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We don't usually have a general feels thread anymore, so share yours here.
>tfw /r9k/ has made you more insecure
>>24763930
>tfw still no gf
h-haha this is all a cruel joke right? my gf is bound to show up sometime
>tfw finally got gf
>she's incredibly red flag
>just keep learning more and more
>>24763930
>We don't usually have a general feels thread anymore
That's because feels threads are usually posted by mudshits, SJWs and stormfags to push some sort of agenda.
>tfw putting on new socks
>>24763930
tfw:
>overwight
>native american half white
>shithole third world country gringo wannabe
>extremely ugly
>teeth fucked up so bad
most of images of teeths on r9k look much better than mine
big teeths, small mouth
>shitskin
>small eyes
>poor
>soon homeless
>paranoid because fucking normies always making fun of me when i was a child
>small dick
>failrue at everything
only thing i know is fight, but obviously if i defend myself im the bad guy
sheeeiiiittttt
>>24763930
>tfw boyfriend broke up with me more than a month ago
>still cry every day
>>24763930
>tfw taking the Putnam.
>>24763930
Has anyone here lost motivation to eat? I could go out and buy instant noodles or something but it's still too much of a hassle. I usually just drink water if I'm hungry. Being hungry doesn't motivate me enough to go up and get food. Until my stomach is in actual pain, I just drink water. Even then I just eat a peanut butter sandwich.
>>24764144
You Mexican?
>>24764119
No agenda here. I just want a thread for robots to share their feels.
>>24764208
no, at least this place is ''secure'' if i were mexican i would be already dead
I need a gf, please.
HOW?
HALP
>tfw chubby
>tfw high school drop out
>tfw cripplingly shy
>tfw borderline personality disorder
>>24764175
lol try having cramps each time you have dairy mixed with not being able to have soda because nervs in mouf are messed up.
>tfw unsweeten tea and plain chips errday
>tfw another semester has gone by and made no friends again
>tfw starting to care less and less about school work
>tfw thinking of all the missed opportunities
>tfw lie to self that it will get better next semester
>>24764305
you already missed that day of school where errbody learned how.
>>24764153
My gf left me too and i cry everyday if this makes you feel better
>>24764669
It does sort of. He originally wanted us to stay friends but I was just being an idiot the first two days and he cut all contact pretty much. He was perfect fuck.
There's this girl in my class and she's perfect. She's a really nice and a little bit shy. She doesn't wear make up, has messy hair, a little bit of acne, but she's absolutely beautiful. She's basically a robot's dream girl.
But every time we talk I just get so awkward, I can't string sentences together. Can't think of things to say. I just end up saying stupid shit.
I think she knows I like her. But I'm not sure whether she's into me or not. She's does things that could be interpreted either way, and I'm such a fucking autist when it comes to this stuff.
I lift and take steroids, so I have an 8/10 body. But my face is really shit. Like maybe 3-4/10. I want to tell her I like her, but I don't want to spend the next 3 years in the same classes if she says no.
>>24764064
What kinda flags? Multiple sex partners? Drinking/drugs?
I'm in a sticky situation with my oneitis/ex-gf.
>inb4 normie: only girl i've ever been with, didn't fuck her and it was a super short relationship because i was a sperg
Moved away from her over a year ago. We stayed in contact though. Messaging every day. Video chatting most weekends. Planning on visiting each other in a couple years once we had built up the money. Even flirting quite a bit. I had a feeling she was catching feelings.
Then we started talking less. She started acting really distant. I decided to talk to her about it. She told me she had feelings for me but she's been frustrated because she couldn't have a relationship with me and it's been affecting her. I didn't know what to say because I'm terrified because of the distance. I basically told her that I couldn't tell and that if she kept acting distant she was gonna lose me due to me getting bored. But even after that conversation, she's been the same. We've hardly spoken at all.
I don't know what to fucking do. I love this girl. I'm terrified of long distance relationships, but I do love this girl.
>get job offer
>orientation is when I have my final
>be me
>little kid
>good friends with a little niglet who was a couple years younger than me
>he loved to sing and dance
>for a kid he was actually really good
>fast forward to today
>he's now 19 years old
>he's signed to a major record label
>he has millions of YouTube views
>he has tons of women who want to fuck him
>he's allegedly fucking that Disney qt Zendaya
>he has a song where he sings about being able to fuck a groupie with a simple "flick of the wrist" but choosing not to
>he has another song where he sings about fucking an older woman
>he's talented, marketable, and attractive enough to be the next big popstar
>i'm posting on 4chan
It's crazy how peoples' lives can go in completely opposite directions even after starting in the exact same place.
>>24764897
Get her number from somewhere, a mutual friend or ask her or someshit, then text her for a couple days. Get drunk as shit and ask her if she wants the dick, if she says no, you say you were shitfaced. If she says yes, pussi.
>the time you spent posting frogs on /r9k/ could have been spent learning skills that would make you employable
>join some kind of school
>sit next to a ct grill
>we become close friends, want to do something together after school
>i love her and she loves me
>i finally have a gf
>wake up
>mfw
This happened just now. Why is the world so cruel :(
who /lottery/ here?
>tfw wife missed her period
>she's on the pill
>we have neither the resources nor desire to raise a child
Thought I was getting over ex gf that left me 4 months ago (together 1.5 years) listen to coldplay album x&y, instant flooding back of emotion, and deep longing for her. She didn't even have any red flags, she loved the fucking shit out of me but I treated her badly as I didn't think about her.
>>24766451
Don't let dreams be dreams.
Shia
>>24766563
>Coldplay
Stoped reading your faggy shit
>tfw daydreaming allday everyday about oneitis talking to me
>will never actually talk to her
>>24766520
gb2redditfagit
>>24766520
>>24766563
>wife
>ex gf
normies get out
>>24764439
every semester the same. iktfb
and I'n getting older and older, without archieving or experiencing anything
>finally feeling brave enough to ask a qt gril I know on a date
>find out via my flatmate that she's started dating my best friend
It still hurts.
>>24763930
>tfw you used to be a super confident cocky shit when you were young but for some reason puberty ruined you
>tfw you have a not bad sized dick and are good at using it but you are either to ugly or to weird to use it
>>24766629
Just listen to the track x&y, and imagine laying next to a grill holding her hand while you both listen.
>>24766637
Makes no difference tb.h. I'm a very good manipulator, it comes naturally when involved 1 on 1
>trying to cope with being a mid 20s NEET manchild failure at life
It's hard living with knowing there's high schoolers that are farther along and better at life than I am. I barely care that I'm a 24 y/o virgin anymore, I get way more depressed and suicidal thinking about how the fuck I'll ever be able to live on my own and support myself
>every person you conversated with on the internet has called you stupid
>>24763973
there is no gf, anon
>>24766867
>people would always call your smart when growing up because you were a little above average in academia
>believe it for a while
>walk around subconsciously believing you're smarter than most other people
>eventually realize you are incredibly fucking stupid yet still subconsciously believe you're kind of smart
It's incredibly hard to be able to accept how stupid I am
>>24763930
>tfw like a girl
>see her staring at me, become shy when i'm around
>tfw won't do anything about it
>tfw I like her less because she likes me too
>tfw daydreaming of escape
>Go to a store
>Nigger cashier makes fun of me for my purchases
Now I'm even more afraid of going outside.
>>24767154
yeah I always got allright grades in highschool without studying. Now I don't know how to work and am not as smart as people made me out to be. I feel horribly average and dumb
I could message my oneitis tonight while she's out drinking. Maybe get some weird responses or finally burn the bridge so I don't have to see her again.
Oh the choices I have.
>>24764144
Are your teeth as bad as that one image of the neckbeard with Adventure Time or MLP or whatever that was?
>>24765857
>literally the plot of Emily Is Away
>>24767529
It's a weird feel, you know you're pretty dumb when you think about it but still somehow walk around with this false sense of being smart
>>24766728
He's not your best friend then, is he?
He's just a friend. Is he even friends with you?
>>24766690
change semester to year and thats me senpai
>>24767154
People don't realize being smart also requires constant study. You weren't smart in high school, you were just aware of your surroundings
>girlfriend won't let me go down on her.
At first she was like oh I'm just insecure blah blah blah I'll get used to you but now it's like "not gonna happen".
Pretty fucking bummed out. And she's all about sucking dick just not getting eaten out.
>>24767654
Every day I feel dumber, do you get this? People still seem to think I'm smart though.
>>24766224
Name drop plz
>>24767421
Was he like "AYYOO SENPAI LEMME TAKE A PIC OF DIS SHEEEIT FO INSTAGRAM HAHAH LOOK AT THIS NIGGA"
>>24767818
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chedda_Da_Connect
Google helps, anon.
>>24767154
Holy fuck, this hits me hard.
Always was slightly above average in Elementary school so talked down to the other kids and had no friends because of it. my terrible mother just said i wasn't to blame for it.
Got bullied even at highschool but grades dropped to slightly below average.
>>24767787
well my life situation hasn't changed since I've been 19 and am now 24, I've done a plethora of negative things that have impacted my well being during the time and feel pretty much the same mentally. I feel like I'm a giant retard but I cant speak for other people even though I assume everyone thinks I'm an idiot
>tfw no direction in life
>at university but no idea why I'm here or what i'm going to do after
>just burying my head in the sand and hoping someone throws a job in my lap
>>24768028
shit, I hope you make it man.
the
feel
when
no
gf
god fucking dammit.
>>24766451
>>24766598
It's not that easy, anon. Especially if you're a neet against your will.
>>24768298
>neet against your will
do tell
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M75Ju5EfJFo
>listening to the album
>this song comes among
>realize that I and so many other people won't ever have any happy endings
>mfw
Why the fuck are the songs that make me saddest always the happiest ones? I go through entire threads of /emo/-core crap here yet this is what gets me.
>tfw manually walking
>>24765909
Can't you reschedule? I'm sure they'll understand and if they don't they're not worth working for anyway.
>tfw 5'4
>tfw no one will ever respect me
fuck you mom and dad
>>24767871
It was some 50 year old woman. She was making fun of me with the customers behind me, and all of them were laughing. And all I did was buy a card to put in a Christmas gift.
>Feel like I'm living in an almost constant state of fear
>Sleeping pattern fucked up
>Little to no motivation to get fit, even though I want to
>Really wish I could just not care anymore
>Turn 29 in less than an hour
Where did it all go wrong?
>tfw kek fetish
>Decent face
>Terrible skin
>tfw /r9k/ has somehow managed to become even shittier than before and to an extreme degree
>tfw we don't even have feel threads anymore
>>24768437
I know the feeling, started crying to "Christmas in the Room" by Sufjan Stevens the other day and it's one of his most unapologetically happy songs, complete with "And in the house we see a light/ That comes what we feel inside" and it's fucking cheesy but so fucking pure.
Alright brobots, all aboard the feel mobile.
>Be in last year of HS
>standard quiet kid with a nice group of friends
>have a massive crush on one of those friends
>I can make her laugh and we have a good time but Im too much of a pussy to make a move.
>A couple weeks before prom I decide to muster up the courage and ask her. We had a party that night and it seemed like a nice opportunity. >completely stress out and decide to get a few drinks
> kinda gets out of hand resulting in to me being half comatose before she even got there
>I wake up the next morning in my bed with no memory at all
>hear from a friend that I was hammered but didnt do any noteworthy shit
>he also tells me that one of our friends asked the girl to prom
>fug
>ffw to prom, I end up dancing with some other gitl I know but I feel really bad
>cant keep my mind of it and start drinking again
>we are nearing the end of the night and my crush and her date come to our group. They say they have to tell us something.
>I make some wisecrack remark about them being together
>they kiss
>fug again
>she seemed so happy, ill never forget her beautiful smile when they told us
>give them my best wishes and go home
> cry, smoke weed, drink more
I know its such a generic shit story but I simply cant move on. It has been three years now and I think about her every day. Theyve split up but once more Im a loser who cant even make contact.
Why does it hurt so much?
>>24768597
Yeah, the best sad songs are ones that don't even try to be ones.
Even top-tier sadcore like The Smiths try way too hard and it just ends up falling flat for me.
I find that people who listen to sadcore exclusively aren't really sad, they just want to be 'cool'.
>>24767774
She's fucking other people but likes you too much not to make you taste their cum
>>24768598
we basically don't exist family.
>got p close to this qt
>she is in love with me
>i think im starting to fall for her
>tfw i lost all will to fap
>tfw fired from tesco
>>24768598
Got a similar feel, anon.
>be Year 11 (16), four years ago
>at prom because my parents semi-forced me to
>Brit so the whole dating thing isn't big
>just hang with my fellow weirdos all evening
>waiting for my parents to arrive to take me home
>say bye to a qt I had in mydramaclass
>out of the blue she hugs me
>an all-around hug, not a shitty 'hug' at all
>mfw after I left I never saw her again
I'm tired, robots.
I have a strong distaste for many these days, I feel very alone. I am a hateful person, I dislike my family as a whole with the exception of my mother who is a good listener and has attempted to help me with my mental issues.
I hate the outside world, it's an all too accepting place with too much freedom. I am a sheep and wish to be herded as such, I want to die for something. I think this is why I find it hard to end my life even with depression constantly racking away at my brain.
My old cat grows older still and has begun meowing day and night, longing for attention or ease at mind. He'll die one day, and I'm afraid that he is the last connection to the world I truly have. I don't want a girlfriend, I can't stand the thought of having to deal with another person. I don't even care for affection, the perfect woman for me would be a complete cunt of a woman who shows loyalty, would have philosophical conversation, and had no need for a child but merely wish to have meaningless sex every now and then.
I feel as though I need to seek professional help, I feel broken. I don't want to live in this world anymore.
>tfw i failed my road test again today
>>24769011
Whoah I felt your feel through my computer screen. Stay strong, robot.
I also have 2 girls that I really want to see again, but they're gone, and they won't come back. I must forget.
>>24767625
What is this? Is it some weird Tumblrcore game or is it worth playing?
Judging from the information I've seen it could be fucking retarded or a decent thing to check out if it's similar to my situation lmao
>>24767818
>>24767915
No his name is Trevor Jackson.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pGhZHyLRgQs
>turned 24 a few days ago
>haven't had a friend in probably 10 years, even though I even went to college
>kissless virgin
>lost every ounce of motivation I ever had for anything once I graduated college and was still a complete loser
>had 20 years of a shit life
>start college and finally get a new chance
>people start looking up to me and I start seeing a qt3.14
>too high on my self after doing well in school that I start acting wreckless without thinking of consequences
>fuck her classmate and she ditches me
>now I'm back to a shit life smoking, drinking, slacking and can't stop thinking about her
wtf bros, after 20 years I had it all then lost it because of my own fucking stupiditiy
>>24763930
>Broke up with girlfriend over a month ago
>Made out with a Tinder date for 1,5 hours after three dates
Gee, I'm not sure I'm ready for another relationship robots :^)
>>24764897
just ask her out for a coffee or something, you don't have to tell her your crushing on her the first thing you do. if she's into you as well she isn't going anywhere if you start seeing each other
>>24763973
I was browsing this thread on my laptop. Had to stop, open it up on my phone, so I could save this picture. Thanks
>tfw planning to fly around the world to meet your girl
>>24768598
i feel for you anon.
why does hurting last so long, and happiness so short
>>24768853
There is nothing wrong with that anon, go for her and break free from the robot life.Don't turn into a normie though.
>>24769269
I know this feel, to a degree.
I don't have anyone I can rely on really and I have become so tired of it all that I can't find the motivation to better myself.
I am pretty good with people and I am well liked by most that I meet, I have even had some women show interest in me, but I find them all so vapid and repulsive so I reject them all.
I don't know what I'm supposed to do. There's nothing I want more than a really meankngful relationship with someone I care about, but I can't find it in me to care about anyone or anything. No amount of self-improvement will change who I am and the odds that someone that I could care about is just going to show up out of the blue are extremely low. I don't know what to do.
>tfw you posted 15 pictures of qt girls in a thread on /r9k/ but a sjw janitor came in and deleted entire thread
>>24769986
Anon, you don't want a relationship. You only think you do because of your surroundings and the common thought process that many invest in.
Friends and relationships are to the mind what narcotics are to the junkie. Seek nourishment in literature. It's better to be soulful than happy.
If you are truly like me, you know that happiness just leaves you sad at night.
>tfw no one ever feels your feels
>not white
>started browsing /pol/ a few years ago
>really feel bad about myself even though I know stereotypes and generalizations are just that
>know my sister lost her virginity with ease around 17
>she pretends she was every "socially awkward" or anything
>>24770135
What are your feels? Maybe I feel them.
>>24770081
Possibly. I'm definitely not going to argue against your point because I really don't know whether you're right or not. More than anything I just want a normal, quiet life. And when I say normal, I don't mean the hedonistic, narcissistic kind of lifestyle that passes for normal today, I just want to have a decently paying job, an average place to live and someone to come home that cares about me, but maybe it's foolish of me to even strive towards that.
I wish I just had some direction or a clear goal i my life. I don't even have the courage to kill myself.
>above average looks
>stay inside drink/drugs everyday
>keep telling myself one day ill go be a normie
>
>>24763930
I started NoFap to see if I'll become more confident and and attract women, however I'm afraid that even if I manage to do it nothing will change.
Am I wasting my time? Should I continue, or it's all useless?
>>24770567
Every time I get small bouts of confidence and attempt to do things the factors of why I'm depressed come back into play and ruin my day. It sucks because I can't improve my life because of it. All I have to say is don't get your hopes up, try it, but don't go all in
>>24770567
I can only speak from experience but I have found it useless. Still, I recommend you give it your all, it's not that difficult and you will hopefully gain more self-respect.Even if you don't gain more self-respect the next time you do masturbate will be much more enjoyable, that much is guaranteed.
>tfw gf you know is too good for you
I don't see how anyone could ever like/love me because I hate myself so fucking much.
>>24764144
I would suggest trying to get a job where no one really has to see your face. Do you play any instruments? Anything?
>tfw you've been in love with a fictional character for two years
>tfw you don't find real women attractive any more
>tfw you will never be able to hold her
>tfw you will never be able to kiss her
>tfw you will never be able to tell her how much she means to you
>tfw you cry almost every morning when you wake up without her next to you
>tfw cuddling a pillow as you try to sleep, pretending it's her
>>24769625
24 has been the magic age for me where everything feels way more hopeless than ever before
>>24770795
well, don't let her know you know that
>>24770711
pretty much what happens when I try to quit smoking. All the negative thoughts of why I'm such a failure come on full force and make me just wish I was dead
>be me
>neet faggot 21
>good face but really fat and shit like that
>no motivation
>plans to kill myself
>start exercising
>lose 140 pounds
>start weight lifting
>now 26
>9/10 chad was a 4/10 fatty
>only come here to remember the neet times
There is always hope friends.
>>24763930
You guys need to learn to let go
Real love with your onetis doesn't exist. In general real love doesn't exist. It's just human being seeking a ideal partner to reproduce. We are just doing it by impulse, not by contemplating thoughts about having kids or starting a family.
Ask yourself, do you and your onetis have anything in common?
Or are you just attracted to her because of physical looks?
Attachment is the root of all suffering
The good chippy I go to got a new Indian woman and she's shit at battering the fish. It's basically battered batter with fish flavour.
Then she has the audacity to ask me if I want extra "bits". Is that a fucking joke?!
Yeah m8 ill have battered batter with batter sprinkled on top w/ s n' v.
This has seriously rewined my week desu. I'm madly vexed.
>check out a thread you posted in
>tfw realize how stupid your post was
>tfw clarity
Good feels
Newish pc gets me out of bed every day
Hot cousin hugged me and I felt her tits on my chest
Had dream about qts I used to know and they loved me
Have enough money to eat decent food
Bad feels
Only girls I talk to are in my dreams
Gonna have bad news for my parents and will have to deal with their disappointment
and all the stereotypical r9k feels
>>24766451
My fantasies about gf/love are based around all too vivid dreams I've had of a gf/love.
Is this how Tulpas begin? This is not a path I want to go down.
When you start to fantasize and get nostalgic over a dream you've had, it's time to start worrying.
>Be 19
>Been in the military for well over a year and a half
>Military life has ruined everything I used to enjoy
>Nothing feels enjoyable anymore
>Whatever sense of worth I once had is long gone
>No longer feel like an individual, just a cog in a machine
>Have tried to fix things, but the nature of the Marine Corps makes it too hard to get help
>"Hey anon, you feeling ok?"
>"Y-Yeah, sure, Corporal"
>tfw can't fantasize about anything because I'll just cringe about it
>tfw more and more nights and angry self loathing
>tfw sperged out a couple day ago and did a bunch of embarrasing exercises
>tfw could barely walk the next day from all the squats in the spergfest
>tfw may have fallen in love with another anime character
I'm losing it
>>24772392
are you a NEET too? All I can do anymore is live in depression of being such a shitty NEET that has to leech off mommy and daddy to survive
>>24771628
I've been medically downgraded from combat fitness.
I was earmarked for officer-ship, now.I'm an admin clerk in a shitty unit. S'not so bad, superiors.aren't that strict, but I'm stuck here for two bloody years doing the same old thing.
>outside just walking around town
>notice that alot of grills are looking at you
>think "i must look good today"
>feel confident and happy
>walk past a building
>see your own reflection on the glass and realise that you are ugly af
>everyone stared at you because you are that ugly
>feel horrible and walk home
>>24764175
I usually take a nap when i feel hungry. Sleep away the hunger like a nigger in poverty
>Getting called samefag when you didnt
>>24769551
Nigga do you have any proof that you used to know him?
>tfw done nothing all day
>tfw still unemployed
>tfw my mind is all foggy and can't focus
>tfw videogames suck
>tfw all I want to do is sleep
>>24772965
>tfw flat mates at uni are pretty chill except "that guy"
>in freshers casually dropped in a sentance that the doctors said he was disabled (later realised he has mild autism)
>when all of us chill in the kitchen and talk he only talks about how much cider he can drink and repeats the same 2 stories over and over again
>whole flat thinks he's a massive loser behind his back and takes the piss out of him
>refuses to go out with people because he doesn't like the music
>prefers to sit in his room and talk to his 'friends' while playing dota
>is an abosolute buzzkill since if anybody is trying to have a conversation he'll talk over them, "I drank 6 ciders last night and I never get drunk"
That guy is you /r9k/
>>24772849
This feel, this right here, I feel it too every single day.
I have a qt gf though.
>>24773102
>>24772965
Didn't mean to reply to you there. Sorry bra.
>tfw been on 4chan since 2005
>tfw been on /r9k/ since the beginning
>tfw can remember when there were little to no normies here
>tfw can never bring those times back
>>24771442
>When you start to fantasize and get nostalgic over a dream you've had, it's time to start worrying.
What should I do then?
>>24766631
I know this feel. I am waiting for the day where someone more confident than I swoops in and makes her his. It hurts.
Just had a breakdown again and cried for the last hour. Tried to stab myself with a broken piece of mirror, but could barely break the skin of my neck. Good thing I'm a coward, I guess.
Do antidepressants and anti-anxiety meds really work? I think I want to try for once to see if they'll help.
>>24763930
> tfw you've felt alright for a while then you have a night when you can't sleep and everything comes back to haunt you
feeling ok because i know things work out in the end
>Used to consider myself a 5/10
>Insert 3 years of /r9k/
>Now wondering if there's something below 0/10
>Took hundreds of selfies from every angle to see what's wrong with my face but can't put my finger on it
>>24774308
Where did you get the broken piece of mirror?
>>24774531
I dropped my mirror in my apartment a few months ago and it broke. Didn't want to spend money on a new one so I just kept the biggest pieces.
>Have done nothing except watch anime for three weeks now
>Anime backlog has gone from high 40s into high 20s
>Every episode of everything makes me feel old and like I've wasted every opportunity of my life, but I can't make up my mind about what I want to do to overcome the stagnation anyway, and I wouldn't know how I'm going to get there or if it's going to pay out either
>Adamantly continue to watch seasons of stuff and feel like shit
The Divine Comedy is lots of fun to read.
Most people I know are dead
... I do a lot of drugs...drink more than eat... Ive lost all hope. Gonna end it soon.
>tfw losing my only friend
>is an online friend, yet knows me better than anyone
>i can feel us fading and him getting more and more bored of me
>starts ignoring me
mfw i think this is somewhat bc of the online gf i encouraged him to pursue
mfw i still think about him lots and i know he's just thinking of her 24/7
>>24774389
post pic and i'll tell u my opinion
There's a girl that was in my class last semester. She was cute, shy, messy hair, didn't wear make up. Her attendance was really bad. I looked her up on facebook and I found out we share a lot of the same hobbies, like videogames and anime. I started crushing on her hard even though I've never said a word to her. Occasionally I would see her looking at me out of the corner of my eye or standing near me while waiting for class. I want her to talk to me.
I hope she's in my classes next semester.
>>24774903
Do it soon before you project too many attributed onto her that she doesn't have in reality
>>24774931
I'm too much of a coward and don't want to bother a stranger.
>>24774972
Yeah iktf, better to just put her out of your mind since it won't happen the way you're hoping
>move to city to live with gf
>be jobless for two months, but finally land legit big boy job
>gf breaks up with me two months later, tell me to GTFO of the apt by the end of the month
>in a total stroke of luck i meet some dude on craigslist whos looking for a roommate
>'dont worry about the security deposit and this months rent, i already paid it bro'
>everything worked out alright/still have good job
>all i do now is drink tho
Christ only knows why I'm asking you guys this question, but what do i say if a girl asks if I like her? Do i tell her to figure it out on her own or come honest? Pls help, robots. I don't wanna be a robot forever.
>be me
>knew a girl on internet
>get a long
>meet up, end up kissing
>she tells me she has a boyfriend
>he is travelling
>whe hang out another day, more kisses
>we really feel a connection between us
>start falling in love
>his boyfriend finally comes back
>she erases me from her life
>feeling like shit since then and crying everyday
>>24775028
You say "Yes" if you like her or "No" if you don't.
>>24775028
Ask her how she feels first. Try to get a more complete picture of how she may feel about you.
>Random person adds me on Whatsapp
>Keep asking me a lot of questions
>"Who the hell are you??"
>tell me she is a girl
>i ask for pic
>she sends me , solid 6/10
>asks for a picture of me
>i deliver it
>her last time seen:11/28/
Dunno what she was up to
>be armyfag
>live in the barracks so my only methods of eating are going to the mess hall or hitting the nearby gas station
>one of the cashiers at the gas station is this qt asian who always greets me
>always asks how I'm doing then replies with "that's good to hear"
>be today
>smoking a cigarette out back (my room is towards the back of the building)
>see the same qt asian sneaking out the back door at noon, carrying a bag and wearing sweatpants
Some guy was probably banging her out all last night. Just when you think you know people.
>tfw bf left me
>tfw he told me it was because he wanted to be with a "real" girl who "can give him kids"
>tfw have nobody else in my life
I should just die.
>>24775299
Kill yourself tranny.
>tfw stressing about uni 24/7
>twf to depressed to study
I'm doomed to failure. There's no stopping it
>>24774851
I don't wear my hair like this
>>24775317
I probably should. Maybe then he'd at least feel bad about leaving me all alone for not having a pussy.
>>24775386
Without that long ass hair you look decent
>>24767154
i know that feel
it hurts
>>24775507
The long hair is fine, its just unkempt as hell and needs to be managed,
>>24775507
Couldn't imagine chopping it off after so long.
>>24775386
you're attractive
>tfw date with my girlfriend tomorrow
>Bunch of texts from her throughout the weekend about how excited she is
>It's adorable
Great feels.
>>24775299
Every time I hear about a barren woman my heart sinks. I don't have any special place in my heart for female suffering but knowing you'll live your whole life without access to your gender's primary function is just... Shitty
>>24775651
I'm not barren, I just have a penis. He never minded before, but I guess he needs to continue his family's legacy or something, and I'm no good for that.
>tfw he used to cuddle up tight to me and tell me he loved me
>tfw he called me by a girl's name because he knew I liked it
>>24775299
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=55C0Dc6k7Ts
ema a best
>>24775696
How does it feel to only be called by your slave name now?
>>24775719
I had a webm of that and always wondered what it was from. Thanks, I guess.
>>24775386
>tfw people who look like this think they are unattractive
no hope for me.
>tfw super manlet
>tfw gay
>tfw only chance at getting bf is if i'm a twinky fag
>tfw losing hair since 16
>tfw hairy body
>tfw can't be a twink
>tfw can't get buff to get mad bp because short
>tfw no one wants a lonely depressed otter
>tfw going to die alone
but it's ok as long as i have alcohol. cheers, friends
>>24775736
Nobody calls me by any name anymore. He left. I don't have any family. I don't have any friends. I work from home, programming and designing websites, so I don't have coworkers.
>>24775748
Civilization's crumbling, Anon. There's no hope for anybody.
>get Carl's Jr
>decide to get their Call of Duty burger
>no code
>get drunk later that day and send an email complaint
>they sending me guest cards for a free meal
I feel pathetic but free food is free food.
>Got raise literally from $20 to $65/hour
>still feel empty inside
At least I can buy better things to distract myself now.
I have no friends.
I tried getting offline to make more friends IRL but I realized that the people IRL are fucked up, selfish and manipulative...
Now that I've come back to being online, everyone has moved on. The groups I used to be a part of are secluded or don't come online.
I just want to have friends again. I want to play games and stay up all night talking.
I feel so alone.
>>24775763
>Carl's Jr. Call of Duty burger
I have a hard time believing a Carl's Jr. burger will regenerate your health
I'm going to fail my first class ever this semester.
The last day to drop was mid-November. At the end of November we had a test and I got the date wrong and missed it(the tests aren't in-class, they're in our colleges 'testing center')
Feels super bad man.
>>24775559
Youre a big guy
(Not fat but pretty built no homo)
>tfw got drunk at work and called a customer a moron
manager wants to see me on monday morning. i'm already on probation and i don't want to be a NEET
>>24763930
>get a gf
>she has more feelings for me than I do for her
>I want to bail out and stay a virgin
>too late
Tfw oldfag.
Applied for my drivers license today.
Only a few millenniums late
>>24775559
With short styled hair you would be hot as fuck, seriously. I'd hit it.
I know a guy who looks just like you but with short hair and he's fine as hell.
>tfw existential crisis is setting in
>tfw youre contemplating your own mortality
>tfw the only girl that ever really loved you couldn't handle me cause too emotionally unstable
>tfw sent to the psych ward three times in less than a year for psychosis
>tfw can't even continue being a wagekek because I broke my ankle a a few weeks ago
>mfw I can't even drive
>>24764897
>take testosterone
>stills acts beta
LMAO
How the hell am I supposed to ask a girl out if she's with her friends all the time?
The only thing worse than rejection is flat-out humiliation in front of her bitchy friends.
>>24775812
When Gotham is ashes you have my permission to lift
tfw
>have a good job
>make decent money
>am /fit/
>cant get laid
>have friends only at work
>spend time learning to green text instead of working on social skills.
>failed post
>not even cool on 4chin
>>24775386
your hair is cool
>>24775896
I would feel a lot better if this came from a female but I know where I am and these things don't happen here.
>>24775919
i hate that shit, anon. I was planning on asking out this girl who was as close to a ten as i've ever seen. Thing was, she was relatively new to the school district at the time (this was in 8th grade) and her best friend was an obnoxious bitch
>>24775806
It's only CC, you'll live
>>24764897
>next 3 years in the same classes if she says no
Take it from me this is literally a fate worse than death. She can and will use it for social leverage for free sympathy and attention from her peers by demonizing you as a "creep" or "potential rapist". And with the campus sexual assault withhunt going on now, the school may investigate you whether or not she initiates it, and guess what, they already think you're guilty.
This is exactly the reason we have the saying "don't shit where you eat".
Don't do it. It's not worth it throwing away your future over some whore.
>>24776007
It is from a female.
tfw so fucking bored of videogames and music
Tfw if I get a job I'll probably get fired for sexual harassment
>Finally met up with this girl from OKcupid
>Surprisingly not fat, actually somewhat decent looking
>Insecure about what she'd think about my appearance
>Seemed happy when she saw me and smiled
>Usually first impression is key, can usually gauge body language pretty well
>Sit and talk in a campus coffee shop
>Ended up talking and hanging out for about 2 full hours
>On way to leave seemed to be a bit awkward
>Told her I would text her later on and maybe try to do something
>Seemed to be okay with it but I sensed that maybe she wasn't being completely honest about wanting to do something again
I don't know if it is just cause maybe girls get nervous when they find a guy they like? Or she was just reacting to not really wanting to see me again by not seeming too "into" it when I said something about it on the way out. Fuck I analyze this shit way too much.
But I figure all we are doing is sitting around with our drinks in the cafe and if a girls not into it she'll try to hurry up the interaction and say she would have to be somewhere instead of staying and talking for a couple hours. Or she could have done that to let me down easy, I don't know.
Whats r9k's take on this?
>>24769269
the way you type is just A+ robot
>>24776008
she was pretty much always around her, so i never really got a chance to talk to her. seriously regret it now
>tfw 5'1 manlet
>>24763930
>tfw it seems like the majority of threads in r9k are trolls and b8 threads consciously trying to make you feel more insecure
>>24775696
oh then I no longer feel bad
you did it to yourself
>>24776033
Why not just fucking ask her instead of asking a bunch of socially inept retards?
Just text her
"So, how was that? I was nervous but I really enjoyed myself, would you want to meet up again sometime?"
just get it over and done with
>>24763930
>my gf won't let me Kiss her when we're outdoors, despite the fact that the places we're normally at are scarcely populated
>always look like the bad guy whenever I yell at my annoying cousin. Like I give a fuck about your piano recital, stupid little girl. Fuck.
>same cousin follows me everywhere and always wants to talk which is annoying as hell. Gf is the only reason she's allowed to do this. This is a reason why I can't Kiss her when I want to.
>always have to hear cousin call me "cool" and "wanting to be like me" when she grows up, and other faggy weak shit like that
>still haven't gotten that promotion yet, despite being better than all of my co workers, which sucks tits.
>got a mad case of runners knee and can't run for the next week, which pisses me off because if I want to be a SEAL I need to be the best, and now I'm stuck doing weak ass shit
>gf already wants to have a kid with me. Bitch just wants unrestricted access to my cash, I fucking know it.
>mom won't stop harping me about visiting my dad, even though that cock sucker left when I was 3. Fuck him and fuck her too, stupid son of a bitch.
>best friend died 2 years ago in action being more brave than I was and it still hurts me because i wasn't brave enough to join him when I promised I would
>sister still has cancer
>mom is a raging alcoholic
>everyone thinks I'm a chopper "Chad" and I've even had people outside of my stupid cousin say they want to be like me. They don't know anything.
>spend nights curled up in a ball and silently crying, having no one else to talk to except you losers, because I don't want to admit I am the lowest of the low
>how the fuck is my cousin supposed to think I'm cool when I'm a waste of skin? What the fuck is her problem?
>I don't deserve someone as good as her looking up to me. She needs to fuck off.
>I really just want to train hard and become a SEAL, and go out blazing. Leave this meaningless universe and simmer out.
Some fucking man I am.
>>24776028
I love you
>>24776031
I see this "bored of video games" a lot from people who play indies. Try out New Vegas, MGS3, or Silent Hill 3. They are undeniably the very best the medium has to offer. If that doesn't invigorate your hobby you should move on to comics.
I suggest starting with Swamp Thing.
>>24776014
Yeah I know. I'm actually concurrently enrolled at both CC and Uni.
I take as many classes at CC as I can because it's way cheaper.
This was supposed to be my list CC semester. Oh well..
Fuck statistics online, man.
>>24776107
I'm going to obviously, why would I invest the time and then not even try.
Just trying to prepare myself for the potential disappointment.
>>24775617
Not sure if i should be surprised that no one has typed this before on r9k
>>24776137
Sounds difficult, but if you're enrolled in both that shows you have some ambition and determination at least.
At least it'll be semi-easier the second time around, haha. Good luck, friend.
>>24776018
Can confirm and back this fellow truth machine right here.
I could lose everything I hold dear monday.
>no news on if I still have my food benefits, waiting till monday to call cause >government building closed on weekends.
>crush has to have a camera put in his stomach as he's been having stomach pain. he said if its an life-threatening/bad disease he's going to off himself and I believe him
>my anxiety is getting worse everyday.
>found qt3.14 who's smart, I can talk to very easily, and likes the same hipster music I do
>99% sure I saw her holding some chump's hands the other day
>there's another girl too, but I don't really talk to her
>When I do though, she's nice and smiling, but I know that doesn't really mean anything.
Pressing buttons on a keyboard will never convey how I feel right now which you can relate to by reading a computer monitor.
>>24768497
happy birthday bloxlox
>>24775759
you sound like my friend cassie
my kik is 9kxx if you need a friend
>>24776413
I don't use kik. I have nobody I would talk to.
>tfw 24 and only ever had a shit blowjob from a hooker.
>tfw still crushing on oneitis after 7 months, we don't even work together anymore or speak. I literally have noone else to think about, it fucking sucks.
>>24776429
if you want a friend you can make one, thats the best method of getting a hold of me
sorry
> work more than everyone else in the office
> bosses don't like me
> give minimum performance rating
> get fucked on my bonus
Everyone loves me, except for my cunt bosses. Should I quit? Should I an hero? Should I work less harder?
>>24775386
>>24775559
You look like this guy from One Life to Live
>>24776466
You have to keep busting ass. If you only work as hard as your peers you'll lose your job. Some people are just born to work twice as hard for the same reward.
>>24775786
What do you work as that you're earning over 100k a year?
>>24775786
Can you get me a job? maybe I won't feel so worthless and anxious then.been trying for months to get a job and no-one will hire cause no experience, not even during the holiday when extra people are needed.
>>24776576
I'm a programmer for some healthcare related project. My boss recommended me to another guy who needed a programmer since he was impressed at how quickly I fixed his website.
So now I have 2 bosses.
>>24776606
Sorry I can't. The new company wasn't publicly hiring when they signed me on.
>>24776662
Aw. Well, fuck. Thank you for responding and not ignoring me.
Goodguyanon.
>>24776466
Yes but only if you can find a better job.
Remember, they won't hesitate to get rid of you if they want to, take the same stance. If you feel management don't like you, you will be the first to go if they need to cut costs.
>>24776662
Nice. I'm at university just now for Games Development but to be honest it's pretty shit. Not really sure I have much prospects once I get out.
>>24776710
I know one of you faggots is going to ask me how I learned programming.
I've been doing it since I was 13 since I'm a lazy asshole who would rather tell a computer to do repetitive tasks for me than to do it by hand.
Not every programmer will get paid nearly as much as I am; there's a good chance you'll end up at the $15/hour level forever, and not even full time since you'll just be seen as a sort of computer handyman.
>>24776722
Get into database and data analytics shit. It's not as "fun" as making video games, but the skills are very much in demand now.
>tfw gf after 4 years of single
>during those 4 years i was very promiscuous
>had sex with a lot of dumb sluts and taken females
>want to be able to trust new gf but ruined due to sleeping with cheating sluts and knowing how easy it is to rip someone away from their S/O
>>24776789
Well I wasn't going to ask. I'm fucked when ti comes to pcs. I get confused to easily. frustrates the fuck out of people how dumb I can be.
>all these robots talking about the qts they met
>tfw literally can't even talk to girls
>i can get along with the lads at work just fine, but girls are out of the question
>tfw probably no gf ever
Probably gonna join the army after my electrician's apprenticeship is up.
>>24776789
Thanks for the advice. I hope things get better for you.
>rooming with a close friend of mine (really the only person outside my immediate family I talk to on a regular basis), we're going to the same college
>he's kind of a chad, goes on reddit, listens to pleb music, works out, and that kind of stuff
>I tagged along with him to a couple parties earlier in the year
>he didn't like that I wasn't able to make conversation with people there, now views bringing me along as a burden
>he's stopped inviting you to go with him to parties on the weekend
>now I'm in my room while the only friend I really talk to anymore is out having fun without me
I get that he's not responsible for my social life, and I'd probably do the same thing if I was in his shoes. But I'm sick of being lonely. I'm sick of only having one friend. Every time I think I'm getting used to my pathetic social life it always comes back to haunt me.
>>24777391
dude you need to have a talk with him about that. He'll understand if he is really your friend.
>>24776789
do you have a q t 3.14
>no aspirations, practically no social life, not interested in love or sex
>pretty healthy, stay away from drugs, alcohol, no disabilities etc.
>live an artificially content (video games, music, literature) and completely hollow life and do nothing to change it
>the best years of youth will end eventually, all of it spent sitting alone in my room
>always avoid confrontation, bothering anyone, sharing any issues etc.
somewhat petty but thought i'd share anyway
>>24777564
Honestly I don't think I will, because deep down I know it's not gonna solve my problems. As much hate to admit it, I know I actually am a burden to his social life. It hurts, but I brought this upon myself, and I am entitled to nothing.
The worst thing about this feel is not that I was betrayed. Rather it's that my own problems have caused the situation has come to this. Talking to him about it would, at best, put me in more awkward situations and get me nowhere.
>>24777680
No. Getting one is only going to add more problems since there is now another person in a position to cause even more harm to me, and they can and will fuck up.
>Mom is always jumping back and forth between places
>No job, IRS fucked her and said she owes $20,000. She say's she doesnt. Not sure if she's lying.
>If she gets a job IRS takes almost all of her monies
>Health gets worse and worse
>She's started having seizures
>Has gone to ER several times from having bad seizures
>Has a tendency to bust her face on something and cause an infection
>Her teeth are shit
>She knocked another tooth out
>She wont even go outside because of her health
>She can barely function as a human being, being stuck in bed from both pain and depression
>Heavy smoker
>mrw she's not even 40
>mrw my mom probably wont even make another 10 years
>mrw I wish something would happen and kill her softly so she wont have to be in pain and misery
Hurts, man.
>>24777833
that sucks man; please take care of your mother, because she's the only one you got
>>24771628
Lusk?
>>24763930
>tfw /r9k/ has made you more insecure
Listen to what you just said. Read those words again. /r9k/ is making your life worse. Please leave this place. You realize what it is doing to you. Please just leave this place. You know it'll make you better.
>>24778039
You have no idea how much I want to, but she lives a few towns over and I dont have a car. I can barely keep up with her because her phone goes on and off, or she gets another one. I can barely support myself, i literally survive on leftovers from work and black coffee while living in an apartment no bigger than a master bedroom.
>>24778175
Kek my life was rekt before I ever found this place
>>24777391
Maybe he thinks you're uncomfortable and doesn't want to pressure you into tagging along. He could just be doing what he thinks is best for you without realizing he's hurting you.
>>24775386
I refuse to believe you don't fuck every girl you meet
my glasses just broke.
can't do anything about it till monday
and then probably going to have to wait forever for them to fix them.
I'm going to blind forever.
Monday is going to suck so much for me.
>mother has been telling me that she will be really pissed if I don't have A's in all my courses this semester
>surprise surprise, I have an A, three B's, and one fail
>tfw she is eventually going to find out and will probably hate me for wasting all the money she spent on tuition because I'm a lazy worthless fuck
>tfw loneliness has gotten to a point where I feel like I'm physically dying of it
>tfw can't stop thinking about how suicide would solve all of my problems
>tfw constant thoughts of regret for not saying yes when a qt that liked me mutually asked me if I would go out with her frequently now
>tfw this was almost four years ago
She was a bit of a cutter but still
Anyone else getting a connection error?
Cat died a few days ago and I can't think straight or do anything.
I'm gonna drop out of university and be a vagabond.
Fuck this gay world
There is no God
>was feeling happy for once because finally arrived at college when I thought I would never make it
>now the charm is fading
>everything's getting on my nerves
>starting to get aggravated by my roommate who I considered a good friend of mine until I realized how vastly different we are as people
>haven't said a word to him in probably a week
>all my high school friendships that actually meant something to me have become Skype friendships
>started to break down over Skype with my best friend the other night but haven't felt that down since
>just feel empty and depersonalized
>starting to feel more like a movie character than an actual person
>Have seen multiple qt's throughout semester
>Can't talk to any because nothing to talk about because I am an autist who can only talk about history
>Watch everyone else in uni get a group of friends or even a gf
>just stay in my room shitposting on 4Chan and reading a history book
>Even the guy who walked around campus in a halloween costume of FullMetal Alchemist has a more constant friend-base than me
>Literally just me and a Slavaboo who meet at trivia once every three weeks
>Only have Russian and Bengali Skype friends
>Talk about my problems with them
>They stop talking to me, except good old Nikodimus
>He is just never online anymore
>Can't wait to go home, at least I have a few friends there
>>24767654
It's because we ARE dumb, but jesus christ other people are fucking retarded. That's not even being narcissistic. Sure some of them are nice people, but they're fucking horrendously stupid. I just wish I wasn't so nihilistic towards study after my school fucked me over time and time again so that I could actually get somewhere in life.
>>24763930
>been in Benzo withdrawal for the past 9 months due to bad doctor
>given meds by other worse doctors when I was a child against my will, fundamentally altering my brain chemistry for the rest of my life
>parents complain they have no money, but still allow me in the house because they feel guilty for causing me all this pain
>Can still tell how much they resent me.
>still suffering from adverse effects and bad doctors
>genitals constantly hurt due to withdrawal and circumcision-exposed glans
>painful to poop because of itestinal problems caused by withdrawal
>symptoms make it difficult for me to stay balanced, so I can't drive or leave the house without hurting myself
>every waking moment feels like fire as my nerve-endings burn the drugs
I hate the doctors, I hate the man who mutilated my penis when I was born into a Jewish family, I hate the people who raised me and their culture. Have you ever felt this way /r9k/? Like everyone who's supposed to care for you has been discretely destroying you "for your own good" throughout your entire life? My genitals have hurt since I was a child from the medications and the circumcision that was forced upon me. Because of these things that have changed me physically and mentally, I fell that I've been stripped of myself, that because I am altered I am worth less than other people, that I am not whole. Not even my thoughts are my own.
I'm a freak who is in constant pain, violated, raped, and I want to scream but nothing comes out of my mouth. I need someone to talk to who will just hear me, to be held and told everything is alright, but there is nobody here to do that for me. I promise that if I ever get better one day that I'll take care of people who need me. There is so much love in my heart to give but I have nobody to share it with. Nobody will stand next to me and hold my hand. That's all I ask but it's too much. If someone were to do just that, I would do anything for them.
God has abandoned me.
>tfw finally starting to get rich and successful
>tfw already did proof of concept on my "If I get rich, I can get laid even though I'm an ugly robot" plan
>tfw this plan took 5+ years
>tfw if it hadn't worked I was going to kill myself
>tfw it's working
>tfw it's actually working
>tfw this is the Summer of George
>>24771442
>tfw nostalgic and fantasizing about a dream
>tfw want nothing more than that dream to come true
>>24764144
>failrue at everything
>failrue
oh the irony
didn't fail those dubs though
>>24777833
>>Heavy smoker
>>mrw she's not even 40
>>mrw my mom probably wont even make another 10 years
>Ask mom to get life insurance policy leaving everything in your name (if she doesn't already have one)
>Kill worthless debt creating mother 6-12 months later
>Profit
>>24769692
Icarus
>>24763930
Every time I get drunk, I just want to die and end this pointless life.
>>24768853
Iktf. I thought I was the only one who loses my motivation to fap once a romantic opportunity arises.
I want to die i'm so alone
>>24763930
>tfw u get laid, get some weed, get some money, feel empty
>>24764064
Baby steps, anon. You first doesn't have to be your last.
>>24763930
Pretty much just small dick.
Mediocre Average at everything else though
>Still no gf
>>24766451
>tfw even in my love dreams my oneitis is always with tall Chads while I try to walk away looking at the ground
>>24769269
>have philosophical conversation with
>>24769269
Are you me?
My cat finally died last year.
I should have just made myself a grave right next to him.
This year was fucking hard.
I feel like going out to get a snack. What should I get?
>You fall for your older cousin, but too autist to even talk to her
>>24770367
I feel that modest dream of yours is not so modest anymore. Consider housing prices, the failing job and relationship market, even having at stable job and home at 30 is high expectations.
>>24769269
>>24769986
>>24770081
Would kick it with you guys.
My last connection I thought I had was my mom.
>Down to my cat now.
I ponder day in and day out. What do I want?
>What, who is anon(me)
>What is that which is the most basic form anon, what does it strive for. What does my being wish to obtain, ect.
I don't even know who I am sometimes. I just look up and wonder, is this me? Or am I just a projection of a facade I put on years ago.
>>24778892
you are literally me 2 years ago. half the people who've moved to college feel the same way.
i regret not talking to my roommate very much, say hi to him and stock the fridge with snacks and tell him he can have some and stuff.
>>24779716
Hot cheetos
>>24771338
For me, letting go means having nothing else to grab onto. I think it's true for most other robots/failed normies as well.
>>24779871
and arizona
>>24776474
fucking TODD
>all I want to do is draw and play guitar/make music, maybe sing
>don't have the money, skills, or talent to do that
>I thought I was smart all my life
>Now that I'm college I realize how the undergraduate level of instruction is super simplistic and barely scratches the surface of anything
>True understanding will only begin to come at the graduate level
>My TAs, my professors, are just on another level of intelligence from mine.
>I will never truly understand anything
>>24779297
Everyone is a victim of their circumstances.
I made some OC, hope you guys like it
>>24779959
clean up the fucking pixels adam
>>24779871
Thanks, but I'm not feeling hot cheetos right now. I'll probably just grab an orange from the kitchen and save my time and money on going somewhere.
>>24767985
Jesus, exactly this. My entire life was destroyed because I was acted smug when I shouldn't have. My parents only made it worse by reinforcing it.
>>24763930
>tfw i want to help everyone that's sad or depressed or lonely but i don't know how to even help myself
>>24763973
>my gf is bound to show up sometime
this is why you guys are never going to get a gf, the fact you sit around waiting for her to show up.
>>24767985
Don't be too hard on yourself, kids are massive fucking douchebags
I was one of those borderline autistic-savant kids, on a college reading level in 3rd grade, that kind of thing. I was never an elitist prick about it because as a kid I didn't even realize I was very far ahead of anyone else.
Still got bullied all to fuck because kids aren't fucking people, they don't have empathy, and am still fucked up over it today. Went through the same cycle of grades dropping in middle/highschool, along with unrelated issues.
>>24768051
Oh god
Are you me?
>spent most of age 17 out of school and in therapy, 4 weeks in a psych ward, severe ruminative OCD and derealization
>graduate HS when I'm 18 at a small alternative school, easy but educational (except I learned more geography than physics in physics class)
>entertaining times, almost like the psych ward with all the personalities, don't really keep any relationships and don't find anyone to lose my virginity to, but I wasn't worried about that
>work until I turn 19 on 9/23/15
>been NEET again since, I hear back on Monday from an excellent college that I expect to get into, if I do I start on 1/4/16
>seriously contemplating attempting to "get rich quick" before then and giving it to my parents to pay for this fall, and then devising another, bigger scheme after that to set me up for rest of my life
>still really struggling with odd, outdated, outlandish, and even crazy scruples that might cause me to join the Foreign Legion, or kill myself, or something
>plus the stupid fucking repetitive few sentences that make up 90% of my daily thoughts, of course
and about the virginity thing, I just decided to talk to girls on the street during the summer when I was 18 and now I've had
>1 night stand- young dutch virgin qt nerd, taller than me and heavier than me
>1 night stand- 27 year old Laquisha, taller than me and heavier than me
>stayed in a qt virgin (white) basketball player's dorm for 3 nights in a row, had a lot of sex, taller and heavier than me
>a few weeks fling I guess with pic related, bit of a party girl, also taller and heavier than me, she's still texting me since we had sex the other day but it might be over
>all of them really liked me but I kinda had to fake it
>also never had a waking orgasm
also
>I obviously like the big girls, and I've got an OK aesthetic for that (5'10, 160, look young but good and I was a state qualifier in wrestling, I've stayed fit) but I wish I were smaller 2bqh
>>24775559
It's your clothes, f4m. They make you look like a faggot. Maybe do something with your hair, too. Face is good, beard's fine. Just dress well and you'll look and feel better.
>tfw moving out of state next month
>tfw almost going to be out of money
>tfw will have to find job
>tfw i hope i don't and instead i stop futilely buying myself time
>tfw want to rock bottom as hard as possible so i have no choice other than killing myself
>tfw want to die and don't want to get better
>tfw i just want to stop
now that's what i call #edgy! volume 3
>>24763930
>tfw /r9k/ has made you more insecure
No, you became more secure in your knowledge that what you knew about yourself and the world was all true.
>>24775235
She is just being friendly and using manners dude. Funny how robots think when a girl is being friendly, it means she wants to fuck you. You're just an entitled cunt.
>tfw 23 year old virgin
Passed the point of no return ages ago and I don't even care anymore
>Couple months ago
>About to live in a foreign country for a few months
>"Heh, maybe I'll meet the love of my life there."
>Yeah right
>Today
>It happened, we're happily dating
Hnggg we're all going to make it senpai.
>>24780511
What country fambotbud?
>>24780529
Japan
ORIGINAL COMMENTO
>>24780570
Nice. Livin' da dream my mandroid
>>24780570
I hate to be that anon, but
>seriously implying she isn't just hopped up on white dick fever
>>24780585
She's a virgin, so I'd be surprised if that was it. But it could be. You never know.
>tfw 24 year old virgin
>tfw never really lost hope
>tfw slowly realizing that hope was solely based on having never really tried and the belief that if I ever got my shit together things would just work out
>tfw slowly realizing I will never try to change it due to my fear of that last hope getting crushed by failure
>>24775235
Whenever I think about joining the army I think about how shitty it will be and realize wagekeking is better
>>24780214
Delay moving. Get a job at a franchise and transfer instead. You don't want to end up like those homeless dudes who fucked up their chance to recover.
>Started listening to ASMR stuff out of curiosity
>Hear it is supposed to help you sleep
>It always just gives me erections
>Have now fallen in love with an ASMR girl
>Fantasize about her, had a dream about her after listening to one of her videos
>>24763930
I'M SO EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE HOLY FUCK.
I'm stone cold unemotional unfeeling robot for most of the day hiding my emotions. Then I listen to an emotional song at night or watch a mildly sad video and start crying out of nowhere. It always hits me.
no gf few friends gonna fail out of grad school in 2 weeks. hate my life hate myself drinking myself away and no longer in shape. JUST.
Planning to off myself this tuesday. Going to mix bunch of xanax with alcohol and sleeping pills. Too affraid to jump or hang myself so I won't do it. Been having suicidal thoughts everyday for couple of years now. Finally feeling like it's the only solution I have.
>>24780053
This. Get the fuck out there and earn your happiness you faggots and stop thinking you're just entitled to it.
Oh god he left me for a stacy, and not even a cute stacy at that. I mean I know I'm not the coolest greatest most attractive person out there but there was no warning, I was just trying to spill my feelings </3 I think he probably feels I should just get my heart broken and get it ovr with so I can be "stronger" because he's not liable for my feelings which is true, it's just he can't know how this feels.
He's the only person who ever understood me or knew what I'm going through and knew the real me, the one I wasn't trying to hide from everyone and none of that even mattered. I thought I could be a good enough person who can function and be ok with themselves but it's like a light went off in the world, it's so very cold at night. Sometimes I have dreams where we pick right back up where we left off and I get REAL FEELINGS but it's only ever a dream ;_; I miss him I miss me I miss feeling. It was true all along that I never deserved him, even if he thinks he just moved on or that he can do what he wants, I can't ever forget him. It's been 2 years already, fucker took a hole from my heart.
>>24781488
catatonic logorrhea, my whole existence is bullshit, and I have nobody to turn to . That feel of being looked down on because you're low tier beta garbage who can't convey themselves correctly because you aren't aware of what you're feeling, just that it all hurts when it's not all numb
>>24781488
Why not have sex with some of your orbiters?
>>24781586
none ;_; like I don't think you get what I mean when I say I have nobody to turn to, I come here to relate to people at best, at most I pretty much just exist. Nobody wants to be around somebody that self-pitying and down on themselves, but thanks for trying to be thoughtful anon, it really helped a lot.
>>24781607
and also I'm boring so I don't blame people for not wanting to be my friend. I only exist for myself these days, it's a lonely existence. I have like cabin fever or something from just never leaving the house and never having real human contact.
>>24781607
>>24781586
God, I hate 4chan sometimes. "I'm a person here's my experience(ohyahI'magirl)" "OHFUCK AGIRL YA YOUR FELINGS DON'T REAL HAHAHAH BTFO GO FUCK AN ORBITER" so goddamn threatened by nothing, but noooo you definitely put her in her place good job; even though she said she has no orbiters and no friends. You're an idiot>>24781586
>made out with a girl last night after she was coming on to me the whole night
>still fucking wondering if she really wanted it or she was trying not to be rude by not rejecting me
There has to be a name for this mental illness.
>>24775386
Its hard to believe that don't fuck a bunch of chicks,if you get fit with that hair you are legit pussy slayer
Unless you like cock seeing that Pink camera top kek
>>24781627
>and also I'm boring so I don't blame people for not wanting to be my friend.
;_; tfw
If this was the old (not old old, obviously) r9k I'd just say "tfw" but I gotta say more.
>>24781673
Surely you'll get laid now
>>24776293
2deep4me
>>24781753
Tfw you hate the original comment shit, but now you realise its there to teach us to say more and have a proper conversation
You woken me up with that comment anon thanks
>>24770474
i can relate to this feel my friend
>>24781753
yup I know that feel friend
*sips beer, proceeds to be boring*
No but I have more to say, really I'm not that boring, I just don't like self praise and I don't go out of my way to talk about myself and also I think I might have alexithymia but idk because I don't have enough /lifeexperience/ just that I know I fucking hate socialising and putting myself out there. Also do you sometimes or often compare yourself to other people/people "better"? I do that all the time, man.
>>24771628
LCpl here. I know that feel, bro.
>>24771628
I can't even get promoted beyond PTE in my country because I didn't complete BMT due to a medical condition.
>>24781365
Who do you listen to anon?
>first weeks of college
>qt girl sees me, asks me about myself
>holy shit a girl likes me
>talk to qt girl
>we agree to see each other the next day
>next day...
>we are getting drunk
>we go to my dorm room
>sexy things happen
>im so drunk my dick was not working
>its like half chub, i stick it in anyways
>she laughs, says she can barely feel it
>[sweating intensifies]
>keep trying but shes not into it
>realize then and there, she is really fucking crazy wasted
>suddenly feel guilty about everything
>offer to take walk back to her dorm room
>she doesn't wanna go back, she wants to wander around the campus with me
>I agree to go with her
cont.
>>24775386
I like your hair, anon.
>>24782583
>while we are out, she keeps harrassing random people
>she is really fucking psycho drunk
>normally i'd laugh at these people, but the fact that shes dragging me into all her crap is making me really uncomfotable
>keep trying to take her back to her room but she says no
>finally the idea runs through my head to just ditch her, shes not worth the trouble
>distract her, abandon her, run away to my dorm
>lock myself in
>try to sleep
>shes banging on my door
>getting agitated as fuck
>can hear people outside the door trying to calm her down but she keeps yelling my name VERY LOUDLY
>[scared]
>after a while she just heads back to her room
>roommate comes in later, knows nothing
cont.
>>24782642
type faster
>>24782642
>the next day she shows up at my dorm door
>except with 8 other people
>roommate says "uhhhh theres some people at the door for ya..."
>i take deep breaths then head out to meet them
>she apparently has been saying that i raped her
>there is literally an angry mob that wants my head
>i ask the most reasonable one to speak with me and her in private
>her words that haunt me: "What gave you permission to have sex with me?"
>I... i dont know i thought that was what was supposed to be happening so i went with it...
>luckily her friend was quite reasonable and managed to get the drama diffused without me getting beaten
>one of her dudebro friends tells me if it ever happens again hes gonna beat the shit out of me
>tells me hes done tae kwon-do his whole life and hed nearly kill me if he wanted
>i try not to laugh at his meme self defense, but i honestly just feel terrible
and thats the story of how i became the most hated person at my dorm in the first week. Lucky for me i was free to bring my cafeteria meals to the rooms, cuz it was quite lonely.
>Get 8/10onlinegf
>She was15and I was 19
>She's also a tumblrina but not a SJW so I don't care
>Meet her irl once but we just cuddle and hold hands
>Initial love overdose wears off and I discover more things about her
>She's very negative. An emotional parasite, as I call it.
>I can't go out with friends I meet online because then "she's lonely". I can't even play or watch anything if she's online bcs she will keep texting me and she will get angry if I don't reply.
>Her parents are poor and very strict, so she's always complaining how lame that is.
>Also she's ultra paranoid and thinks everyone secretly hates her.
>Basically I'm her emotional punching bag
>I keep being her bf bcs I know I will not find another gf and maybe I can make her a better person
>Even then it's obvious I don't give a fuck anymore and we almost broke up twice
>She finds out that I was telling some friends the problems I have wih her
>After almost two years of relationship, she broke up with me definetly
>Also, don't have friends anymore bcs some drama I had with another bitch who everyone loves
I know I'm better without her, but I also know I will never get another gf and I still miss her.
>>24782689
sorry im fucking tired right now desu.
I still think about this 3 years later though. Haunts me
>>24782780
dude you dated a 15 year old? Sorry it's just....what did you expect? and what do you see in 15 year olds? gaaahhh
>>24782798
>>it's okay senpai. I just needed my feels. I hoped it worked out for you.
>>24782745
No words can describe my hatred for the "He tried to rape me while I was drunk and down to fuck!" story.
KILL
WOMEN
>>24776466
Yes, secretly seek employment elsewhere, and consider companies which reward hard work with upward mobility.
>>24781673
Wow, maybe she'll fuck you lol
>>24767154
Same here familia. Also feels like i am getting dumber and dumber as time goes on
>boyfriend left me as he claims it's to make me happy
>I insist he doesn't upset me
>he still believes my sadness is his fault
>now I'm alone without my childhood sweetheart
>>24782745
Umm, if she was too drunk to consent, that's rape, anon.
>>24783683
Perhaps you should have sex with one of your orbiters, senpai.
>>24783719
I have no orbiters
what next
>>24764119
How the fuck did expressing feelings become SJW
>tfw lost virginity
>>24783731
LOL check again. Seriously. If you go to your friends list on Facebook, anyone who doesn't have a girlfriend or isn't related to you will fuck you. If not, they're gay.
>>24783962
>using fb
>graduated top of my class in HS
>5 years later still two years removed from a mediocre master's degree
>literally everybody else is more successful than me, doing exciting and interesting things
>doctoral school, publishing articles in big newspapers, world trips
This is not how I thought it would be.
I went out with this uni girl on Thursday. It went really well and Friday night I slept over her place and we did everything but fuck (we're both virgins). Still, we both got each other off and have been having really good times together. Yesterday she mentioned how she couldn't stop thinking about Friday night/the next morning and eventually, last night we went downtown. Afterwards we cuddled and listened to a record I had just bought in my room. I ended up staying the night again and just got back. I asked, out of curiosity more than anything else, if I was her bf/she was gf and she said she wanted to take it slow for now. I'm still quite happy, I just wanted to get that off my chest.
tl;dr: >tfw almost qt gf
>>24766263
What skills do you intend to learn anon ? You can always start
>>24784088
Good stuff man but don't bring up the whole bf/gf thing again let her be the first to bring it up. This might not be your style but don't be afraid to get some on the side while you're waiting for her to make up her mind.
>>24784088
it only goes downhill from here
>>24784281
Yeah I figured as much. She's really cool and all so I'd be happy if she wanted to be that, but if she just wants to be FWB that's cool too. Girl I study with in Chem is also pretty cute and flirty, might take her out sometime.
>tfw uni break is a month+
>tfw girl 1 lives in Florida and I live in Boston.
Oh well, I'm confident things will work out well
I fucking hate my goddamn insufferable "friends". The way they act, the way they speak, the way they can't barely fucking hold up a normal conversation. I want them to burn in a fire. The way they speak consists entirely of goddamn fucking memes and I just tell from their lingo they've watched epik LPlayers like Markiplier or Pewdiepie. I fucking hate how one of my fat fuck friends is a fucking idiot and not in a charming good way . I fucking hate that theyre selfish egoistical pricks who constantly tries to be the center of attention. I fucking hate that they shit talk me when I am literally asking a simple fucking question. I fucking hate the way that they have to make everything a vessel for their fucking shitty personalities instead of professional communication i just fuck fuck fuck
The fact that 4chan is the only place as of now that i feel comfortable talking with depresses me already
Spare me a (You) lads
>>24784346
Yeah man you're doing well. Best of luck to you over the holidays it sounds like you'll have a couple of girlfriends by the time you get back to uni!
>don't know many girls
>don't know many people period
>no one ever texts me, I always have to start
I bet if I didn't try to make contact I'd drop off the face of the earth for them
Also no matter whether they're Stacy, normie or ""alternative"'" all girls want the same kind of guy which is not me.
Thanks for reading my blog.
>Tfw I can hear my sister having sex downstairs
Now I know how Elliot felt.
>>24784445
Here (you) go m7
>>24784475
I don't think I could handle this feel
>>24777729
I am pretty much the same but I honestly don't see a need to change myself. I enjoy the solitude, and the artificial content fills all my immaterial needs. And I live by the "We don't bite and avoid those that do" philosophy as well.
All in all it's not really a bad life in my opinion.
>>24784447
Thanks m8e, happy holidays
>>24784445
Sounds like a shitty group of friends, why don't you try to find a new squad? Dunno if you're in uni or anything like that but you that old advice about going to a club or whatever that focuses on a hobby of yours is a good way to meet a few new people
>>24784484
Thanks..
Friend ;_;
Wowthisisnotoriginal?
>>24784445
If the people around you drain your energy then I challenge you to break all contact with them and carry on your journey alone until a better group of friends show up.
>you will never be fultoned by Boss or Venom and live on Mother Base
Truly
The worst feel
>>24763930
>tfw feels are the best part of /r9k/
>>24779881
Tryna get him shot?
>tfw no motivation for surviving
>>24764144
Republic of Turkey?
>>24776867
that's a fucking nice pepe
i hate the content robot here
>>24782745
terrifying
>>24763930
> tfw can't even watch porn anymore because attractive women depress the fuck out of me
>>24783970
>not keeping in touch with your friends the way people keep in touch with their friends in today's world
>disregarding kekbook and therefore not being a participant in stuff your friends do
Ishygddt
>>24785444
>thinking facebook is the only way you can keep in touch with people
Are you still 15?
>>24785444
>Facebook is the only way to keep in touch with friends
Literally none of my friends have kekbook
>don't respond to facebook messages sent to me for some weird as reason. I just avoid it because I can't figure out what to type.
>People probably think I'm weird or weak for it. Piss people off on occasion.
>probably miss out on some social events for it
>pretty much living on a limited time span
>if shit hits the fan, I'm done for
>this will eventually happen and it'll probably be soon
>still do nothing about it
>On semester abroad
>In love with this girl who I haven't even asked out yet. Same personality as me.
>60-80% chance this girl likes me
>Leave in a month
>fuck
>>24785652
if that's true you've gotta at least ask her out to do something once, unless you want to be a mopey shit for the rest of your life after it
trust me
>>24785595
I've been in a place where I thought suicide was an inevitability at some point in my life. Just remember that things get better and if you pull the plug your wasting all of those opportunities.
>>24785530
>>24785572
>you spergs having friends
lol
>>24786096
I wouldn't lie over the internet anon. No one would do such a thing.
>>24774801
I'm in a somewhat similar situation and it really hurts
>tfw wasn't thinking about ex gf too much
>tfw got drunk and made a fake fb to view her wall
>tfw don't see much because of her privacy settings, only 1 new profile pic
>tfw look at comments
>tfw you see one of her uncles comment some shit about trying to scare boys away, and that he's worried that she smashed shit up
>tfw I know I'm reading way to deeply and I don't know how to stop it
>tfw
>went to trans girl's apartment
>it's desolate. The only populated room in the bedroom, with mattress, a computer, and clothing tossed through the room, along with Dr Pepper in bulk everywhere
>she sits on her computer playing Dota or counterstrike for hours
>occassionally roams to whataburger for food
>this is their entire life
>they have no aspirations, dreams, or goals
>they are content to die this way, unable to feel human compassion for them
>they radiate sadness in their every movement. Back broken from a suicide attempt, their body is as crippled as their mind
>all I can do is sit and watch, occassionally stroking her hair and hoping she'll respond to something I say, or say something on her own
>I just want to pull them out of this pit, but ultimately I can't do anything if they don't chose to be helped
>I'm just another blob that wondered into their existence, in the hope that I could have sex with them
>now I don't even care about the sex. I just want them to be freeThey spent last night replying to a thread about them, while I begged them to stop, knowing that they would just attract more and more hateful comments. No matter how beautiful or attractive I thought they were could fight hundreds of comments saying otherwise. And so I am just another human in the room, watching another being suffer, without them ever choosing to acknowledge their suffering.
>>24779379
Explain your concept George
>>24786746
Should've sucked her cock while she played, fuck I'm getting a boner just thinking about it.
>tfw you're falling fast for a 16 year old
>>24787457
Your age? And don't worry, 16 year olds are piss easy to manipulate.
>>24787212
I asked a few times but she just said no.
>>24787596
That's a shame, was she receptive to any advances you made??
>>24766451
>getting a gf in your dreams
fuck off normie
>watch inside out
>tfw your joy never made it back
>>24787621
We kissed the first night. Then she wouldn't let me the second. I jerked her off both nights. Didn't get reciprocal, nor asked.
>was always the weird/awkward kid
>parents have no idea how to raise children, compounds the problem
>parents divorce when I'm in junior high but force me to continue seeing shitty father
>no friends and can't consistently do anything on weekends due to custody schedule
>forced into team sports as a kid even though I'm legally blind
>major depression sets in around junior high due to all this
>only get by thanks to Halo 3 escapism, crippling videogame addiction ensues
>grades begin to tank, stop caring about grades at all
>get a little bit better in highschool; have a small circle of friends, less depression, still an awkward fuck
>immediately become the target of psychobitches because I'm like a real-life Michael Cera
>first girl I have any kind of relationship with mentally abuses me
>so fucking in love with this girl I don't care that she literally keeps me at arms length while talking about how she loves me
>psychobitch timebomb goes off, attempts to kill herself in school while blaming me for 'cheating on her' with her whore best friend
>entire world pretty much grinds to hault for me, haven't felt any emotional connection to another person since that day
>spiraled into 6 month long extreme depressed period
>didn't even lose my virginity; bitch is back in school the next week acting like nothing happened
>emotional anxiety/anger causes me to become incredibly toxic, burn all bridges with friends Senior year
>grades have maintained steady sinking pattern, combined with huge anxiety issues
>spend graduation ceremony almost having a panic attack expecting that I won't graduate
>have pretty much been a nervous, asocial depressive wreck since then
I will say there was one positive relationship I had in highschool, but it was very short lived and more wishful thinking on my part. But for the most part, the entirety of my adolescent life has been one long series of fuckups.
>>24767154
I know that feel
>couldn't live up to their expectations
>destroyed my body and mind and finances to create an elaborate illusion that I'm successful
>everyone buys it while I choke on debt and drugs to maintain the lifestyle expected of me
>dat deep deep shame
>>24787650
Don't mean to be rude but she sounds like a selfish cunt
>message girl on okc
>just views my profile, doesn't reply
Suffering
>>24787688
She's depressed, lonely, and constantly pushing people away.
I don't care, but I do feel used.
>>24787728
The best way to deal with someone like that is try and coax it out of them in a deep conversation about how she feels. Let her know that your willing to listen to what she has to say, if she wishes to say anything that is.
Off the top of my head, to get her talking deeply, start on the topic of how long she spends on the computer. She's clearly using it as an escape. That's your gold pass to the deep conversation. You're on /r9k/ aswell, so I heavily assume you can relate to using the computer as an escape. If she's willing the conversation will flow, as you can relate to what she's doing.
Oh and if it isn't obvious, the conversation should take place in person
About feeling used, it only 2 handies, if it all works out you'll get it back and more.
that feel when the dog pisses on your carpet for the third time this week
>tfw post a vocaroo of me crying and people laugh at me
>tfw the qt3.14 you like looks you in the eyes
I want to talk to her.
>>24788130
i thought it was sweet of u
>>24788130
What possesed you to do this?
>>24788249
Because I'm a piece of shit and I deserve to be humiliated in front of everyone.
>tfw 5'2
thanks mom and dad
>When I feel too bad I come to this board in order to feel better.
At .least I don't live such a bad of existence
>>24775386
Girls where I live like long hair. With these blue eyes and Anglo accent you'd pull massive puss mah nigga. Dont let others put you down.
>>24787871
That's actually exactly what I did last night with her. I'm glad I did. I hope she invites me over again.
I'd like to make at least one person happy in my life.
>>24787659
>legally blind
>plays halo 3
>>24769269
Almost the same story but with more misanthropy. I already tried professional help, didn't work. I'm just tired and I don't think or feel about anything anymore.
Good luck though.
>tfw lost all excess body fat
>got /fit/
>got a flattering haircut
>started dressing well
>suddenly get severe acne and acne scarring
It's not fair. I escaped high school without ever having acne but now that I'm a 3rd year this happened. I literally don't know anyone else with the slightest amount of acne.
>>24789276
Get an acne cream. Apply daily. It goes away if you stick with it.
>>24789021
You should have everything set then, I wish you luck anon.
>tfw you realize when everything all went wrong
I had a chance with a cute girl my freshman year of high school. I went up and start and talking to her one day and she was really receptive. I would have asked her to the Homecoming dance that year but my good friend wanted to. He was really nervous though so he asked me to ask her if anybody had asked her yet, and when I did, her eyes lit up like she thought I was going to ask her. She seemed really surprised when I said a friend wanted to and just sort of walked away. Then I found out she had a boyfriend anyway, and I was an idiot at the time and thought that if a girl has a boyfriend then there's no way she would flirt with another guy. Still, she was my best friend that year and we would text all the time. If I would have just asked her out I know she would have said yes but at the time I was so damn nervous about what would happen if she said no that I couldn't do it. By the time sophomore year came along she had moved on.
The thing that really fucks me up though is that I repeated the exact same mistake freshman year of college. I met a girl early in the year who was clearly flirting with me but she had a boyfriend so I assumed she didn't really want anything. Eventually she just got fed up with me not making a move and got over me and stopped talking to me.
I have no idea why it took me this long to realize that if a girl has a boyfriend and she starts flirting with you, she either wants sex out of it (which I would be fine with) or wants a reason to get out of her current relationship and not be alone.
/blog
>>24789545
Sometimes acne is just there and you can't do anything about it. I've been on multiple prescriptions for long periods of time and have an extensive routine but I still have acne in my mid 20's. Only thing left to try is accutane, but my acne isn't so disfiguring that I'd chance side effects of that proportion.
>mfw people tell you to just wash your face
>>24790144
>mistaking someone being friendly to flirting
She probably felt bad for you anon, especially since this has happened twice.
>>24768598
>go to prom alone
>literally worse looking people than me are there with girls
>my crush is there alone
>after a formal dance at the beginning anxiety intensifies with every second
>drink 0,5 a litre of vodka in 60-90 minutes
>super fucked up, later I realised that people looked at me strange
>on the other hand I can interact with girls now
>'dance' with a couple of them
>somehow get the courage to ask my crush to dance with me
>she agrees
>there's a lot of whispering and even sorta grinding
>both super fucked up
>then go with her to a locker room to look for her phone or something
>don't remember that part of the night too well for obvious reasons
>get back dance some more, she says she's tired
>say something about dancing some more later and that I'll find her
>never 'find her'
>go home at 6 am because I'm getting psyched out by people looking at me strange (still not nearly sober though)
Turns out I was very pale and looking like I was about to fall to the ground, but I don't give a shit for what the dumbshits from my class have to say.
>a month ago
>she liked me on tinder
>says she has a lot of tinder friends but when one guy wanted to fuck she stopped talking to him
>she likes all sorta Christian parties of facebook
>I so fucking WANT to believe it
>>24790204
Nah, I know enough to know the difference these days. I used to ride the bus back home from school with the first girl and she would occasionally bring up how she could see us being a great couple and having a lot of fun, but I thought she was just fucking around. My other friends even used to joke about it when I would see her in the halls and talk with her that she clearly wanted my dick but I had horribly low self-esteem at the time and thought there was no way any girl could ever be into me.
The second girl was the one who convinced me to get a snapchat and then sent me a titpic right when I got it and would snap me all the time but I thought she was just being flirty to be flirty.I know I really fucked it up though because I asked her to get lunch one time as friends and she got really excited and thought it was a date. When I told her it wasn't (for some retarded reason) was when she decided she was done with me.
If anything my problem has consistently been that I've mistaken flirting for someone being friendly, not the other way around.
>>24766843
my twelve year old sister just took the fucking SAT. I didn't finish highschool
