Robot here. I've reached a really low point.
First person to restore my hope or make me see the world in a slightly better light will get $100 sent to their paypal.
It's not going to be easy. I've already heard all the typical normalfag bullshit.
Go get a handle of cheap vodka and get super hammered you'll feel better at first then much worse tomorrow. Wheres my $100?
>>24751767
The fact that you're reaching out means you still have hope
>>24751767
I can't give you any specific advice and all the generic jus b urself is already out. But I can assure you, that you are part of r9k, part of this community where we talk the talk, try to deal with problems instead of finding stupid excuses. We all fell and some of us got out of it, so don't lose hope. As long as we can't predict the weather, you can't predict what will happen to you tomorrow, so go out and do what makes you happy.
>>24751767
life has no inherent value friend. otherwise we wouldn't get bored when every need is satisfied.
>>24751787
Not good enough. I hate the taste of alcohol.
>>24751818
I'm just bored. There's virtually no chance anyone can help.
>>24751824
Lovely sentiment but I fucking hate this place and most of the people here.
>>24751841
Obviously. I wish I was brave enough to kill myself. I'm not scared of what comes after.
>>24751767
It's kinda difficult to inspire hope if we don't know your situation, care to tell us about yourself OP?
>>24751767
Death is the absence of everything.
If there is an afterlife just think about how long eternity is.
Eternity freaks me out.
Nothing after bugs me cause then I only have so much time to do hedonistic shit. Then that's all I get.
look at this pig OP
>>24751767
Every bit of our suffering and aflicition is caused by our actions and if you learn to not suck maybe it'll get better
Samurai Jack is coming back.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yzIxLwVwtiQ
>>24751965
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you just have to persevere through the tough times man. Life is hard for all of us social outcasts, but you can't just give up. There has to be one thing that makes it worth getting up in the morning, even if it's something stupid like shitposting. The fact that you're looking for help means that you already have hope, you just need to find something to focus on until you get to a better point in your life and then you can work towards self improvement. It's a long road, but if you're willing to persevere, you'll get there eventually, and you'll look back, and wonder why you were ever so down in the first place.
All we can really do is delude ourselves. You can either just give into it or go with a fight. That's what all the religious people have figured out, even if they don't realize it. By circumstance or convenience or willpower have fallen into a situation which allows them to assume some sense of meaning. I know a lot of people who desperately claw and fight to find some kind of purpose to everything, they read all the philosophy books, they explore everything, and a lot of the time they don't get anywhere. Everyone is just trying to escape that sense because I think we're all at least somewhat aware of it. People like you and us are just more advanced cases of it because we live in a time and place which allows us to shrug off everything and see the purest variety of truth possibly. And the truth isn't very nice.
I don't really know why I'm typing this, it's probably slightly morbid and extremely pretentious, but whatever. The point is that you know you're miserable, and you also know that you're entirely correct in thinking this way. So someone just telling you something to restore your hope won't get anyone anywhere. And I think you know that. You're only going to get anywhere if you're prepared to radically change your way of thinking. I can't tell you exactly what to do, I'm a fuck up NEET drug addict. But it's not possible to get out of this position without making serious changes.
Whatever, that's my obnoxious, entitled, ridiculous piece, and I've said it.
Here's how I view it. Death will not be a bad thing for you because
1. once dead, you cannot exist anymore so there will be nothing existing to be deprived (i.e. deprivation is a sensation) or 'miss out' on the good times you might of had
2. the sufferings of your life will cease to be experienced
So that's one neutral and one positive. Therefore to kill yourself is rational no?
There is no point existing if you're not getting anything out of it. So why not just end your life?
Personally, I was at the point of suicide and figured if I don't find a way to enjoy my life, or at least get something positive or worthwhile out of it, I'm just going to end it.
So what did I do? I tried a shitload of antidepressants, other meds, benzos, alcohol, etc. I tried most things and through trial and error figured out a way to find something meaningful here, so you don't have to.
Here's what you need to do: find a supply of opiates, get addicted, go to a methadone clinic and get yourself a script. BOOM. easy. Methadone has turned my entire life around. It's raised my baseline happiness by like a factor of two. Instead of wondering why I even exist I wake up happy spend the day happy and have a comfy sleep. Opiates allow me to feel positive about life, the future, and what I am/exist as. Instead of life being constant meaningless suffering I have goals, a bright future, and I enjoy my day to day existence.
>B-but I don't know where to get opiates
It's easy. Start off cwe'ing codeine/apap once your tolerance is too high move on to seeds, once you're up to multi kilos a day it's a good time to hit the clinic, say you're snorting 1-200mgs of morphine a day, get tested, piss positive for morphine, get amethadone script.
It's literally that easy. If you're suicidal you have nothing to lose and if you actually care about addiction of the negative effects you're not depressed enough anyway for this to work.
So, go out right now and get opiates. nod like fuck.
now pay me
use the 100 bucks to buy yourself your favorite meal
>>24752169
Seconding this anon, best thing you can do
>>24751946
not at all
you'll suffer from body pain, thirst hunger boredom and there's nothing you can do about it. life inflicts its suffering on you regardless of yuor actions
OP please for the love of god give me $100 so I can follow the advice in >>24752158
I never have enough money. Shouldn't at least one of us be happy?
Start using steroids (Testosterone) and clubbing shirtless. Once you're jacked you xan do anything and girls will love it
>>24752158
ok, you win, post paypal
>>24751767
>all these money hungry nerds giving out half hearted advice for some cash
kek op, you were asking for it. doing it for money is never the right approach. Watch some gundam and get some wafflehouse with the $100 (assuming you actually have $100) like >>24752169 suggested. Think about why you exist where you are now. A lot of people had to die for you to be alive in 2015 in a healthy enough condition to shitpost in chinese cartoons forums. if you live in a first world country you literally have no excuse to at least try and leave behind another kid, even if he gets sent up for adoption somewhere where he/she will actually be taken care of. Just make sure your genetic lineage doesn't die and gets to live to see the space age, that's the only true way to be immortal. You are the sum of your entire genetic lineage, every single one of your ancestors was Chad enough to not die before getting a woman preggers and making sure she could safely raise the child. if you fail now, thousands of years of progress will be halted. You control the fate that a thousand souls built up, nourished, and fought for, do you really want to be the end of the line or do you want to see a thousand more?
Life sucks. I wanna kill myself. I don't even want $100.
You gotta have a reason to live. Normies are easily distracted form this fact because they have all their needs met, along with all the distractions of consumerism. You don't have that. That's why people become drug addicts and whatnot.
Of course nothing matters, so how to give a shit? You have to care about human life, you have to value it. If you hate humanity, why contribute to it? My point is you need someone or something else to live for besides yourself. Which sounds like AA bullshit but it's true.
Find someone to help or some idealogy to cling to, or just give up and kill yourself. If TRULY nobody on this Earth gives a shit about you, or knows you exist, it shouldn't be hard. Unless you still have hope, like me, but we know what lies in Pandora's box...
>>24752300
If he doesn't give you a Paypal, can I sub in? I legitimately need drug money.
>>24752407
sure thing friendo ;^)
>>24752300
hold on a sec
love is the best thing that humans do
the fact that humans love is reason enough to justify our existence in this cosmic void
is paypal username the email you registered ith the site?
[email protected]
>>24752158
>The way to get enjoyment out of life is to get addicted to drugs
>OP actually believed this guy
TOP
KEK
>>24752505
That wasn't me.
This thread has just been the same old shit as usual.
The opiates guy and this guy >>24752303 as well both made me cringe.
>>24752482
>>24752448
I am
>>24752158
this guy
this is what worked for me I've tried probably 15 different psych meds a twelve week course of ect been in a psych ward for 5 months attempted suicide via drug od they say I have these mental illness bullshit
>dysmytnhia
>major depression
>general anxiety
>social anxiety
>anxiety not otherwise specified
anyway this is what worked for me don't even bother with psych meds really even though this is what I take
>450mg venlafaine
>45mg mirtazipine
>160mg propanalol
>110mg methadone
those meds are for anxiety and the methadone I've self medicated myself for 'depression'. I can vouch for this working opiates are the shit you need to get high dude, remind yourself why life is worth living that it is actually possible to enjoy yourself and life can be worthwhile
if they give you suboxone/utuex instead take it for a few weeks then complain about headaches or look up the side effects and complain about some of them they should switch you methadone is like 3 times better than subs
>>24752545
>taking advice from a drug-addicted tripfag
>>24752505
do you have any better advice?
>>24752529
meh dude, people are trying to help you but if you're not willing to follow the advice then you're just going to stay in the same state. I mean you feel like shit and your response is to just brush off people's experiences of whats worked for them. if you feel like shit and don't do anything to change it, nothing is going to change is it? you can't just expect things to happen without putting in the effort.
or kill yourself I mean it doesn't matter does it? what do I care anyway enjoy your suffering
people are trying to help you
>>24752529
Wait, is this OP?
>>24752592
like I said if you're not depressed enough to give no fucks about addiction or drug use, this wont work for you
this advice is aimed at people with chronic depression, non-situational that wont go away. laugh all you like I've significantly improved my life and am giving advice to others on how to make improvements in theirs. what are you doing? acting superior and laughing? how's that working out for you?
>>24751767
Dear /r9k/,
This is 2Pac. I am coming out of hiding after years in South America.
Is this where the bitches are at? I'm new to the internet
Love,
Tupac
>>24752529
Why don't you just kill yourself? It's clear that nobody here is going to offer you anything that you approve of. Regardless of whether it fixes your problems, if you didn't like the answer you would ignore it.
Nobody knows what's up with you so nobody can offer anything but paltry advice, nothing truly tailored to your situation. What can they really say? Any legitimate solution, would actually require some information and effort on your part to bring forth that solution, but that's not something you're willing to do.
My generic solution, as always, is to take the leap of faith and join some sort of religion. I know you won't do that though, you left /pol/ because it was full of Christfags :^). So instead, some sort of alternative philosophy, Stoicism maybe? If you're from /pol/ surely you've read Marcus Aurelius and the other Stoics? Stoicism is literally the only mental "trick" you can pull on yourself to get out of a bad situation mentally. Aside from that, nothing I can really say, and I won't say I expect that to be a solution you will accept because it requires you to actually do something, even if it is just to read a meme book.
just listen to this song https://soundcloud.com/w-fu/arigato
it's so comfy, don't let the anime fool you
>>24752594
>>24752627
>if you're not depressed enough to give no fucks about addiction or drug use, this wont work for you
>this advice is aimed at people with chronic depression
Yeah it's a contest to see who's the most depressed, isn't it?
You must be one of the dumbest fucking retards I've ever seen on this site.
>>24752622
Yes.
>>24752638
Fuck off you dirty negro.
>>24752674
Frankly if I'm not seeing "anonymous" in the name field then I'm not even going to read your post.
>>24752689
Are you actually expecting someone to help?
>>24752704
Of course not. I'm just felt like starting a fight on this piece of shit board.
>>24752627
##REKKET
>>24752701
:^)))))))
Didn't stop you from reading the other moron's post who actually uses a trip name and typed out more than me. Not to mention a tripcode is needed just in case you actually decided to approve of my solution and pay me money.
>>24752740
>he thought I had any intention of paying up
>>24752724
Fair enough. Can I please have some drug money? At least I won't bullshit you about pretending I can help you.
Surely that's worth something.
>>24752770
>He posts on /b/
ebin simply ebin.
>>24752774
>Surely that's worth something.
It's worth more than anything else that's been said ITT.I don't have any money though sorry.
>>24752820
Do I?
>>24752689
lol ok dude I'm out
>be angry at shit life
>ask for advice
>proceed to hate everyone who tries to help you
>people stop caring, go on enjoying their lives
>you're in the same position, hating yourself and your existence
the thing about starting a fight dude is it doesn't make a single difference whether you 'win' or not. after we leave this thread you're still going to be hating your existence pissed at yourself and the world. you're clearly quite angry and emotional at the moment, I'm having fun posting on r9k and tinychat, my friends are coming round tonight for some drinks I'm seeing my girlfriend tomorrow, might go to the beach then 'netflix an chill'.
I'm enjoying myself, you're an emotional angry depressed loser. Enjoy 'winning' this argument and feeling good about showing those 'cringy losers on r9k that you know so much better and like your depression allows you to see the world how it really is like you're seeing the truth'.
You know if you put as much effort into killing yourself as you have into this anger, you could be dead within 15 minutes. All you need to do is find a ligature, secure it to something strong and tie a slip knot around your neck, lower your body weight onto the rope and hang from the ligature until you stop breathing. Good luck I'm out
>>24752851
Another win for tripfags everywhere.
the universe is vast beyond comprehension; you're a nobody on an insignificant rock in one of BILLIONS of galaxies.
nothing you do with ever matter even on Earth, let alone in the grand scheme of things.
so say fuck it and play life like a vidya. want something? take it. get caught? who cares, your life is meaningless anyway. you can always kill yourself, so the worst they can do is kill you, but you're dead in the limit anyway, might as well have fun before you go senpai.
>>24751767
All the joy you once felt, even the pain you feel now will be experienced by every other person. Remember back to when you felt joy and no worries as a child.
Some kid is feeling that right now, sure it'll pass for them, but another will take their place. Try to find some peace in that. Others experience your pain, you're not alone friend.
> tfw you'll never boot up vanilla WoW again
>tfw some random kid somewhere is booting up a game that will give him nostalgia in the future right now
>>24753237
>you're not alone friend
My favorite meme so far. Keep em coming.
>>24751767
If you can just give out 100$ you haven't really hit rock bottom yet.
I can't do it for you, but I can explain how to do it.
I assume you have a bunch of money to spend.
You gotta get on 500mg test weekly and a whole lotta trenbolone. In months you'll be a new man, you'll get compliments from qts, you'll have everything in place to have a happy normal life.
It's still up to you though, but at the moment you're playing with a starter deck.
>>24751767
Read The Idiot by Dostoyevsky, if you haven't already. There is nice paragraph about how no one is truly original or unique. And people who think they are original are just deluding themselves.
Now the circumstances that brought you to your low point are most definitely unique, what you feel and what your issues are that were caused by these circumstances are most definitely not unique and most people have dealt with it with varying degree of success or lack of it.
And you are not that special yourself. If other people have dealt with problems like yours, then you can deal with them as well. That all was just to prove that improvement is possible.
And now whether you want to improve and whether you want to take steps towards it or whether you actually do it depends only on you. No one else is going to do this for you.
There might be many things that bring you down, stress, loneliness, tough life situation. These make you prone to addictions (nicotine, alcohol, masturbation&porn, drugs, video games).
So if you have an addiction that harms you, overcoming it will be a very hard thing.
But if that is the case, then I believe that you can do it. Because well as stated above, you totally can. Question is whether you want to. I don't know the details, and quite frankly these details are mostly relevant to you. But you sort of get the overall message.
Keep your money, I don't want it. And if you are gathering data to produce some pep talk markov chain bot, then go ahead because uplifting spam here is better than vocal minority of stupid misogynists who in their rhetoric are only reactionary.
>>24751767
sometimes your hope isnt meant to be restored, suicide is as viable an option as any dont ever let anyone tell you otherwise
just make sure you do it right, hanging or gunshot wound behind the ear, good luck op could be i see you soon
>>24751767
If you have a Steam account I can try and talk you into feeling better. I don't like fairy tales so I'll tell you how it really is.
>>24751767
Can't do that, but what kind of porn are you looking for? Maybe I can help with that.
>>24751767
Jet fuel cant melt steel beams
Bloxbloxbloxayylmao
>>24754920
p.s. No pay needed, I don't even have paypal
>>24754975
Nice try Goldstein
>>24754826
Heard all this before but you get an A for effort.
>>24754899
I like this one but I'm way too much of a coward to kill myself.
>>24754927
2D feet. I can't do loli anymore though.
>>24751767
You know what actually inspired me? Listening to tragic 911 calls and watching people get tortured.
It scared me into wanting to live. I got scare of losing what I did have, though I was stagnant. Now I want to be alive, because I don't want to be wasteful and I don't want to feel like I missed out. I want to enjoy what time I have left with my family and meet new people who aren't shit. I want to die knowing I loved and felt loved.
I'm being positive today.
>>24751767
If we're all really as lonely, bitter, and sad as we say we are, then all we really have left is each other. Being lonely, bitter, and sad is better in a group than alone. Even if we are on a Pangean Seinfeld Digitized Picture web town.
>>24755412
If I had the money, I'd send it to you.
Though to be fair, there aren't many of us left.
This post would carry more weight on wizchan.
>>24755425
Wouldn't want the money anyway. I would just waste it and someone out there needs rent or something better.
