swim and breathe below water?
>>24771849
>Yeah, sure. Some normie doctor living a good life, having experienced all the things we have not. And probably even having children our ages that probably taunted us or would have done so given the chance.
Not really, mine was a pretty nice guy; cut through the bullshit. He sounded like he knew I was a robot.
>>24771769
They don't understand nor know, but they can help.
>>24771872
>>24771891
Right, perhaps. But in the end how can words change our situation? The situation and life we will have to live for additional 30-40 years?.
>>24771844
Ah, thats really tough :(
I'm honestly not sure how you can learn to lean on someone. You need to be comfortable with understanding that you can't be perfect, and that everyone needs help.
>>24771908
You have to be willing to try to change yourself
>>24771848
THats probably not good for you
>>24771849
They spend their lives attempting to help you deal with real life. Its what they do
>>24771963
>You have to be willing to try to change yourself
Right, get a time machine and a plastic surgeon.
>>24771908
That additional 30-40 so years could be good and enjoyable even fun.
Theraphy can release a lot of stress and medications can help to deal with everyday stress and anxiety.
>>24772006
And so can death. Just a long sleep, away from everything.
>>24771993
Not physically, mentally. But you know that and are just being a smartass so
>>24771963
Nah mate, I already know I'm not perfect nor do I strive for perfection. If I did, I'd have done something more...grand with my life now, wouldn't I? Always thought the "condition" I have is simple life's frustration, something a man needs to deal with. I don't know if I need help, however I really appreciate your opinion
>>24772020
I'm being a smartass because your advice doesn't sound very useful.
>In relationship for 4 years
>gf is supportive, loving and caring
>honestly 10/10 perfect girl
>despite this, depression has been getting worse every day
>been out-of-state for a good chunk of our relationship due to the military
>the past year has been especially bad
>several attempted suicides, lingering daily suicidal thoughts
>she hates when I bring it up, but tries to help
>I hate hurting her this way
>want to break up with her so she can have someone worth her time
>every time I try to, I can't bring myself to do it
help
well therapy costs money and these are vital Neetbux we're talking about.
>>24772067
>gf
>4 years
how
>>24772043
And I'm sure you're a smartass to everyone and its because their advice isn't useful right?
>>24772025
I see. Good luck man.
>>24772067
Go see a therapist and get on meds man. That sounds pretty severe and you need help
>>24772018
Only if death could come that easily.
Don't you fear death while you long for it?
I do so and i feel even worse because i can't even achive death.
>>24772147
Are you immortal? But for real, why do you want to die sort of kinda
>>24766666
checked, similar position to you bro
I'm fucking drunk, I shouldn't be, I'm supposed to quit this. I can barely make a week of sobriety.
>>24773566
Are you gettign any help for your addiction?
>>24773605
It's difficult to find much help, as I still live with my parents. Deep down I'm not sure I could live sober.
>>24773722
do they know about your problem?
>>24773001
I'm not immortal obviously. I just wish i didn't had instincts.
Because lifes been shit since i know it and everytime it got comfortable with the actual status it got worse. I just had enough i think.
Reporting in again. Just got written up at work for being a shitty employee. I knew I was fucking useless.
>>24773789
Why? What happened?
>>24773748
Well what could you do to help make life less shitty?
>>24773820
They said I was lazy and didn't finish tasks. I don't know if that's correct but I always felt like I worked my ass off.
I very, very rarely post here boys.
I've been with my wife for 11 years; we're both 27 years old. I was born into a wealthy family. My parents own a business and make more than $300k/yr, I'm probably going to inherit the business.
By actual robot's standards, I'm probably good looking. I'm only 5'8", though. But I have a decent sized dick.
I have battled severe depression for many years now. My wife understands entirely. I've succumbed to alcoholism, and I've been drinking daily for a long time. It's very, very difficult to try to change and grow.
I say this because, honestly, it doesn't matter what state your life is in, in regards to your mental health. If your well off or not, your brain doesn't give a fuck. If it's broken, it's broken bud. If you're filthy rich and all that, it isn't any easier to fix your brain. I know it's hard to trust the sort of person that you claim to hate, but I've been lurking these boards for a long, long time.
And I can tell you with sincerity that human suffering is innate, and that deep down inside, we all feel the same way. Do what you have to, try to fix your brain. If you don't try to fix it, you're literally compromising your ability to fix it in the future.
The tool you utilize to fix yourself is the same tool that is broken. Fix it now, don't wait. Otherwise you might find yourself literally surrounded by what everyone else dreams of, and still having suicidal thoughts populate your mind every day.
>>24773868
You should have asked for concrete examples.
>>24773884
Sounds like a meme post but to be honest even if this is some sort of parable its a good one. People in all states of life can be depressed, look at all the celebrities who kill themselves, even the ones not on all those drugs.
Anyways man, you getting help for this stuff?
>>24773744
They know I used to drink, they don't know I've started again. I managed about eight months of sobriety one time, and that's when I told them. Alcoholism runs in my family, it just skipped my parents
>>24773932
>Sounds like a meme post but to be honest even if this is some sort of parable its a good one. People in all states of life can be depressed, look at all the celebrities who kill themselves, even the ones not on all those drugs.
>Anyways man, you getting help for this stuff?
I've been sort of treating myself for a long time.
Everyone around you will tell themselves that, if they had something desirable that you have, that they'd be better of as a result. It doesn't matter to them if having that thing doesn't make you happy. It doesn't matter to them if having that thing makes you unhappy, for fuck's sake.
I was on some antidepressants for a while, after a work related injury, but I'm never doing that again. As a lot of people have noted, I'd rather feel something, and be in some semblance of control. Fuck feeling nothing and becoming an ironically real robot.
Drinking, though. It's slowly destroying my life, but I'm aware of it, and so is my wife. It's hard to change, brother.
>>24773820
if i would know what to do my status wouldnt be like this not at all
>>24773932
You're doing god's work with these threads, by the way.
The social stigma around mental illness is something that will be shattered within the next decade or so, but you've done a lot to help those like myself that are suffering now. I'm sure it helps you too. I appreciate it man. Thanks for all that.
>>24774029
Switch meds man, switch meds. If you feel dead on one switch to something else. I actually feel way happier on wellbutrin than i have on anything else.
And yeah habits are really hard to change, especially alcoholism. You probably need rehab for that shit
>>24774052
I suppose. Is there anything specifically you dislike about your life?
>>24774054
You're welcome, I'm glad that I can help anyone, even in a small way such as this
>>24774109
>Switch meds man, switch meds. If you feel dead on one switch to something else. I actually feel way happier on wellbutrin than i have on anything else.
>And yeah habits are really hard to change, especially alcoholism. You probably need rehab for that shit
Honestly dude, I believe that the body and mind always adapts to what is put into it, and that trying to "trick" it with antidepressants is a bad way to go about it.
Studies have proven that merely imitating a successful, wealthy person causes your brain to secrete the same chemicals and hormones as an actual successful and wealthy person. What you feel is actually changing your brain, what goes in is always having an effect on what comes out. You need to nurture your brain, feel growth, set goals and achieve them. That's what any psych will force you to do if you start seeing one.
In short: Start playing vidya gaym on hard and working out a lot.
>>24774328
I dont think its tricking so much as supplimenting necessary chemicals your brain is lacking.
okay hear me out lads.
i'm really ready to die but i realize that there are still things i should do knowing i'm willing to die in the process.
i will admit i'm not /fullrobot/. i had a girlfriend. she moved away and became an sjw and distanced herself from me before breaking up with me. i want to do something to her. i want the girl i loved back. with the absolute desire to die under my belt i have considered finding her and taking her.
of course this is all hypothetical
>>24774457
Whats the point? She won't take you back, shes gone. It happens. It sucks
>>24774612
she wouldn't have a choice
>>24774641
Sounds more like you want revenge than you are depressed
>>24774711
please go here
>>>/soc/
>>24774752
"i want to rape a woman please go away and stay out of my safe space"
>>24774771
safe space =/= somewhere where you want to talk to people without socialfags shitposting
if you see women as anything more than parasites then you don't deserve to be here
i simply want to go back to have the fantasy of being loved come back in the most lucid form
>>24774819
This isnt exactly the thread to shitpost about woman. You have 100 other threads you could cry about your misplaced hate. Move on from her
>>24774866
why are you creating threads on depression when you don't understand shit about it?
>>24774893
I understand it. I don't understand misanthropic hate.
>listening to normalfags talking
You never really get how detached you are from everyone else until it's staring you in the face
I feel physically sick from it
>>24774950
depression and misanthropy go hand and hand. it is literally the basis of it
>>24775001
What specifically about it upsets you?
>>24775016
Maybe for you, but for most people they barely have the energy to hate themselves, let alone other people.
>tfw highschool made you this unfeeling sociopath
>4chan made you even more social awkward
at least I have you guys right
>>24774328
>Honestly dude, I believe that the body and mind always adapts to what is put into it, and that trying to "trick" it with antidepressants is a bad way to go about it.
This is really misguided, honestly.
>Studies have proven that merely imitating a successful, wealthy person causes your brain to secrete the same chemicals and hormones as an actual successful and wealthy person. What you feel is actually changing your brain, what goes in is always having an effect on what comes out. You need to nurture your brain, feel growth, set goals and achieve them. That's what any psych will force you to do if you start seeing one.
Lots of things can help. Meditation, exercise, etc. That doesn't grant you omnipotent control over your neurotransmitters and neuroplasticity. Fucked can still be fucked.
>>24775026
The way they talked about bo burnham or whatever like he was some philosophical genius. One guy was talking to a girl because he was "depressed" and it was literally babby's first bought of sadness. The girl he was talking to tried to kill herself for some roastie bullshit reason.
It's all so fake it gives me a headache.
>>24774446
Well, the "chemical imbalance" portrayal is really flawed. The brain is a complicated system of interrelated systems. Fuck around with one variable and a bunch of other things change too. It's not supplying the missing ingredient so much as poking it with a stick in a way that might result in a net benefit: a more favorable balance of neurotransmitters in specific parts of the brain.
>>24766278
>Tfw parents have news blaring constantly
>makes me feel worse
Anyone else who still lives at home have this problem?
>>24775052
Have any interest in being social?
>>24775120
Ayy. Bo Burnham is babies first comedian desu. And what was the reason she tried to kill herself? I've had a friend try to kill herself over seemingly meaningless issues but they really affected her because of her bipolar.
>>24775151
I'm not too familiar with the whole system desu, i'm no neurosurgeon. All i know is that some stuff works for me
>>24775160
My parents only watch FOX the rare times they watch the news. I just walk in and roll my eyes at them loudly. Could you ask them to shut it off?
>>24775219
>Ayy. Bo Burnham is babies first comedian desu. And what was the reason she tried to kill herself? I've had a friend try to kill herself over seemingly meaningless issues but they really affected her because of her bipolar.
Well she was supposedly raped but that was her bf for like a year so I dont give a shit.
>>24775264
Thats a pretty understandable reason to try to kill oneself, especially when it comes from someone you trust.
>>24775279
Come on, her boyfriend? There's an implicit sexual relationship there. Largely she's a stereotypical edgy teenager.
>>24775311
Yes there is a sexual relationship, but a consensual one. That doesn't give either partner the right to sex without the consent of the other
>>24774446
>I dont think its tricking so much as supplimenting necessary chemicals your brain is lacking.
It is tricking, because your brain is otherwise looking for chemicals that aren't there.
That's why I referenced the studies showing that body language can actually affect brain activity. Pretending to be a successful person results in your brain simulating a successful person. Think about that. Why would you ever take antidepressants if that's true?
Within our lifetime, we will witness a movement that regards anti-depressants as being crude and disgusting. The brain is an ever-evolving organ. You don't need meds to help treat it, in most cases (in my opinion). When you consider the fact that seeing good looking people enjoying McDonald's makes your brain actually truly associate healthiness with McDicks, you'll begin to understand what changes are taking place on your brain in day to day life. You need to feel contentment, basically, regardless of how that takes place. That's what a shrink will have you do, period, and there's a reason for it.
>>24775430
>It is tricking, because your brain is otherwise looking for chemicals that aren't there.
okay, that doesn't make any sense at all
>Within our lifetime, we will witness a movement that regards anti-depressants as being crude and disgusting.
They are, but they're also sometimes the best tool we've got. Everything you do changes your neurology. But if you're lying in bed all day wanting to die, you need something fairly drastic to fix it.
>You don't need meds to help treat it, in most cases (in my opinion).
Your unqualified opinion
>>24775570
I posted earlier in the thread
I have battled severe depression for many, many years. The slightest thing will go wrong and I will have visions of my body being blasted by shotguns, or violently hanging from a tree, dominating my mind. You tell yourself that I cannot possibly understand what you are going through because you don't fucking like what I'm saying.
I'm telling you that you shouldn't rely on a crutch that others have told you is okay, and you've justified it by demonizing me. Say whatever you want, but doing what you just did makes you look like a fucking retard, plain and simple.
>Everything you do changes your neurology. But if you're lying in bed all day wanting to die, you need something fairly drastic to fix it.
Merely understanding the symptoms that you are being faced with could have a drastic effect on how you are feeling. You are implying that drugs are always the answer in desperate times which honestly disgusts me. People like you cause other people to suffer. People like you cause others to destroy their minds. People like you make the problem worse, congratulations.
>Tfw parents always have news blaring in the house
>Tfw it makes me overthink and anxious
I need to move out
>>24775733
What is this "overthinking" that you speak of?
Sounds to me like you've analyzed the situation you are in, and you are reacting accordingly so.
>>24775756
So I should just kill myself?
>>24775756
HAHAHA this happens to me but it's super intense when im baked.
>>24775677
>I have battled severe depression for many, many years. The slightest thing will go wrong and I will have visions of my body being blasted by shotguns, or violently hanging from a tree, dominating my mind. You tell yourself that I cannot possibly understand what you are going through because you don't fucking like what I'm saying.
No, I'm saying you don't understand neurology, so extrapolating your personal experience and trying to apply that to others is inappropriate.
>Say whatever you want, but doing what you just did makes you look like a fucking retard, plain and simple.
You're the one sperging out right now, not me.
>You are implying that drugs are always the answer in desperate times which honestly disgusts me.
No I'm not.
>People like you cause other people to suffer. People like you cause others to destroy their minds. People like you make the problem worse, congratulations.
Jesus, what the fuck is your problem?
Oneohtrix fag from the last thread
If the dude from last thread that gave me advice is here: I talked to the girl about my depression and life and shit. She accepted it and started cuddling with me. Pretty relaxing. Maybe we aren't in the darkest timeline.
Thanks for the advice senpai
>>24775733
Ask them to turn it off?
>>24776059
Hey good shit man. Glad to hear that
>>24775795
>>24775799
lol it's normal man, the willingness to kill yourself is completely normal
if someone says they've never felt the need to kill themselves, they've lying, plain and simple. Talk to some adults about this and you will find the same thing. It's entirely normal.
>>24775811
lol idiot
>>24766437
Not much of a drug person but weed is cool. I only smoke occasionally with good friends though cause it sometimes makes me feel disconnected from myself.
>>24776105
I wish weed didn't give me anxiety but whatever.
Idk what to do. Nothing interests me. It'd be cool to be really rich and spend my time figuring out ways to get richer, but, well..
How to accept that life is an RTS and you're not the player, not a knight, just a fucking defenseless villager.
I guess this is just an externalization of my actual problem which is that I don't know how to talk to people. But it feels way cooler worrying about the world than about how lame and boring I am.
>>24776124
Microdosing can completely change your opinion of weed
you might want to consider trying it
>>24776291
wuzzat anon
>>24776124
There are two main psychoactive compounds in weed; THC and CBD. The recent strains are bred for maximum THC because it gets you high, and have much lower CBD than older strains, but the CBD moderates the effects of the THC. The end result is that the weed that's available now tends to be very potent but can cause a lot of bad things (psychotic episodes for one thing); you might experience less anxiety with a different strain.
The best way I can describe my sadness is this: if I were a class in an rpg I would have a class bonus of -20 happiness that is always in effect as well as something that halves the effect of everything that increases happiness. So I can be happy, it just takes way more, and even when nothing good/bad is happening to me I just feel this creeping, melancholy sadness. Is this depression?
>tfw just took some oxy and am listening to Grouper
>hate happy music, only thing I can enjoy is sad stuff
>am probably going to cry alone in my bed again
>I'm only happy when I'm asleep
"This feeling doesn't go away
I feel it moving through me
I want a love I had inside
Want to feel it moving through me
In dreams
I'm moving through heavy water
The love is enormous,
it's lifting me up
I'd rather be sleeping
I'd rather fall in to tidal waves
and go where the deepest currents go"
>>24776614
I don't know how to do get different strains desu
>>24776682
A lot of them are medical, not street weed.
>>24776316
Different anon but I think he means just taking a hit, not getting 'high' but slightly 'toasted'.
I quit smoking myself for a while. If you are a depressive type person there is honestly nothing worse. It makes you content with being bored and alone and doing nothing, which sort of enables you to be 'comfortably' depressed.
Now I stopped and I just feel angry. I was at work today and I was fucking pissed. My confidence feels higher though, I felt like the baddest mf in the whole joint. Im scared im gonna punch some custy right in the face
>>24776754
I cant get medical weed where I'm at
>>24776771
I can see it leaving one content. How long have you been off it?
