So what's keeping you from killing yourself? I can think of like 2 things maybe. Come share some /wanttokillmyselfbutcant/ feels.
>>24554082
The fact that I'm still only 20 and things can get better.
Someone close to me killed themselves recently and seeing the result of that, so many people mourning her loss, makes me realise I would probably be missed too, even if not on the scale she's missed.
sex, desu, sex.
>>24554082
I'm planning on killing myself soon, I turn 25 next month on the 2nd, I'm going to jump off the Brooklyn Bridge.
>>24554082
>>24554082
My family, to be honest family.
I actually have a pretty great family and I love my mom and little sister, it would destroy them if I sudoku'd.
Sometimes I wish I had a shitty family so I wouldn't feel guilty about offing myself
my oneitis. she turned me down but she'll still be sad if I go. also I'm moving out next year. so I have hope for the future just a little
Relevant thread. I'm sitting here half drunk, on klonopins, with a 12 gauge, 9mm, and a .40 cal within reach. I've contemplated suicide for more than half my life at this point (30+ yr fag). I almost feel like I want to trade my life for something. Like it has an inherent value. It feels like I'm giving away something for free if I just kill myself. But I can't be any more afraid of my death than I've always been. Why wait? Get the trip over with
>>24554082
My mom and dad
I couldn't do that to them they've worked so hard and done so much.
>i-it's just a rough patch...things will get better...I know they will....
>>24554082
waiting until spring, if shit is still the same either killing myself or just taking a place to the west coast and see if I can do something.
>>24554082
Exit bag has not arrived yet.
>>24554461
The future is a lie.
>>24554082
Curiosity.
Some day I might win the lottery. You never know.
>>24554082
finishing my backlog
dont wanna go to hell
dont wanna miss out on good movies
>>24554082
My mom and my dog
>>24554365
>her loss
>her
>loss
>implying "she'd" contribute anything ever
>>24554082
I've daydreamed about killing myself for a very long time. I've died thousands of times in my head. It comforts me.
I will call 911 and shoot myself in the head when the ambulance arrives. This way my wife and daughter won't find my body.
It's surreal knowing how you're going to go.
>>24554467
Go join the ypg and be a hero. Worst case you eat a bullet, which you plan to anyway. Best case you make friends and family for life and are a hero to a nation.
>>24554461
>she'll be sad
For 5 minutes maybe, then she'll go off to sucking Chad'd cock. Trust me nigger, no one will miss you.
>>24554518
Yea I have a hard time believing this is all the universe had in store for me. Some day something interesting is going to happen
>>24554461
Trust this oldfag, you will get a new oneitis.
>>24554533
>hellnigga i'll show you original and it'll go right up your tight asshole
>>24554082
Nothing. I want to die, all I need is a reliable method.
>>24554574
well she raised a lot of money for charity doing lots of random stuff and was an amazing artist.
If you're really gonna be a fag i'll link you to her deviantart?
>>24554598
Why do so many people on the internet like the Kurdish People? What the fuck. Thats such a random suggestion kid
>>24554586
Not the best idea. You could potentially be saved. You'd most likely be a braindead veggie but you'd still be alive and people would have to hang around with you out of pity.
>>24554082
I don't really have a reason to kill myself but its not like I really need a reason.
I might kill myself when I'm 21 but I'm not sure. I used to try and kill myself when I was younger because I was always left alone to take care of myself since I was 4. I stopped trying at 11 or 12 years-old since it was too costly and I got tired of it.
Doctors said I'd die at 12 and I was fine with that. Thought that it'd suck to not grow up but if I had to keep living like this alone I was fine with dying.
I've gotten used to being alone and its what I prefer now, but I do enjoy talking to others and being around people. What's making me want to kill myself now is just the weight of being lost and not doing anything in life.
Sorry about the blog post.
>>24554586
>wife
>daughter
Y-you probably shouldn't kill yourself anon.
But you should leave this noard
i still need to beat a few vidya games. i also still have a few more movies i want to watch. also, alcohol is still widely available in the US of A
i got approached about babysitting for someone new
i think i made a new friend (of the opposite sex so it could be more, even), finally
maybe this relationship will go well and someone will care about me for once
but i usually don't feel like anyone would miss me all that much besides my mom so who knows
>>24554666
Satanic trips demand it. I'll leave.
Family and capeshit
Dark Souls 3 to be completely honest my family
>>24554420
Don't do it anon
You're one of a kind
>>24554726
Traps. You wander from life to life and find baubles to occupy your mind, but in the end you've wasted the allotted time. What if you're forced to do it again, it being life? Maybe in a different world, different time, different body, whatever. What if you're fucking up your chance at moving beyond rudimentary, basic living by not getting it, not realizing what it is you're doing, what it means to be alive? Shit, what if you're better off just dying now so you can get started on the next chance?
>>24554082
Becuase I feel like this every winter and I know the feeling will pass when it warms up
when the feeling creeps up in the summer its harder
My little sister. She's 10 years old and it would fuck her up beyond belief. I can't do that to her now so I'm waiting til she's old enough to handle it. It'll be easier when I don't live with her and see her all the time.
>>24554635
Damn, you gettin' feisty.
What was the "charity" this cunt raised money for? Some white bitches consdescending to help the poor brown kiddies, when they wouldn't spend a minute with them otherwise?
Link me if it makes you happy, this cunt deserved to die and more.
>>24554420
That's pretty cool, but have you seen the doc where the survivors talk about how they instantly regretted it after they jumped?
>>24554726
>got approached about babysitting
If you don't get your greasy cunt off this board right now we'll rip it right out of your crotch and feed it to you.
No one will ever love you and no one will really miss you. Just end it
>>24554420
Would be a shame if you jumped, survived and became hospitalized, where you'd be monitored to make sure you don't try that again, making your life even more shit as you lose any amount of freedom you once had.
>>24554984
>it would fuck her up beyond belief
You could create an exceptional pornstar, and you're messing it up?
I don't want to leave my mom alone. She needs me to pay for her retirement, mortgage and to keep her company.
>>24555055
>people who failed at even suicide
>authorities on anything
I actually tried it once. In highschool because of horrible bullying. Terrible attempt.
But after waking up the next morning, it's like a switch flipped.
From then on I worked on improving myself. Years later and I'm actually really happy with where I am.
Sure, I could still end up in some major shit, but I'll look for a solution to that as well.
My brother killed himself this year. We were very close. He was the outgoing troublemaker growing up, and I was quiet- so he always looked out for me, but picked on me too. He had become a great man though and was just about to be hired as a lineman. I think he just made a rash decision when he was in a bad mindset (longer story).
Now that it's been a few months I can say that life has just moved on without him. That's why I don't want to die anymore. Life goes on no matter what, and to me living with the highs and lows of life gives some chance of being happy. Dying seems so pointless, I doubt there's an afterlife so goddammit i'm gonna hold on dearly to this precious life and try to experience as much as I want to.
>>24555242
green text?
You have been muted for 2 seconds, because your comment was not original.
1. Fear of screwing it up and making my life worse than it is now (vegetable / psych ward)
2. Fear of what's on the other side
3. Still enjoy aspects of life--food,
Coffee, orgasms, some semblance of a "meaningful" life
>>24555174
I don't do anything with the freedom I have so that would be a step up, I wouldn't have to work and be a productive member of society.
>>24555274
I like this way of thinking
Please no mute
>>24555274
This was so beautiful anon in the least beautiful way
I'm sorry about your brother ;_;
>>24554365
Thats bullshit man, if you really wanted to kill yourself badly enough you wouldn't care about other people's feelings
Anyone who wants to kill themselves but worried about the people they leave behind is so fucking full of shit
I'm worried about the possibility of there not being an afterlife. How fucked up would that be? Shit. I'm not a religious person but I would really like to believe there's something afterwards. I don't know how atheists do it. Thinking there's just nothing after you die is too depressing and frightening.
>>24554082
I dont have access to a firearm. Any other way would be too long and painful.
>>24556013
There's nothing painful about not being itself. It's painful only as an extension of your thought.
As Socrates put it, it's a "dreamless sleep". It's why you choose suicide in the first place.
>>24554082
only reason i havent killed myself
is because I like when after i drink a cup of coffee in the morning I take a huge shit
seriously that's the only reason. it feels so good
Only reason I haven't offed myself is because I love someone too much to put them through that
Still clinging on to the hope that I can change my life
>>24554082
The dawn keeps on coming after the incredibly long nights. This previous night was really dark, but the other day it dawned.
I always forget that I'm most happy around other people, especially women of my own age. I never really liked being alone.
20 here, severely depressed, hate myself and everybody around me except my family. My family basically keeps me alive due to the fact that I don't want them to become as miserable as I am, that and I also want to get my own dog.
>>24554467
Do something epic, killing yourself, that way you die, and your life had meaning through the story and infamy u cause
>>24554810
This man has taste
>>24554082
Who else is going to take care of the spiderbros?
>>24554082
1-haven't finished Fallout 4 yet
2-If I die, I will never get to play Fallout 5
Video games are literally the only thing in the world that i live for desu senpai
