Who /aspie/ here?
>tfw mother tells me to be more human
>>24567035
So she doesn't tell you to beeeeee urself xD?
>>24567386
Nope, she's starting to realize that myself is incompatible with society so now she wants me to fake it.
>>24567013
>tfw I will never be a monk
>>24567465
>tfw almost became monk
>tfw slowly want to become an anchorite after reading the desert fathers
>>24567035
>Mother thought I was autistic
>Do psycologist test
>Im not
Mmk. Bitch.
>>24567494
I would become a monk if there was a orthodox church near me
>mfw my dad denies I have autism spectrum disorder even though I was rechecked when I was 17 and has drilled it so hard into my sister's head that she denies it as well
>>24567549
theres catholic monks which I was thinking, ancorites are both catholic and orthodox. Check out
seraphim rose who was a monk in the 60s and 70s who lived in shack in the woods and printed his own letters.
currently there is a monk Anthony al lazarus in Egypt from Australia that lives in a cave in the mountains
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ItBoQsWEW_Q
pic related, French gothic monastery in Wyoming soo cozy
>>24567574
Oh also
>couldn't talk until I was 4
>was socially inept
>repeated phrases and words over and over
>obsessed with weird things like those metal bead necklaces
>had a routine throughout my life basically and if anything was fucked out of place I would feel really uncomfortable
>couldn't show emotion
>monotone voice
>hated when others touched me
>had tough time being around others
>rock and sway all the time
>in 8th grade I'd make bird noises even in public
Totally not autistic.
>>24567677
Also I had this weird thing where I had to blink a lot and blink "hard" and keep my eyes tightly shut until I felt better. For some reason blinking hard felt good.
>>24567625
Noice
Why you didn't go on with becoming a monk?
>>24567677
sounds pretty autistic to me.
>couldn't talk until I was 4
aren't aspies supposed to start talking at a normal age though? I know that there isn't really a difference between high functiining ASD and aspergers later in life.
>>24567515
>not wanting a perfect excuse to justify being a loser
Why?
Apparently.
>tfw you've got all the shit parts of autism but none of the savant stuff
>all you do is collect huge amounts of completely useless information and daydream about autism world
>no interesting personality, opinions, skills, tastes, or anything
>>24567752
I'm not entirely sure what aspie is or is different from ASD. But I have ASD and kids that have it are delayed in learning to speak usually.
>>24567677
Hmm, I often bark and chirp to this day, no regrets. Not in public though.
>>24567798
And the depression.
>>24567013
I think I am
When I rub up against something, I have to rub up against it the opposite direction
I almost caused a car accident this way
>>24567465
Why not, anon?
There are still a lot of orders around, why not join one?
>>24567840
what about the anxiety though?
The fact that I can't maintain eye contact has pretty much ruined my life. Nobody takes me seriously and I have the feeling I creep them out.
>>24567819
You're usually diagnosed with something that's on the spectrum, or at least told where you are on the spectrum. I'm an aspie which is on the spectrum.
>>24567858
I live in Brazil,the Catholic church here doesn't attract me.Also too heretic right now
>>24567882
Yeah anxiety too. I worry all the time about everything when I'm not depressed.
>>24567757
Im not a loser though, its offensive to think your parents also considered you gay when you have sex behind their backs, theyll never understand
>>24567899
I can maintain eye contact, but when I do, it feels like I give them a death stare like I want to burn through their skull with my eyes. Just less brutal I guess.
>>24567903
*I am too heretic right now
>>24567940
Just look down in the ground then. Like me.
Why do normies get triggered so hard by pedos?
I don't like it one bit myself, but I don't start screaming and yelling about how much I want to kill and castrate them.
>>24567982
Probably because they have kids themselves? I don't know really I've noticed this as well.
>>24567982
Media
Diagnosed high functioning autist reporting in.
>inb4 retarded
Had different areas of my intelligence tested by 3 different types of doctors. High IQ, come at me neurotypicals.
>>24567677
>>24567716
high functioning autist here again.
id say you definitely have ASD going by your description.
I know how it feels though to deal with a dad that denies autism exist. the hilarious part is his own dad (my grandpa obviously) has autism as well.
>>24567982
they are frightened of the unknown things, as long they are in their perfect lifes their are totally secure so dont have to worry, be cause if they start to search more and more into their giant movie they will be like us and WE are the BAD guys, fucking normies
>>24568101
>HEY GUYS MY IQ IS HIGH
You know who said that people who boast about their IQ are losers? Stephen Hawking.
No one is calling you retarded, you just wanted the chance to try to show how smart you are.
>>24568148
>you just wanted the chance to try to show how smart you are.
True.
:+)
Stay jelly, pleb.
>>24568144
This. Watch all the normies ITT get triggered.
>get job
>buy brother a bday gift
>responds with 'thanks for being human'
>>24568207
>tfw ive never bought anyone a card or present for birthdays/Christmas ever
>>24567722
still lots of decisions. I love jesus Christ so I might be a priest but a monk is a massive decision
>>24568139
Yeah whenever my sister asks questions about me doing things that autistic things and I try to explain it's probably because of my autism he gets furious. Like I've recently "added" something to my swaying and that's I'll close my eyes and kind of twist my upper body right and left. When I was about to tell her why I did it he jumped in and said "Oh I did that as a kid, it's fine." He usually either tells me I'm not really autistic or he'll pretend that what I'm doing and how I act is normal. My sister started buying into the shit too.
>>24567982
they were told to
Have any of you guys ever looked back on your childhood and had it suddenly dawn on you that you weren't just weird, but completely and utterly retarded?
>used to spend lunch curled up in a ball with my head in my shirt
>would fill my pockets with little pieces of glass and metal, which my teacher would always force me to throw out
>wrote messages like 'die' on walls with nose blood
>wore Halloween masks to school
>randomly screamed in certain people's faces
>pulled my pants down all the way to pee (still do, I avoid urinals)
>random outbursts over slight annoyances where I would sometimes violently attack people (sent my brother to hospital once, I fucking hate myself)
>extremely possessive, once cried when I broke a plastic box
>really religious, despite being raised fairly secular, and was terrified of atheism
>terrified of the idea of death, afterlife, eternity, and finality, and would feel physically sick when I thought about them
>was taken out of class every day for 'special needs' along with the down's kids, which I assumed was normal
>would go to a 'special clinic' every few weeks where I'd just play with toys (which I was too old for) and talk to a nice lady
>the same people diagnosed me with Aspergers, after which I started gaining a little bit of self awareness
I was no less autistic as a teenager, and I'm even worse today, but at least I'm self aware now. I wish I wasn't.
>>24567013
>anon why can't you be more like your brother
>he's social people like him he knows how to talk to people
>your brother should be an actor
>you look terrible change into something else
>sad Pepe.jpg
>>24567013
What do women think of aspies?
>>24568310
Tell her to fuck off, once my parents realized they cant toy with me they stopped treating me like that
>>24568263
>Oh I did that as a kid, it's fine
Yeah, I hear that one a lot.
Or, "it's just shyness". No it's not. Impairments in empathy and sensory disturbances are not "shyness".
Fucking people.
>>24568338
This anon. I used to get bullied and stepped on by my parents and a couple other family members plus peers nearly every day of my life until I decided to be more aggressive and started learning about body language and realized I have to present myself a certain way or normies will look down on you or sense weakness. Not anymore, nobody fucks with me these days. Most people don't like real confrontation and back off soon as they see you're not a push over.
>>24568331
The pretend to feel sympathetic.
>>24568310
tell everyone that you dont give a single fuck, ve yourself anon and im not memeing you, be yourself is the answer and if thats pisses off the world, be yourself and dont fucking care, just say ''hey im just beiing myseelf ;^)'' and they will go away
>>24568304
kinda sounds a bit further down the spectrum than Aspergers for me.
>>24568445
If he had a language delay then that would exclude him from aspergers syndrome diagnosis.
Now days all autism spectrum disorders are lumped together under one diagnosis.
It's bit of a cluster fuck desu.
Like myself, I had a language delay but have high verbal intelligence at the same time. I'm not diagnosed with aspergers but "high functioning autism" and I do believe It's between classic autism and aspergers syndrome making it PDD-NOS but even then, the old definition of PDD-NOS doesn't really fit either.
DESU I think in reality, asperger people can have language delays. But hey, who fucking knows, it's just ASD now.
>>24568445
Probably. What's the difference anyway? Self awareness?
>>24568490
No, the difference between classic autism (kanner syndrome) and asperger syndrome is a language delay and severity of symptoms.
Self awareness really has little to do with it, even people with classic autism are self aware, just because they can verbalize their thoughts doesn't mean they don't have any.
>>24568509
Can't verbalize**
Shit.
>>24568486
ah, ok, thanks for the explanation.
aspergers is inborn lobotomy
>>24568509
I don't think I had a language delay and my symptoms became less severe over time, so I guess I'm aspie, or high functioning autism, or whatever it is now.
>>24568550
No it's not. It's speculated its caused by too many neurons in per-frontal cortex. It happens because the brain doesn't "prune itself" during development. Also autistic people have larger and heavier brains.
You can google these things if you don't believe me.
>>24568551
You're probably an aspie.
le shit nigger
probably not original
>>24568338
>>24568440
Kind words, this shit is so hearing to hear especially from your mom.
>>24568245
Same
Is that not normal?
Gift-giving doesn't make any sense to me
>>24568972
are you an autist like me?
then yeah i guess so. emotional reciprocity and all that.
Diagnosed Aspie here.
How hard would it be for me to get Autismbux?
>>24569071
Shouldn't you already have it?
>>24569071
Depends where you live.
I live in Aus and get newstart bux but due to my tism diagnosis and it's "level 2 severity" I could easily land myself disability bux and make a good normie wage for doing nothing other than existing.
>>24569082
I always went against my diagnosis. I never really believed it until I went out of high school and still felt alienated by the public. I'm in college and I still hate people even if I know how to act like them to hide my spergishness.
I'm already getting my tuition payed by the state.
>>24569141
File for disability then you fucking faggot.
Diagnosed here. Don't have it.
>>24569208
Elaborate please.
fuck off not original
What does it actually mean to be diagnosed? Does it just mean that a psychiatrist thinks you have it, or is it a more formal thing where you get a certificate of autism or something?
>>24569192
Won't I like get labeled as a disabled fuck if I do for life?
>>24569303
The latter is correct. It's best to get many doctors to diagnose you too.
>>24569319
What? What are you even saying? "Can I get disabled money?" "I DON'T WANNA BE LABELED DISABLED" Pick a side man.
>>24569303
For me it was an interview type session with a speech pathologist (who was also autistic) and a psychologist. Before being sent to see them thought I had already been told by my GP and phsyciatrist that I probably had an autism spectrum disorder. Turns out they were right.
And yeah, after the diagnosis they write up a formal report and in my state you can register to a place called autism SA (my state) and you get bux from the government and other nice privileges to help tap into that autist potential. I think that's what they saw in me and it's why they offer me more support than others despite my symptoms being less severe.
>>24569319
Autism is an impairment/disability so yeah, deal with it. If you don't want that label then don't make it official.
>>24568148
>armchair psychologist
back to reddit
>>24569374
What I said had literally 0 to do with my telling him anything with psychology. IF you're going to use buzzwords at least know what they mean. All I did was make an assertion that he wanted a chance to show off how "smart" he was.
>>24569422
And you were right. You got me, old chap.
>>24569374
>>24569422
If I was being an armchair psychologist I'd say something like "You might have issues back at home with attention because you're clamoring for it on an image board by trying to put yourself above others."
NIGGERS!!!!!!!!!!!1111ONEONEONEELEVENINEELVEN
>>24568304
>>would go to a 'special clinic' every few weeks where I'd just play with toys (which I was too old for) and talk to a nice lady
That was the shit. Did yours have a big indoor swing too?
>>24569777
No, but they had a lot of comics. I didn't normally read comics, so that was pretty cool.
How many people here are self diagnosed?
I'm only just starting to realize that I'm probably autistic. I just cant get close to normal people regularly, eye contact feels weird etc. Typical autistic shit.
When did you find out you were autistic? Should I look to get myself officially diagnosed? Is there a chance that my parents just kept it from me through childhood?
>>24572061
Psychiatrist started suspecting it when I was seeking treatment for depression and it sort of went from there, I was 21 if I recall correctly when I got diagnosed with asp. I don't think your parents kept that from you, because most people don't even know about typical traits. If you want to get diagnosed is ultimately up to you, but if you already have other psychological problems thatn it is probably good to know, for therapeuthic reasons. And as some said before you may be able to get some financial assistance. I didn't but my country is shit for this kind of thing.
>>24567013
>didn't talk until 4
>the fact someone's competent about activity I'm doing is observing me always ticks me off
>love walking in diagonal tile patterns
>feel severe stress for dumb things like kindergarten being joined by childhood friend
>never asked for advice from parents aside from demonstrations
Got over the habit of perfectionism with video games somehow, though I'm still weird about relationships.
I don't know. Under heavy stress I feel like "I'm quite not there, though only half-way in" while at times I feel completely out of my mind or something. Given I got everything under control I feel kinda okay though.
>>24567013
I am.
I'm glad I was never diagnosed, or my family would have tried to force me to do things.
I'm so happy I got a diagnosis as an adult.
Fellow aspie here. So how is that getting your shit together and not sucking at life going? I'm currently trying to finish my bachelor's degree in computer science. Am already 2 years over time, with the reason being mostly that an internship is required to graduate, but no one wants to hire an autistic fuck like me. Also lost interest in it and don't know what to do with my life anymore.
Other than that it's just the daily struggle with anxiety, depression and human interactions. Any of you want to be in a relationship? I've always been kind of obsessed with love and sex and all that since I was little. Probably kind of strange for autists. But I couldn't manage to get that working, only one sided love on my part.
Has anybody ever had a total hand eye disconnect?
I mean like seeing with your eyes but not seeing anything at the same time.
Life is shit as an autismo
No one has ever looked twice at me. I'm 24.
>>24567798
I do exactly the same. And because extreme depersonalization i have to stop daydreaming all day evryday.
>Feel empty without
>>24567013
it feels so bad to be an aspie aware of what he is socially doing wrong but knowing he will never be able to do it right due to his mental restrictions
fuck this life
>>24573362
>Not just being totally quiet
Dude, problem solved.
>tfw your Mom doesn't believe autism real
>>24573304
I wish I could daydream again, walking on clouds was pretty awesome. But I somehow stopped when I hit puberty.
>>24573362
Can relate. What helps is constant practice, it doesn't make you perfect but it gets easier. But if you stop it gets worse again, like for me after high school.
So yeah, fuck this life.
>>24573270
Sounds similar to my
>>24573019
being there and not quite there or above, it's weird shit.
>>24573362
Can relate, I know what to do to improve but I don't run it. I'm not officially autistic, though.
I tried around and coordination + reaction seems better when focused, while getting tired or unwound makes it seem partially disconnected or something... Is this autism?
Are there any drugs I can take for aspergers?
It's making it hell to work in construction.
