Welp
I just got diagnosed with depression /r9k/.
I live with my mom
I have no food, a little internet left
and I'm really sad.
So, ITT:
Let's discuss what made us the way we are
For me, it was receiving nothing but negative reinforcement from everyone around my.
I've never had any kind of support my entire life.
No christmas
No birthdays
None of that
Naturally that lead to low self esteem and I got bullied and shit because of it.
>>24661975
Stop being a faggot and posting to the internet for pitty points. You're a sad fuck. KYS
>>24661975
How about instead of sitting inside crying to the internet you go outside and conquer you demons. You fucking autist.
>>24662010
Fuck you desu, leave the poor fucker alone
>>24662046
It's 11:00pm at night
They might be asleep
>>24662061
What? Cause he won't deal with his only problems? Fuck you. I dealt with mine, he can deal with his. Doing this gets him fucking nowhere.
>>24662010
I bet you're sad and depressed yourself you faggot
>>24662075
No I am fine thanks.
>>24662073
Dude, I've spent 5 solid years trying to work out my problems.
I got a job and somehow a girlfriend.
But I''m only 19. I'm not a NEET or anything but there's just no work in my area.
I'm living with my mom until I get a career going. She makes me pay almost all of my money to her for "rent" and shit
>>24662010
>>24662046
You guys are pieces of shit
>>24662073
You dealt with yours, because you had the natural ability or luck that enabled you to do so, and then you go around preaching it as if everybody is precisely the same as you, in the same situation and with the same abilities. You lack perspective.
>>24662073
Chad kindly fuck off
>be 15
>normie life
>everything is going fine
>one day wake up in hospital
>u have a brain tumor also u have seizures
>have brain surgery
>no more athletics, physical contact, have to be sheltered
>lose all self esteem, go partly blind from surgery
>all dreams of participating in sports gone
>years pass
>get hit with a soccer ball and seizures come back
>still have seizures to this day
lost my oneitis because I thought she was making fun of me behind my back because I had seizures and flipped out on her because my meds side effects is extreme anger
>>24662110
Well at least you're trying but honestly man if you really want to escape it these toxic internet communities are not going to help you. There are many people who have gone what you have gone through, including myself, if you don't stop going to these places, you are going to be surrounded in other sad people telling you about their sad lives.
>>24662116
>Natural ability
If I had the natural ability to deal with it then it wouldn't have happened in the first place. I spent years to better myself so I could finish school, go to university and get a degree.
>>24662160
True. I don't come here often.
So little in fact I don't even know how to do the spoiler text thing
But sometimes it's nice to talk to people who have the same problems
Takes away a bit of the lonely feeling
>>24662125
Name isn't Chad?
>>24662179
Yeah man, I get that but 4chan isn't a good place to do it. I know if you are from a small town than it is difficult to be able to get the support that you need but even through the internet there are better ways to be able to talk about your problems
My cousin anally raped me when I was 11 and he acts like nothing ever happened. He pretty much sabotaged me for the rest of my life. I never said to anyone, I can't tell my dad that his nephew buttfucked his son. Also getting blamed for being a total failure when it's not m'y fault is so destructive
alcoholic dad who abused my family, never went to therapy, instead just bottled everything up then my brother died and all my grandparents died so that just totally fucked everything, my family is not close at all anymore it's so fucking awkward and horrible. I've never fit in but around middle school I got picked on, never too much but it happened more than I thought it would because i was quiet and not ugly but they targetted me anyway. It didn't get to me all that much until it turned into girls playing manipulative games and gossip and shit and I got shunned like almost immediately because I was like an alien, and boys were out of the question. So like I had a small group of friends in elementary and left to go get bullied and when I got back to that old school everyone got too cool and popular for me and i was stunted from being torn out of that place to go hang with monkeys. I got picked on for "looking white" even though I'm not. also just 'cause I'm autistic in general
>>24662200
go 2 the police.
>>24662195
Yeah, I'm starting to get that.
I'll have to start looking for better ways to talk about my issues
>>24662200
triple dubs
>checked
That sucks pretty bad, man
>>24662200
dude i feel you, got molested by my brother but my mom knows and she didn't do anything and I can't do anything because he's a piece of shit who lives with us and everyone is scared of him but can't do anything because he's so pitiful and honestly just really dumb. I live with him and I was able to not think about it for a long while but now I'm just so angry all the time "and my mom doesn't know why! she just wants me to be normal" it's shit desu but i can't do anything accept deal with it and start the normification process,get it over with so i can get back to shitposting memes
>>24662212
I feel for you, bro.
>also ayylmao
>>24662242
omfg I thought that was the "bitch you gotta go home" meme that just got a fucking whole lot darker and a lot more real damn it shit :(
>>24662232
Glad to hear it. Sorry for coming off like a cunt. Just thought this was another one of the hugbox threads.
>>24662265
It's alright.
I get why it would have come off that way
I'm gonna abandon thread and start figuring shit out
>>24662213
It was twelve years ago and in another country (family trip)
>>24662242
>get over it
What does it even mean, psycho social development won't fix itself. I was 11 ffs, I was supposed to assert my own personality and build my confidence. Instead I got treated like a cumrag m'y someone I share blood with. I wish I was stronger than that, I wish I could just erase all the consequences of this trauma and live with a healthy mind but no man has complete control over his subconscient. Hell everything remotely sexual just brings back the memories. Evert time I feel sexual desire I just feel dirty
i want to be your friend anon
>>24662085
then what the fuck are you doing here?
>just deal with your problems
>just get a job
>just go to uni and get a degree
>just stop being a faggot
>just stop being depressed and go outside
Thanks guys I'll go do that
nothing too crazy
>come to america, 6 years old
>parents too busy
>no friends in elementary
>act out in class for attention (writing suicide notes in 2nd grade lel)
>no friends, no family to talk to
>cry alone a lot
>video games, imaginary gf, fetish porn as forms of emotional escape
>rinse and repeat for 14 years
can't wait for my mom to be gone because i'll be gone too
My mother groomed me to be her personal masseuse, had me rubbing her feet every day after she got home from work, doing back massages, skin treatments, basically everything from the time I was 5 or 6 onwards.
Around 13 I figured out that this wasn't normal and stopped (she was furious with me) but the damage was done, I can't trust or associate with women anymore, there's no way I can have anything resembling a normal relationship with a woman at this point.
She still asks me when the grandkids are coming.
Nothing caused it. I was born this way.
Even as a 3-year-old I was very introverted and never wanted to play with the other children.
>>24661975
The real reason you are in this situation is because of your poorblife choices, until you accept that nothing will change. Otherwise there is still time for another Christmas suicide
Bullied at school
abused when i was 8
grow up without dad
>>24662116
This is what pieces of shit believe
I-its not my f-fault I'm just waiting for luck to strike me
You just were genetically predisposited to succed yeah, that's it
>>24661975
I figure it's a cycle of rejection.
>we have bad social skills
>become shy from rejection
>less interaction, social skills deteriorate
>ad infinitum
It's the real cause of all our problems. Even poor, homeless people won't be rejected if they have decent social skills.
>>24661975
> What caused our social problems
its natural to keep asking why but its frustrating and useless too..
personally i think its genetics
I'm really starting to think I was abused when I was young and don't remember it, my upbringing was fine and I was a pretty ok kid, apart from maybe being a bit autistic now that I look back at it. But lots of instances of extreme sexual fetishes, manipulating other children into sexual situations, random bouts of violence, fucked up drawings and shit from a very young age have made me start to think somewhere down the track something happened to me that I've repressed or something.
I'm only 18 at the moment, so I don't know how something like this would work, but I defiantly feel like all the mental problems I have now didn't just appear out of no where. Do any other robots here have any experience with remembering past traumas?
>>24662010
You must be new here. It's 4chan m8. You don't get points.
>>24664563
I have distant memories of being close to someone and then tasting something milky in my mouth
not sure whether it was my mom breastfeeding me or someone put their dick in my mouth
