Most people on /r9k/ are some sad motherfuckers. But I have a question for you all: why haven't you killed yourself yet? I'm not saying you should but for me at least, it's my family and the fear of pain. I hate life but those two things keep me living somewhat. Do you have anything in your life that staves off self-destruction desires?
Family too. Now get the fuck out of here you idiot.
>>24570942
Family is the only reason. I guess I'm lucky in that way that I have a pretty decent caring relationship with my parents. They would be beyond devastated if I off'd myself.
I'm not wanted anywhere or by anyone else though.
Mostly the revenge fantasy of becoming insanely attractive and letting my sadistic and sociopathic urges emotionally destroy every woman I come across.
I'm about halfway there.
I'm curious to see what the world will look like in 2060.
Sometimes I like to believe things will get better.
I'm also a coward.
family
i have one friend who would be crushed, too. would rather go the other way and show that there was something for him to believe in.
>>24570942
Cant say I haven't thought about it,my mom tried it and failed and I got to see what picking up the pieces is like from just a failed attempt.
Than my friend committed a double suicide with his boyfriend and I got to see how that went too.
Its a real mess for all parties.
I want to see the world,even if im a social retard who will probably never see affection most people seem to get daily doesn't mean I just have to give up on everything.Some days though I really want to
When I'm at my blackest I usually pull a 180 and feel happy again.
Because it wouldnt make me feel any better. Not trying to argue over the afterlife, but id rather go on a killing spree than kill myself. That being said I do think about it all the time.
>>24571475
Then you go full circle after a moment.
