>tfw good looking and tall but can't get gf because so unbelievably self conscious and self doubting
>tfw realised I'm a narcissist
>tfw cant connect with people
>tfw eternally alone, a prisoner of my own mind
>I so desperately want to love and be loved but don't fucking know how
>tfw had so many opportunities and I squandered them all because of my own self doubting bullshit
>tfw any time I feel a little bit of happiness my depressing side kicks in and asks: "wtf is going on? I'm not used to this, I don't like it. Go back to normal."
>tfw know all my issues and how to fix them but just cant fucking do it. I can;t shake this empty feeling. This feeling of crushing loneliness that I can't escape from.
I fucking hate myself.
have you actually tried just being yourself, anon?
>>24592277
If he's a legit narcissist his true self is probably an ossified husk.
>>24592277
That's the problem with being a narcissist. My self is buried. I can;t find the poor bastard, I;m trying, believe me.
Try getting more sleep, try going on vacation, try LSD
>>24592368
I sleep too much as it is. Good advice, I'm stuck in rut. Already did, first time it was fun, next two times it fucked with my head really hard.
>>24591850
Are you me? Except for the good-looking and tall parts.
>>24592389
If you're a university student you can visit a counselor or some shit like that.
Maybe instead of trying to be normal you should embrace the narcissism and try to become such a shallow fake that you can't feel remorse or shame anymore. You'll never feel truly at peace, but you'll get something better: narcissistic euphoria, which is like getting high on drugs, but free and without the health consequences.
>>24592511
I really want to but I've read that counselors have a hard time with narcissists. Honestly I don't feel like there's much hope, this shit feels like a death sentence. I already know that no ones paying attention to me, I already know I just need to get over myself, I know I'm just a speck of dust floating around in a cosmic clusterfuck... But... I just can't for some reason. I don't know why. My conscious mind is constantly thinking of myself and I can;'t shut the fucker up.
>>24592612
This is what I'm trying to do now. It's hard though because my narcissism took the form of needing people to like me, so I've been really nice to people (even though I'm only doing it for self satisfaction). another problem is I'm obsessed with being perfect, and I know that people don't like assholes. I'm trying to get over the quest for perfection and just be "the stone cold motherfucker" who don't give a fuck.
>>24592623
Go anyways. Just tell them you're a narcissist and that you need help because you can't stop seeing yourself as perfect. A counselor should still be able to help you since you sound eager to improve
>>24592466
In a way we're the same. We're part of the same club. Here's our theme song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hTWKbfoikeg
(really listen to the lyrics)
>>24592719
I want to, I've already had hundreds if not thousands of conversations with a therapist in my head, but, I just, idk, I'm scared. Don;t know why, just am.
Same, but I'm a 5'7'' not particularly good looking DYEL manlet.
>>24592718
Hmm, well there are other ways to get people to like you without being nice. I'm really good at cracking jokes, so my friends like me for that, which gives me leeway to be more of a jerk. You could also try to be clever/insightful. Being too nice had diminishing returns and if oh overdo it people will just think "what a weirdo." Branch out your narcissistic charm, with such a strong motivation the sky is the limit.
>>24592780
>with a therapist in my head
Nigga you serious? Just do it. They deal with people way more fucked up than you all the time
>>24591850
same
un1que c0mment
>this thread
original comment #485629
>>24592892
This is good advice. Spread out your narcissism to improve your humor, insight and whit
>>24592892
I used to be fairly funny, still am sometimes but not as much because of crippling self-doubt. I'll think of something to say, then I analyse the shit out of it making sure It's worthy of being spoken but usually by the time I'm done with that the moment has passed or I come to the conclusion that what I had to say was retarded and not worthwhile. Lately I've just been the cold silent type, people seem to somewhat like me but I know I'm not that entertaining, and I'm horribly bored.
>>24592895
I'm scared to death of opening up because I've never done it before, only reasoning I'm doing it now is because I'm drunk and behind a computer.
>>24593077
Make an appointment NOW before you sobber up and force yourself to go to it
>>24593212
Fuck it, yeah I'm gonna try therapy. Anyone here a narcissist that's been in therapy? I just feel like I'm going to accidentally manipulate the therapist because that's all I know how to do.
I compulsively make people think I'm fine, and since I'm so self doubting, like seriously I could win an award for that shit, I feel like he's going to think I'm lying to him because I'm unsure of everything I say.
>>24592936
There are 7 billion people living on the planet right now. Hundreds of billions came before. Nothing you'll ever say or do is original.
>>24591850
Boo hoo poor you
>>24593463
This is part of the reason I hate myself so much. I know I don't have it so bad, I know people out there have it much worse but this is all I know, and it sucks. Let me vent, motherfucker.
>>24593334
The therapist is a trained professional, they would be able to see through your manipulation. You aren't as clever and special as you think you are
Plus go a bit drunk
>>24593334
I'm bipolar and a bunch of other shit too. When I get manic I get really full of myself and narcissistic . Not to intimidate you or anything, therapy is good, but the last time I went I was manic and my therapist asked me if I even wanted to make another appointment, even knowing I was bipolar. Don't listen to >>24593566
>>24593566
I don;t know the therapist, but I know myself. As soon as he says shit that I already know or I don;t think will help I'm going to shut off from him, agree, then never come back. I went to a therapist once before in my teens and it didn't go so well. You have to understand I'm not like you, I'm basically not fucking human. I'm a facade, a confabulation of my own imagination. The real me is dead and buried.
>>24593927
You sound a little like a narcissist yourself. Did you go to a specialist? How did it help? I feel like I already know most of the answers if not all, it's just putting them into practice feels so alien I can't handle it.
>>24593733
What's therapy really like? I one time somewhat opened up to a friend and I didn't really like it all that much. He just told me cliche shit I already knew, and i could tell he didn't understand.
My main thing is, I want to know what love is. How do I give and receive love if I don't know what it is? I've found through research and observation that love is the only way to be happy.
>>24591850
Sympathy bump
I'm exactly where you are op. 6'4, attractive, and penis is 7 inches (5.5 inch girth). Not overweight. I'm really fucking shy and I never trust anyone. Only ever had one gf and she literally cheated on me for a black ginger named Jamal. Not even kidding.
Please, end it all.
Same
>good looking face
>tall
>not fat
>mostly cool hipster-y interests
I have girls approach me every once in a while and when I am the approacher they like me, but once we start talking the interest is lost quickly, I can't keep a conversation up most of the time, I am self councious as fuck and over analyze everything too
Just fuck my social life up
>>24594094
Fucking hell you sound just like me. I'm 6'4 7.5 inch (haha gotcha motherfucker) long 5.5 girth. Crippling shyness with trust and commitment issues (I don;t even like committing to 5 minute conversations).
End it all? I wish I could but I'm too pussy and self preserving.
>>24594152
>I have girls approach me every once in a while and when I am the approacher they like me, but once we start talking the interest is lost quickly, I can't keep a conversation up most of the time, I am self conscious as fuck and over analyze everything too
>Just fuck my social life up
All my this. The other day the super fucking hot waitress from the restaurant next to my work that I've been casually staring at came over and started talking to me while I was having a smoke.
>keep cool tone and body language wise but this is all I can muster
>everything I say is just vapid nonsense and sounds like it came from a complete idiot
>start panicking and just want to get the fuck out of there
>"i'm gonna go grab some food"
>get up and walk a way
> fuck my life
Welp, you are fucked mate. Just live like that and embrace loneliness.
>>24591850
We make a nice pear :)
>>24594263
I know this is probably my destiny but it's hard to accept, especially as a narcissist. I want everyone to know and love me, I want to be a great person that everyone wants to be around, I just crave greatness.
>>24594339
Too bad people like us never actually meet and connect because we're shit scared of opening up to anyone.
>>24594401
Dont worry! You will be dead soon anyways. Just relax and enjoy the ride. You might be able to make a couple of friends eventually.
>>24594432
I have friends, I've even had multiple best friends. One of my narcissistic "superpowers" is that I can make anyone like me. Problem is, I don't like myself, and now that I know I'm a narcissist and I'm aware of what I'm doing I'm not so great at it any more.
>>24592511
wow sure norman is here
>>24594502
Well, just, change.
Ah wait is not that easy.
Go figure. Depression and life will change you by themselves.
>>24594161
Well, it's nice to know I'm not alone.
Godspeed anon
>>24594584
I'm at my most depressing point in my life right now and I'm definitely changing. It doesn't feel like it's for the better, though.
>>24594689
Same here.
I hope you find the strength to claw out of this dark, empty abyss. I like to think there's hope for all of us lost souls.
>>24594755
well, hit that bottom and then try to go up
ill be here with my great pics for you
>>24594819
I already have my plan set up. Now to execute. Thank you for the (you).
>>24595158
What's your plan anon? I have a few ideas floating around for my own plan, but I'd love to hear another one.
reading all of these replies is making me think of a friend that has really confused me for a while... i'm thinking he may be narcissistic
he constantly says thinking about how attractive he is (which isn't really true) and that he's autosexual but i always thought it was a weird joke. pretty sure i also caught him accidently dropping an anti-depressant that i found after he left my house one day.... what do u guys think?
>>24595409
I have an uncle who is a veteran and therapist. He has offered me a chance to come to a private counciling. If all goes well, (even though I'm in decently good shape) I will start hitting the gym really hard, learn to play an instrument (more than likely guitar) and ask out my uni on New Year's Eve. If not, I'll just continue my struggle in vain and hope to work myself to death for others, thus being seen as a martyr. Wish me luck.
>>24595521
After I found out about narcissism I couldn't stop reading about it because it was like I found a book about my own life. I've become somewhat of an expert on it, this kind of makes me sound like a therapist because a lot of my knowledge came from therapists. As I mentioned before I'm extremely self doubting, I'm not even 100% sure that I am a narcissist. But, it's either that or basically everyone in my life is a narcissist, and since I'm the common denominator and I cling to my own perception of being an objective realist I can't accept that reality. Plus, narcissists project their own shit onto others. I'm basically nobody, I don;t have a real personality so I end up sounding odd a lot of the time.
GL with attaining narcissistic Nirvana tho, it sounds pretty fun
>>24595599
Does he ever ask you to hang out or is it always you asking him? I literally never ask anyone to hang out. You come to me, I don't come to you. Also same applies with conversations, who usually starts them?
>>24595705
Being a god at guitar is one of my dreams. Good luck bro.
>>24596031
What's your plan anon?
>>24596043
Don't really have a plan yet. All I really know is that I want to improve myself, just be a better me. Getting /fit/ is one of those goals definitely, I'd also like to learn guitar and learn how to sing. (being a rockstar is an ultimate fantasy for me) I also want to travel the world, gain incredible knowledge and stories and just have a crazy hectic fun life where I don't have time to stop and think about myself and all my bullshit. Not much of a plan but they're little goals I have.
>>24595987
we use skype all the time and he absolutely never initiates calls, he'll keep typing in the chat for hours until someone else (usually me) starts the call, and im far from being an initiator.
come to think of it he never asks to hang out, occasionally he may ask if somebody started plans or something. i always joke and say that everyone should go to his house because he strangely doesnt want people over his house a majority of the time. every month or two we end up going to his house though.
not sure if the same applies with conversations, ill keep that in mind though
>>24596170
Well good luck. Who knows, we may hear you on the radio one day.
>>24596185
I do the same. When I'm talking to someone on the computer I prefer typing. I prefer face to face, though, because that's when I can read you more easily and know what you want me to say. Plus do conversations tend to fizzle out a lot and end sometimes abruptly?
>>24596275
nah conversations usually last long and can be about almost anything
>>24596323
Hmmm. Does he seem like he's always bored? It's really hard to tell how a narc is feeling because basically everything they do is an act, but boredom if the thing I feel most often and I can't always hide it.
>>24596450
he's pretty lethargic, apparently a couple people even said he seemed high cuz he's mellow and doesn't acts without using much energy. his tone makes him sound uninterested but at the same time his laughs seem pretty genuine and the happend somewhat frequently so it's hard to say
>>24591850
Tbh u sound like me a few years ago. Displace yourself really hard so that you're in a situation where you're not around anyone you know already. Like go abroad for a semester if you're in school or join the peace corps for a tour if not. It will fix you easily no joke.
>>24596533
Sounds a little like me, I'm generally monotone and low energy. I laugh a fair bit too but it's fake 90% of the time. My genuine laugh and fake laugh aren't all that different, my genuine one just sounds like I heard something REALLY funny, because that's the only way to get an honest laugh from me. It's gotta be top tier shit.
Another of the best tells is the person's eyes. The eyes don't tell lies.
>>24596633
This is actually something that I've been thinking about. Every time I see people I know I feel like there's an expectation of me and I don;t feel like I can live up to it because I've changed a shit ton internally rather rapidly.
>>24596635
what do you think eyes have to do with it? if you squint while laughing does it mean that it's genuine or fake?
>>24596776
Squinting or crow's feet (those wrinkles next to the eye) usually means it's genuine. I know how to fake those though. The easiest way to spot a narcissist is that they have cold kind of dead looking disinterested eyes. Sometimes they can be creepy, sometimes kind of alluring. Also they don't blink much, or at least I don't. I almost never blink.
>>24591850
Hey look, it's me. Without all the opportunity squandering. Everyone that's approached me has basically gotten into a relationship with me but they always go south. Every person I approach rejects me
I hope I stop wanting companionship soon because at this rate I'm never going to be happy
>>24596992
How come they go south anon? Do you get scared and start pushing them away?
That's never going to happen. It's human nature to need companionship. You can lie to yourself and tell yourself you don't need it but there will always be an emptiness in you.
>>24596920
hmm... i asked because he has pretty major crows feet when laughing so that's interesting... he's just so hard for me to get a read on, there's so many traits and habits he has the don't add up and i feel like being a narcissist explains alot of those things.
>>24597123
Sounds like he potentially could be. What are some of his weird traits?
Also one time someone told me: "It's like everything you do is a caricature of yourself."
If he seems a little bit like a character instead of a real person he probably is a narc.
>>24597074
I honestly don't know what I do but I guess I just get distant after a while because they make themselves too available to me. I think I get bored when I have somebody completely wrapped around my finger and I look for something better and less of an easy target. But the thing is I've never successfully charmed a girl without her already having shown interest in me so I don't know where this feeling comes from, I'm shit at engaging random women romantically but I guess my brain thinks I'm some kind of lady-killer
The only person I'm completely emotionally open to is one of my exes. She knows all the bullshit I put everyone and myself through and she helps me figure myself out. I recently talked to her and told her that I feel like I just use people in every relationship I have for different things. My friends keep me from being bored, gf's keep me from being lonely, etc. I don't know if I enjoy people's company because of who they are or just how useful they are to me. And reading about the philosophical theories of social relationships isn't helping either. I look at them from a completely self-serving perspective now
I don't really know how to change how I think. I've been depressed ever since I started high school seven years ago and nothing has changed since then. I haven't had a gf in three years, haven't had sex in two years. I have no companionship with anybody
>>24597285
idk man... he's really passionate about one game we play, and he's really good at it. we all play competitively but he's always been better than all of us. he is constantly thinking about it and reading about it, but he beats other people by conditioning them in-game and reading what they're going to do. he has videos of himself on streams playing and he openly admitted to watching his own face and how other people react to his gameplay on his first watch, before rewatching the video to actually learn and improve. ive noticed him looking into the camera on occasion, probably so he can look back into his own eyes as he watches himself on the computer at home. im never sure if he's genuine about anything the more i think about it. just when i thought i figured out his motives/intentions there is new information that doesnt make any sense in regards to what i would expect. his parents also act strange with him. he seems to disregard how they feel, and they persistently grant all his wishes. they drive me him and our friends anywhere, even out-of-state if he asks. apparently they said they have trouble getting him to eat, he's pretty tall (over 6 ft) but is very boney. he's said that he wanted to take a year off before going to college, although im not sure if that will happen. he applied to colleges in california and i asked him if he even considered how his parents would feel if he just used them all these years and then completely abandoned them, but he made points about them wanting that or being okay with it.
he never ever gets mad. no matter what. people have gotten mad at him, mocked him, or tried to put him down (mostly friends who are getting in small arguments) but he is totally unaffected. but at the same time, on some occasions, he mentions how other people's actions really bother him, or he'll try to point out the flaws in other people which is a big sign of narcissism.
i have more examples, but i cant think of them/dont wanna type em.
>>24597391
Shit man. Sounds like you are like me, and that sucks. Honestly, I don't know if there is a way to change this shit. I've read that you can be a better person to those around you and in turn that could potentially "heal your soul". But it's hard to do and it's no fun. Our entire existence is about battling boredom and feelings of worthlessness and that makes us kind of pricks. You could try surrounding yourself with people who can't be controlled by you, it's pretty fun and challenging. Also your ex sounds like a good source of support, but don't just think of her as that, she's a human being, all of them are human beings with thoughts and feelings.
>>24597696
This guy sounds a lot like me, except for the parents, but those do sound like the parents of a narcissist.
Does he like doing kind of fake out/acting humour where he pretends he's like mad or some shit then he's calm again and he was just joking? I absolutely love fucking with people, this is my go to way of entertaining myself.
For example: You drop his phone or some shit then he says "What the fuck man that shit was super expensive you owe me 300 bucks!" In a convincing way. Then after you apologise ort something he says: "just fucking with you"
I love feeling like I know something others don't, that I'm "in" on the joke
>>24597896
that sounds like something he would say but i would assume its a joke. he doesnt fuck with people like that.
side note: one time i remember he roamed around hallways in a school without shoes on because he just wanted to see if anyone would reprimand him. i thought it was a little cringy but he had no shame about it
>>24597697
I don't really know how I could be a better person. Instead of manipulating people I started to just isolate myself from them so I don't end up hurting them. I don't want to use people anymore but I can't think of how I can stop doing that
The worst part is that my ex told me how bad she feels for me and how she just wants me to be happy. I was honestly shocked listening to her say that because I can't relate at all. I can empathize with people in that I wouldn't want to be in a situation they're in, but I don't really feel bad for people. I feel like even more of a scumbag because I really just want her boyfriend to cheat on her or dump her so I have somebody who's dependent on me again. But I know that I'll just end up leaving her when/if someone I like more comes along
I don't know where the depression ends and the narcissism begins. I even started dressing better and getting /fit/ just so I can try to get random girls interested in me again. It hasn't been working but I still keep up with both because they're some of the only things I actually enjoy anymore. That's a good sign at least
>>24597952
This guy's sounding like he is. He's looking for trouble, seeing what he can get away with. He wants to stir up shit and see if he can get himself out of it. Even if he is a narcissist, honestly, you shouldn't change around him or think he's a terrible person. He can't help himself and as long as being friends with him doesn't hurt you then who cares? If he ever does try shit with you call him on it and don't back down. Also, always keep your cool. Narcs have mad respect for people who don't lose their shit.
>>24597969
>I don't really know how I could be a better person. Instead of manipulating people I started to just isolate myself from them so I don't end up hurting them.
This is what I've been doing lately too and it just fucking sucks. Go out there and keep on keeping on, but if you ever recognize that you're being a cunt self reflect a little and try avoid doing it again. Idk about you but I can usually see right through people, if I'm making them uncomfortable/angry or whatever I can see it. If you ever see this just take a step back, realise not everything is about you and just try to be empathetic. I know it's tough, but what's the alternative? Being an annoying prick your whole life? Fuck that.
> I really just want her boyfriend to cheat on her or dump her so I have somebody who's dependent on me again. But I know that I'll just end up leaving her when/if someone I like more comes along
Honestly if I were you I'd want the same shit. But as an objective outsider this is fucking terrible.
1. She's miserable
2. You've lost the only person you can really open up to
No good comes of this.
>I don't know where the depression ends and the narcissism begins
Neither do I, man. It's kind of like they fuel one another. Idk about you but my brain is always thinking of myself, and it never shuts up. Since I'm depressed as fuck these are all depressing thoughts. Perpetual unrelenting depression. I've read that one of the best ways to change who you are is to overhaul your psychology, practice positive thoughts and what not to train your brain to be something else. Who knows, maybe you can train your brain to quit it with the narcissism shit.
>. I even started dressing better and getting /fit/ just so I can try to get random girls interested in me again
The getting fit and being a better you is good shit keep it up. Don't do it to get girls though, do it for you. Love yourself.
>>24598070
he's really not the kind of guy to start shit like that. he's really rather passive when it comes to direct contact with a single person.
>>24598070
>Narcs have mad respect for people who don't lose their shit.
also, do you really believe this^ is true? it seems like your speaking for yourself. does anyone else feel this way?
>>24598458
It's like a predator watching prey, as soon as I see I've triggered their emotions I know they';re not rational any more and I can have a lot more fun. Same way bullies/trolls don't keep bothering you if you ignore them, they get bored, they'll leave you alone because they see that they have no power over you any more.
>>24598366
If you enjoy his company then fuck it who cares if he's a narcissist? BTW I don't recommend telling him he is one because A. There's a 99.99% chance he'll never believe you and B. Becoming self aware kind of sucks desu.
>>24597969
A fun way of getting the need to be a prick out of your system is to do it to other assholes who pull the same shit. You can consider yourself karma man.
>>24598587
he might believe me and he already might be self-aware. he admitted to the fact that he watches himself on video and watches peoples reactions around him on video. he literally stated that he is attracted to himself and he constantly talks about how hot he is and he pretends he's a 10/10. regardless if he's joking or not, there's some degree of realization there. plus i always feel like he's hiding something, ive had that suspicion for a very long time.
and of course ill still be friends with him, theres no reason not to be. but i considered confronting him about it, or maybe hinting about it in some way. ironically, i enjoy acting like i know his 'big secret' or that i know more about him than anyone else does. maybe im a narcissist lmao. thats why im trying to learn about all this, at least to some extent.
>>24598714
Narcs are weird when it comes to self awareness, so it's 50/50 of whether or not he'll accept it from my viewpoint. But shit idk the guy, maybe he does know already. If you want to know more read some of Sam Vaknin's stuff, he's a self aware narcissist and a psychologist so he has some good shit on the topic.
>>24598360
I've thought about getting counseling but I know I'll just end up lying about feeling better or they'll think I'm better than I actually am. I can't open up to people anymore. Plus I'm afraid of all the treatment going on some records somewhere that a future employer will dig up. I don't want any of this to hurt whatever opportunities I have later, it's bad enough now and I don't need it expanding into my work life
I'm reluctant to take medication for personal reasons so I don't really know what my options are at this point. I'll probably just float along in life until somebody who can put up with me comes along. Or until I can afford to buy tons of weed and forget about everything for a day a week
>>24598998
actually i forgot to mention one really weird thing ive been noticing lately. im pretty sure he does like making people uncomfortable. he messes with some friends, but i also notice that sometimes he'll make a stray comment or say something that makes it sound as if he's attracted to me. im almost positive that he's trying to get me uncomfortable, and i'm pretty sure he's said something about it before. at first it was weird, but once i felt like he was messing with me i stopped reacting, or i would switch subjects quick, sometimes i would even make a funny remark and just go with it. i was probably obvious in my reaction, but i think there were sometimes where i truly didnt react at all, which is what ive been doing for a while, not that this happens frequently.
another weird tendency i forgot to mention is that he confessed to liking some girl, and i (along with other friends, sometimes) joke around about her and sometimes i say really weird shit about her and him. he acts as if he's cringing or as if he wants me to stop but i cant help feel like those reactions are fake as well. now who knows what sexuality he is, auto, hetero, homo... he's a weird dude
>meet girl
>literally perfect 10/10 for me has everything I want in a woman
>we really click, can definitely see interest in her I've never seen a girl show me before
>decide to take it slow and cool because of fear of rejection and problems with intimacy
>think I have tons of time to initiate something
>turns out the situation's changing and she will be quite a distance aways now and we won't see each other regularly any more
>literally to lazy/scared to even text her now because I think the level of our relationship didn't get high enough for that
I already hate myself for wasting that opportunity and it isn't even over yet. If I texted her now and asked her out everything would probably work out in the end but I just can't.
I'm such a self sabotaging retard, I think I don't even want to be happy any more deep down, I've developed stockholm syndrome towards my depression.
>>24598458
I definitely lose a lot of respect for people that do lose their shit. For me, I am constantly thinking about how others are perceiving me and desperately trying to preserve my ego, especially in stressful situations. So when I see someone completely lose self awareness and start to have minor freakout, in my head im thinking "How can this person act like this in front of so many people, dont they see how badly they are coming off?" Ego preservation is really my only hobby so when i see someone completely disregard other's perceptions of them and act like an asshole, its almost insulting to me. Maybe it would be similar to a action figure collector watching someone burn a rare collectible.
>>24593334
>>24593566
OPs post, story of my life. Life is a state of mind. A charade.
Also, fuck therapists/counselors/doctors.
They are not professionals, just normies who will chuckle and gossip about your secrets with their friends.
>mother's friend is a doctor
>she loves to spill all kinds of embarassing stuff about her patiens.
>they get a hearty chuckle about those losers.
Shit op, are you me? I feel the same way. I have friends and shit (inb4 normie reeeeee) but I still feel lonely. They all have relationships while I'm the only one still single. I can't get a girl to like more than just friends. And when I am put in a situation where I have a chance with a girl, I get so much anxiety I freeze up and don't really reciprocate. She gets turned off and leaves. So I know exactly where you are coming from man. I feel you.
