>December 2nd, 2015
>>24680190
I don't know why I want to kill myself when I realize I'll die. I don't know man. Half the time I'm here i'm trying to convince myself to stay and I still know I won't kill myself even if I want to. But it doesn't really mattter desu. I'l just go on through this. It won't even matter. Everyone who says you can create meaning by yourself is stupid. Meaning as a concept is impossible. For something to be meaningful it would have to make sense, but if it made sense it would be too simple. I'd just ask why. And then I'd ask myself what I really wanted and I'd realize I didn't want a world that didn't make sense but I still wanted something to matter. Something to be beautiful. Are we all jsut chemicals? And I know I'm trusting the chemicals that we're all chemicals but I'm not just talking about the brain and elements. I'm talking about logic. Everyting we do makes sense. if you put me in a scenario I will always do the most logical thing there is to do. There's nothing special about anything it's all just a math equation. I don't want things to not make sense that would be retarded. But I want something to be more. I don't know what it is I'm describing but it should be very clear but ethereal. like magic or something where the main character would just be like now I see. but even then it's contrived. See meaning is impossible
>2020 is closer to us than 2010
Hold me
>>24680431
>21000000000 is closer than 2010
That's how time works nigger, you can only go forward.
im so tired mama. so tired...
My Songs About My Cats CD comes in the mail soon. I'm excited.
>>24680572
Ur mum is closer to my dick than ur ass fgt
It still feels like Halloween was yesterday
Its almost 2016 and this year has been nothing but a waste
Time doesn't even effect me anymore days just pass like minutes with barely anything happening to even warrant remembering them
I feel like I'm just forgotten by this uncaring world left to grow old and crumble away letting my years escape from me
>>24680361
that made a lot of sense
>>24681089
>tfw september 1st seems like last week
i didn't have to work today. today was a good day.
>>24680907
Lol nice
You have been muted for 2 seconds, because your comment was not original.
Every single waking moment of my life I want to kill myself because of all the stupid and cringey mistakes I make or have made.
>tfw Christmas is getting closer
Its a good feel, you grinches
>>24682670
I doubt you actually want to desu senpai
>>24680874
venetian snares is shitsorry senpai
>>24682694
Yeah, you're right. I totally want to embarrass myself every single day and then live with those memories and have them play in my head like broken records every night when I'm lying in bed. Kill yourself as well, faggot.
>>24682761
End ur life then stupid.
Fuckig goddamn weakling.
>>24682824
>calls someone a weakling over the internet, where they can't beat the shit out of you
lmao son
>>24682844
>implying i was referring at all to physical strength
Lmao dumbfuck son
>>24682869
keep it up boyo kekarot i'll find your house i swear
Today is my 25th birthday, contemplating on whether I should kill myself.
>>24682935
Enlist.
If you're smart you'll get a comfy position
If you're stupid you'll get a shit position & die on uncle sam's dime
Win/Win, nigga
>>24682935
I'm 25 as well. I'm a fucking loser and I've thought about ending my life... but for all I know, this is the only existence we've got. As long as we're alive there is a chance for something.
