What are you Iistening to right now. /r9k/?
Also, how are you holding up?
>>24536997
>Not the greatest OP.
I was so successful for a little while but I flew too close to the sun and my life crashed and burned. Now I have nothing. I don't even know why I wake up in the morning. What about u senpai?
>>24536997
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=D9kj2lOwyss
Hardly hanging in there as usual. How about you?
05 It Is What It Is.wav
>>24536997
Avichi - Sermon on the Mount, the album's pretty dank overall.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZN0guDIH4S4 first song
Been drinking again, like I do multiple times a week. Appointment to see a social worker in an hour and I have to start walking there in about 25 minutes. Really do not see the point but I have to go. She doesn't like that I drink so much so I hope I don't smell like booze too strongly since I'm drunk.
https://youtu.be/e-efCiEcovY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B4VIQMGbZRY is currently playing on random shuffle.
Life is currently hazy. Otherwise, same as usual.
>>24536997
www.youtube.com/watch?v=cl6Agz6Eizk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lfnt538cDSI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C91aKk5ryzI
>tfw nothing you say will get her to take you back
>>24537068
I died a long time ago.
My body is still going for now.
>>24536997
Not very well OP. Shit just keeps on piling up and up. Im about to give up.
Also Song : How to Disappear Completely- Radiohead
>>24537139
Please kill yourself in a timely fashion.
I fucking hate your ugly stupid smelly ass.
>>24536997
moon man = the notorious kkk
>>24536997
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=58IlBsodKEk going to try and get my girl back Friday. Wish me luck, because the probability of me crashing and burning is at least 70% and I don't know what I'm going to do afterwards.
https://youtu.be/l3NoYyNKSXQ?t=15m48s
>>24537163
How did it end up that way OP? How old are you?
>>24536997
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IYAWtJXU1To
been listening to this a lot lately.
I'm doing well I guess OP.
Also i'm listening to Theatres Des Vampires songs
Been listening to some Lil Herb lately.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Be6i3ZncUhE
Feeling pretty good today, went out with friends earlier this week. High chance of gf in the future. We're all going to make it, bros.
>>24537103
I'm really digging this song man. I really get it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B70XcwszH4c
feels sad man
>>24537275
28.
I haven't had any meaningful human relationships in years. I went all 4 years of college without making any friends, but I still had hope that things could change once I graduated. Nothing did. About 2 years after I just fell apart and it's been years social and mental decay ever since. No joy or passion for anything. The only meaningful connection I ever made was with my dog and she passed away a couple of years ago.
I merely just exist now. There's nothing good in the future. Just aging and death.
This is probably one of the worst songs that I've ever heard. But that's what I like about it. It reminds me of the better times when I was younger and my little brother and I would camp out upstairs sleeping in the huge 50'' CRT TV box that came with the televison.
We would scream around and sing along to the games we were playing, making up crappy rhymed lyrics to the tune of the chiptunes.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OXQNU_Xsz6U
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0RU49Ujys3c
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YkWLz1FMThg
I'm taking pills desu senpai
>>24537417
>w...w...we can be friends anon.
I never got to go to college. I haven't got any friends either. I used to have a great job where I was making buckets of money, had a girlfriend, was well respected in the office. Then bipolar mania got the better of me. I ended up spending a week in the hospital against my will and lost my job.My bank account hit zero about a year ago. All I have left is a cell phone and a pistol. Been thinking about ending my life daily for the past few months. I have no friends and I hate pretty much everyone I meet. Hell, I was motivated to get my shit back together for a little while for only ONE reason. Literally was only waking up because I MIGHT get to play a fucking video game. Now though I know how fucking pointless it is.
It's a little fedora tier, I kno but hot damn that brass tho
https://youtu.be/FefLFnjqm_0
>>24537559
That's rough.
I would be your friend
>>24537642
It just sucks falling so far. It's all because stress went to my head and my fragile psyche couldn't handle it. I was working for days on end at a really stressful job(telecommunications, doing a merger for two major finance companies). Then my brother went missing and my mom lost her fucking mind and was emotionally dumping on me daily. On top of stress with work I just couldn't handle it. Collapsed like a house of cards because I wasn't strong enough to bear the weight of everything around me.
I'm listening to my brother snore. He had a rough night. He seemingly can't handle even normal amounts of alcohol anymore.
I don't feel emotions anymore, I got some really bad news yesterday and I just forgot about it instantly
>>24536997
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2a31vY8YNTg
This OP.
>>24537757
>Then my brother went missing and my mom lost her fucking mind and was emotionally dumping on me daily. On top of stress with work I just couldn't handle it
I can relate. Living at home with a mother or dysfunctional parents into your early 20's and working a full time job WILL drive you insane.
I think it played a role in my demise as well.
>>24536997
I'm fine.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tti1lrmP44M
I truly want to end it but i'm too much of a bitch and afraid to fuck it up somehow.
Why can't we have guns like muricans? That'd make things much easier.
>>24537876
Wow you too? Yeah I think not having a strong circle of real life friends to see you through business, that social isolation, thats what really kills you in the end. All that stress has nowhere to go to. We only get so much bandwith, some more than others. People get by sharing the load. Modern living has made us so isolated that it's hard to find someone to help carry the weight.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MmgV6vN0Evs
not good, bad thoughts
>>24537970
Unfortunately, yes. Parents went through a bad divorce when I was 16, lived with my mother for a year before she kicked me out. Moved in with Father, then a few years later they got back together for reasons I cannot comprehend and it seemed like everyday it was nothing but petty arguing and bullshit, mainly my mother treating my father like crap. Every day. It drove me insane. I eventually snapped and quit my first job and attempted to move to a larger city with better paying jobs, but that turned out to be a failed disaster.
> We only get so much bandwith, some more than others. People get by sharing the load. Modern living has made us so isolated that it's hard to find someone to help carry the weight.
I completely agree. Otherwise you're just left with yourself inside your already unstable mind.
>>24536997
Mad world
I'm doing OK. The girl I like invited me to come to her grandparents house with her fiancee for thanks giving and now I'm regretting coming
>>24536997
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7l_ILl51pTM
I'm really feeling right now.
>>24538186
Hey anon, I really enjoyed your song. Here's what I'm listening to currently, hope you'll relate to it in someway.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yGqRIdWfdE8Hang in there anon.
my numb song
makes me want to die
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aFUzvbkEvRk
>>24538441
Not the same anon but fucking hell is that a good song. Thanks, hope you like this one I've been listening to. Its just chill hip hop.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nSY121jc6Cg
My mom has remarried twice. Real dad has severe brain damage, incapable of being a father. First stepdad is a narcissicistic coke head who beat my mom when I was a kid. Second stepdad is an alcoholic who beat me when I was a teenager. Nearly killed him twice when he pushed me too far. Younger brother does lots of drugs, general thuggish asshole, always causes problems in the household. I had my own apartment for 2 years when I moved out, was doing really well. I've always been a master of bullshit. Conned my way into a tech job with a massive company(somehow actually learned on the job and worked my ass off, did really well.) Then my mom started randomly visiting me, trying to get back into my life. I've been on my own since day 1 pretty much.
>>24538100
You should check out the unibomber manifesto, he gives a lot of reasons why this social diaspora has become so pervasive.
LIL UGLY MANE - PERSISTANCE
living each day like a fucking fading memory . I find No purpose when our live remains temporary.
>>24536997
Mayday Parade - Miserable At Best
>This song is a heavy feel train
https://youtu.be/ep6umYu-Dqw
One of my favorite songs.
I'm living life day by day, hanging there in for now
I don't like being a shut-in anymore, but I haven't for ages. I hate being alone all the time, everyone's got someone, except me.
GOOD EYE, SNIPER
HERE - I SHOOT, YOU RUN
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tkpE9MEYz_g
fucking christ I'm crying right now. drank a couple beers, got in a shit mood, too sad to even smoke weed right now
one of my friends broke down last weekend. told me about how he played Russian Roulette every friday for two months straight. fucking pulled his revolver out and tried it right after telling me. he started crying again after I tackled him and took it from him. "see, dont you fucking see, how much I want to die man, and it just won't let me, I can't die, I've tried so hard... honestly man i would've just jumped off a bridge if killing myself wouldn't make you so sad"
i couldn't even speak or cry or hug him. his revolver cold in my pocket, we just slump down in our seats and let hulu keep playing some stupid bullshit.
I still have it. he hasn't asked for it back.
fuck
>>24538680
>One of my friends
Gtfo normie we don't give a shit.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IYGaXzJGVAQ
ive been listening to this on repeat
trying to remember to be conscious of people around me
A simulated fire.
By that, I mean no music, but I hear the heat fan of a "Media Fireplace" and see its pretty lights.
so pretty
so warm
Classic Emo shit
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NyNM0E5HMqw
Lifes going okay. I got my career going and I'm just going through the motions as best i can without tipping over to depression. My friends are talking about marriage and all that shit and it stings every time i hear them talk about it. I feel like fading away sometimes and just stop existing but too fucking bad i exist and some sort of drive is keeping me from snapping cracking under the pressure and making me do something stupid.
I know getting a gf wont solve all of my problems but just want someone to stand by me and will help eachother through life together.
I probably don't deserve her anyways.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7uEBuqkkQRk
F E E L S
>>24537107
Electronic Dabke > trap
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lVlgMEFu1PI
Gorillaz' Demon Days album
Not going so well. I feel really depressed but I manage.
>>24536997
i'm listening to classical music from a local uni radio station
http://www.waus.org/article/3/listen-live
Klaus Schulze Irrlicht
this is some cosmic shit
Im holding pretty good to be honest, im learning to dont care about anything
It's freezing in this house and it's 6 AM and I have diarrhea. Every time I try to go back to sleep it's too cold and then I won't up back on the toilet except I've run out of fecal matter to defecate. Good start to Thanksgiving.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FpKU3bIjVN4
My comfy life is crumbling day by day, but it's okay I guess. It's Thanksgiving so I'm not going to worry about anything today.
>>24536997
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=riHzDAdBL2g
>The sea is a cruel mistress for a feller like me but only the brave and the free can scour the crimson sea. Got shitfaced on rum and wine in an art gallery. Put me in an amazing mood but now I want to become a pirate.
Andrew Bird. He's gotten me through some rough shit. Rough shit I won't get into.
Uffff..
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oecHq2neweA
>Listening
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BdKAqAofDP0
>How are you holding up
Pure concentrated autism incoming
I have nothing left to hold up. There is not a single drop of optimism left in my being. All I feel anymore is emptiness. Nothing left in me but a barren wasteland. The person who lived here and gave this corpse life left the building years ago, all that's left is cold empty space times infinity in every direction. At the heart of it all is this diseased broken brain. All it knows is eat shit and piss, another day another day another day. Don't give up, it says, clearly it's gone insane. It's a primal nuclear bunker locked down tight in a war long lost. The car's on fire and there's no driver at the wheel. No choices left to make but one, but this body won't give the fuck up and die. What's the fucking point, these helpless processes. Cowards. Every last bit of the human that's left, the fuel that fires the engines of failure, it's holding on to something. There is no miracle capable of saving this person, so what exactly is it? Some fucking special plan the universe saving for me I dunno about? Every single second I've spent on this earth and have yet to spend has not surpassed that of mere garbage. I'm sitting here buried alive in my coffin 6 feet under the earth watching worms wiggle in and out of my eyes. Hello worm, I'm dead. How am I doing? Education? Work? Love? Family? Shit fuck piss cum kill eat fuck. That's all that's left of me, worm. That and sleep if I get any. I want you to put a bullet in my brain. Complete me, make me your five star worm hotel, finally something to be proud of. WHY THEY PUT THE DICK IN THE PUSSY?
Memes. It's all memes.
Golly, I'm a fucking retard.
Listening: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v6rfv5Pb6R4
Feelin:
Pretty good, just ordered some stuff on ebay.
listening to this
https://vimeo.com/143539372
sry bout the vimeo
also nujabes
feeling pretty decent to be honnest
Andy Weir's The Martian Audiobook
Kit (what's the scoop) - Slick Rick
Procrastinating, instead of studying, little bit too warm in the library today.
>>24537186
My favourite song.
You're a beautiful person if you're listening to it.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=T3HaSphAjzo
Listening to this while on a bus coming home after dropping out of uni for a year
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mdu3EU6sbng
Not well.
>>24536997
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EPAPMJ-tCig this came on pandora, it grew on me desu
i'm slowly getting my life back on track, i'm a little short on money to completely fix my car. i have exams next week and i didn't study for shit or even attended classes.
good luck, everybody.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vG00NKmIDno
