>be me
>started to rise and shine again this september
> everything is going well, swim 4 km twice a week, grades are very well, pass all the nerds.
>go school, attend every class, on your break do homework.
>one girl says she likes you but refuse it because she is an ex of a friend.
>weekend go swimming then do homework
>for no reason have a very deep suicidal thoughts again
I can't understand what's the problem when I work harder I feel more happy but also I become extremly suicidal. This is the second time. What should I do?
its our path in life to feel this way
no matter what though, never give in.
Maybe you should try talking to someone, Anon. You still seem high functioning, and maybe a couple sessions with a therapist can take that weight off your mind.
>>24519139
Op here. Do you have any therapist experience? I just went to psychiatrist one time and jerk gave me paxil. I experienced panic attack 3 times on the first day so I gave up on pill or any outside help.
bump need a help, really.
>>24519030
Sure, you're working hard and you're an academic success, but do you find what you're doing fufilling? Is there a goal in mind you want to achieve? If not, you might feel suicidal because you feel the effort you're putting in is fruitless.
>>24519030
>I can't understand what's the problem when I work harder I feel more happy but also I become extremly suicidal. This is the second time. What should I do?
These thoughts are symptoms of an illness in your brain, recognize them as such and ignore them
