wew lad working on paper geting sick listening to pet sounds how are you all doing?
>>24744432
only bump i'm gunna give this thread
I just lie in bed all day and sleep in.
I lie to my gf about what I do every day because if she knew what a depressed piece of shit I am she'd break up with me.
Right now I'm listening to Andrew Jackson Jihad.
>>24745266
Would she not try to help you at all?
Also AJJ is pretty okay I can dig them sometimes
>>24745293
No, it would probably just upset her.
Get that work done, Skelly?
>>24745423
Does she have any clue about how depressed you are? At all?
>>24745442
haha god no due today and i'm not even done with the first page. gunna finish it tonight if it kills me
i just fucking collapsed this end of year
>>24744432
i can heeeear so much in your siiiighs~
>>24745481
I guess I just wasn't made for these timeeeees :(
ask me no questions and i'll tell you no lies
:^( wew
~~mysterious autismo manchild XD~~
>>24745445
I mean she knows a little bit and she knows I use drugs every day but she doesn't know how crippling it is for me.
>mfw out of cymbalta
This is going to be a rough weekend.
>>24745607
:( I'm sorry to hear that
>>24745655
How;d you run out?
>>24745655
>tfw slowly saving enough anti-depressants to kill myself with
>>24745682
I got a new rx of of the stuff two days, ago and I didn't realize that it didn't come through with the other meds until this morning. The fucking bitch at the pharmacy didn't mention anything and like a retard I didn't check while I was there.
>>24745804
Is it closed for the weekend?
>>24745712
That usually doesnt work
>>24745831
It needed a prior approval. I've been waiting for it all day.
Went to the doctor to get more Prestiq, let him know I'm returning to university in January. He knows I have no social life, gives me the "b urself :^)" speech.
Pissed me right the fuck off.
>>24745467
Know the feeling. I have less than a week to get my shit done and realistically one day to get most of it done.
>>24745877
That bites
>>24746032
See a better doctor
>>24746197
wew lad i fucked up this semester
>too depressed to get anti-depressants
meh
>>24746562
I've been there before. It's worth the effort desu
Playing fallout 4 and some bottles of scotch I got from my uncle ate the only things keeping me going. Stopped going to work / school / paying bills. Will all come falling down soon and that's fine. Getting too old anyway
>>24746829
What are you going to do when everything collapses?
I always thought I just had depression but a psych recently diagnosed me bipolar II. Which makes sense because my father's side of the family seem really bipolar but none of them have ever thought to seek help for it.
>>24744432
>tfw already written two papers this week
>tfw still have to edit and finish 20 page Russian History research paper by Monday
>tfw almost out of Vyvanse
is there any way I can pretend to be suicidal or something to get a medical extension on my paper because I might just fail this class if I have to hand in the pile of shit I have by Monday. Anyone any tips on this???
Anyone had any success with non SSRI medications for depression?
>>24746903
Damn, how'd you take that?
>>24746907
Ask for an extension
>>24746963
I haven't ever taken any
>>24746963
This is how I escaped Robot-dom.
I am now Chad. It is a greater existence than you can possibly imagine.
Drugs Are The Answer.
>>24745655
Man I missed one day of cymbalta and felt like absolute shit. Sorry
>>24747003
dude profs don't just give extensions, especially if you ask right before it's due
>>24746878
I think hanging seems like a romantic way to go until you see death pictures. There's lots of bridges here, might jump off one and drown. Or bitch out and cry for help like in the past, but honestly have little interest anymore, even when being brutally honest with myself
>>24747003
Embarrassed. When ever I think of bipolar people I think of crazy, irrational people not necessarily depressed. I didn't know the difference between I and II though and how bipolar II people have less manic episodes and o in and out of depressive states.
>>24746501
Me too. I want to blame work, and really I can for other reason, but I didn't use the time I had because my depression spiked. I am legitimately worried about my thyroid and there is nothing I can do because God Bless America!
>>24747053
Try to explain yourself. Mine have before.
>>24747103
Wew lad America everyone get sick and die
>>24747069
Are you gunna see treatment for it?
>>24747063
Asking for help isn't really bitching out, it's the best thing to do
>>24747205
I have been taking Lamictal and going to a counselor but with my recent job it has been hard to see someone because of my fucked up schedule.
>>24748290
How is the medicine working for you?
>>24747063
Poisoning seems the most romantic. You just fade away with your last thoughts of life
>>24748331
It's a very subtle drug so you don't notice anything right away. I have been on it less than a month. All I can say is that I don't lose my temper as easily but idk if that's the drug or just me being more calm. I heard from people who have taken the drug that it can take 1-2 months to start working. Some robots who have been on Lamictal have had good results while others said it didn't have any effect on them. My psych said that depression is over diagnosed and there are a lot of people with bipolar disorder that go their lives being classified as having major depression disorder. The shitty thing about taking bipolar medicine is that you have to take it for the rest of your life.
>>24748473
Yeah give it a little longer. And I'll probably have to take my meds for the rest of my life, not really the worst thing IMO
>>24748473
The fuck am I looking at
sick as fuck so im on some cough syrup. two birds with one stone!
>>24748573
brains baka
>>24748550
also this was me idk how i fucked up so bad
>>24748573
SPECT brain imaging
>>24748331
As someone else who's taken Lamictal, personally it didn't do a thing for me.
>>24748596
>>24748550
>>24748550
>>24748596
Do what's best for you and what you think will help you live a better life. Just ask around and do a little research before you start a drug so you know what's normal and not. Hell, before I started this drug I was worried because you can get Steven Johnson syndrome where your skin essentially rots off but it was a very small chance. Also, don't be discouraged if you have to change medications multiple times. Some drugs that work well for someone may not work for you.
>>24748700
Did you take it for bipolar syndrome? Are there any other drugs that may work that don' have a lot of side effects?
>>24748713
Yeah all good advice, I've done all that. I'm on Wellbutrin now, and it does a lot of good
>>24748742
good to hear that.
Been reading a lot recently, trying to keep my mind occupied. Started working out again, don't really like it but I know I need to. I have work tomorrow morning.
>>24748733
I took it for bipolar, yes. I'm currently unmedicated due to interactions with drugs for a physical issue, but I had better luck with Trileptal.
>>24748782
What do you like to read anon?
>>24748822
Lot of American and European history, currently reading Landscape Turned Red, about Antietam. Last fiction book I read was Tenth of December by George Saunders.
School has been rough but whatever I'm basically fisting all of my courses right now.
My real problem is that I've got this girl that's close to me and I know she likes me. She knows that I'm here if she needs to vent and life has been really rough for her lately. I want to explain to her how I feel with bottling up all of these emotions like a day drinker's whiskey and then venting and talking to you guys. I just don't want to bring her down even more because I'm supposed to be the strong person for her. I just want someone to talk to and she's one of the only people close enough to me that I feel trusting to talk to on a personal level but I just can't find the words without coming across as a piece of shit to her. I fucking love you guys but I need someone to vent to that doesn't have a timestamp next to their name. Someone to say hello to me that isn't my desktop. I just can't find the right words or time to say anything related to this to her. I'm praying that I can slew my mind to her before I release the pressure with a .44 magnum. Fuck this obsessive compulsive mind of mine and fuck me for not being able to find the right words right now because there's a million different ideas in my mind shouting at the same time and I just can't communicate all of them at the same time through a white text box.
The new Oneohtrix Point Never album is pretty good.
>>24748879
Nice
>>24748895
I think it would be good to share with her, listening and not sharing isn't the best way to develop relationships desu. Could you maybe write everything out beforehand, to organise your thoughts?
Also yeah it might be my AOTY
>>24749047
I've been trying to think of what words to say. I think its best to just face her and free flow it. Maybe she will understand
>>24749272
Go for it anon, do it
>>24748822
>>24748879
there is only one book to read
>>24749539
holy shit kekked hard
you got me good anon
>>24749556
kek. but seriously, i just picked this up the other day. plan on reading it once i get the motivation.
>>24746501
Me too bruh, failed my first class ever, which is a slap in the face since the only thing I used to really take pride in was being smart.
>>24749617
Didn't he lose a bunch of money?
>>24749754
I did the same thing. It happens man :(
>>24750327
no. the man shits gold
ayy mr skeltal, how are YOU doing?
I won a meaningless participation award, but I don't have anything else in my life so I'm pretty content with it.
>>24744432
>Tfw late night self loathing
>>24750368
eh.. ehhh
>>24750445
im doing okay burgerpants thanks 4 asking
putting off my paper once again because hah
>>24750623
What was it for?
>>24750844
What are you loathing about yourself?
>>24750901
>putting off my paper once again because hah
lel such is life senpai
i had something due an hour ago but i decided to shitpost instead kekekek
>>24751903
Wew lad can't even do a paper without breaking down
