I'm a 37 year old man who lives with his mom and works part time at a pizza place.
I have no friends.
I'm trying to give up drugs(amphetamines, benzos), but it's hard.
Lately I've been thinking I would really just like to die.
Is there any reason for me to keep going?
Keep in mind, I'm a loser with no friends and a drug problem.
>is there any reason for me to keep going?
logically no
>>24730128
>no friends
>does drugs
how?
if this is true that's sad as shit desu senpai baka
my prayers go out for you
Not really you could try looking for a better job to get your own place. Also what does your mother say about your usage?
Honestly just rape a bunch of girls and kill yourself f a m
>>24730128
>asking /r9k/ if you should keep living
You didn't come here to actually hear differing opinions on this, so which answer are you looking for? Yes, or no?
>>24730154
I know how to manufacture meth and can get the raw materials needed. I don't sell it. I just use it myself.
The benzos I steal from my mother.
>>24730128
>37 years old
Damn & I thought my life was bad
I'm in the same position minus the drugs and I'm 25. I honestly can't figure out a job that will let me support myself at this point.
>>24730197
>mfw first word i see is 'peep'
>>24730170
>what does your mother say about your usage?
She seems to not know.
I'm not sure if she's just pretending, she probably is.
I do a pretty good job of hiding it though.
>>24730185
I really just want to die.
>>24730128
I'm impressed you've lasted this long. Did you have a past life? Or has it just been an extended trainwreck
>>24730168
>my prayers go out for you
>>24730275
How exactly does your mom still feel about you still living at home?
Seems pretty embarrassing in your 30s
>>24730339
It's been going downhill for several years now.
I think I used to be happy, when I was in my early 20s.
>>24730373
Just to clarify, I don't STILL live at home. I moved back in here about five years ago after my last girlfriend threw me out.
My mom says she likes having me here. Since my father died, she gets scared being alone in the house. Also, she's getting older and needs someone to do things around the house she can't do anymore.
>>24730170
I'm trying to stop the drugs so I can get a better job, but I just get so depressed when I try. I just want to lie in bed for hours on end only to get up and binge on junkfood till I feel like lying down again.
I guess this is the end.
>>24730497
What about a home excercise routine?
instead of killing yourself, do literally anything else. it won't matter if you think you're going to die, so do it anyway. unless it's kill people. don't do that. anything else is cool tho.
>>24730128
5 years ago, I would have told you yes, because I still had hope then.
I'm 30 now and in the same boat as you.
Want to meet up, blow all our money on hookers and drugs and off ourselves in the woods?
>>24730434
>30yr old druggie friend-less loser
>girlfriend
>>24730197
>bail
>lust
>maniac
>>24730197
Try selling some of that meth, it shouldnt be hard, just find a nigg to sell it to. You can probably get some decent money.
Check yourself into rehab after you have a decent amount saved up(2-3 grand). Find a robot somewhere and offer to split rent and move out together.
Try to get a one-bedroom and sleep on the couch yourself, so you can justify paying less than he does.
Go to community college, there are grants and if you're low-income you can basically get in for free. I'd suggest computer science, it's a growing field with a decent starting salary.
You could very well be making 40K by the time you're 40
