What are your thoughts when you're laying in bed trying to sleep?
I usually self insert as half of one of my favorite yuri pairings from a currently-airing anime, and cuddle with my rolled up comforter, who is the other half of said yuri pairing
what happens when we die
also the occasional wondering about things going on at the time
>>24690541
I didn't realize how big of a faggot I was until I posted this and read it back, oh well feels good
Raping ponies.
Knocks me out in under 10 minutes.
some schizophrenic thoughts because i probably smoked weed and tfwnogf
>I should get my headphones and let aphex twin put me to sleep tonight
Rhubarb or Lichen on repeat usually work.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z4hQG-XTVa4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_AWIqXzvX-U
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dAufvkHj16g
Cuddlingand smexwith a big bara daddy of my choice. Usually Goliath from Gargoyles, or Asgore Dreemurr from memetale, occasionally Sajin Komamura from Bleach, as well as Hank Mccoy/Beast from XMen. The list is pretty big 2bh.
I wish I remembered.
Just today, I was lying semi-conscious... and I think that the hypnogogic/pompic state might be even less coherent than dreams themselves. I don't think my impressions referred to anything. The closest analogy I could think of -- not explicitly of course, it wasn't even verbal, but in the sense of incoherence, would be something like, 'the halfness of moving. when you move, the circle of your body is perfect. then it extends and extends.' My brain seems to crash those odd mathematical concepts against each other when it's half-asleep.
I recognize it's utter gibberish, of course.
>>24690877
I should clarify though that it wasn't either as I fell asleep or got up, but when I was semi-woken up in the middle of the night. This might have to do with it.
I like to imagine having friends and having fun.
It feels good to pretend like life is worth it.
>I hope I can fall asleep fast enough
>I hope I can remember my dreams tonight
>I hope that I have good dreams tonight (it's been forever since I've had a halloween themed dream, those were the shit)
>Too bad I'll wake up in the morning
>Fucky my life
I think about adventures, including me as a knight or rifleman or some shit
How I should kill myself. More specifically what steps I would take before hand, such as leaving notes, clearing out my PC etc. or if it even matters what I do to prepare, because I'll be dead - so who cares, right?
>>24690526
"I thought you liked me"*smiles*, of course I dothen I fantasize about my life for an hour. Becoming someone, doing great things, amazing scenarios that are all possible in my current reality
>>24690558
it's okay fa m i do the same thing
Asmr, keeps thinking away
>Eventually I will fall asleep, i shouldn't worry..
>I don't/never will know how to live.
>I should kill myself doing X
>>24690526
I always snuggle with my pillow and put my arms around my stomach pretending the girl I like is holding me. I also have made up conversations with my pillow pretending it's her.
Recently I've been going to bed early to allow myself an hour or so of daydreaming about a girl I have a crush on. Over the past few weeks I've gradually convinced myself that she is interested in me somewhat and is expressing her interest in subtle ways. But today I said hello to her in passing while she was walking with a colleague and she just gave me a quick tight-lipped and continued walking. Felt really bad. I've posted like 5 thread on /r9k/ and /adv/ asking what I should do to approach her and most people said saying hi would be a good start, but now I feel more pathetic than ever. I didn't ever think my life could be like this.
>>24690526
I wish I could die as comfy as I am when I'm trying to sleep. I actually wish I could fall asleep one day and never wake up, cause I guess I just won't realize.
I really hate when I wake up for another day.
>>24692040
you should really forget her, tbqh senpai
>>24690526
Ridiculous power fantasies usually
>if I were a god...
>if I were a billionaire
>if I were a medieval king...
>if I was dictator of a shithole African nation...
Either that or I just cuddle one of my two dogs until they get sick of it and move away.
>>24690526
Generally existential crisis's, space, death, random thoughts about mass shootings, terrorists, more thoughts about space, the universe.
I smoke before bed everyday.
>>24690606
Are you literally me? Stone In Focus is another favorite to fall asleep to.
>>24692099
This will be the fourth girl in a row I've crushed hard on who has eventually signalled her disinterest in me.
>>24690558
>>24691561
me too desu wa
but if anything, that should make you more embarrassed, probably
I imagine i'm Dio and i walk shirtless around a dark mansion while reading
All that I could be but which I'm not.
>I could be muscular
>I could have that qt girl as gf
>I could be a great artist
>etc
Man fuck bedthoughts.
>Why i didn't kill myself sooner?
>How the fuck did my life end up like this?
>What the fuck happened with my youth?
i'm 25yo
>Why i don't die on my sleep already? Please Death, just take me away already, please.
>>24692374
gt girl kek
I think of an easy relaxing life were people are not all out for there own gain and you can trust the average person.
>>24692217
Then I guess It's time to stop showing interest in women. It's better to live with no hope at all than living with false expectations. The sooner you accept you're not good with women the better.
>>24690526
Why do i only attracted Stacy's
>>24690526
> About to sleep:
Tomorrow I'm gonna be a new man. I'm gonna clean this place. I'm gonna study hard. I'm gonna work hard. I'm gonna fix myself.
> Waking up:
Nope. I'll let future me deal with this crap. For today I'll just find a place to sit amongst this mountain of trash and just watch my chinese cartoons until I pass out.
Fuck I'd kill for a decent nights sleep. It's been weeks on end and I've either only slept when the sun is already up or fallen asleep for two hours and then gotten out of bed at 1-3am.
Please kill me.
>>24692558
It's almost the same for me. I'm usually really motivated in the morning for like 2-3 hours, but then it quickly diminishes until I'm a pile of exhausted shit in the evening.
I usually have power-fantasies about turning into a werewolf and hunting down ISIS.
Good stuff.
>>24693279
Sounds chill, I'm going to try this tonight
>>24690526
>what am i waiting for?
>>24693279
But what if you get shot?
>>24693314
What's that supposed to mean? Waiting for what?
generally dark. I have to listen to music or all I do is brood with thoughts of killing myself. quiet is violent.
>Didn't talk to her today either, but theres always tomorrow!
Vivid images of fucking your mom.
i visualize i am inside the trunk of a giant tree in a rainy forest, protected from the outside elements.
power fantasies or suicide fantasies. I usually also hope for that I won't wake up anymore. Hasn't happened so far sadly
>>24690526
about the GF that is make believe the well paid job
but most of all
I think TO DAY IS A GOOD DAY TO DIE!
>god damn it , should i get up and take a shit or try and hold it all night
>doing lewd things with my senpai
>every
>fucking
>night
>>24690977
I kinda like you
>hope I will have good dreams like cuddling with qt soulmate girl you never met before
>or having lucid dreams where I just fuck the first girl I see.
>>24690526
I mainly worry about if/when I'll next be able to acquire cannabis.
>>24690526
I have the most autistic thoughts about me being this superhero that jumps into whichever movie or TV show or video game I'm into at the time and saves the day and gets the girl and is just totally strong and awesome.
>oh god I'm not asleep yet
>I'm going to be so tired tomorrow
>fuck this
>fuck work
>is this all I'm going to do for the next forty years of my life?
>is it really worth it?
>should I just kill myself
>oh fuck, I've just woken myself up even more
>>24690526
I should probably kill myself sometime soon, sick of living.
>>24695387
We all do tbhey senpai
>>24694768
He's a fucking werewolf bro.
Soviet-era AK's sandniggers use aren't designed to fire silver bullets.
>>24690526
probably gonna get called an autist but i tend to talk to myself
>>24695730
I talk to myself all the time.
As soon as I'm alone in the house I just go around in circles and talk to myself.
Sounds pretty nuts if I think about it.
>>24690606
>wearing headphones
You lucky fuck
>get into bed
>the slight ringing in my ears starts
>start worrying if I'll be deaf by 50
>wondering whether that slight lack of hearing in my left ear is treatable or not
>lamenting the fact that music will literally never sound 'right' again
Fantasies about diapered lolis. Usually about being them.
>go to bed tired as shit
>just want to sleep
>''Remember that one thing you need to do?''
>''How about those 1000 other things aswell''
>''That one fucking awful thing that happened recently''
J U S T
basically it's
>DEHUMANIZE YOURSELF AND FACE TO BLOODSHED X1000
I usually don't sleep ;-;
I think of the scene which begins at 0:50 and smile
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D_h2G6QMMjA
>Tomorrow I'm gonna wake up and do all those assignments I have to do
>I did pretty good today r-right? I didn't sperg out too bad right...
>oh fuck I did sperg out that one time today
>oh and that other time too
>i really have to pee
>im really thirsty too
>FUCK FUCK FUCK FCUK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
>AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
>my cat jumps on my bed and starts cuddling with me
>well, a cat is fine too
>i love you cat-chan. I love you so much.
> I wish I was a cat...
>zzzzz
>WAKE UP
>oh FUCK OH GOD THE DAY IS BEGINNING AGAIN FUCKKKKKK
>take muh prescription amphetamines
then its fuckin' CRUISING time ;)
>>24694895
that guy in your pic looks like a gay retard
Usually something along the lines of trying to focus on the present moment to quell anxiety.
Thinking of ways to curtail my anxiety, or find the sources.
>>24695990
iktf anon, except its for my right ear
>>24698161
Looks like Moby.
>>24690526
Elisa Lam
>>24698320
very sp00py
why anon
>>24698395
i was living in LA at the time of her death and didn't really read much into the story then.
i just started to read about her recently and the whole thing is just really sad to me. even if the whole thing is made up, i feel like i personally went through the same feelings and motives for going to LA.
>Focus on heartbeat
>Can't feel it
>Think heart has stopped
>Freak out
>Contemplate what death will be like
Every night for about a year now.
>>24698320
why woud you make me read this anon
>tfw nosleep
>>24690526
constant racing thoughts
fuck its not even worth typing no one will understand.
I think about killing myself and all the bad decisions I've ever made.
>>24690753
This nigga knows where it's at muscle tiddies are the shit.
>>24690526
>picture myself getting out in the wilderness and hiking again once my medical problems go away
>Imagine the girl I used to be with before I got sick and had to move home, far away from her
>hug my pillow just remembering her
>think about what my life would be right now if I hadn't been screwed over by my doctor
>I'd probably still be living up north going to school and advancing my life
>I'd probably still be cuddling with her in my apartment, her head on my chest soundly asleep and happy, keeping one another secure through the cold long northern winters
>think about her face, her body, how her hair felt on my face, how she smelled, her laugh, her smile, her favorite foods and places to go
>think about her hugging me so tightly, and what that felt like, before I had to go away
>think about the last time I saw her. We were at a bus stop and she just stood there and disappeared into the landscape
I think about the look of loss in her face when the bus turned the corner.
>>24690526
the same shit over and over again without coming to a solution
>>24690526
I try not to remember too much, I just listen to as much music/watch as much anime as possible. I feel very blank inside most of the time.
>>24690526
Whatever comes to mind.
>the HORROR
all those embarrassing regrets and bad decisions.
>>24699542
>girl
GTFO MY BOARD NORMIE
REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE REEEEEEEE
>>24690526
I think about the fence I'm going to build on the property I'm going to buy with the money I'll never have.
>>24690917
You're not as smart as you think you are
>>24700847
I do this a lot too.
