>those things you remember that make you cringe to this fucking day
it hurts
>>24552100
I know, anon. I remember shit from grade school 17 years ago that makes me want to punch myself in the face.
Dear anon, i find this post highly disturbing. I am deeply annoyed that you would remind me of such memories. For instance the night i tried to fuck my friend in the asshole. It wasn't a great fit, but the thing that still puzzles me is how i am not gay.
no pls
i don't wanna remember
>>24552296
i am sorry but i'm having an episode myself at the moment
waiting for the benzos to kick in so i can relax again after recalling something dumb i said two years ago
I don't have any, because I realise that mistakes I made in the past mean I won't do that shit again. I'm past the cringe. Enlighten yourself.
>>24552345
you can never remove the blunder from the minds of those who witnessed it
>When I was 15
>Girl I was deeply in love with invite me for a day at her home to work on school stuff
>We didn't work at all
>Her parents were never home
>I remember doing half autistic half alpha stuff like throwing small balls of papers inside her cleavage while telling her her boobs were too small for me to win at this game
>But never tried anything because I was absolutely scared of asking girls out and had no idea how to do it
>Tell her that some girl in the class told me she loved me and if it was true in an awkward beta way
>She said 'no'
Friendless virgin 8 years later.
>>24552441
ouch bro
i am deeply sorry for your lot
>>24552376
you mean the people who don't even remember what the fuck you're dwelling on?
>>24552513what if they do though
>>24552587
Then they're just as lame as you for wasting their energy thinking about something that happened years ago
>>24552607
i don't think they're lame that's why i'm worried about what they think
I remember cringy shit from kindergarten
>>24552620
You're beyond help then, defeatist scum
>>24552504
Even worse that year.
>Asked her cuter friend out ... via friend
>Obviously he made stupid jokes and insinuations
>He told me he did it
>Go talk to her after class
>She was with the girl I loved over me on stairs
>Tell her that what my friend told her was true with the most terrible beta body language possible
>Told me she had a paper to give and was coming back to talk to me outside
>She didn't while I was like 2ft away from her
>Her friend that I loved sang to me 'you have no balls you have no balls you have no balls'
>She later sent me a text
>I changed high school that year
>And apparently she admitted to another friend becoming interested in me later but never did shit about it
On top of that
>Another girl is interested in me
>I made her admit it
>It was just after the two other accidents
>Reject her because I didn't really like her face (which was quite ok)
>We hanged out all the time during the summer
>Changed my mind just before leaving town
>We were together for 3 days and only kissed (at least I got that but still)
And that's how I fucked my whole life.
>Had a Vampire Freaks account
>Online Swedish bf
>Would play wizards in the forest with my ONE friend
>played D&D
>Drank ever clear
>Went to shitty shows
>Backcombed my hair into oblivion
>Was fat asf, wore low cut tops to show off tits
I was so groce
>>24552673
Damn why did I tell this story made me remember details I forgot 8 years ago fucking hell fuck this shit.
>>24552711
It's all fine as long as you still don't play dungeons and dragons
>>24552100
called up this way younger chick from highschool basically for a booty-call. Went to a bar and danced w/ her stupid fat ass and hung out with her friends. They drive me home and i ask the chick if she wants to come inside
>no
>get out of car completely wasted w/ noticeable half chub
why was i trying to hit that in the first place, fuck
>>24552100
I just had an experience last night regarding how I social interact in public, my failures are my own choices and my inability to listen to others good advice. There was no cringe at the time, only in post.
>Had crush that started in 7th grade
>Slowly became obsessed with her
>Year later in 8th grade
>Decide I have to do this; ask her out
>Heart pumping, sweating, hands are clammy
>About to have an anxiety attack
>Know where she waits to get picked up after school
>Taps her behind back and I try to talk
>She tries to ignore me and I tap again
>She moves away and hides behind her friend
>Wait for about 20 seconds awkwardly with the drone of school kids chattering
>Eventually shrug and walk away, pulling out slide-phone to call mom to pick me up
This makes me cringe so hard every time I remember it.
>>24552767
I do not. I front as a Stacy then robot at home now. It is an ok life
>>24552749
we're here for you
>>24552767
>>24552788
>>24552711
/tg/ here. get fucked
> 8, at church
> sitting with preacher lady and other kids my age or a bit older
> Someone brings out cookies
> preacher lady eats one
> in my logic: She eat cookie = not diabetic
>"GOOD THING YOU DONT HAVE DIABETES LOLOL"
> Her "I actually do"
>>24552809
and that's why you're here with us
>that time that I was 14 and I had to ask what masturbation was when my cousin told a joke about it to my older brother and I
fuck I was stupid
that's the embarrassing one, the other ones are all stupid things, like posing on a cliff edge for a picture or the time I nearly crashed into a truck at high speeds
>>24552789
Thanks bro. The regrets are eternal, but so is /r9k/ camaraderie.
Surely there's a way to ovecome and accept all of those memories
I will find out how
>>24552949
I hear NLP and CBT help.
>tfw I when semi autistic on this girl in 7th grade
>find out a year later she may have liked me
Well fuck
>Mum works in administration at high school
>I'm in the library and reading a book
>Find a word I've never heard before
>Decide to ask mum what it means
>Go to office and loudly ask "Hey mum, what's an orgasm?"
The staff members never stopped joking about it and my mum eventually changed jobs from the embarrassment.
>be 14 I think
>hanging out with cousins and siblings, all at least a year older, driving to some restaurant
>lady gaga's disco stick song comes up
>'this song doesn't make sense, what is a disco stick?'
>silence
>suddenly realized what it means
You want cringe? You've got cringe.
>be 12 years old
>be playing a special type of tag me and my friends invented. Was really fucking fun
>the girl i had a crush on was nearby with other friends and teacher
>Everytime I would run by her I yelled "CRUDE OIL! CRUDE OIL!"
Seriously all of my wat, why did I do this? At least the tag was fun.
I begged for the affection/validation of a 3/10 5'1 ogre looking girlthat I met on here
Absolutely paralyzed by "what ifs"
> have a qt gf
> we have a lot of dumb drunken arguments but always get back together because love
> a girl sends me a funny meme of an animal on Facebook, I send her one back
> drunk gf sees this, rages out and kicks me out of out of our house
> apologises a few days later. Begs me to come back. Says she'll never kick me out again
Fast forward to six weeks later
> get my motorbike back from a friend who borrowed it so I can go for a ride with an old friend I haven't seen in years
> he gives it back but the licence plate is snapped off
> have to go to the registry to get a new one, miss the ride meetup
> decide to meet old friend at the pub instead
> get drunk with some other mates
> everyone goes home
> old friend finally shows up, Im plastered at this point
> go home gf is drunk too, we argue, she kicks me out again
> push her, say Im sick of always being the one who gets kicked out, she can leave this time
> she throws a dinner plate at me, I rage out and start smashing the kitchen up, threw a knife at her
> she runs next door to the neighbours, calls cops, I get arrested
> she gives a statement about how Im a violent monster
> I drunkenly ramble and confess to blowing up that Russian plane in Egypt
Now the facts sheet the judge reads is fucked. Im a dumb self loathing degenerate but Im not the monster the police say I am. I have a domestic violence conviction, awaiting sentencing.
What if I followed my gut feeling and stayed broken up with her?
What if I spent all day riding then had a quiet night because I was tired?
What if I left the pub with everybody else instead of waiting for the other guy?
What if I wasn't a fucking disgusting drunkard who ruins everything?
My only contact since has been r9k, my parents, my shrink, my lawyer and my asshole boss telling me how useless I am.
>>24552345
>I won't do that shit again.
enviable aptitude
>>24552989
lol, reminds me of when my brother asked my mum what sodomy meant. Note he was 21 at the time, and he's gay
I always whistle or whisper a word to myself when I remember something embarassing, like trying to distract my mind from that thought by doing something else.
One day I yelled just to stop myself from thinking shit. The problem is, it was on public transport.
>go to the mechanic
>explain what I need done
>give him the keys
>come back later
>get keys back, pay
>go back home
>realize my keys had my waifu's cell phone charm attached the whole time
>>24552100
>put some kid's dick in my mouth, try to suck it
>he can't get it up, starts crying and wailing "OH GOD AM I GAY NOW?"
>friends with several hot girls in HS, two of them move in down the road, come over all the time
>one night they complain about guys who can't last more than five minutes during a threesome
>everyone sitting on my bed, snuggling with me, rubbing my legs and shit
>'ahahaha.....yeah, what losers'
>do nothing afterward, they eventually leave, didn't want them to see my tiny dick
>other girl in HS, stacy. always flirting and teasing and hanging out with me
>want to fuck her so bad ever since I met her in middle school, make no move because not worthy of love or affection even though she tells me everything that's wrong with her various bfs and makes it clear she wants to do stuff with me at least
>fast forward a few years, see her at casino, she's married, instantly starts listing things she hates about her hub, asks me to escort her to her car, do nothing even though she wants me to fuck her in the parking lot
>working on roof with friend of my neighbor, chill guy, warn him about neighbor and how she's going to use him and drain his lifeblood, her exact words
>he fucks up during an argument and tells her what i said
>get called out.
>go over to house, puss out and say i never said a word
>not manning up and telling neighbor what an evil cunt she is weighs heavy on my soul
>drink a few bottles of DM cough syrup and spend the day fucked up out of my mind going over it in my head
Too many to list. My current life is just me recounting all the ways I've fucked everything up for myself and never took a chance on anything. It's a wasted, shitty life and I hate being alive. I drink cough syrup and eat pain killers so I don't have to feel my body rotting from the inside.
>>24553604
>Too many to list. My current life is just me recounting all the ways I've fucked everything up for myself and never took a chance on anything. It's a wasted, shitty life and I hate being alive. I drink cough syrup and eat pain killers so I don't have to feel my body rotting from the inside.
Pretty much sums of my life. Only I got clean of drugs thinking it might help, but, I'm still miserable.
Since I stopped fapping(2 weeks) I cant stop dreaming about the different 'friends' I had in school not even good friends... I don't miss school but I think my brain wants to go back. It's been almost 10 years already since the last time I saw one of those friends.
>>24552100
I know that feel. It's painful to remember those times when I went full autism.
Bump
A@a
>>24553726
>got clean of drugs
Yeah, either way you're going to be miserable, but at least while I'm fucked up I can enjoy vidya at least. Muh woodelf on skyrim just passed 150 in level, fuck yeah illusion spam.
>in a sandwich store with some people i don't really talk to from school
>guy we haven't seen in ages comes in with his girlfriend
>we have the regular catchup
>after a bit I say "look, man, no-one here likes you, so why don't you just leave?" thinking I was being funny
>everyone just stops talking and his gf seems dumbfounded
>didn't think anything of it at the time
>remember how much of an ass I was being
>cringe hard
>tfw have basically accepted I'm completely fucked in life in every way and I'm going to die alone and unfulfilled
>No longer feel awkward and don't give a shit for normies at all any more
I recommend it.
>>24554304
Got some second hand cringe off of that one bro. Shit was cold as fuck.
>>24552100
>those things that you almost did but stopped yourself because you knew how much you'd cringe if you did
No better feeling than dodging a bullet that could have left a 20+ year mental wound.
>>24552100
>tfw can remember E V E R Y T H I N G
If only I had anything good to remember.
>>24554488
Christ. It hurt to live.
>>24554456
>at uni
>in one of the most intensive, high level courses in my program
>everyone serious as shit
>professor is serious as shit
>I'm dozing off in the back (8 am class)
>start having extremely vivid dreams despite only dozing sitting up
>about to start yelling something in my dream
>feel the muscles in my mouth/jaw prepare themselves to belt that shit out
>suddenly snap awake
>can tangibly feel how close I was to yelling gibberish
God damn I'm so happy it didn't happen.
>>24552100
>qt 3.14 i knew as a kid always would hit on me
>too sperg to understand
>her family moved away suddenly, never got to say goodbye
>8-9 years later, 18, single and ready to kill myself
I don't even know
>website where you can ask questions anonymously to people
>admit love for girl I didn't really know since elementary school, say dumb shit like I felt like she left me behind
>"awww that's so nice :)"
>I admitted who I was
>realize she I was barely even an acquaintance to her
>her friend said that my confession sounded like dark poetry
oh well, I'll hopefully never see her again. She's the only one who knew it was me. But she probably laughed about it with all her friends
Anyone else have none?
I don't understand how any of these situations come about
>got caught jerking off today
it's the first time i've been caught and i'm a 23 year old NEET
>wake up
>horny as fuck
>go downstairs to see if people have shown up yet
>no one here besides parents
>go back to room and start looking at futa porn
>be in that hunched over position where your scrolling through images and just slightly tugging at your dick
>window is behind me and curtains are open
>see a shadow on the wall
>turn around to look out window and notice someone running off
>immediately lose boner and close all tabs
>tell parents im now feeling well and wont be eating
im hungry as FUCK but people are still here and i have no idea who caught me
>>24553557
/o/ here. I guarantee you that he does not give a fuck, if it makes you feel better.
>>24552587
Pick someone you know and try and remember something embarrassing they've done. What are your feelings towards them due to this?
>>24554785
Hahahaha
Had a chuckle.
I put a book on top of my head in the middle of class.
What was I thinking back then?
>that guy who hated you for no reason
>tfw too many cringe moments to remember one specifically
>>24554896
There was a reason.
>hair starts to get curly in 6th grade
>start getting made fun of for it by one kid, but I don't like it either
>try straightening it but that doesn't work
>get this really strong hair gel called got2bglued >apply that every day, then cover my hair with a hat
>eventually it dries into a hard shell
>hair is finally straight
>one day girl remarks on how strange my hair is
>"can I touch it?"
>"sure"
>she literally knocks on my shell hair.
>go on like this until end of high school.
eventually i started to comb the shell out so that it wasn't a shell anymore, just flat hair.
>>24555008
>she literally knocks on my shell hair.
>>24552989
how the fuck did you not know what that was in hs
>>24554422
although a funny comment I dont see why his joke made the people in his social group turn against him
>>24554304
>manage to become an exchange student in another country
>somehow, the shitty cuisine there made me develop fucking fecal body odor (if I ate cup noodles, my skin would smell like urine the next day, and if I had meat, it would smell as if a sewer was leaking, no matter how impeccable my hygiene was)
I somehow managed to make it through my stay there and get top grades to boot, but that was probably the most terrifying period of my life, as I had no idea what was going on and thought I was going insane, as I only noticed it at certain times, while others seemed to notice it at other times. Having people make comments behind your back about a bad smell while not even being sure whether it's really you or just paranoid delusions fucks with your mind pretty bad.
>introduced mom to r9k
>now keeps posting "poopoopeepee" on my normiebook page
>now keeps calling everything top tier
>now points out autism shoes to me
>now calls me fellow robot
Regret.
Hi mom.
>>24555127
>introduced mom to r9k
Why would you even think about doing this? What the fuck
>>24555101
They weren't in my social group.
My best friend in school and his kind of group would have loved it because of the brutality.
>riding the bus
>looking out the window
>alone with my thoughts
>remember something unforgivably autistic i did
>face twists up until i can force the thoughts out of my head
>cannot go for more than a few months without obtaining a new cringeworthy experience to obsess about
>>24555138
She was curious about what I was laughing at when I was visiting her
>four year old facebook status updates
>>24555127
hope this is real because its cute
>>24554701
>18
>single
Good you fucking kek, I am literally SICK of sharing this board with a bunch of highschoolers that are sad because they don't have gf's. I really think you should kill yourself
>>24555101
How is it a funny comment? It's just mean desu
>be 13
>horney af andat an all boys school so no where to vent it
>mom is only female
>in bathroom together
>"anon you're starting to grow now!"
>being dumb teenage hormone filled retard I am I say "my penis is growing bigger"
>she just walks out the room and doesnt talk to me for a week after that
fug
>>24555264
>fanfiction from when you were 13
>>24555324
>highschoolers
kek I'm in college
I thought I was the only one.
>try to fall asleep
>remember something cringy I did in like grade school or high school
>WAKE ME UP INSIDE, just sit in my bed staring at the wall reflecting on that shit
>all of the sudden with that thought all the regrets I ever had flood my mind
It's the worst familia.
>>24552100
Fuck OP. Now I want to shoot myself in the stomach.
>>24552441
>tfw I missed what was probably my only chance at a gf in 10th grade when this one girl asked me if I wanted to go to prom with her and I said no because of my deathly fear of rejection and failure
>literally next week after that prom she has a bf who was a beta loser just like me
It was literally served to me on a silver platter. She was pretty good looking tbqh, had the biggest boobs in my class from what I've seen from the other girls. I should have just went for it, worst case scenario I would have ended up like you but at least tried (no offense robot bro)
>>24552100
Back in grade 2, I was eating yogurt and i sneezed
the yogurt splattered into a chicks face. She slapped me
>>24555507
I dont mean this in any offensive way, but, how do you fear rejection if she asked you out herself?
>>24552767
>tfw D&D was probably the most social thing I've done in a long fucking time and my group were really interesting people with 1 qt gril
>tfw my group has since disbanded because everyone either moved out of state or just had a fucked up work schedule where we can't meet
>>24553415
>What if I wasn't a fucking disgusting drunkard who ruins everything?
I'm pretty sure the fact that we remember these events stems from the fact that we have shame about something else deeper and more permeating. Our brains just remember them so clearly and feed them to us often to remind us we're shameful, because we believe, to our cores, that we're shameful, disgusting creatures.
>>24555561
I probably shouldn't have included rejection, but it was mostly my fear of failure I guess. Honestly I have a hard time understanding my past self a lot.
I guess I was mostly afraid of fucking everything up and spilling spaghetti everywhere. I was practically walking insecurity back then. Not that I'm not insecure now but back then it was really bad.
>>24555042
I went to an all-guys private school senpai
>>24552711
D&D is only bad if you play with shitlords
>>24554896
>tfw you wonder every night why he hated you
>>24552100
>tfw my head has started to twitch whenever I remember a cringeworthy moment
its only going downhill from here lads
Not me, but when I was abroad one of the girls in my group had a hilariously cringey story:
>teaching abroad in another country
>family video calls her on holiday
>it's all of her family, first and second cousins and everything
>she picks up the video call from her phone, not thinking her camera is on because she can't see herself
>she was sitting on the toilet when they call
>she sets the phone on the floor to wipe
>family sees everything
>and i mean everything
>family is shocked, "OH WOW ALISHA...WE CAN SEE YOU ARE BUSY NOW!"
>she doesn't hear from them for like two weeks
>>24555414
>>24555264
>finding those old forum posts (you know the ones)
>>24552100
>be me, 16
>be at family friend gathering at a pool
>younger sister of friend 11, loves to play with me and bother me whenever she can
>it was actually quite annoying
>anyways, be sitting on a lawn chair reading a book like an autist while everyone else is having fun
>thought I was cooler and more sophisticated like the edgy kid I was
>friends sister suddenly jumps up from behind and grabs at my book
>me, being a skinny weakling at the time, loses the book in the struggle
>"haha Anon, come get your book back, NERD!!"
>ohyoudoneitnow.jpg
>chase her past the grown ups and into the lawn out back away from everyone else
>at this point I'm legit annoyed, so I angrily tackle her causing us both to roll into the green
>she's still persistently holding the book
>while grabbing at my book, my face lands on her chest
>I don't notice and keep struggling like an autist
>after a few secs, her grip on the book grows weak and her breathing is irregular
>I think, 'whatever' and yank the book out of her hands and push her off
>stand up triumphantly and look at her
>her face is flushed red and she's still breathing weird while grabbing at her proto-tits
>sudden realization hits me, and I feel cold and nasty
>quickly leave and go back to the pool
I always cringe whenever I remember this. Literally ruined my first sexual encounter for me, as it reminded of this event.
I just remembered this one 5 minutes ago after some Normiebook stalking (I pretend to be a local restauarant to add people).
>18
>kissless virgin
>first (and only) job
>surprisingly popular. 5 good friends. 3 good friends who are girls, hang out after work, hang at their houses.
>work Christmas party
>wear like almost a full suit like some autist knob
>look like a waiter
>Rachel, one of my friends, says 'wow...you're so cute'
>never received compliment so I thought she was being sarcastic or pitied me
>"y-yeah"
>go to club after work party. Rachel is there with maybe 10 other people from work
>literal torture. don't dance, can't talk due to noise, want to cry
>sit at table with equally autist male coworker
>Rachel comes over and sits beside him
>she reaches across him and starts playing with my hair
>shouts "I love your hair tonight. It's so different"
>"Y-yeah I used gel"
>"You're so cute"
>workmate says "wow, I think you need to sit here"
>he gets up and she slides beside me
>keeps playing with my hair and calling me cute
>kisses me on the cheek while tussling my hair
>first ever cheek kiss
And then I did nothing. And she left. And we stayed friends. Until she left work after becoming a teacher. I left soon after to become NEET for the next 6 years and lose all contact with friends.
I saw today that she's engaged and remembered this encounter so clearly.
It's torturing me. There's no way she didn't want me to make a move, right? I just felt so disgusting that I thought she was being nice to me. She was way out of my league, like a legitimately hot girl. She still is. It's crazy...I wonder how much different my life would have turned out if I'd just done something.
Please tell me I'm misreading the signals and she was just being nice to me.
>go on a fucking loli/shota forum
>be some 13 year old faggot
>pretend to be some 25 year old man from Japan
>get close to one of the admins on the site
>become his bf under the impression I was this person
>I was literally in middle school at the time mind you
>have to keep track of this persona and back story
>eventually just think this shit has gone on too far and just literally stop logging onto that MSN account and forum
>tfw I seriously just dug this out of the deepest part of my consciousness right now
>tfw feel like total shit and wonder why ever happened to that guy and if he thought I killed myself or something
I'm so fucked up. I also once did a similar thing to this one guy pretending I was some Japanese lesbian and it fucking spawned into 3 other personas talking to the same person all spanning across this one persona.
God damn this is gonna keep me up tonight. Thank god I went to the liquor store today.
>>24555859
Like my japanese aninemes
>>24555792
>Go NG forums
>view profile
>go in view posts
> first ever post
> "go suck your granddads saggy ballz wanker! >=)
>mfw
>add 7/10 girl from school to MSN
>poorly hit on her during summer break a few times
>she says she'll see me at school the last day of break to be nice or to get me to fuck off
>think this means I have a chance
>next day I see her and call her name
>she ignores me
>think she just didn't hear me
>call again
>repeat two more times before my dumbass gets it
>>24552100
What the hell is this problem even called? I remember some stupid shit from 20+ years ago pretty often, and it makes me wince to this day. Is this just autism, ass burgers, or what? I haven't been diagnosed with anything, but this shit is getting old.
>>24555933
post rare flavor-towns!
>>24552100
get into fight with good friend in portugal
caught masturbating in friends bed
drunk at funeral
etc
>12-14 years old probably
>fixed seats, sit next to cute girl in school
>she keeps making remarks about how she likes sitting next to me
>even writes shit like this in my books when i'm not looking
>eventually, while playing truth or dare with the class on a trip, she admits she likes me the most
>say i don't like her
>i did like her
why
>>24555896
i believe she wanted to be your gf.
>>24552777
It's okay anon. She wouldn't even recognize you if she saw you today.
>>24553067
literally nobody remembers this besides you. seriously. not even noteworthy, definitely worth getting over
>Be 11 or 12
>Be visiting cousins
>Watching that fucking Martin Lawrence movie where he time travels to medieval times and he teaches Henry VII to get jiggy with it or some shit
>Cut to that scene they give him his white wimmin
>He finds out she's not a virgin
>Everybody laughs
>Everybody gets the joke
>I don't
>Suddenly exclaim
>Oh, i get it!
>she fucked her dad right?!
>They all stop laughing and look at me like WTF
Shit
MFW
>>24556313
o-ok fampai
>>24556212
I feared that was the case.
I literally sat there like a statue while she pawed me and kissed my cheek. Terrible. She was perfect too. A real QT...looks and personality.
>>24556159
>say i don't like her
>i did like her
why am I laughing
>>24552100
> in sex ed in like 6th grade
> ask what erection is
> teacher explains
> I say "oh okay because I get those a lot"
i just realized how fucking stupid i am
i lied to my parents telling them i had to work on thanksgiving
i just stayed in my apartment all day on drugs
nobody works on thanksgiving
>>24556743
that's not actually true. a bunch of jews keep stores open on thanksgiving because people are willing to pay more when everything is closed
>>24555896
I remembered something else about this.
> two years ago sign up real normiebook account
>profile picture was seriously that Christmas party from 4 years earlier because I pretty much haven't been outside with people since then
>add Rachel and the other people from work
>think she won't care
>she messages me that night
>talk for hours about life
>hers is real! mine is fictional
>pretend that I'm at college
>she's teaching in Barcelona
>"oh cool I'm going to Barcelona next month"
>not even planning on going to corner shop anytime in the next month
>"OMG we have to meet up. You can stay with me if you want"
>delete profile
>delete normiebook app
Why do I sabotage myself?
I
>tfw you randomly remember that moment where you tried explaining to your church group that native americans were just prehistoric Russians who crossed over to north america during the ice age
>all those times you pushed perfectly good people away for no reason other than to drown in your own company because you never feel like you belong
>call centre job that parents forced me to get
>everyone the same age so pretty cool atmosphere
>girl asks me to come watch a movie at her place
>"it's cool that you don't see me as a physical threat"
>>24556799
lel, thanks for the laugh m8ey
>>24556853
>christians are so ignorant look at me im so smart i read an article on reddit neil degrasse black spaceman is my savior
thats what you sound like
>>24554896
If there is a guy who hates me i don't give a shit but if he tries something I just beat him/her up
>tfw I was too mentally weak to do it in the past
>>24556916
>those times you pushed perfectly good people away because you don't deserve their company, their friendship, their affection, or anything else another human being could offer
It's better to be alone than make everyone around you depressed with your presence.
The fact that there are girls who exist that I have sent cringey embarrassing autistic shit to back in my young and dumb days.
>>24556159
iktf, one time I was on campus between classes and someone offered me a free sandwich and I said I didn't want one. After they left I just sort of stood there thinking why the fuck did I say no, was hungry for the next two hours too.
>girl and I both liked each other in middle school(or maybe she was just being nice to me because she felt bad)
>day before christmas vacation
>everyone brings in the usual christmas cards and candy canes to pass out to one another
>because I like this girl, I figure I'll get her something special
>find some shitty sunglasses in my sister's room
>probably some garbage dollar store glasses, but stupid younger me thinks they look like LV glasses or something and this girl will think I spent a lot on them
>one of the screws in the hinges is loose
>grab big pair of rust pliers to tighten it with
>in tightening it, I scratched the lens and messed up the screw a bit
>young me thinks nothing of it and still decides to give them to her
>day comes to give it to her, and I still need to wrap it
>find small Victoria's Secret shopping bag from sister and throw the glasses in that
>find white tissue paper and put that on top
>see my mom's small rose plant and think it's a good idea to snip a couple rose buds off and put them in the bag
>brought it to school like that, keeping it hidden so I could surprise her
>wait for her to leave the area of her desk so I can sneak it over there for her to find
>when I get back to my desk, my present from her is waiting there for me
>$25 gift card to local music/movie/comic shop and a plush Stan from South Park
>instantly feel like a fucking idiot for giving her those stupid ass glasses
>she comes over and thanks me, being really nice about it saying she loves them, and gives me a hug
>her and all the other girls probably had a good laugh at it
>the thought of it to this day makes me want to hang myself
I know some people say they will utter something out loud at times when they get these thoughts, like say "fuck" etc, but does anyone ever jolt their body, like a flinch when it happens?
Sometimes I'll be laying in bed at night and I'll be looking like I just got hit by some electricity.
>>24559390
My jaw involuntarily opens when I remember this shit.
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