Why haven't you ended your sufferings yet?
afraid of eternal oblivion
>>24504991
Too comfy to kill myself desu senpai.
i'm not even suffering anymore
i'm subtly butthurt at about everything in existence
Might get a gf tomorrow. Who knows
>>24504991
Not suffering enough just yet.
>>24505045
>eternal
If it was eternal you wouldnt be here now kid, imagine getting out of a car and into another one, thats death.
>>24504991
because suffering is just another flavour of emotion of the human experience that makes things like joy & happiness even more enjoyable.
>>24505793
Wat even.
Death is forever senpai
Dad died last winter, mom wouldn't take another death in the family
I decided to take the chance and try out this counseling/psychiatrist thing first. If it doesn't work then I'm outta here
Because the boatride just ended and now it looks like Berserk might actually end in my lifetime.
>>24505816
>>24505045
maybe, maybe not.
even if it is, you can't experience concepts like time & eternity on account of you being dead.
i must first remove kebab
>>24505851
Doesn't change the fact that I'm afraid right now anon.
>>24504991
My plan is to try my damndest to achieve my goals in life. If I am nowhere close by 30 years old. I will blow my brains out at a fully occupied restaurant on Valentine's day to traumatize all of the happy couples.
>>24505820
Fuck
I couldn't do it to my mother either
>>24504991
I am too much of a bitch to actually drop the hammer.
>>24504991
SO MUCH TO DO
SO MUCH TO SEE
SO WHAT'S WRONG WITH TAKING THE BACK STREETS
>Parents forcing me to go to some Thanksgiving get together for the one week I get off from uni
>Currently spitballing ideas to get out of it
>Legitimately considering suicide as an option because I don't want to deal with the constant questions like "What have you been up to? How is school?", etc.
So far the only options I see are touching my throat to throw up and pretend like I am sick, or literally kill myself.
>tfw this subconscious form of self sabotage
>most things i do either dont benefit me or hurt me directly
>when i honestly think about this, i'm constantly doing it no matter what i may think
>hoping that eventually it'll get so horrible that i'll have no choice but to do it
what do i do
>>24504991
haha holy shit. I was just in the shower considering suicide. Decided to just do it, no more thinking, and now I can't stop laughing and smiling. Currently riding the high while getting things prepared. Best I've felt in years.
Almost got distracted. Thanks for refocusing me OP! May awesome things happen to you. Seriously!
I probably have cancer, and now it's the best moment to get it because I have nothing to look forward in the future
>>24504991
im no-lifing the new PVP version of Runescape. thatd be a waste of xp desu lad
>>24506169
faggot xp waster, stop posting on r9k and get grinding
i'm tired as fuck, on my third day without sleep but cant go downstairs to get my caffeine pills or soda, that'd be a fuckin waste
grinding while typing this, to be honest
>>24506169
i can still type :( i am grinding. last 106 hours iv spent 66 of them grinding. I didn't realize Darkscape existed but since i found out iv been constantly playing.
>>24506004
"i'm sick" is the worst,shittiest excuse for those occasions
and it'd really be the pettiest excuse for suicide
make up proper lies not bullshit lies you used not to go to school when you were 12
>mom this girl i have a crush on invited me to thanksgiving please please please let me go it's my one chance to finally get a gf !
>i made new friends at uni and they invited me to spend thanksgiving with them in their beach resort please let me go i finally have a social life
>my best friend (you have one at least right ?) is inviting me to this great event in that great place blah blah blah
you see the line of thinking ? this will work much better
it might be too late though now that they already know you don't want to go
i don't have to deal with this anymore but if i were you i'd just go though,later you find out family meetings are bad but probably the least awful social gatherings there are
